Reheat the game

Chapter 39

"I don't want to die either." Ruan Zemiao said dejectedly, "But I don't think I can last long with my IQ."

Xiang Ming: "Now you know the importance of studying hard?"

Ruan Zemiao rolled his eyes: "Whether I learn or not and whether I'm smart or not are two different things, okay?"

Xiang Ming paused, and said, "So you're saying...you don't have a wealth of knowledge or an extraordinary IQ?"

"...You better shut up." Ruan Zemiao said, "You should wake me up at this time! Let me not underestimate myself!"

Xiang Ming: "...then don't underestimate yourself."

Ruan Zemiao: "..."

The two were silent for a while again.

Xiang Ming changed his posture and put one leg on top of the other. Ruan Zemiao no longer crossed his legs but put his legs slightly bent on the bed.Taking a deep breath, Ruan Zemiao said, "The other two times, I thought I was going to die."

Xiang Ming knew that he still had something to say, so he didn't interrupt.

"Speaking of which, the last time I saw you was in the third year of high school. In the past few years...I have changed a lot, right?" Ruan Zemiao suddenly raised his head and looked at Xiang Ming.

Xiang Ming nodded honestly.

Ruan Zemiao smiled and said: "At that time, I didn't expect so many things to happen in the future. I thought I couldn't make it through, but I still have my mother. Whether it's a plummet or a death, the only thought in my heart It’s just for mom.”

When Xiang Ming saw Ruan Zemiao's lowered head, he blamed himself for a moment. If he hadn't gambled at that time, if he could have the social resources he has now...

Xiang Ming pursed his lips tightly, squinted his eyes and waited for Ruan Zemiao's next words.

"But I really felt that I was going to die and found out that it's not just my mother that I can't let go of." Ruan Zemiao's voice was low, and Xiang Ming even felt that rubbing the sheets would cover up his voice.

Ruan Zemiao: "I still have so many things I can't let go of, so many things I can't let go of, I'm worried that some bad old man will chase after my mother, and I can't remember whether the light in the bathroom is turned off...I can't let go of too much gone."

Xiang Ming lowered his eyes.

"So many things are the reasons why I can't die here."

"Is there me?"

"what?"

Ruan Zemiao raised his head and found that Xiang Ming was looking at him intently.

Xiang Ming didn't mind repeating it again for Ruan Zemiao, while staring into Ruan Zemiao's eyes, he said word by word: "Among your many reasons why you can't die here, is there even one related to me?"

Ruan Zemiao swallowed unconsciously. After a while, she chuckled and said, "It's contradictory for you to say that. I live, but you have to die. Are you asking me if there is any reason why I can't die here?" Kill you? That's all right."

As he said that, he stretched out both hands, pretending to wave them easily.

Xiang Ming didn't intend to let him go: "You know what I mean, yes or no?"

Hearing this, Ruan Zemiao put away the smile on his face, and said expressionlessly, "Xiang Ming, you are still so annoying."

Xiang Ming did not deny it.

"What do you mean now?" Ruan Zemiao laughed mockingly, "After leaving behind me who didn't know anything, come to ask if I still have any old feelings for you?"

Hearing this, Xiang Ming frowned: "What do you mean I abandon you? Didn't you go to another city a week after you broke up? I couldn't get through to your phone, all the phones were turned off."

"...I lost my mobile phone." Ruan Zemiao was stunned for a moment and continued, "But that was half a month after arriving there!"

Xiang Ming: "What? When did you leave?"

Ruan Zemiao: "It's the third day after we broke up!"

This time it was Xiang Ming's turn to be stunned, "I thought you were at home at that time, your father...Uncle Ruan said he would lock you up for a while, and forbid me to come to your house to meet you... ..”

Ruan Zemiao recalled, and then said again: "The day after my father discovered our relationship...he canceled all my social terminals, and bought me a plane ticket to another city... ..I couldn't resist him...I thought we could at least communicate by phone...but then I found out that I lost my phone at some point."

Xiang Ming smiled wryly, "Later, I saw an accident in Uncle's company on the Internet... and other news, and I tried to find you, but I couldn't find it."

Who is to blame?

Blame Ruan Zemiao's father?

Or I can only blame myself for having nothing.

Ruan Zemiao blinked, and couldn't digest it for a while. He always thought that everything was fine back then. Xiang Ming finally discovered his naivety, stupidity and difficulty, so he returned to freedom through his departure.

After all, before Dad found out about it, they quarreled almost every three days.

He dislikes Xiang Ming's stinginess, coldness and incomprehension, and Xiang Ming dislikes his wastefulness, playfulness and lack of progress.

After every quarrel caused by trivial matters, I would suspect the reason for the continuation of this relationship. It was clearly two rays extending from the same point, but trying to break through the space limit.

"If it wasn't for that incident." Ruan Zemiao heard that his voice was so hoarse that it didn't resemble his own, "We're almost at the end..."

Who has the strength to quarrel for a lifetime?

But Xiang Ming was very surprised, "I thought we would go on like this forever... I can wait until you grow up, it doesn't matter until you don't like to play so much, and you don't like to be aggressive or study. After graduation, I will definitely be able to support you."

