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Chapter 19 Chapter Family

Every time I go back to school, it makes me feel real and at ease.This peace of mind comes from the fact that I am normal, not the nights with Wu Le, nor the casino life with Sanbao. The pure land of the school makes me feel that I am still thriving.He is a three-good youth under the socialist system.I enjoyed the secret pleasure of sensuality while clinging to the normal human being that I was a good student.I am greedy, the greed of that ordinary human being among thousands of thousands, and I am deeply trapped in it and cannot extricate myself.I know very well that there is no crime, I just enjoy a life that is lower than others...

One ordinary afternoon, I received a call from my mother, saying that my grandfather had passed away.I was shocked, and felt sad in my heart.My grandfather was a very smart person. When he was a child, his parents died, and his only sister was given away. He didn’t have enough to eat and wear warm clothes. When he was a teenager, he went to the seaside to work as a laborer for others. Without a piece of thick clothes, just such a person survived.Later, I married my grandmother, and later gave birth to my mother and my four uncles. I heard that my mother had two other children who died of starvation because of lack of food.What era was that time? Just after liberation, I heard my grandma say: "When the age is difficult, the leaves are eaten, and the children eat them in exchange. Our family is too poor to open the pot. I work hard to not enough for the children to eat. My chin is hungry. It was as sharp as an awl, and I was very hungry. Your grandfather took the cowhide made by the factory to cook and eat at home, and this left a few children.” I can’t imagine that era, when I was born, I could already have no scruples Eat sugar and drink milk.I looked at my grandma who had washed all the plastic bags and carefully put them away, and then I realized that life is not easy, and I lamented the happiness that I was born in a good time.

When I was young, I lived with my relatives for a year. At that time, I always rode a bicycle to buy green vegetables for a few cents and sent them to my grandparents. They are old, but they can take care of themselves. I am the most filial among their grandchildren. One, I usually steal vegetables from relatives and send them over, but whenever it rains, I will buy vegetables and send them over.My filial piety made my grandpa and grandma very proud. The neighbors all praised my grandpa and grandma for their good life and good grandson.Because I often steal food from relatives to give to my grandfather, I was reprimanded several times by relatives. I refuted it once and asked them: "If your children are not as filial as I am in the future, will you feel sad?" They were asked by me. I was speechless and had no choice but to give up. It seemed that my relatives were just ordinary people, so ordinary that they didn't want to lose their interests or conscience.

I drove home in the car in a daze, and Sanbao accompanied me. Although my beloved was by my side, I was really sad and couldn't be happy at all.When I was a few hundred meters away from my grandfather’s house, I saw the white canvas hanging at the door and a group of people in filial piety clothes. I burst into tears, and the cousin who came to greet me wanted to smile at me. Seeing my crying face, I suppressed my smile in a daze.I still think to this day, how did you laugh, shouldn't you feel sad about Grandpa's death.I cried and ran into the mourning hall. I saw my mother, my father, and my uncles. My crying aggravated everyone's emotions. Everyone cried with me. I was so uncomfortable. I couldn't believe that people would die. Why did one of my friends die suddenly?I was just in awe when I saw other people’s funerals, and I didn’t feel how real everything was until I was in my own body. My grandfather was lying there, just as real as when he was alive, but he couldn’t get up and call me anymore, and he couldn’t pet me anymore. Smiling at me subduedly, I can no longer show a gratified expression when I deliver food, no one protects me, no one stands at the door to greet me... I can't believe the fact that my grandfather didn't It's gone... I don't know how to express my feelings, I only know how to cry, I only know that Sambo came with me, and I am not happy.In the past, love was more important than everything else. Only now did I feel that family affection is what I value most. Facing the feelings of family affection in my heart, I almost gave up the feeling of love.This is the impact of my grandfather's death. It is uncomfortable, and family affection is greater than love.

The funeral was simple, and there were quite a few people who came, almost all of them were neighbors. I don’t know how I got here in those few days. I just realized that Sambo was still by my side.

I took him around the county town and ate a few things that he had eaten when he was a child. He even went to a small shop opened by my relative to buy an ice cream and told me that he chose the biggest one for three yuan.I borrowed an electric scooter, and Sanbao took me on a bike. We walked through the streets and alleys of the county. The weather was fine, neither hot nor cold. It was the most suitable day for riding an electric scooter, and we happened to be riding.

With the wind blowing across the cheeks, it is refreshing, accompanied by a touch of sunshine, and the lingering dust and exhaust in the air. As far as we can see, we are all relaxed.I am very grateful to Sambo for his company during those few days, which made me feel a little more relaxed. People cannot be resurrected after death, and my life must move forward.

