Scumbag, wait for me!

Chapter 11

When he got off the bus, Chen Fan's expression was normal, but his words were less.

Meng Xin has always been very nervous, and he is used to maintaining a relaxed and happy atmosphere when getting along with others. For him, conflicts with slight emotional ups and downs are completely super-standard exam questions. It has always been used by Meng Xin to respond to all changes with the same.

The stairs were narrow and dark. Chen Fan entered the corridor and stomped his feet twice. The lights on the first floor and the second floor were not turned on. Chen Fan said: "You have too many things, I will help you carry the boxes, and you take photos with your mobile phone in front of you." on."

Just as he was about to reach out, Meng Xin held him down and said, "Shen, I'll do it myself."

Meng Xin took off his backpack and handed it to Chen Fan, saying, "You are in front, go up and open the door first."

Chen Fan didn't shirk, picked up Meng Xin's bag, put his own bag in his hand, took out his mobile phone, turned on the flashlight and walked ahead, walked a few steps and then looked back at Meng Xin.

The corridor was dark and quiet, only the sound of two people's footsteps remained in the air, mixed with the sound of boxes hitting the ground, it was extraordinarily empty.

Holding the suitcase, Meng Xin held her breath. Just as she got to the second floor, she heard Chen Fan ask, "How many days are you going to stay this time?"

He didn't answer right away, and went up a few more steps before saying, "Let's do it in a week, and we'll see the situation after a week."

"Your job……"

Meng Xin answered, "I asked for a few days off, and if I add it together with the rest of the annual leave, there is no problem."

"Um……"

The two unlocked the door and entered.

As soon as Meng Xin put down the suitcase, he walked to the kitchen habitually. He opened the refrigerator and took a can of Coke. Once he opened the can, he poured it with his head up.Although Meng Xin works out, she also loves desserts, pizza, burgers, and soda.

Chen Fan didn't have the habit of eating out, but after finding out Meng Xin's preferences, he would try his best to take care of him, especially every time Meng Xin came, Chen Fan would habitually put some canned soda in the refrigerator.

Meng Xin drank half of the bottle in one gulp, took out another can, went to the living room and handed it to Chen Fan.

Chen Fan took the drink without opening it, put it on the tea table, and said, "Do you want to take a bath, and I'll heat the water for you?"

"I'll go later." Meng Xin leaned on the sofa, stretched her waist, rubbed her stomach and said, "I want to eat instant noodles, can you cook a pack for me?"

"Instant noodles?" Chen Fan was surprised. Meng Xin never had the habit of eating late at night, and dinner was usually settled before six o'clock.

"Yeah! Just the time you cooked it for yourself, as you mentioned, the kind with sesame oil and eggs?"

"Oh..." Chen Fan just remembered that one time after working out with Meng Xin, he was so hungry that he couldn't bear it. He kept talking about going home to eat instant noodles with sesame oil and eggs, but Meng Xin scolded him all the way, saying that he was obsessed with garbage preservation agent.

In fact, Meng Xin is the one who can have the whole hamburger set meal at night when he is happy and in high spirits. When it comes to himself, he just keeps nagging, with an adult tone, it is simply a large-scale double-standard scene.

At this moment, Chen Fan recalled how Meng Xin criticized him for being plausible, boiled water, and deliberately asked, "Did you just want to eat it last time? Otherwise, why did you remember it for so long..."

The color on Meng Xin's face suddenly became a little ugly, and he said, "Didn't you keep boasting that you are a Chinese master, and you also said that you would make me braised pork ribs and curry chicken nuggets, and all I want now is this pack of instant noodles."

Chen Fan put the noodles in, turned off the fire and poured poached eggs, turned around and said, "Okay, okay, I'll wait for you..." He suddenly paused while speaking.

Meng Xin raised his eyes to look at Chen Fan, and their eyes met. Chen Fan avoided Meng Xin's gaze, stirred the pot twice with his chopsticks, and continued in a low voice, "When you come back, I invite you to have a look." Don, you buy the materials."

