refuse to be a teacher

Chapter 105

At the bottom of the Xixin Valley surrounded by green trees all the year round, the endless gleam of water meets the sky, and the continuous morning light spreads across the ground. Year after year, there is only Then one or two common landscapes that I know by heart.

A person who has been idly watching for a long time will turn from boring to boring, and then from boring to numb little by little.

In the end, his consciousness is chaotic, his eyes are dull, and every morning when he wakes up, he sees an increasingly unfamiliar self in the mirror, and he can't tell who it is.

There was no one to talk to him, and no one to keep him company.There were only letters of unknown origin, which mechanically and repeatedly reported to him the so-called peace.

He is alive, but he really lives like a dead man.

But it doesn't matter whether he is dead or alive.If a person's soul stays in an unknown place for a long time, even if it can go to heaven and earth, it does not have any practical significance.

Xue Erjin felt that she was about to rot in such a place.Like his elder brother, he buried his face and body together in the soil, and even the bones rotted and melted away, turning into a pool of formless and formless scattered ashes.

Just when he fell into desperation several times and couldn't extricate himself, God opened his eyes. For the first time in such a remote place where he was tired of seeing day and night, he met Yan Jue who was seriously injured and fell down the valley.

Xue Erjin still remembers that day when he first met at the bottom of the valley, Yan Jue's white shirt was all shredded into rags, and the dried blood on his chest and arms turned into countless hideous and scattered scars. Under the cover of jet black hair, a drowsy face was born exceptionally clean, simple, gentle, without even the slightest bit of hatred or hatred.

The natural beauty is also soft from the inside.

Like a piece of jade with good texture, there is no defect, and it is not stained with dust.

With just one glance, Xue Erjin couldn't help being stunned.

She would even deliberately hold her breath, for fear that if she was a little careless, she would smash the beautiful and fragile man in front of her like a dream.

——Because I have never been lucky enough to meet in this life, once I reach out and touch it, I will be unexpectedly cautious.

Xueer treated him as if he were the most pure and flawless treasure in the world.

Xue Erjin looked at himself, but it was like looking at the most unsightly monster in the world.

In the later days when she took care of Yan Huan, Xue Erjin would subconsciously squat by the river, stand by the mirror, and frown to look at her hostile face.

Ugly, dirty, indescribably dark and gloomy, are all decadent things that have accumulated over the years.It can't be wiped away, it can't be wiped off, no matter how much cold water is used to wipe and clean it, it can't be easily removed from the body.

Sometimes Xue Erjin sat by the bed, staring at the person beside him who often fell asleep, and couldn't help thinking, why did he save him back then?

Because he is pretty?

Xue Er stretched out his fingers aimlessly, grabbed Yan Jue's sharp and beautifully shaped jaw, and stared at his sharp phoenix eyes, handsome nose bridge, and those light red thin lips.

Beautiful indeed.

But—not to mention that he is an out-and-out pure man, his temper is so bad that it is outrageous.

What's the use of just having a bad temper?

He was directly driven down the valley.The person who pushed him down clearly knew what kind of monster different from ordinary people lived at the bottom of the valley, so he did it deliberately. Obviously, he didn't want him to go up alive at all.

——Perhaps, like Xue Erjin, he has to stay in this empty and uninhabited small cage for a lifetime, grind for a lifetime, and finally live a crazy life. clean and dry.

Thinking of this, Xue Erjin suddenly felt inexplicably excited.

A person has been lonely for too long, and he will be full of desire for everything around him.

What's more, Yan Hao is still a living person to him, a talking doll.

How should I play with him?

Right now, he is covered in injuries, both eyes are blind, and his legs and feet are mostly inconvenient.

Even so, when he was awake, he was still frighteningly stubborn.

When I changed clothes, I made a slight mistake, and immediately received a wave of punches and kicks.If you accidentally touch it while feeding the soup, you will immediately turn your face and deny anyone.

—Who does he think he is?The young master with rich clothes and fine food, or the little princess with golden branches and jade leaves?

Xue Erjin sneered, stretched out his hand, and moved forward to tear open his thin and soft lapel.

"Don't you like people touching you?" He said to himself, letting his slender knuckles touch his smooth white skin, and then said word by word, "Look, you are using me now." It’s not too much for me to touch you twice while eating my meal and sleeping on my bed... right?”

Yan Jue didn't speak.When he fell asleep, he didn't have too many thoughts, so he always slept very deeply.

The flat chest was rising and falling together, and the soft lips were also slightly pursed. The light-colored lips and the white teeth were faintly visible with his sleeping posture, all of which were breathtaking.

In fact, Xue Erjin really wanted to have a taste of Yan Jue.

Put your tongue in, suck him, lick him, bite him, eat him thoroughly, and do the last thing he wants to see.

But at the last moment when he couldn't help leaning forward, he just tilted his head hesitantly, leaned down slightly, and pecked at his young and innocent side face.

