one way street

Chapter 9

[-], July [-]th, rainy day.

Think he likes me, I'm pretty sure.

My heart shrouded in despair revived again. After nearly a month's absence, I finally had thoughts again.

This may be the last time I write a diary, the last time.

Looking back on the past three years, I am grateful for the existence of Nian. He let me know what love is and what happiness is. Although there are occasional quarrels, through these, I understand that Nian is the only partner in my life.

thank him.

I want this last diary to represent the future between me and him. Although there are occasional empty palms, no matter how many winds and rains, he is always by my side, always there.

I really couldn't bear to refuse, so I had no choice but to bite the bullet and take it.

I visited Li Yun the next day, and he truthfully confessed the incident that night. Sure enough, everything was as described in the document. Li Yun was drunk, but insisted on driving on the road, and finally bumped into Po who was walking home.

Li Yun was panicked, frightened, and regretted the mistakes he had made.

I told him what Professor Li meant, and he seemed to have known it beforehand. When I said it, he showed no surprise, but kept asking how to respond in court to avoid responsibility.

I'm a little disappointed.I looked at him, resisting the urge to walk away.

The judge who held the trial that day was an old acquaintance of Professor Li, and he seemed to have a good friendship. The professor had already visited the judge first, so I finally realized what it meant to cover up.

The judiciary is like a big dye vat. It always thinks that the law can uphold social justice and avenge people's grievances. As everyone knows, the darkness of the judiciary is like silk that has fallen into the dye vat. It is stained with filth and filth. The more you want to get rid of it, the more If you can't get rid of it, the more you get stuck in it, the more dirty you will be unknowingly.

After saying goodbye to Li Yun, I wandered outside for a long time, the sun was setting from the sky, the lights were just coming on, and the stars were slowly rising.

It's time to go home.

Before opening the door, I struggled for a while, but the light inside was still dim, which meant that Xiang Cheng hadn't come back yet.

He has been busy filming these few days, and he always procrastinates until late at night before returning home.

Flip the switch, bang bang bang bang, white light illuminates the interior furnishings.

I sat on the sofa, Li Yun's incident made me physically and mentally exhausted. As soon as my buttocks felt soft, the fatigue swept over me, my head was groggy, and I gradually fell asleep.

I don't know how long time has passed.

Vaguely, I felt my body floated up and fell into a pool of warm water, and my whole body was covered by warm liquid.

The sound of splashing water rang in my ears.

I opened my eyes, and the surrounding scenery changed, the wall became the beige tiles in the bathroom, with a hot chest on the back, and a pair of arms around my waist surrounded me behind themselves, locking me into his arms.

I looked back at him, and as soon as I saw him, I turned around and buried myself in his chest.

The nasal cavity is full of familiar smells, so reassuring.

I closed my eyes again.

"Read, are you tired?" His voice echoed in my ears.

I nod against his chest.

His hands touched my back, stroking.

Xiang Cheng, I'm so tired, really tired.I really want to tell him all this, but I can't, I can't say anything, I can only struggle alone, lingering in the dark and ugly justice.

"Xiang Cheng, if one day I stop being a lawyer and become a vagrant, will you look down on me?"

"Read, why didn't you become a lawyer?" he asked.

I shook my head, "It's okay, just asking."

"If you stop being a lawyer, I can support you." He declared boldly.

"Stupid, what do you support me with? You're just a little actor..."

"Who said that! Just wait and see, when the drama at hand is released, I guarantee that I will become so popular that no one in Taiwan does not know who Xiang Cheng is."

I smiled, but I was a little moved, because of his silly words, "I support you".

But Xiang Cheng, do you know that Ke Nian doesn't rely on anyone.

Even if one day he is poor and destitute, he will not tell anyone. This is Ke Nian's strong personality.

Xiang Cheng's masculinity kept lingering in my nasal cavity, I suddenly wanted to kiss him, I held back for a while, I took a bite on his tender chest, he gasped, I smiled wickedly, and lifted He raised his head and kissed his lips.

The emotion was natural, and I took the initiative to lead the kiss, sweeping all parts of Xiang Cheng's mouth, the kiss was very intense, and I left a lot of saliva in his mouth.

This was a long and deep kiss, the more I kissed, the more throbbing I was, wishing that Xiang Cheng would rush into my body, mess with me fiercely, and push back against my sensitive parts.

