only care about this life

Chapter 62 Long time no see

Gu Jinsheng was looking for Xie Jiu'an and his two precious sons in the mall with a cup of sundae in one hand.

Today is their family activity day, and one night a week, Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiuan will bring their treasures out for activities—for example, they just watched a happy movie last week, but the two men brought their two children to watch the movie The combination is really strange, plus Xiaobao is really beautiful, cute and eye-catching, if you ignore their skin-to-ceiling strength.

Today's show is to buy some new clothes and toys in the newly opened shopping mall here. Even though Gu Jinsheng himself thinks about living frugally, the two children are still reluctant to be frugal in terms of food and clothing—not to mention him After seeing the big business of Xie's family, he also understands that he probably won't be able to be diligent and frugal in his life.

It’s just that the child is still young, Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiu’an still pay attention to guiding the children to be economical. For example, Gu Xiaobao eats like his teeth are leaking. Every time he eats, his face is covered with rice grains. Gu Jinsheng taught him to recite "Compassion for Farmers" word by word, and explained it to him with the most simple principles.Little friend Gu Xiaobao immediately opened his eyes wide, and the soft yellow hair on the top of his head shrugged listlessly, "Father, Xiaobao made a mistake, he must eat well in the future."

As for Xie Dabao, he obviously loves the new and dislikes the old, especially when it comes to toys.After begging Xie Jiu'an to buy a new car but failed to get permission, Xie Dabao, who was full of crooked ideas, simply stuffed the tired toys out of the balcony railing and threw them downstairs, hoping to create the illusion that the toy was lost and try to trick him into getting a new car again. ——He was directly beaten by Xie Jiu'an with the fat in his arms.

At that time, even the kid Xie Dabao cried pitifully with tears in his eyes, "Dad, Dad help—" Gu Jinsheng hardened his heart and did not help him.Gu Xiaobao, however, saw his brother being spanked, and shed tears along with him, and tugged at Jiu Ye's trousers, "Dad, stop beating brother, Xiaobao will share half!"

Mr. Xie, who spoiled his grandson so much, blew his beard and stared, feeling so distressed, he picked up Xiaobao and snatched the big one, "Isn't it just a toy car, it's worth a few dollars, and our family still doesn't need that little money!"

But still at the insistence of Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiuan, he brought little Xie Dabao back from the bushes to pick up the car he had lost—the car with a broken wheel, Xie Jiuye insisted on letting Dabao play for a month before agreeing re-bought.Since then, the little Xie Dabao knew that his father and father would not allow him to do this.The child is still young, but he finally understands that he doesn't get what he wants, even if everyone pampers him.

So, when they were in the children's clothing store just now, Xie Dabao and Gu Xiaobao were promised that they could buy one set of clothes today, but only one set—there is no shortage of clothes at home. I will buy it again next time.So the two stinky kids also developed a bad habit - they don't like to wear repetitive clothes.

What they are wearing today must have been worn when the moon was over, so that they will not be able to remember.

So, just because he could only be promised to buy one set, Xie Dabao and Gu Xiaobao tossed Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiu'an in the store for a long time——Child Xie Dabao stood in the middle of the store domineeringly, feeling that there was no set of clothes here that could match his handsome.And kid Gu Xiaobao suffered from choice syndrome, and his tender hands were touching that one, pinching this one—then, holding back his little mouth, he pounced on Xie Jiu'an full of grievances, "Dad—it's so sad, Xiaobao can't I know which one I want, and each one is very good." Xie Jiu'an was so distressed that he touched the silky yellow lanugo on Gu Xiaobao's head, wishing he could buy the whole store and give it to his son.

The little girls in the store were all onlookers - the two big handsome guys took the two young handsome guys to choose clothes, and the two little buns were so cute. At first glance, the facial features and faces were very similar, after all, they were twins.But it’s easy to tell them apart if you look closely—the elder brother with a fart expression, black hair and black eyes, shining like stars; the younger brother who is as cute as a kitten, with lighter hair and eyes.

Finally, Gu Xiaobao picked the one he was most satisfied with, and Xie Dabao followed his younger brother - I will wear whatever my younger brother wears, we are brothers!Hearing this, Gu Jinsheng hugged him and kissed him for a while.

After the tossing was finally over, the children clamored for ice cream, and then Xie Dabao said he wanted to pee, and Gu Xiaobao said that his brother peed, and Xiaobao also wanted to pee——Xie Jiuan felt that bringing these two guys out was simply a use torture yourself.He had no choice but to take him to the bathroom, and then Gu Jinsheng went to buy ice cream.

