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Chapter 33 Love?

I have fought with Sambo, we have had quarrels, we have had hysterics, and we have had honey.

I cut everything about him, clothes, socks, underwear, sweaters, autumn clothes, coats, sheets.As long as it belongs to him, I will cut it all with scissors.

I was shocked just now, but now I come to my senses, there is only hatred.I hate Sambo for making trouble out of no reason, I hate Sambo for being ruthless, he used all his strength in this punch, if we weren't close enough, I would probably faint there.

I'm wondering now, did Sambo deliberately take advantage of the situation and deliberately wanted to beat me up, did I scold that pointed face?Will not.He's just superficial, he's just crazy, he's crazy, he's hot-tempered, he can't change it, he can't change it for the rest of his life, thinking that I'll be with this demon for the rest of my life, I feel that life has no end, except Sad or sad.

Can't think, can't think about the future with Sambo, when I think about it, it seems to be hell, endless darkness, no hope, only the years waiting to die, and hopeless decadence.

The only happiness that Sanbao brings to me at home is the braised fish and stir-fried cauliflower a few times.Others, crying more and more.

I only have hatred in my mind now, I want to tear him apart, destroy him, make him die of pain, let him beg for mercy at my feet.

I couldn't find him, so I destroyed all his stuff.

I piled everything that belonged to him in the room that I could see on the bed, even chopped off his leather shoes and cut off his tie.In the end, it was a big meal. I poured oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar rice, and all the ingredients into the pile of clothes, slowly, as if I was making a delicious dish.

I add different condiments to the delicious food. I pour cooking wine, soy sauce, sprinkle salt, sugar, and chicken essence. Well, finally, pour half a bucket of salad oil. It’s done. I wrap my clothes in my hands and mix it , I think it's almost done. The smells in this room are mixed together, and I can't stay for a moment. I took my luggage and the dog and ran away without looking back.

I really want to do a fortune-telling, to figure out what we owed each other in our previous life?

I took the dog to open a room, and my mood gradually calmed down. I didn't have the idea of ​​asking him to die at the beginning.

Lying on the bed, looking at the tall buildings outside, I was thinking, what am I trying to figure out?

money?He didn't.

handsome?It's okay, it's a bit older anyway.

high?not tall.

figure?It's not bad, but it's much better than him.

I should just want him to pet me, love me, and let me go. This is the father's love that I didn't feel when I was a child, and I found similar warmth in Sambo.

Sambo is willing to take the time to get to know me. He pays attention to my movements and can guess my thoughts. This is the perfection that maternal love did not give me.

I love Sanbao, perhaps from him, I found the shadow of my parents.

Thinking of my decision to break up, I was not in such a hurry and left. I asked Sun Lan to come to the room. Sun Lan felt distressed when she saw me. She raised her hand to touch my forehead, but she was afraid that I would hurt. Where to put it, ask me what is my plan.He knows about the relationship between the two of them, and it is inconvenient for outsiders to intervene to persuade them. After all, it is too difficult to find true love in this circle.

I told him: "Sambo's temper, I can't stand it, and it's impossible to be together in the future. I won't come this time when I go back. It may be difficult to see you in the future. This time, I call you to come and talk, and I will go to you when I have the opportunity. City H is looking for me, maybe I graduate and return to City W, you can come and play with me when you pass by City W."

I thought the parting with Sun Lan was temporary, life is so long, there will always be a time to see each other in the future, but some people, once they turn around, it will be a lifetime, and when I think about it again, I don't know how well you are living in the vast crowd.

Sun Lan and his ex-boyfriend broke up because of which city they went to. His ex-boyfriend wanted to stay in City C. He followed him, but he couldn't get used to it. The difference between the north and the south made him unable to adapt. The depression with no green leaves for a month, the wind and sand, and steamed buns made him suffer. Meals are a problem. Often, there are two dishes on a table, two staple foods, tea, rice, oil and salt for those who leave school, and three meals a day when they really live together. Habits, local conditions and customs, these are the reasons that lead people to separate. True love can't beat the reality, which has been well interpreted in them.They broke up very peacefully, there was no quarrel, no division of property, and they didn't even block each other. They just talked, hugged, and turned around.

Sun Lan thought that he would never see him again, after all, she didn't want to look back after the past.

But his ex-boyfriend regretted it, regretted that Sun Lan's big smile was not there, regretted that Sun Lan's thoughtfulness was not there, and the one person who got off work every night made him miss him even more. When he felt that he could no longer restrain his feelings, he had already set foot on Take the train from City Y.

I don't know their ending, and I hope they are together now, after all, they don't have the same experience as me and Sanbao, they are all innocent, they can't get in touch with the dark side, they don't have drugs, and they don't have hysteria.

Happiness has no scales, it has always been tilted.

I'm home, I'm back in W City, I want to send the dog back to my grandma, who is alone, she absolutely loves it.

When I went to grandma's house, grandma was sitting in the yard and asked me who I was looking for. I said I was Tian Tian. Grandma smiled and looked at me warmly, and said, "I don't understand."

Grandma is still in good spirits, but she is a little confused. I raised my volume and said loudly that I am Tian Tian, ​​your grandson.She said "oh", and finally understood, hurriedly took my hand, and began to talk about the past, and then talked about the time when I was not full, how hard it was for grandpa, how hungry the second and third children were, and how your mother How sensible, while talking, he treated me as the second child and asked me why I came back.

I don't want to correct her. I think what she needs now is not sobriety but companionship.

I squatted beside her and listened to her talk for a long time. Gradually, I couldn't hear what she said. She was talking, and I was in a daze...

I lived with my grandma for a day, and the next day I contacted a car, which was still packed in a cage and sent to my mother. Dad has a factory, so let’s raise it in the factory.

