Pilot

Chapter 11

After Shengxia said that, Shi Ye carried her out of the room.

What happened later is actually scattered in Sheng Xia's memory, because he was in too much pain.But at the same time he was very happy when he was in pain, Shi Ye was still willing to touch himself, so Sheng Xia kept trying to focus on other things so that he could not focus so much on his uncomfortable lower body.

He couldn't remember how many times they did that day.

At the beginning, Ye carried him out of the bedroom, and picked up a half bottle of foreign wine when passing by the cupboard.Sheng Xia noticed that there was an old-fashioned clock that stopped on the top of the cabinet. It was the old style that would have a bird jump out to tell the time, but the time had stopped, at 29:[-] pm.

It was strange that he could remember such little things.

Sheng Xia just squinted his eyes hard to see, trying to remember everything he could see clearly, Shi Ye's home, everything about Shi Ye.

There are several pairs of high-top Martin boots at the foot of the sofa, and Shi Ye might usually change shoes there.On the wooden table in front of the sofa was a fruit bowl with some crumpled apples in it.When he was thrown on the sofa, he stared at the rotten apples, but after only a few glances, Shi Ye pressed up on him, completely blocking his sight.

Shi Ye knelt between his separated legs, bit off the cap of the bottle of wine with his mouth, put his other hand in Sheng Xia's hair, rubbed back, and stroked the back of his neck very slowly, as if to comfort a small animal The same rubbing very slowly... It's obviously not a very ambiguous part, but Sheng Xia felt that the place was very itchy for no reason, and rubbing his waist would soften it.

When Shi Ye bit open the bottle with his mouth, he tilted his head slightly, looking down at Sheng Xia.He was staring at the thin layer of sweat on Shi Ye's abdominal muscles, and when he was a little dazzled by that movement, the handsome man on his body suddenly reached out and grabbed his chin tightly, and began to be tough Give him a drink.

When forced to drink the cold and bitter liquid, Sheng Xia seemed to see Shi Ye's eyes overflowing with a lot...

That look seemed to tell him: I don't want to do this to you, and I can't stand myself, but I can't help it.You tell me, what should I do.

The wine was strong, bitter and choking.The feeding process was not smooth, Sheng Xia was struggling all the time according to his instinct, but Shi Ye held his chin tightly, he couldn't free that hand no matter what, he could only cough and swallow the wine that burned his throat .

Ye didn't stop until he was drunk for more than half, and then put the wine to his mouth again, as if he was going to finish the rest.It's hard for Shengxia to remember that Shi Ye's stomach is not good and his throat is not good, so he snatched the wine from Shi Ye's hand almost instantly, frowning, and rushed to drink it clean.

In fact, Sheng Xia's alcohol capacity is not very good, it is impossible not to get drunk after drinking half a bottle of foreign wine at once, the strange thing is that Sheng Xia does not feel drunk after drinking.

Probably because he was already drunk?It seems that he has not been awake since the moment Shi Ye kissed him.Sheng Xia felt that he had fallen into a very strange state... His thinking and consciousness were dancing in his mind, flying, flying very fast, flying in the sky, flying into the sea, falling to the ground and rolling .

But Sheng Xia didn't have the strength to express the messy things and patterns in his mind. He had never been very good at expressing himself, and it was the same all the time.

He just felt sour in his eyes, and wanted to hug Shi Ye, and let Shi Ye hug him too, wanting to have an... the illusion that he was being cherished.

At least for now, just this moment.

When he was dizzy, he seemed to be humming a few words of John Lennon's "Oh My Love".Maybe I sang it aloud, or maybe I didn't, it's just that those few lyrics have been spinning in my mind.

Ohmyloverforthefirsttimeinmylife,myeyesarewideandopen,mymindcanfeel...  

Song and Shi Ye buried in his body are both gentle and warm orange.

Sheng Xia listened to the BGM that played automatically in his head, before the alcohol got on his head, he grabbed Shi Ye's shoulder and asked in a low voice: "Brother, have you ever had someone else in these years?"

