Pretend to be straight

Chapter 88 2 more

I know that I will wait until Shi Jinghe comes back, but now that she is back and is by my side, I don't know what to say.

Already in her apartment, I held a cup of hot water to warm my own hands.

Shi Jinghe turned on the air conditioner, I held the water glass and followed her figure with my eyes.

When she went to the kitchen to put the dishes, I would watch her until she came out and made eye contact with me, and then I was able to confirm that Shi Jinghe had really returned.

After sorting out the things in the refrigerator, she came to me and sat down, took a sip from the warm water glass in my hand, but she drank in a hurry, and was choked and coughed in the next second.

I quickly patted her on the back, hoping to make her feel better.

But before I took a few shots, Shi Jinghe put down the cup, took my hand to hold it, and said softly, "I'm fine."

Am I really suffering from aphasia?Facing Shi Jinghe like this, I couldn't say anything.

But the eyes will speak for me, because I faintly have the idea of ​​crying again, I took a deep breath, and held back the tears.

Shi Jinghe looked at me and asked softly, "Don't you want to talk to me?" She still held my hand, "I'm sorry...I chose to use such an immature way."

She didn't give me a chance to explain, lost contact and disappeared, such cold violence is indeed immature in my and her eyes.

I opened my mouth, but my throat seemed to be tightly strangled, and I was still speechless.

Shi Jinghe looked inquiringly, "Aren't you curious about what happened to me?"

I just looked at her calmly and nodded.

How could you not be curious?I want to know where she went, what kind of life she lived in these seventeen days, and whether she has thought about me. There are so many things I want to know.

But I couldn't ask any questions, and I didn't know what happened to me.

Shi Jinghe had already taken off her coat, and now she was only wearing a loose gray sweater with a v-neck, her hair was naturally hanging down on both sides, covering a little of her delicate collarbone.

She lowered her eyelids, only staring at our handshake, and said slowly.

"Zhizhi, your previous feelings are correct, I don't like you that much...As you think, I do have more sympathy for you." She raised her head and looked at me again , there was sincerity in the dark pupils, "But that was before, that was when we were just together."

With a blank expression on my face, I quietly listened to her talk.

"In the beginning, I felt sorry for you being hurt by Qiu Yu, for being cheated by a gay, for being hurt by a scumbag, for being pinched..." Shi Jinghe said frankly, "It's not that I don't like you at all, So I just thought, if you are with me, it will be fine, and I will protect you well."

When Shi Jinghe said this, his eyelashes trembled: "Can you understand what I mean?"

The seal on my throat was finally lifted, I nodded and replied softly: "Understood."

I waited for her for seventeen days, and she finally came back. From the excitement at the beginning to the calm now, I don't know why.

But after thinking about it, I actually understand it myself, because for the past seventeen days, I have been in a state of fear.

My first love hurt me deeply. In the past few years, I never thought about pursuing another love in the past until I met Shi Jinghe.

As I once thought, until I met her, I felt that my life was brighter, and I engraved every bit of getting along with her in my heart.

At the same time, because of the nature of my profession, I was afraid that she would leave me, worrying all day long, and finally the retribution came, and I was still exposed.

After Shi Jinghe called me that phone call, he never showed up again in these days.

I have been looking forward to meeting her at the next corner, so I go out every day and go through the procedure every day, but I don't meet her every day.

But today, she came back, and Qiu Yu told me the news of her return.

At first I was full of excitement and joy, but now that I have calmed down, I am indifferent.

I listened to what Shi Jinghe said in my heart, sure enough, my intuition was not wrong, Shi Jinghe really didn't like me enough at the beginning.

but me.

I'm really just a poor person.

Shi Jinghe gave a low laugh: "You have finally spoken."

After she finished speaking, she became serious and continued to say her own words: "I am 26, and I will be 27 in a few months. I myself, like my fans, think that I may be single until I grow old. Because I haven't liked anyone in the past few years."

She said: "But Zhizhi, it was your reappearance that let me know that I can still have love."

I withdrew my hand from hers, closed my eyes, and said aloud: "Because you pity me and you like me a little, so you choose to be with me." I opened my eyes and looked at her again, "Then now What do you think of me? A poor wretch whose parents have both died, or a liar full of lies?"

I suddenly felt that infinite grievances were falling on me, smashing a hole in my heart, and I didn't know how to get back to a smooth state.