He took out the bowl, put salt, soy sauce, and a little pepper, scooped a small spoonful of noodle soup to smear the seasoning first, put the noodles in the bowl, lighted sesame oil, dark soy sauce, and finally sprinkled some A small handful of crushed coriander, with its aroma scattered, was wandering in the small kitchen. Chen Fan mixed it with chopsticks and said, "It's all right."

Meng Xin smelled it, and praised: "The level is good!" He was about to stretch out his hand to face it.

The two passed by, Chen Fan grabbed his wrist and said, "Meng Xin, can I ask you a question?" He looked firmly at the person in front of him without moving.

Meng Xin turned his face slightly and said, "Chen Fan, don't do this."

Chen Fan clenched the hand by his side tightly, and said, "Tell me, why...why can't I?"

Meng Xin sighed and said, "Chen Fan, love is not a [-]-meter race, there must be a first place, do you understand what I mean?"

"I just want an answer."

"There is no answer!" Meng Xin's voice grew louder, breaking the last trace of tranquility in the night.

Chen Fan stepped forward and grabbed Meng Xin by the collar. The huge thrust made him lean against the narrow wall, and the two of them were extremely close.

He was extremely powerful. Meng Xin had never seen Chen Fan like this before. There seemed to be some kind of huge power hidden in this man's eyes, which could swallow him up at any time. Even his tone was aggressive and domineering, saying: "You really...really never liked me, not at all?"

"I..." Meng Xin hesitated, but did not speak.

"Meng Xin, you look into my eyes and tell me that you have never liked me. I beg you, reject me once and let me give up. Then from today to every day in the future, I will not love you." Will... I won't..."

"Won't you come to me again? Chen Fan, are you trying to say... we can't even be friends?" Speaking of this, Meng Xin's eyes were covered with a layer of light, faintly visible.

"You can't bear it, right?" Chen Fan said as if grabbing the last straw, "Meng Xin, have you ever liked me, even if it's just for a moment, just for a moment! , we...we..."

Meng Xin raised his hand to shake Chen Fan's hand, and Chen Fan's hand gradually loosened and let go.

Meng Xin said: "I can't tell you frankly that I never liked you, but... I know, you know, this kind of relationship is not love, to me, it's more like family relationship, I like to stay with you together."

"Then we'll be together, isn't it good to be together forever?" Chen Fan grabbed Meng Xin's arm and asked.

Hearing Chen Fan's words, Meng Xin's hands suddenly trembled, the corners of his mouth rose, and he smiled wryly, and said, "Do you know how far forever is? Compared with reality, promises are the most ironic thing. Chen Fan, Life will face countless forks and choices, at this fork, I have already made my choice, haven't I?"

"Have you finished choosing?" Chen Fan whispered, slowly let go of his hand, sneered, and said, "Yes, you have already chosen."

Chen Fan took a step back and said, "I understand..." When he turned around, he suddenly felt that all the strength in his body had been removed, and his whole body was limp as if he was stepping on cotton.

Meng Xin grabbed his wrist, stopped him and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry, Chen Fan, at your age, many things have just begun, don't... don't waste time on me, there must be someone waiting for you to find him , and then be with you, that is your life and forever."

Chen Fan lowered his head, let the tears swirl in his eyes, slowly blurred his vision, and said, "But, I like you! Brother, I just want to be with you."

His last words carried all the remaining strength and the courage to put all his eggs in one basket for love. However, the lonely courage who does not seek results is bound to be smashed to the ground. Chen Fan knows how hard the words he said today hit the ground. In the future, whenever I think about it, I will definitely be hurt by these words!

But even so, he still wants to take a gamble. He has chosen to show his hole card and there is no way out, even if it is a humble begging, I just ask you to love me once...

love me once?What's wrong……

Obviously we met first, obviously you are by my side, obviously all are real experiences, why...why can't I?

After a while, Meng Xin finally let go of Chen Fan and said, "Chen Fan, this is not what I want, you...be stronger."

"Meng Xin, since this is the case, you should be cruel to me! Say, you have never liked me or loved me? Not at all."

Their eyes met, and neither of them spoke.

Meng Xin sticks to a bottom line that he can see but others can't, and never dares to step on it.