Ruan Zemiao once again recalled the details of the two being together. Xiang Ming always disliked him for being stupid, but never said a single bad word about him in front of other people. Xiang Ming urged him to study, but because he was worried that he would have to stay up late to finish his homework Xiang Ming didn't like his waste, even if he was disgusted by him, he would ask him to pack a bite of untouched food. He was obviously a poor student, but he still gave it to him on his birthday. Buy the latest basketball shoes...  

Xiang Ming was really kind to him back then.

"But I don't know." Ruan Zemiao said, "I don't know what you said."

"Is it useful to hide your tolerance and deep affection in your heart?" Ruan Zemiao looked directly into Xiang Ming's eyes and said, "If you don't show me things, I will definitely find out. I'm so stupid, you have to tell me, if you want to Telling always that I am stupid is not really disgusting but wants me to use it as a motivation to climb up. Helping me with homework is not because I am impatient but because I feel sorry for me. Take me to eat at a restaurant that I didn't like at the time. It’s not because you are poor and you can’t spend money on me, but because you want to correct my consumption concept in the future.”

"Xiang Ming, I was only in my teens at that time. I was spoiled and raised, and my brain was not very bright. How could I understand the deep meaning behind your every movement?"

"If you don't tell me, how would I know?"

Xiang Ming was confused by Ruan Zemiao's consecutive questions. He really thought that Ruan Zemiao could understand...

Even now...

"Even if we are a couple or a lover, it is impossible for me to clearly understand your heart and read your subtext... You express your love in obscure ways, so you can't complain that I didn't receive it , It’s not fair to me. People in love are fools, and it’s only safe to say your feelings... You’ve lived in your own affection for too long.”

Ruan Zemiao looked at Xiang Ming with some sadness.

He is not sorry.

If it were him now, he might be able to understand the deep meaning behind Xiang Ming's behavior, and even be moved and change for him.

Does Ruan Zemiao want to travel back in time and space?

Whether it's him now and Xiang Ming now, or he now and Xiang Ming at that time, the ending of the two may be different.

But he doesn't want to.

Because he knew it shouldn't be like this, the two people in the past belonged to each other, even if it was "myself", he couldn't intervene casually, the ending belonged to those two children, even if it made people sad, they should be happy for each other One choice is responsible.

"I'm sorry." Xiang Ming couldn't pronounce any syllables except for these three words.

"Hey, don't be like this, it's bitter and bitter." Ruan Zemiao smiled sincerely and said, "No one is sorry for anyone. I don't understand you, and you don't understand me. We are even."

After speaking, he raised his chin towards Xiang Ming.

Xiang Ming was so stunned by his smile that he couldn't open his eyes, so he could only say in a daze, "Okay, it's evened, it's cleared."

"That's right." Ruan Zemiao's tone became more relaxed, "Okay, okay, go out with the bowls and chopsticks, I want to sleep! Don't take up my sleep time here."

Xiang Ming nodded slowly, then took the bowls and chopsticks on the table and walked across the door of the room without saying a word, and looked back at Ruan Zemiao while opening the door.

"Goodbye." Ruan Zemiao smiled and waved at him, as if urging him to leave quickly.

Xiang Ming sighed and gently closed the door.

He didn't see Ruan Zemiao's expression that darkened for a second behind him.

Not far from the door, He Dongsheng and Su Si were standing and sitting next to each other, like a teacher lecturing.

Su Si was listening to what He Dongsheng had to say with a face of reluctance.

Seeing Xiang Ming coming out of Ruan Zemiao's room, she rolled her eyes, and He Dongsheng followed Su Si's gaze.

"Is Ah Miao okay?" He Dongsheng asked politely.

"It's okay." Xiang Ming nodded and kept walking, "Then I'll go down first."

When Xiang Ming went down the stairs, Su Si looked into He Dongsheng's eyes again and said, "I don't want to listen to you. What I want to do is my freedom, isn't it? This is not a school, and I haven't violated any rules of the game. You have no reason Intervene with me."

He Dongsheng sighed weakly: "You didn't violate the rules. I didn't say that you violated the rules by directing votes to Diao Shishi, but that you didn't do well."

Suth frowned and didn't speak.

He Dongsheng: "You are too simple."

"I'm simple?" Su Sisi smiled. It was the first time she heard someone comment on her like this since she started working.

He Dongsheng: "Yes, you are very smart, but this time you are not smart enough. Help others? Be kind to others? They are all good qualities, but can good qualities attract high popularity? The human heart is not as simple as it is taught in textbooks. Good quality will definitely bring good evaluation, and people’s hearts are not as complicated as we think. Good-looking may really bring unexpected positive effects. You trust your own first judgment too much, Su Si. "

Su Si was taken aback, and He Dongsheng's words were not unreasonable: "I'm sorry...I won't use such a stupid method next time."

He Dongsheng smiled: "Don't help me." After speaking, his expression became serious: "Actually, we are also opponents."

Su Si was unmoved: "Leave me alone."

He Dongsheng shook his head, there was nothing he could do with such a child.