"Fortunately, Dabao and Xiaobao are boys, otherwise, I wouldn't even be able to go into the toilet!" Jiu Ye said with curled lips.

KFC was on the first floor, and Gu Jinsheng went upstairs to find their father and son after he finished shopping.Because Xie Jiu'an thought that the bathroom on the children's clothing floor was full of mothers, and Jiuye, who couldn't stand the onlookers, decided to take Xiaobao to the bathroom on the men's clothing floor after being asked questions by several mothers.

So, Gu Jinsheng just took two cups of sundae, looked around as he walked, and searched in the shopping mall, which was brightly lit like daytime. Today is the weekend, and there are quite a lot of people.

Zhou Ziqian was standing at the door of a men's clothing brand, pinching out his cigarette, with several bags in his hand.

Just when he threw the cigarette butts into the stainless steel trash can and looked up casually, he saw a person on the opposite side, a person who was so familiar and so unfamiliar that he thought the light was too dazzling, so it was an illusion—it was familiar because, that person , his eyebrows and eyes have not changed at all, three or four years have passed, that person still seems to be living in the same way he once remembered - delicate eyebrows, blond hair cut to only a stubble, eyes in the light of the shopping mall Under the refraction, it looks like a glazed bead that has been illuminated to a transparent level, and even his bewildered expression when he looks around is exactly the same as when Zhou Ziqian saw him for the first time.

How time has changed, why some things remain the same forever, such as people walking in a circle, such as Kong Luo who seems to have a hole in his heart.

Zhou Ziqian squinted his eyes, only to feel that a boulder had been thrown into the dead water in his heart-suddenly set off waves, which rippled away circle after circle, and lasted for a long time.

I don’t know which store is playing Eason Chan’s songs, fluttering and fluttering, those lyrics are like a curse, drilled into Zhou Ziqian’s ears, and his heart is about to wrinkle——

How I want to meet you and see how you've changed recently

Don't say it used to be just greetings

Saying a word to you is just saying a long time no see

The street I'm familiar with with the photo you gave

It's just that without your picture we can't go back to that day

……

The last time Zhou Ziqian listened to this song was more than two years ago. At that time, after more than a year of decadence, he finally decided to drop everything and go abroad to live with his parents for a period of time.During the more than a year of being separated from Gu Jinsheng, all he did every day was remembering and thinking. When he was awake, he recalled their past days with pain, and after drinking, he felt in a daze that Gu Jinsheng was still alive. Be by your side, never go far.

He has done crazier things, for example, guarding outside the unit where Gu Jinsheng works day and night, just to sneak a look at him on the corner of the street.If Gu Jinsheng went to the police, it would be the happiest time for him, because he could quietly follow him and observe for half a day.For this reason, Zhou Ziqian deliberately bought a new car and changed the license plate.

He also tried to stay outside the neighborhood where they used to live together, watching the familiar home turn on the lights and then turn off the lights all night without sleep.He hypocritically thought of a sentence—there are thousands of lights in this city, which one is lit for him?

There used to be, and then, no more.

After being decadent for a long time, Zhou Ziqian finally knew that he couldn't go on like this anymore. He handed over the company to a trusted friend and went abroad suddenly.He went to many places, Venice, Austria, Greece, France... went out for a long time, then went back to the United States to live with his parents for a while, ran out again, and came back again.The strange and beautiful scenery, the intoxicating exotic atmosphere, and the occasional passer-by who catches his eye, he will indeed no longer be immersed in the memories of Gu Jinsheng.

It’s just that one day, when I was walking in a small European town, I passed a square, surrounded by people who were completely different from myself, the coffee and bread on the corner exuded a warm sweet smell, and the blue sky was dazzling , pigeons, white clouds.But it made him heartbroken--

Just because there was a Chinese man playing an acoustic guitar sitting by the square, Zhou Ziqian couldn’t move after listening to it, and asked him to sing it over and over again until the blue sky turned blood red and the pigeon disappeared in the shadow of the setting sun .

Zhou Ziqian threw a lot of tips, and only said one sentence from the beginning to the end, "What's the name of this song?"

""haven't seen you for a long time""

He knew that in this life, he would never forget it again.

Later, he returned to China, and transferred most of the company's business to Beijing with friends and partnerships. Most of the time, he stayed in Beijing, and he would not come back if he could. Moreover, he never appeared around him again. According to his friend's jokes, it was not easy for Zhou Ziqian to be idle for so long.

It's just that people are animals that are afraid of loneliness. The feeling of being lonely for a long time is an unbearable small-scale and small-scale invasion, which makes you irresistible.

