reborn stepfather

Chapter 17 Impermanence

Later, Chi Qian fell asleep in my arms, and I wrapped him in a military overcoat and watched for him in the middle of the night.

At dawn, my nose was a little stuffy, and my head was dizzy from lack of sleep.

After a hasty breakfast, I will go door to door to visit relatives and New Year.

The eldest brother and sister-in-law led Pengpeng and Tiantian to walk in front, and the second brother and I who led Chi Qian walked behind.Family after family, uncles, uncles, uncles, children of the same generation, children, adults, old people and women, were so dizzy that they turned around a few times and didn't remember any of them.I just remember that every time I introduced him, I pushed Chi Qian out: "Uncle X x Uncle x Aunt, this is my son, Juan, call someone and say Happy New Year."

So the old man will tremblingly stuff the red envelope into the child's arms: "Study hard, and you will be the number one in the future~"

The joy of the New Year makes people forget for a moment the uneasiness caused by the overcrowding of the hospital. Every family will warmly make tea, drink a few cups of tea, say a few auspicious words, greet each other, and then come out with a belly full of water. family.

There are too many relatives, and I, as a junior, really can't recognize them all. I couldn't hold on when I walked to the back, and I was so dizzy that I felt sick, so I took Chi Qian back home halfway.

Later, Chi Qian was taken by his parents to kowtow in the ancestral hall, and I didn't accompany him. He lay down on the bed and slept for a very dark day.

When I woke up, I felt better, and the feeling of light-headedness was not so severe.

I stayed at my parents' house for one night on the first day of junior high school, and my mother and sister-in-law had to bring their husbands back to their natal home on the second day of junior high school. I, a widow without a wife, had to take my son back to the small apartment to cook noodles.

Chi Qian, on the other hand, is safe with whatever happens, and he can eat big fish and meat, as well as vermicelli in clear soup.

I turned on the TV, but there were no reports about the virus. It only said that there was a big temperature drop in spring, and it was the season of high incidence of flu, so we should keep warm.

After the Lantern Festival, at the beginning of March, the epidemic finally broke out on a large scale.

The news began to be overwhelmingly reported on television.

Yun City was suddenly closed.

Everyone became panic-stricken, and people started to rush to buy food. The second brother took his parents and rushed to the mall aggressively. He squeezed around in the supermarket and didn't know what to buy. A box of pickled mustard came home.

Two days later, the school discovered that a suspected suicide patient announced the suspension of classes. When the news came, the sister-in-law was washing her hair, her head was full of foam, and she was still holding a plastic spoon for scooping water. She panicked: " Oops, what to do, oops, oops..."

The eldest brother snatched the spoon from her hand and poured water on her head: "Don't panic, go to the school and get the child back."

Suddenly, the sister-in-law took a shower with water, and rushed to the school with her wet and dripping hair. At that time, the school gates of No. [-] and No. [-] Middle School were already crowded with parents who wanted to take their children home to avoid disaster.

When the spring semester started, I tried to persuade them not to send Tiantian and Pengpeng to school, but because I couldn't explain the reason, my eldest brother forgot it like a joke.

I had expected this kind of result earlier, so I didn’t persuade them anymore. Fortunately, the epidemic was not serious at that time, and the school should be considered safe.But I didn't dare myself. Chi Qian had been studying at home, and I didn't go to teach, so I submitted a leave form to the Academic Affairs Office.

The two of them hid in the underground cave like moles and dared not come out.

What worries me the most is that the feeling of being unwell on the first day of the new year is getting worse and worse.

Headache, the muscles in the thighs are sore and swollen but they can't exert their strength.

I gradually felt that something was wrong.

I took out the thermometer and measured it, it was nearly 38 degrees.

I hurriedly ate Banlangen and told Chi Qian to stay away from me.

He paused as he rushed over with a water glass, and I could see that his expression was a little hurt.

"Dad is sick, you take care of yourself, be good, okay?" I tried my best to suppress my cough and said to him in the most understated tone.