Chen Fan is used to indifference, and dare not have any expectations for the world. He likes to draw a bottom line by himself, forcing others to step on it and hurt himself. Only when it hurts can he learn to let go.

"Say it!" Chen Fan yelled out all his dissatisfaction.

In the end, Meng Xin turned his head away and said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry..."

Meng Xin knew that he was full of cowardice and hypocritical kindness in his bones, which made him unable to say anything that hurt Chen Fan calmly.

Chen Fan gritted his teeth and said, "Brother, can you hug me? One last time."

Meng Xin stretched out his arms and hugged Chen Fan in his arms, his chest was broad and powerful.Chen Fan buried his face on Meng Xin's collarbone, and said sullenly, "Do you want me to bless you?"

Meng Xin's gentle voice sounded, but there was a faint alienation in the words, and said: "Promises are useless, and blessings are the same. The most important thing is that you work hard to be yourself."

Chen Fan closed his eyes and silently promised in his heart: This is the last time, relying on Meng Xin like this, from now on, he must seriously learn to give up his feelings for him, we are just friends... just friends...

The next moment, he quickly pushed Meng Xin away, rubbed the back of his hand on his face and said, "The noodles are cold, I'll make you another bowl."

Meng Xin quickly snatched the bowl into his arms, took a bite with his chopsticks, and said with an embarrassed smile, "No need, don't waste it, the weather is so hot, I'll eat it as cold noodles..."

"But……"

Chen Fan still wanted to distinguish something, but was interrupted by Meng Xin, who was walking out of the kitchen, holding a bowl of noodles, and said, "It's really delicious, Chen Fan, your skill is amazing. !" He sat on the sofa, threw the empty bowl on the tea table, and said intentionally, "Can I have your sweet and sour pork ribs when I come back?"

Chen Fan picked up the cup, pretended to take a sip of water and said, "I have time... I will make it for you when I have time."

Meng Xin looked up and saw Crayon Shin-chan in the corner of the sofa, and said, "Why are you blindfolding him?" He walked over, lifted the straw hat up, and said, "It's just these small eyes that convey the spirit!"

Chen Fan put down the cup casually, and said, "Don't give me dolls again from now on? It's getting late, go to sleep." After he finished speaking, he went to the bedroom.

Meng Xin hurried to catch up and said, "Why? Don't you like it?"

Chen Fan stopped and asked Meng Xin in surprise, "How do you know I like it?"

"Every time you pass by a doll shop, your eyes are straight. The bigger your body, the brighter your eyes..."

"That's because..." Chen Fan blushed, trying to distinguish something.

Meng Xin leaned over, elbowed Chen Fan and said, "Boy, it's not shameful to like dolls. I like dolls too. But I only like bears and figurines. You don't have to worry about it..."

Chen Fan entered the bedroom and lifted the quilt, lay down on the bed and said, "Brother! Can you not..."

Can you stop being nice to me——

Meng Xin thought he was still annoyed, so he hurriedly said, "I won't mention it in the future, just send it off quietly." His tone was like a big brother doting on his younger brother, and he continued, "I'm going to brush my teeth. , you sleep first..."

"Well———" Chen Fan watched Meng Xin's back disappear into the dim floor lamp... As he got farther and farther away, the feeling of reluctance became stronger, and he couldn't help calling out, "Brother—— "

Meng Xin turned his head, his expression was not clear under the backlight, and his facial features were also very blurred.

"No...it's nothing...I'm going to bed first, I'll leave the light for you..."

"Yeah—" Meng Xin finally lost all expression when she turned her head.

He walked into the bathroom and leaned against the wall, sighed heavily, then closed his clothes and sat on the toilet seat.

He raised his head, the light bulb was dazzling, and he just stared straight at it naked, and after a while he felt the corners of his eyes tingle.

When he lowered his head again, his eyes were slightly red, and he stared blankly at his hands on his knees. His fingers were already covered with calluses due to years of lifting weights for fitness.

After a while, he stood up on his knees and stared at himself in the mirror, feeling very ugly.

What else is there to be greedy for?Four years ago, it was already doomed, you can't afford love...

So... why bother to hurt others, don't take it too seriously... just for fun...