In the first few days after I broke up with Sambo, I was fine. I often went to Wu Le to analyze Sambo. It was right to give up on him.

Others can see that Sambo is not a good choice, but only I know that I love him so much.

If it wasn't you who met in that room that day, if it wasn't you, would it be someone else?

I can't see the future in your eyes.

I don't know what I like about you and what is good about you.

If there is an afterlife, let me be a girl, you only like girls, we have a child, entangled with each other, and never let go.

……

I always thought that my love was exhausted, and I was exhausted by his unreasonable punch. I don't know the reason for my survival, but to love him.

I lived my life in a hurry, went to class, and watched Happy Camp with Wu Le, and gradually felt that Happy Camp was also good-looking.

Sambo sent a lot of messages and made a lot of phone calls, but I refused to be blocked.He has already called all his friends on the phone, and he only needs to find strangers on the street.

I cruelly stopped contacting him, but I was also worried about his life, whether he drank too much, whether he was still playing, whether he ate on time, whether he went out to fool around again, what if he was with Jianlian again What should we do together?

I spend less and less time hating the Three Treasures, and more and more time thinking about the Three Treasures.

Like a girl, I secretly watched his space without leaving traces, and secretly used Wu Le's mobile phone to watch his Moments, but Wu Le rolled his eyes.

I know that Wu Le is afraid of my reconciliation, Wu Le thinks that Sambo is not good enough for me, although he didn't say it clearly.

Wu Le knew that the relationship between the two of us still depended on himself. Looking at me, he probably guessed pretty much the same in his heart.

If it wasn't for Sambo's sudden return, I'm afraid I would have to look for him first.

When Sambo came back, I was crazy outside. When I came home, Sambo was sleeping. The moment I opened the door, my heart stopped. I wanted to run subconsciously, but when I reached the door, Sambo caught me back.

The two of us were panting on the bed again, oppressing each other, and I yelled at Sambo to get the hell out, you scum.Sambo didn’t get annoyed, he stopped me and started to take off my clothes. We haven’t seen each other for a long time. After pretending to struggle, we are eager for each other. The body and soul are still so compatible. His every time is so happy. , all my crooning is a movement that inspires him.

We are entangled to the death, endlessly.

After the indulgence, I was exhausted. I let him go after I enjoyed it. He smoked a cigarette: "Let's go? Where are we going?"

"How do I know, I can go wherever I want, anyway, we have already broken up."

"You want it personally, but I don't agree."

"Whether you agree or not is your business. Anyway, I have already thought about it. I don't think we are suitable, so we should separate."

"I have no place to go for the time being, so I'll stay for one night first."

……

I know that Sambo really has no place to go, so I thought I'd just keep him for one night.I also clarified with him again and again that I have made up my mind and must break up.

I didn't know that Sanbao had already resigned from his job in City Y at that time, I thought he just left after staying for a few days, even though we lived together for a few days, I didn't give him a good face, I wanted to break up, no will change.

This time, I really made up my mind.

Sambo is still the same as before, sometimes going out and sometimes coming back.We didn't talk much for more than ten days. I struggled when he hugged me, but I was always hugged by him in the end.

I also eat the rice he brought back, and I also wash the vegetables I bought, but with the Three Treasures, I didn't go out to play with Wu Le.Wu Le has become himself again, but Wu Le has many friends, and various friends often come to the house as guests.

Wu Le is a poor ghost, the most generous treat is fried rice with eggs, but they ate it with gusto.

I haven’t spent any money recently, and Sanbao is responsible for eating and drinking. I sit back and enjoy the benefits, but I also treat each other with a cold face. I know that Sanbao and I can’t last long. I’m pushing him, and he’s pushing himself. Survive the torment of feelings and crush the last straw.

Xiao Yan sent a message and asked me what I was doing?

I replied: "It's okay, I'm reading at home."

"one person?"

"You don't understand the happiness of being single."

"Then come out for dinner tomorrow night, I haven't seen you for a long time, I miss you..."

I stared at the screen in a daze, Xiao Yan, Xiao Yan, why are you so nice.

I decided to try to be with Xiao Yan, isn't the way to forget feelings is to find a new love?

I met Xiao Yan, and the moment I saw him, I knew that I couldn't do it.I can't touch other people's bodies, and my mind is full of hype. As soon as I meet someone who is not the Three Treasures, I start to resist. This resistance comes from the heart. I feel that if I want to sleep with him, I will go into convulsions.

I can't, really can't.I belong to the Three Jewels, from body to mind.

I failed to eat the dinner in the bowl, which was my favorite lamb chops, cauliflower, and seaweed soup.I looked at the dishes caught by Xiao Yan in the bowl, feeling only guilt and pain.

I love Sambo, even if we broke up, I still love Sambo, Xiao Yan's appearance made me more sure of my feelings, so I decided to talk to Sambo.

But before I could say it, Sanbao turned over my phone while I was taking a shower, and I was stepped on the floor and beat me in the bathroom. Sanbao checked my body like crazy, and I felt the pain from my beloved. Humiliation, I was frightened by Sambo's fury, I was too scared to move, I was afraid that if I resisted again, Sambo would kill me, his eyes were the fear I had never seen before, I knew that I was driving Sambo into a hurry , this message is the last straw that crushes us.

I was frightened at his mercy, he asked me to stand in the place with the brightest light, carefully inspect every aspect of my body, and after confirming that I had done nothing, he threatened me again: "Listen to me, I won't Will break up, never break up, don't think about it in the future, block his WeChat, and I will give you 24-hour nanny treatment in the future."

I just nodded. I was scared of being beaten by the Three Treasures. Now that he is angry, I dare not resist.

Sambo pulled me into his arms again, hugged me, and touched me. I only had fear, but no love.