He nodded and put the water glass on the table far away.

It got worse and worse, chest tightness, retching like a pregnant woman.

When I went to bed at night, I was already afraid to let Chi Qian sleep in the same room with me.

For several days in a row, I slept wrapped in a blanket in the living room, and Chi Qian slept in the house. He knew that I was uncomfortable and that there was chaos outside, so he was very obedient during this time.

Once when I woke up in the middle of the night, I happened to see Chiqian who tucked up the quilt for me and tiptoed back to the room.

There was even residual warmth from his hands on the surface of the quilt.

A ten-year-old kid who doesn't know anything will only be more disturbed than me.

But I have no time to worry about his mood.

It was supposed to be the April day when the grass grows and the warblers fly, but it took away one life after another.

On April 4, the World Health Organization announced in Geneva that the virus had been found and it was officially named sara.

At this time, two nurses and one doctor died in Nanchuan.

The condition of my body did not abate, but I began to experience chest pains and diarrhea, and the fever persisted.

The symptoms of Chiqian's last fever are completely different. Sometimes, I feel like a hard object is blocked in my chest, pressing on my head, making it difficult to breathe.

Up to now, I can't lie to myself that I have a cold.

Am I... infected?

Maybe I just caught a cold during the vigil, but the real reason may be that I drank unclean tea from someone else's cup during New Year's greetings.

The more I thought about it, the more panicked I became, the more panicked I became.

I was thinking so hard that my head was about to burst, two of my heads were fighting with themselves, and the other said it wouldn't be so bad, right?One is not sure about natural disasters. Pessimism and optimism are in a tug of war, but my heart has actually tilted to the pessimistic side.

Late at night, I finally made a desperate decision.

I don't think I can stay at home like this anymore, I can't allow myself to become a source of transmission.

Let alone let Chi Qian be infected by me.

I secretly got up to see Chi Qian, he was sleeping soundly in the room.

Closing the door, I put on my clothes and took my wallet, and walked out leaning on the wall.

His feet were floating, and he couldn't use his strength at all. It was already very difficult to walk down a few stairs.

The thick night was draped over my shoulders, and the cool wind made my head ache. Before I was tormented by the headache and lost my mind, I had better hurry to ask for help from the sidelines. It was almost impossible for me to climb to Nanchuan Hospital by myself. It is not reliable to climb Mount Everest shirtless.

I wanted to stop the car on the road, but I don’t know where the taxis and tricycles that appear in groups on weekdays are now. After a long, long time, one finally drove over. Seeing my sick face, I was so scared that I couldn’t stop the accelerator. Step on it fiercely and leave in the dust.

I had no choice but to sit on the curb panting and call Wei Heng.

The call was answered quickly, and I said straight to the point: "I may be infected.

"..." Wei Heng was shocked by my words and didn't answer for a moment.

"I have to go to the hospital," I continued.

"Where are you now?" He asked in a deep voice, his usual casual tone disappeared without a trace.

"My house is downstairs." I said, "I can't walk anymore."

"Wait for me five minutes."

He hung up the phone neatly.

I felt more at ease, and I tapped my dizzy head vigorously. The pain took some effect, as if my unsatisfied mind was struggling a little out of the mud.

I then press a string of numbers.

Although I feel guilty for waking my parents out of bed so late, I have to explain everything.

Because I don’t know if I can come out after entering the hospital, I remember that I used to have my temperature taken every day, and I had to fill out a form, and I had to be isolated if I had any symptoms.

Let alone me.

Life is like forks one after another. At the same forks as in the previous life, I chose another path in this life, so my life also presents another style.I used to confidently think that it would be fine if I didn’t do this or that back then, but when I chose another answer, I suddenly discovered that reality is not a right or wrong question, it’s not that if you don’t choose a anymore, you can choose b and it will be smooth sailing.

Life is a long river, but what greets you along the way is one dangerous shoal after another.

Will God favor you if you regain your life?

How can there be such a good thing.

All arrogance ends at this moment, perhaps this extra life has spent all my good luck.