But when I think about it carefully, my heart is already riddled with holes.

"No, it's not like that." Shi Jinghe grabbed my wrist, and she explained to me anxiously, "I admit, I felt cheated when I misunderstood that you had so many relationships."

"At first I didn't answer your calls when my phone was turned off, but in the first two days, I was waiting for you here in Yuncheng, but I didn't."

Those two days... In those two days, I had a cold and a fever because of the rain, and I had no strength at all, so I lay in bed for two days.

I understand, God did it on purpose to make me suffer a little more.

"What happened next?" I asked again.

Just make it clear once, I don't want to have any unpleasantness because of this incident again in the future.

I have had enough of these [-] days. I have not had a relapse of depression, and I feel extremely lucky and grateful.

"I went to Liucheng and told my dad about it."

"When I knew that I liked girls, I told my family about it, including when I was with Zhong Nian, and I didn't hide it. But telling them doesn't mean they will accept it, especially my dad, he I have always disagreed, and my relationship with him was once very stiff."

"My mother and him divorced when my sister was about three years old, and my father went to Liucheng alone. When I went to Liucheng before, it was not just to see Rey and the others, but also my father."

"He... I haven't been in a relationship for a few years, and he knows it. He thinks I like men, so he doesn't treat me so coldly."

When Shi Jinghe said this, he looked at me sincerely and warmly: "But Zhizhi, because I want to be with you all the time, so I went to him."

After listening to her talk so much, I couldn't calm down a bit. I blinked and listened to her continue.

Shi Jinghe lowered his head slightly: "His attitude is still against, asking me to think calmly, and asking me not to associate with you for the time being."

When she said this, she looked at me again: "I didn't mean not to contact you. I read the messages you sent me, Weibo and WeChat, but I held back and didn't reply. My dad also relaxed his attitude during this period." , He said that if I can stop seeing you for half a month, he will turn a blind eye and close his eyes afterwards, he is my father, and I want to get his blessing."

I froze in place, as if I had forgotten to breathe, Shi Jinghe took my hand again: "I'm sorry... I let Ranran hide this news for me, and even asked my cousin to watch it. Your state, but never told you the truth."

what......

It turned out to be like this, and it turned out that I was the one kept in the dark again.

I moved my lips and said two words: "Okay." I looked at her, "Do I still need to explain my matter?"

I asked again: "Are you still listening to my explanation?"

Shi Jinghe nodded: "I have already learned the general idea from Qian Xu, but I still want to listen to you personally."

The temperature of the air conditioner is very suitable, but I feel that it is getting hotter and hotter. I rubbed my face, but I don't know where to start.

"When you first met me, sitting across from me was Qian Xu's mother. I was helping him, but you misunderstood me."

"The second time you met me, the man in the plaid shirt was sitting opposite me. He was my customer and asked me to play the ex-girlfriend who was sacked by him."

"The 'Lu Lu' you heard before was also said by one of my customers. I was acting as his girlfriend at the time. It was also him who almost took me to see Hades."

I looked at her and frowned slightly: "Every scene in the Weibo pictures is me performing tasks. I don't have a serious job, but I get a good salary. From the first misunderstanding, I lied to you."

I stared into her eyes: "I am not perfect, I have many shortcomings, I am sensitive, fragile and selfish, I once hoped that you would never know, at least you will continue to be with me because you pity me." At the corner of his mouth, "What about now? You who already know the truth, do you still pity me?"

Shi Jinghe wanted to answer my question, but I didn't give her a chance: "You don't need to answer me in a hurry, I think we have to calm down, I need to digest what you said, and you need time to break down the truth I told you. "

The air conditioner has been blowing for too long, and my face is already warm. I raised my hand to touch it, looked at Shi Jinghe, and smiled: "Strictly speaking, you and I are dating for the second time." , none of us are perfect people. But senior sister...why didn't you tell me when you came back today? I still found out from Qiu Yu."

Shi Jinghe looked at me without blinking, and she said, "I'll call you as soon as I get out of the elevator, thinking that when you come over, I've already made dinner, and I'll greet you... ..”

I stood up and picked up my bag: "I'm sorry, I may...not be able to stay for dinner anymore."

Shi Jinghe took my hand, raised his head, and asked pitifully, "Zhizhi, don't you want me?"