prom plans

Chapter 23

Deng Chao hugged him to the bed, and for a whole month of May, they were doing the same thing in a daze.

Fang Xu grabbed Deng Chaoyi's hand touching his body, Deng Chaoyi broke free, lowered his head and said to Xu, "I've lost a lot of weight."

"I didn't expect to lose weight during this time." Fang Xu said.

"You seem unhappy." Deng Chaoyi guessed.

Fang Xu shook his head and said, "No."

There is a small vortex above Deng Chaoyi's head. From Fang Xu's perspective, this vortex floats up and down, like the spiral sink in the hotel he stayed in Russia many years ago.Deng Chao sucked his sex/organ in, hesitating up and down.He seems to love doing such things, and Fang Xu can't stop him every time.

He tried to push his head with his hand and said, "Okay, okay, I really don't need it", but Deng Chaoyi just grabbed his hand and pressed it to the side of the bed, without giving him any reason.

At this moment, he thought of the song his mother sang to him when he was very young, and the clips flashed back in his mind. It was a silent movie, and it was also countless nightingales locked in cages. There was only sound but no picture. The years have passed too long.

She said, "I was in the sky, I was in the water,

I don't want to see you, I want to fly to the sky, I want to swim in the bottom of the water, the sudden encounter makes me stop and love you. "She explained to the weak and helpless Fang Xu what love is with such a huge volume of words.

After Yu Wen, Deng Chaoyi hugged him, like loving him like an old piece of porcelain.Fang Xu called out: "Deng Chaoyi."

"Why." Deng Chaoyi replied.

"Is there anyone, you look like a puppy." Fang Xu said.

Deng Chaoyi rubbed Fang Xu's hand with his head, and replied, "No."

Fang Xu asked him repeatedly as if following an order: "Did anyone say you look like a puppy?"

Deng Chaoyi stopped rubbing his head and looked at Fang Xu. Fang Xu's expression was a little serious, which made Deng Chaoyi feel a little strange: "No."

Deng Chaoyi asked tentatively, "What's wrong?"

Fang Xu said, "Someone is talking about you behind your back, but I don't allow it."

"What a big deal!" Deng Chaoyi said, and covered Fang Xu with a quilt. "Everyone has different personalities and views. It is very common to be sprayed."

"Aren't you unhappy?" Fang Xu asked immediately.

"It was a little bit when I first heard it, but it's actually okay." Deng Chaoyi said, "But you are not me, and I am not you. You will be unhappy. I can't comfort you or help you, but I don't want to let you down. you are not happy."

"Oh." Fang Xu finished a word dryly.

"Ok?"

"When I was young..." Fang Xu stammered, as if a tape had been stuck, and pulled out bits and pieces to form a complete sentence, "I was laughed at by the children in the neighborhood many times, actually Until now, I don’t remember what they were laughing at me, and I may feel that I am different from other boys in many ways.”

"for example?"

"It will be slower to do things."

Deng Chaoyi interrupted him: "You are doing things seriously."

"I'll laugh at me for holding an umbrella even when it's not raining."

"What's wrong with being afraid of the sun?"

"When I won the award, the first person who congratulated me turned around and told others that I copied it." Fang Xu said, "Actually, I also had friends, but when I went out, they were the ones who invited me to dinner." Buying things, and then they told me that I was too cheap. But no one ever told me to do this or that.”

Deng Chaoyi suddenly understood something, that is, Fang Xu lost his mother when the moral boundaries began to emerge.In his growth trajectory, there will indeed be someone telling him to do it right or wrong. This may be the check and cross drawn by the teacher at will, or it may be the unconscious perfection and praise of his friends.But no one ever told him whether it was reasonable to do this thing, or told him that doing this was out of emotion and doing that was out of reason.

Fang Xu was troubled when he spoke, and he didn't look very happy. He had a lot of troubles in his teens and 20s, and he wasn't a top-notch top student like everyone said.But Deng Chaoyi is neither a teacher nor a parent. He can't give the most primitive children the educational foundation they can learn. He can only work with Fang Xu, crawling and rolling like a particle, constantly changing angles in the black box and hitting the surroundings. , until the initial intersection is found.

"It's not too late for you to learn now, and you still have a long life," Deng Chaoyi said.

The bell downstairs rang, twelve, one at a time.Is Cinderella ready to play, replacing the last touch of moonlight.Fang Xu was a little sleepy, so he braced himself to chat with Deng Chaoyi for the last time.

"Deng Chaoyi, do you want to prepare for the dance in your college?" Fang Xu asked.

"It's fine if people go." Deng Chaoyi said.

"I'm not very good at dancing." Fang Xu said with some distress.

When Fang Xu was about to fall asleep, he heard what Deng Chaoyi whispered to him.

"It's okay you will," he said.

Maybe things will really come true, or maybe what Deng Chaoyi said made him feel at ease, and Fang Xu didn't feel unnatural, so he put on his suit and rushed to the venue.

As soon as Deng Chaoyi saw Fang Xu, he took his hand and said to him happily: "Do you want to meet my friends?"