The beeping busy tone was interrupted, and the phone was finally picked up.

Before my mother let out a terrible roar, I hurriedly said: "Mom, it's me, I need you to help me take care of Chi Qian for a while."

"Third brother..." Hearing that it was me, my mother's aura suddenly weakened, "What's the matter, what are you going to do?"

"Mom, I have to go to the hospital." I swallowed, suppressing my itchy throat, "I might have a cold."

I think I've said it easily enough, but my ears are still almost deafened by my mother's scream and my father's scream when my mother wakes up.

Quickly put the phone away, I was the only one on the empty long street at this point, so the sound was very loud and there was a rippling echo, and I felt that the ground was slightly vibrated because of it.

After my mother took a breath, I carefully approached the phone: "Mom..."

"How could you, how could you, you, you, you—" Mom was completely incoherent.I heard my father helping her calm down, and said in a low voice, "Don't be so excited, listen to the child and watch your blood pressure."

How do I know how I am like this?I was also puzzled, speechless, I could only emphasize again: "I'm going to the hospital now, Chi Qian is asking you to take care of me."

As I was talking, I saw a car approaching in the distance, and the headlights of the car made my eyes narrow. Is it Wei Heng?But the car passed me quickly, and I regained my senses. There was no sound on the phone.

"mom?"

There was a rustle, and then I heard my father's thick voice: "Hey, can you hear me?"

"What's wrong with mom?"

There was a pause on the other end of the phone, and my father said, "Your mother is crying."

I suddenly felt heat rushing into my eyes.

"Parents, don't worry too much. I don't think I'm in serious condition now. Maybe it's just a false alarm." I tried to smile, "Children's immunity is weak, and I'm just afraid of infecting Chi Qian. You should go early tomorrow." Come pick him up, okay? I haven't told him about it yet. This kid is very thoughtful. You can hide it for me, but don't lie to him. Don't say it's serious, so as not to make him worry. If he asks me Where did you go, you just say that I went to the hospital to see a doctor and will be back soon."

"How are you doing now? Can you do it alone?" Dad said worriedly, "Why don't I come over and take you to the hospital now."

"Don't, Dad, please don't." I hurriedly stopped, "Now the hospital is full of patients, and the disease is so contagious, our family... It's enough for me to have one infected person in our family." , you must not come, such a big family, as well as Chi Qian, are all dependent on you."

Dad was silent for a long time, maybe it was the sobbing mother who changed his mind, he said awkwardly: "Okay, then you...then you... well, you are such an adult , take good care of yourself..." After a pause, the taciturn father could only sigh, "Don't be afraid to spend money, we should check and get injections...but don't listen to everything. Doctor, you have to know what it is, ah!"

"Dad, don't worry." I agreed.

At this time Wei Heng finally arrived, and the black car stopped in front of me. Wei Heng rolled up the window and waved me to get in the car without saying a word.

I went around to look at the car door, and said goodbye to my dad: "Dad, that's it..."

Before I finished speaking, I heard another ringing on the other end of the phone, and my mother snatched the phone and shouted loudly: "Third brother, you have to come back with all your hair and tail, we are all waiting for you at home, you You have to come back sooner."

"Okay." I looked up at Chi Qian's room, the unlit windows were pitch black, and I couldn't help but hoarse, "Chi Qian please you."

My mother said more than once that she really doubted whether I was her own. How could the old Chen family give birth to such a timid and fearful child.When my two older brothers were walking sideways in Nanchuan, I would still be terrified of breaking a plate.

And in the face of life and death, I don't know if there was any bravery in my bones, and I escaped completely.

I once left Chi Qian alone, but now I don't even have the courage to say goodbye to him face to face.

In fact, rather than saying that I don't know how to face Chi Qian, it's better to say that I don't know how to face myself who is greedy for life and afraid of death.

want to live.

If we can meet again, there is no need to say goodbye.

If we can't meet again...

I finally stopped thinking about it, said goodbye to my father, hung up the phone, and got into the car.