——At this very moment, Yan Jue, who was sleeping soundly, seemed to be tickled a little by his deliberately frivolous little actions.

Therefore, unconsciously, she raised the corners of her lips, facing the direction where Xue Erjin was, pulling out a light and tranquil smile.

He smiled.

He actually... smiled.

Xue Erjin almost felt as if she had been electrocuted, and she suddenly pulled those scrambling palms out of Yan Jue's lapel.In the end, he still didn't forget to quietly lift off a part of the quilt, pretending nothing happened, and carefully tucked it up for him.

The person in front of him was so clean that it made him feel ashamed.

He is also a living person who is crawling and rolling in the mortal world, Yan Jue is like a sheet of pure white paper - while Xue Erjin, his body is covered with dust, dirty and unlucky, riddled with holes, like a dead body.

Since its birth, it has been treated as a commodity, passed through the hands of thousands of people, circulated in the black/market, and spread in front of people, numb and indifferent, watching the intimate companions around him die one after another, while I bear it without nostalgia Turned around and fled in a hurry——

Then, lurking deep in the darkest and gloomy ditch, it turned into a mouse that was struggling to live.

From time to time, it stretches out its sharp minions, and strangles the neck of the enemy who is about to clash.

Treating foreigners with suspicion, suspicion, and full of restless hostility; treating fellow clansmen with disgust, indifference, and hatred for their cowardice and cowardice is far greater than the blood-thicker-water kinship.

Treating himself is even more cruel, ferocious, bloodthirsty, and merciless.

Either you die, or I live.

Xue Erjin stared blankly at the beautiful and handsome side face and the slight curve of thin lips under the faint candle lamp.It seemed that it took a long time to recover from the shock brought by that smile.

Sure enough, a clean person will be pleasing to the eye in whatever he does.

Later, Xue Erjin stood alone on the edge of the river beach, and could not bear to bend down, squat down, and take advantage of the gurgling water to see clearly the dark facial features in the reflection, like a large layer of silt on himself .

How did you laugh?

How should we cry?

He has been alone for too long, and he has forgotten how to express his feelings correctly.

So the first expression he learned from Yan Jue's face was a smile.

Smile when you are happy, laugh when you are sad, laugh when you are in pain, even if you are left out, you still laugh.

For a while at first, he didn't smile very well.

Facing the bronze mirror, he pulled his face with both hands, trying to imitate Yan Jue's initial appearance, trying to squeeze out a comfortable smile.

But Xue Erjin's rigid facial features have been maintained for four full years, they are wooden, as cold as a piece of hard ice that cannot be melted.

When he laughs, it's always ferocious and vicious—it's really ugly.

When he hurriedly turned around and looked back, Yan Jue's snow-white figure sitting in front of the window with his knees crossed formed a striking contrast with him.

Xue Erjin was jealous because of this, and also envious because of it.

So, go over, pester him, cling to him, use the ancient pronunciation that he can't understand at all, and deliberately say some bad things that don't sound good.

"...Hey, you have a nice smile, come over and have a look?"

Yan Jue couldn't understand, so he just raised his eyes and stared at him.

The beauty is born with phoenix eyes, strong but soft, even if she intentionally puts on a cold and vicious look, it is inevitable that she will be somewhat seductive and charming, so lingering.

"If you look at me like this again, I will take off your clothes, believe it or not?"

Xue Erjin has always dared to speak and act.

He promised that if Yan Jue would be like before, he would repay him with a horizontal kick—he, Xue Erjin, immediately, immediately, rushed over, stripped Yan Jue naked, pinned him down, and screamed loudly.

But Yan Jue really didn't understand.

A pair of bright eyes seemed to be staring at him, but the light in the eyes was gentle, making people unbearable, reluctant, and unable to reach out and smash it easily.

Xue Erjin's thoughts are vulgar, and he has evil thoughts in his heart. He dare not touch him, so he often does some even more unbelievable actions.

He just bullied Yan like this, knowing that he couldn't understand or see clearly, but he wanted to look at him with a playful smile, and under his serious expression, he said unscrupulous nasty words.

Wanted to bully him, overwhelm him, tear him apart, and then—look at his jokes with pleasure.

Unfortunately, Yan Jue's current perception of him was exactly the opposite of what he thought in his heart.

Xue Erjin clings to him, intending to be frivolous, but Yan Jue pities him for his loneliness.

Xue Erjin spoke to him with the intention of being provocative, but Yan Jue just thought that he was alone with no one to accompany him.

Therefore, I listened attentively, with a docile face, and never made a sound.

Even one day, under Xue Erjin's malicious gaze, he walked towards his direction and gently spread his palms.

The voice is muffled, very cold, but always soft and pleasant to hear.

He said: "...Come here, I will teach you to speak Chinese."

Xue Erjin was taken aback for a moment, not knowing how to react.

After a long time, Fang looked at Yan Jue's frowning and serious face, and after a moment of concentration, he bent his lips and let out a soft laugh.

—It seems that he is a fool.