Until Fang Yan's appearance, his handwriting was like his own, a bookish guy.When Zhou Ziqian saw him for the first time, he thought to himself, if Gu Jinsheng has also read so many books, he probably has this kind of temperament - handsome, with a bookish air all over his body, he is like Gu Jinsheng, peaceful and peaceful.

"Ziqian, what's the matter, why are you in a daze?" Fang Yan came out of the store, adjusted his glasses, and asked Zhou Ziqian's hand that seemed unable to even lift the bag.However, he still clearly felt that Zhou Ziqian was stiff.

And turning around the circular shopping mall, Gu Jinsheng, who was catching the figures of his son and Xie Jiuan in the arc of reflection, finally caught a certain fiery gaze.

Fang Yan followed Zhou Ziqian's gaze, and there was a man standing not far away, but it would not be too much to say he was a boy - simple and ordinary white t-shirt, jeans and sneakers, with the feeling of being washed out, but in the end there was no second The youthful jumping feeling of a boy in his early teens.But it gives people a warm and peaceful temperament.

And that person was obviously shocked by them, or more precisely, Zhou Ziqian beside him, staring at Zhou Ziqian with pale glass-like eyes in disbelief, almost choking the sundae in his hand Not sure.

Gu Jinsheng's reaction was actually quite simple. He once thought that it was inevitable that he would meet Zhou Ziqian again, but since that time, Zhou Ziqian seemed to have really evaporated from the world around him, so seeing him so suddenly, It really startled him.

And Zhou Ziqian had imagined the scene of meeting Gu Jinsheng countless times, but he didn't expect it to be like this - Fang Yan, who had been together for a long time, was standing beside him, and Gu Jinsheng was alone in a place where people came and went Strolling in the mall.He frowned unconsciously, what about Xie Jiu'an who was jumping around beside him?At least, when he left, the two of them were still as good as one.

Zhou Ziqian couldn't restrain some long-awaited emotion and excitement.He took a few steps forward, and tried his best to smile peacefully at Gu Jinsheng, who was still in a daze, "Ah Sheng, long time no see, are you - okay?"

Only then did Gu Jinsheng come to his senses, and he said "ah" bluntly, holding up Sundae's hand at a loss, "Okay, pretty good." It seemed that he had answered an answer that was difficult to articulate.In fact, someone is still in a state of being too shocked and stunned.If Xie Jiuan saw this expression, he would definitely pull Gu Xiaobao and ask him, "Xiaobao, Xiaobao, daddy or daddy, you can only choose one!"

Gu Xiaobao will definitely use the exact same expression as Gu Jinsheng now to be stunned for a long time, then think hard, and then cry out aggrieved, "Xiaobao doesn't know how to choose, they are all good..."

This game has been played by several people in turn by Xie Jiuan—for example, grandpa is better than dad, dad is better than grandpa, Xiaobao is better than dad, Uncle Lu is better than Uncle Ji, etc. Gu Jinsheng and Mr. Xie despised him after repeated trials. Every time the old man would blow his beard and stare at Master Jiu, he would take the aggrieved Gu Xiaobao away.

But Zhou Ziqian wishfully thought that he had asked about Gu Jinsheng's sore spot - he is already alone now, and he and Xie Jiu'an had broken up long ago.You see, he knows that in this world, the most suitable person who loves Gu Jinsheng the most is Zhou Ziqian.

Fang Yan walked over from the side. He clearly felt that his boyfriend had a kind of affection for this man, which was so naked that he obviously felt that the crisis was approaching.

"Ziqian, why didn't you introduce him? Is this your friend here?" Fang Yan leaned against Zhou Ziqian and smiled at Gu Jinsheng in a friendly manner, but immediately separated the relationship between the three of them.To use a cliché, Zhou Ziqian and Fang Yan stood in front of Gu Jinsheng like a match made in heaven.Both of them were well-dressed and well-dressed, but it made Gu Jinsheng, who came out in old T-shirts, look a little too simple to be too plain.

However, Xie Jiu'an sometimes dresses more simply than Gu Jinsheng—with a baby, it is delusional if you want to go out in a suit and leather shoes!Only by wearing the most comfortable and simplest clothes can you follow behind the little kid to escort left and right, chase back and forth, and don’t feel bad if it’s dirty or wrinkled.

No matter how dull and dull Gu Jinsheng is, he still knows that this is Zhou Ziqian's new partner, but, looking at the intimacy of the two of them going shopping and buying clothes together, it should be more than just a simple play.However, speaking from the bottom of my heart, this newcomer is pretty good.The honest Gu Jinsheng thought to himself, at least it was much better than the one who separated him and Zhou Ziqian—wearing rimless glasses, gentle, handsome and clean.