Fang Xu had a kind of time-limited slowness, he looked at Deng Chaoyi's face and said, "Is it okay?"

"They want to know you very much." Deng Chaoyi patted his back through his suit jacket, "Don't be afraid, they are all very good people."

Deng Chaoyi pointed him to a person from a distance, and said to him: "Freddy, we are the boss, he should have just come back from the laboratory. When he is a little more awake, we will go to play with him again, and I will mention you to him." He knew you all the time."

"Really?" Fang Xu looked at that person, very ordinary, wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses, a little rough, although he looked out of place with the whole venue.

Like an announcer, Deng Chaoyi said to Fang Xu: "The one who is going to come now is Eva. I met him at the birthday party. I don't know if you have any impression."

As soon as Deng Chao finished speaking, a girl walked in front of her, she was pretty and tall.Fang Xu watched Deng Chaoyi shake hands with her in an exaggerated way, laughing together, Eva waved at him, Fang Xu's mouth pulled a smile.

"Deng Chaoyi is so lucky." Eva stood next to Fang Xu, "Fang Xu is the most tempered person I have ever met. Hey, Fang Xu, do you think Deng Chao talks a lot?"

Eva lightly touched Fang Xu's elbow, where the cerebral cortex felt the slowest and slowest. He only started to react when the biological signal was transmitted to Fang Xu's head, and Eva was showing favor to him.He tried to make a lukewarm joke, to respond to the warm current that humans have given him, and he said, "Maybe, you must have never seen his brother."

Deng Chaoyi gestured to Fang Xu, signaling him to leave, Fang Xu nodded, and the rest of the space was for Eva and Fang Xu.

Eva said casually: "William, what a heartless man, I wanted to know him when I went to Deng Chao's family, but he didn't give me a chance."

"Have you been to his house?" Fang Xu asked.

"Yeah, no way, Fang Xu, you haven't recognized me yet?" Eva was a little surprised, "I'm in the same class as Deng Chaoyi High School, and your brother is our head teacher. When we went to play at his house, I still remember You're still working on Lego by yourself in the living room."

Fang Xu smiled, a little troubled: "Why do you all know me..."

"There is no one in high school who doesn't know you. I only found out that you are here when I came to communicate this year. Fang Xu, my name is Cheng Xin. We know each other now. You have to remember my name." Eva acted like a baby to him, " My name is easy to remember, Xiaocheng Xiaocheng can do anything."

"Okay." Fang Xu nodded and answered, "What about Deng Chaoyi, what does his name mean, do you know?"

"He wants to be the first in the exam! He said it himself!"

Eva chatted with him for a long time, and sometimes Fang Xu would answer silently. Eva asked him if he didn't know why Deng Chaoyi came to school here.Fang Xu shook her head. She said, Deng Chaoyi was surprised to see that your admission was abroad in the university application report. After graduation, he also heard a lot of gossip about you, about your father, and your choice.

He also followed you after careful consideration.

"Do you not understand what Deng Chaoyi is doing?" Eva smiled.

"He has been secretly in love with you since high school, don't you know it."

Fang Xu scratched his hair, he always believed that the hair is the other end of the universe, he grasped the powerless universe.He would have been jealous a long time ago, but he was innocent, cute and kind. Everyone loves to tease him and play with him, but now he truly feels loved.

Fang Xu said to Eva, "It's because of my good fortune."

Deng Chaoyi walked over to him with a glass of champagne, asked him to dance, and made a circle for him with his toes.He is not a princess either, he stepped on Deng Chaoyi's feet when he learned the dance steps clumsily.He quickly said sorry, Deng Chaoyi said, between you and me, there is no need to say sorry.

"Deng Chaoyi, do you know Sagan?" Fang Xu asked him, "He said, we are that kind of people, dancers."

Deng Chaoyi put his arms around Fang Xu's waist and made an imperfect circle.Fang Xu's eyes were hit by the light, and there was a momentary blankness in front of his eyes.He suddenly remembered what happened a long time ago. Eva told him that Deng Chaoyi sneaked into the gymnasium after your college entrance examination swearing-in meeting this year, and was caught by the prefect.He came back and told us happily that he danced with you.

In Fang Xu's life, his father gave him a firm paternal love, his teachers and classmates gave him the weakest friendship, but only Deng Chaoyi gave him the closest maternal love, the most indescribable love, so he is special , which he could not measure in the experiment report.

Life is a metaphor for non-stop writing, and he finally and himself many years ago, in this short gap, are far away from each other.

Fang Xu stood on tiptoe and whispered in Deng Chaoyi's ear, "Deng Chaoyi, I seem to be in trouble."

Lips brushed ears, and finally covered by the din of screams around him, it was Freddy who changed clothes and went into the singing.Deng Chaoyi didn't hear what Fang Xu was saying, so he asked "what".

Fang Xu looked into Deng Chaoyi's eyes, his eyeballs were darker than his own, and he made a difficult decision in his heart.

What Death in May, in the final analysis, is all about I love you.