I invited a few friends from my hometown to have dinner together, and I introduced Sanbao to them. I was still a little awkward, but Sanbao was very calm. I said this was my brother, Brother Bao.Everyone joked that people called Brother Bao are very ambiguous these days.I pretended not to understand what they said, but Sanbao smiled hehe. Sanbao should be sad that I didn't bring him home for family contact this time, but I didn't know at the time that his brothers I thought that Sanbao had entered the door with me this time, but in fact, he didn't even touch the door.I am still afraid, the fear is subconscious, even when I don't know where the fear is, I have already made a decision for myself.I opened a room for Sanbao, and I went home to stay with my grandma at night, and came out to meet him during the day.In just two days, Sanbao accompanied me through many roads I walked when I was a child, and there are still many roads I haven't walked.The alleys that I don’t know, the two of us have also explored by bicycle together. Sanbao tasted many snacks I have eaten, including the barbecue at night, and he also exclaimed that it was delicious.That's for sure, the county is small, and they are all neighbors. Everyone can find out which ones are doing barbecue, so most of the barbecue stall owners are very responsible and honest. The whole lamb is hung on it, and it is ordered immediately. Cut, the meat is rich and flavorful, and even the roasted gluten is cut twice as thick as that in H City. I ate three treasures, and I ate them for two days. I saw that I could satisfy the three treasures with only 100 yuan, and I was very happy in my heart. hapiness.

In the past few days at home, Sanbao completely abandoned his usual prudence, and just ran around with me like a child. Our electric car went through the streets and alleys, leaving him turning his head and talking to me. I hugged his waist firmly.

Young love is so simple, all you need is an electric car, the person you love just loves you, he takes you, rides on the road, it doesn't matter what you say, as long as there is wind, sunshine, and a profile , There are smiles, dust, snacks, barbecues, low-rise buildings that have remained unchanged for thousands of years, the sun that is consistent with the sky, the simplicity of being 21 years old, and the beauty of being 21 years old.I just need love, you just show up, there is no reason, I just like it.

After returning to H City, I had dinner with Sanbao’s friends. After the meal, his friend teased us and asked us if my hometown was fun. I didn’t notice Sanbao’s face at the time, and exaggerated a lot of details without shame. He said that his friends wanted to go. His eyes stopped me from exaggerating.I still didn't understand at the time.Until a few days later we quarreled over a small matter, and the quarrel became urgent. He said he couldn't get me, so he started to fight. I was so angry that I started to break up again. He became angry and accused me of taking him home but not taking him in. Sit down and say that his friends are laughing at him.I never thought that this would happen again, I didn't feel that Sanbao would care so much, maybe everyone thought that we must go back this time to meet our parents, even if we don't admit that we are lovers, we will be introduced as friends, But I left him in the hotel for three or four days, and didn't even tell him where the door was.I just became dazed, it turned out that Sanbao cared so much about my acceptance, it turned out that I really didn't accept him in my heart.Look, the relationship when you were young is like this, one moment you love to the death, and the other moment you want to break each other.I really can't stand him attacking us whenever we quarrel, relying on the fact that I can't beat him, this is almost the key to the quarrel between him and me, and the weapon I fight back is: "break up." This is what he hates the most As the saying goes, break up as soon as there is a quarrel. Whenever this happens, I will be beaten even harder.The most irritating thing is that he ran away after beating me, and disappeared for a few days. He would inevitably run amok outside, sometimes he ran to the bathing place to hide, and when the money was spent and there was no money to settle the bill, I had to redeem him, such things He also did it more than once or twice, and every time I was so angry that I swore to break up, thinking about redeeming him and going to sleep immediately. Coax well on the bed.Arguing with him directly affects my mood and my study. Whenever I quarrel, I will skip class, lie at home angry, don’t get up without brushing my teeth, and resolutely refuse to eat if I’m not hungry.Thinking about my not fat body at that time, it may have a lot to do with frequent quarrels and skipping meals.

Pharaoh hasn’t paid me back yet, Erhei has come here more frequently, I feel that Erhei has been very rich recently, and sometimes Sanbao will go to their room to play for a while. I feel terrible. Sometimes I go to Sanbao for a whole night. Every time I go there, I always knock on the door. The door is still playing cards when the door is opened. Sometimes I stick to the door to listen. I think they are doing something wrong.The day to repay the money was getting closer, and Pharaoh didn't come over anymore.Xiao Yan invited me to dinner once, when Sanbao didn't sleep at night and didn't get up during the day.Xiao Yan still can't hide his love for me, ordering dishes is what I like to eat, and the topic is also what I am interested in, even when I go home, he will bring me a book he once mentioned, and even the tableware that needs to be ironed before meals Also help me get ready, I was overwhelmed by his tenderness and meticulousness, but he kept comforting me, we are all friends, you don't have to be polite, just treat me as a brother.I feel that I have a clear conscience and enjoy Xiao Yan's contributions. We get along very happily. He didn't mention love. I pretended not to know and just got along so well. To be honest, I really treat him as a friend. I just think everyone gets along well. Come on, young people, it's always right to make more friends.