"Hello, my name is Fang Yan." Even the voice was gentle and pleasant.

"Hello, I'm Gu Jinsheng, a friend of Zhou Ziqian." Then he looked at the two cups of sundae in his hand with embarrassment, "I'm sorry!"

"It's okay, didn't I reach out for a handshake?" Fang Yan said thoughtfully with a smile.

Zhou Ziqian calmed down his emotions a little, glanced at the two cups of ice cream in Gu Jinsheng's hand, frowned and said in the same tone as before, "Why do you still love sweets so much, and eat two cups at once greedily? Aren't you afraid of stomach pain?"

Gu Jinsheng ignored Zhou Ziqian's tone and was about to explain, when someone hugged his calf from behind suddenly, and then a crisp voice came from under him, "Dad, where is my sundae, I want to eat sundae!"

Zhou Ziqian was surprised to see a small boy standing next to Gu Jinsheng's legs, with yellow and soft hair that was almost blowing in the wind, and big round eyes, staring at himself and Fang with aura. Yan looked at it.However, he still didn't forget to hug Gu Jinsheng's legs, and looked at him and the sundae in Gu Jinsheng's hand for a while, obviously very greedy.

It's like a scaled down Gu Jinsheng, but the eyebrows are a bit different when you look closely.

"This is, your son?" Zhou Ziqian felt his jaw drop from shock. Not only did he meet Gu Jinsheng today, but he even has a son—there is no need to doubt, the child who is holding on to Gu Jinsheng's calf. It must be Gu Jinsheng's son, it's exactly the same.

Gu Jinsheng had no choice but to take care of his son first, quickly picked up the child, stuffed a sundae into his hands, and coaxed Gu Xiaobao to call, "Be good, Xiaobao, call Uncle Zhou."

Little Gu Xiaobao was completely attracted by the sundae, his long eyelashes drooped like a butterfly, and all his attention was given to the sundae in his hand.The little one is holding the small spoon with his fingers. He doesn't know whether to call Uncle Zhou first or try the sundae first.

In the end, the little guy still raised his head, obediently took a mouthful of the sundae and yelled vaguely, "Hi Zhou Huhu." Comrade Gu Jinsheng quickly took out a small white handkerchief from his pocket and wiped the black spots on Baozi's face. Chocolate, deftly moving.

Fang Yan suddenly felt relieved, smiled and began to tease Gu Xiaobao, "Uncle Fang! This child is really beautiful, but he looks like you, not like mother."

Gu Xiaobao is a surrogate, and even Gu Jinsheng has never seen what his mother looks like, so Comrade Xiao Gu can only smile awkwardly.

Unexpectedly, Zhou Ziqian immediately asked, "Ah Sheng, are you married?"

"Xiaobao doesn't have a mother, only dad!" In Gu Xiaobao's heart, the role of mother has been replaced by Master Jiu.Gu Jinsheng hugged his son who was about to bury his face in the sundae, and smiled awkwardly with Zhou Ziqian. At this moment, he just wanted to hug Gu Xiaobao and get away quickly.

"Father! Where's Dabao's sundae! I want it, I want it too!" Kid Xie Dabao jumped towards Gu Jinsheng like a bullet, seeing that his younger brother had already eaten it, he was burning with rage—the chance to be allowed to eat ice cream Not much.

Followed by Xie Jiu'an, who was carrying big bags and small bags, shouted, "Dabao, your skin is itchy, run after your brother! Slow down for me! If you fall, I will beat you up!" Short, on the contrary, it is easy to sneak around in the crowd.

Gu Jinsheng looked at Zhou Ziqian's expression of shock that could no longer be described in words, and thought to himself, it's all here now.

Xie Dabao took Gu Jinsheng's other arm, holding his own cup and began to move.Zhou Ziqian watched Gu Jinsheng skillfully hold each child.

"Da Bao is Xie Jiu'an's son, they are twins, surrogate." Gu Jinsheng explained frankly.

Poor Master Jiu carried clothes, toys, cars, a building block set, a set of toy trains and other children's items, and finally killed him.Seeing the person who stood up with Gu Jinsheng, he was taken aback for a moment, no wonder there was a faint smell of human scum just now - it turned out to be this guy!

But first he glanced at Zhou Ziqian casually, and began to teach his son a lesson, "Dabao! Next time you run around with your brother like this, you don't have to come out!"