In fact, what he wanted to ask was whether Shi Ye had sex with others, but just by asking, it became whether he had sex with others.The amazing thing is that Shi Ye seemed to understand what he was going to ask, first hit him hard, then pressed his belly with his hands, and said slowly: "No. So today I will probably go crazy, and you will be very angry. Hard."

Sheng Xia thought for a while, then asked: "Then do you like others?"

Shi Ye didn't answer his question.

Later, the memory of midsummer was very blurred.I just remember that they seemed to do it on the sofa for a long time, and then went to the bathroom to do it.The bathroom is small but actually has a bathtub.The bathtub is also very small, the color is yellow and old, and there are a few pieces of paint missing on the edge.Shi Ye sat on the edge of the bathtub from the beginning, and he knelt on the ground to help Shi Ye.

They did it under the shower and once in the tub.

The old house, which looked dilapidated, was further messed up by them.

Did it once in the washing machine too.He was half-sitting on it and was pinched at the waist. Because his body was not stable, he could only wrap his feet around Shi Ye's waist, but both of them were sweating, and he had no strength, so he slid down when he sat up.In the end, it was Shi Ye who pinched his ankle and spread his legs to the two sides, while pushing into the limp hole, he said to Sheng Xia: "There is no condom at home, so I cum inside you."

Sheng Xia said yes, you can shoot anywhere, as long as you want.

That's when the sky is slowly getting dark.The light is actually at hand, but none of them press the switch that makes the world brighter.After drinking, Shengxia felt that he seemed to have some strength. He was driven by something to sit on Shi Ye's body, kiss Shi Ye's blurred eyebrows and eyes in the dark light and shadow of dusk, sit down, move up and down again, in pain and In a comfortable balance, try to see Shi Ye's wobbly face clearly in sight, and call him while crying: "Brother..."

Shi Ye didn't respond to him, not at all.

The whole process probably cannot be positioned as sex, but two people venting and expressing their emotions in their own way... It's just that one is trying to destroy, while the other is eager to give.

When Sheng Xia was drunk and unconscious, she seemed to hear Shi Ye say: "Get out when you're done, okay?"

He didn't know how to respond, he just looked into Shi Ye's eyes and called him stubbornly: "Brother——"

The second half of the sentence I want to say is: Don't want me.

Later, the sky and consciousness were dark.

Sheng Xia forgot everything that happened later, and couldn't see anything clearly.

But it was very hot all the time, as if his body was being roasted on the stove, he felt uncomfortable all over.

In that dark mass of consciousness, Sheng Xia seemed to have come to another world.At first, the surroundings were silent, but then there were a few tinkling piano sounds from somewhere... Sheng Xia distinguished the prelude, and heard that this song was "Universe", Shi Ye's famous song.When Shi Ye wrote that song, he was only 19 years old.

Sheng Xia followed the voice in a trance, and Shi Ye's voice kept popping out in his ears, and those few lyrics he could recite by heart--

"Who broke the sky

wave the stars down

galaxy drift sailing

Close your eyes, touch the rainbow, bow your head to the clouds, and be silent

those dead winds

Hanging high in the night sky and sinking with dreams

The vast, endless you, nothing, me

The world is burning

cosmic fire

Devour you and drown me. "

……

"—Hello, Midsummer."

As if someone called him.

"—Midsummer, Midsummer!"

Sounds familiar, but can't remember who it is.

"--midsummer……"

……Mother?

"--midsummer……"

Can not remember.

"Your name is Shengxia? But you grow up like winter."

This is... Shi Ye.

"Well, yes, I'm just passing by."

It was still Shi Ye.

"You liked me for many years?"

It was still Shi Ye.

"Actually, I'm not as good as you imagined, but I..."

Shi Ye.

"I'm leaving."

Shi Ye.

"Just act like nothing happened."

Shi Ye.

Shi Ye.

It's all Shi Ye.

Consciousness ruthlessly tugged at the bewildered midsummer, pulling him back from the cosmic fire and Shi Ye's voice...

four years ago.