"I brought Xiaobao here because I saw my father! Dad, anyway, you will follow Dabao like a follower!" Xie Dabao said confidently.

Xie Jiu'an's brows twitched, there were outsiders, he had to hold back.

Zhou Ziqian had imagined all kinds of life of Gu Jinsheng now, but he couldn't bear to inquire about it, and he didn't want to check it. But he had imagined thousands of things, but he never thought that Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiu'an could live their lives like this—— It's so beautiful.Really, he just thought of this word, one of them was holding the child, and the other was carrying the child's things around the person who was holding the child.

The child in his arms seemed to tell others plainly, you see, how much we love each other, so much that we can have a home smoothly.Lovers, children, nothing could be better.

He thought, if it wasn't for the past, wouldn't it be him who is holding Xiaobao who looks exactly like Gu Jinsheng now?There are also two soft and lovely children called themselves and Gu Jinsheng's father?

Without him, Gu Jinsheng would be fine.

Zhou Ziqian smiled stiffly at Xie Jiu'an, "Xie Jiu'an, long time no see."

Master Jiu looked like a 24-year-old father, but he was short of putting a sign on his body, carrying a bunch of things from his sons, thinking, why don't we disappear!But seeing that Zhou Ziqian didn't mean anything malicious, Gu Jinsheng was standing next to him, and Gu Jinsheng was holding their two precious sons. His life was not better than Zhou Ziqian's 01:30.

So he hooked the corner of his mouth extra generously, "Yeah, long time no see."

It's been a long time since Zhou Ziqian even had a serious lover. Master Jiu glanced at Fang Yan beside Zhou Ziqian, and commented that he was much better than that enchanting man back then, and it was okay.It's just that, with a little lump, he thought that he was of the same type as his family in this life.

The two children ate up the sundae in a short time, and they were arguing to eat.However, Zhou Ziqian tried his best to invite Gu Jinsheng and the others to have dinner together. Fang Yan is not annoying. He said that it is rare to meet Zhou Ziqian's old friends. precious.

Although today's family dinner for a family of four seems to be impossible, but Xiaobao was hugged by Zhou Ziqian, and Fang Yan also claimed to let Gu Jinsheng rest and hug Dabao. Xie Jiuan thought, if you don't eat for nothing, someone invites you to dinner , not good!Master Jiu thought darkly, at this time, if I don't show you that A Sheng and I are as affectionate as the sea, my son is cute and our family is harmonious, how long will we wait!

So he uncharacteristically pulled Gu Jinsheng to agree.Gu Jinsheng was dragged helplessly by the three of them, and Xiaobao, who had been promised to take them to buy new toys, was completely lost!

Zhou Ziqian just wanted to take one more look at Gu Jinsheng, maybe the next one, and he didn't know how long he would have to wait.

It's just that his current happiness still makes him hard to let go. The person who should share these happiness with him is him, not Xie Jiu'an who suddenly appeared at that time.

Seeing the two of them coaxing the two sons to eat with one red face and the other white face, the movements are skillful and the operations are skillful, and the family of four is very close.And he and Fang Yan beside him were outsiders watching their family's happiness—their relationship, love and family relationship were as solid as a wall, and he didn't even find a crack to invade.

Except for occasional Zhou Ziqian picking up food for Gu Jinsheng and finding some topics to talk to him, Gu Jinsheng was so busy that he didn't even give him any extra glances.Never thought that Gu Jinsheng would have a child one day. It turned out that the person he loved looked like this when he was a father.

Seeing Gu Jinsheng's expression remained the same, but gently coaxing Xiaobao to eat, Zhou Ziqian felt mixed feelings.

Fang Yan took chopsticks for Zhou Ziqian, smiled gently and said with undisguised envy, "It turns out that people like us can live so happily as a family. Ziqian, looking at them, I feel We have hope for the future.”

"Yes, there is hope, hope." Zhou Ziqian said to himself.

After feeding Xiaobao and putting the children on the ground for them to play, Gu Jinsheng and Xie Jiuan were free to eat and chat with Zhou Ziqian and the others.

Hearing Fang Yan said that he was envious of the life he and Xie Jiuan had now, Gu Jinsheng smiled and said to Zhou Ziqian, "You and Fang Yan are fine now."

Zhou Ziqian thought bitterly, "Ah Sheng, you will never know that there is a feeling that once the sea was too difficult for water."

His only hope in life is to find someone who can make do with it to the end of his life.The person who promised to love him for a lifetime is gone.

Like in that song--

It's just that without your picture, we can't go back to that day.