The mouth was moist inside and out, there was my saliva and Xiang Cheng's. After the kiss, I withdrew and sucked his upper lip once and for all.

Thumping, pounding, that is the sound of the heart beating fast.

I stared at him with tears in my eyes, moved my body, and sat between his waist and abdomen instead.

His desire was already swollen, I pressed my hips and rubbed back and forth provocatively.

"Xiang Cheng...Xiang Cheng...come in quickly..."

He stretched his two fingers slightly, then lifted my waist, and led me to sit down towards his desire. The part that has been used to making love easily swallowed the huge stick in one bite. I frowned and sat directly on the bottom, the buttocks When I touched Xiang Cheng's thigh, I felt my stomach swell, as if it was about to explode.

He started to move slightly, and every time he withdrew deeply, he brought in the warm water in the bathtub, and with each impact, the water splashed everywhere.

I gasped for breath, my lower body was numb and sore, but it was so comfortable that I was intoxicated.

I really like it, I really like the feeling of being in contact with Xiang Cheng's skin.

He occupied me, disturbed my world, let me feel his overbearing, his majesty.

The scorching tunnel clearly depicts the wanton body and heat in the body, and the intestinal mucosa is stirred to the point of melting.

The orgasm came so violently and violently that I couldn't bear it, my toes curled up in an unbelievable arc, I yelled, my body tensed up, and then my whole body was weak and I leaned against Xiang Cheng limply.

He hasn't ejaculated yet, the rhythm of possession continues to deepen.

I looked at him, the handsome face, with sweat dripping from the forehead and temples, I stood up and grabbed the tight lips in front of my eyes again.

I thought that as long as I didn't say anything, Xiang Cheng would never know that I was Li Yun's defense lawyer.

But, it turns out, my idea is really too stupid.

Before going out in the morning, Xiang Cheng told me that today is Abao's first seven days, and he will go to Abao's house to worship him.

At the moment, a sense of uneasiness suddenly arose in my heart.

He wanted to call Xiang Cheng to stop, but he closed the door and left.

At noon, Xiang Cheng came to the office angrily, looking very angry with unforgiving eyes.

"Nian, I heard from Abao's mother. He said that the person who helped the other party in the lawsuit was a lawyer named Ke Nian. Nian, is that you?"

I suppressed my tension, sat on the office chair, and looked at him calmly. "Um."

"It's really you!?"

I nodded again.

"Why?" he asked me.

"what why?"

"Why do you want to sue for the other party?"

"He is the son of my university professor." I replied.

"So what? You can refuse."

"A business approached me, and the other party was my mentor. Why should I refuse?" I asked back.

"Read!" He stared at me with wide eyes, maybe he didn't believe that this sentence would come out of my mouth.

"I don't think it's necessary for me to say no."

"Yeah, you promised me."

"I do not understand what you mean."

"You promised me that you would never file a lawsuit for someone who made a mistake, didn't you?"

My heart suddenly skipped a beat, and my uneasiness became even stronger. I turned my face away, and said against my conscience: "Yes, I promised you, but the professor and the others did nothing wrong. At that time, Po rushed out by himself. Ma Lu, Li Yun just ran into Po when he couldn't dodge, at that time Li Yun also took a drink test, he didn't drink—"

"Nonsense! You are talking nonsense!" Xiang Cheng yelled suddenly, with resentment on his face.

I am stunned.

"Nian, don't tell me, you don't know that person is driving drunk!"

Xiang Cheng knew it, he really knew it!

Why?Why would he know about this?The news is obviously blocked tightly, why?

I was so shocked that I couldn't say a word, I just looked at him in astonishment, unable to speak.

"Nian, why don't you speak? Are you guilty?"

I never recovered from my astonishment.

Xiang Cheng strode up to me, less than one meter away.

"Nian, can you refuse them?" Xiang Cheng's voice softened a bit, with a bit of pleading.

I came back to my senses, and suddenly, I remembered the appearance of the professor that day, not only the professor, but also my father’s bow at a ninety-degree angle many years ago, my throat was a little tight, and after a while, I said: "No .”

"Read! Why are you so stubborn? They are not good people. They even bribed the police to give false testimony in a drink test, and even tried to hide the fact of drunk driving... Such a hateful scum, why do you want to sue for them? Why? They Not worthy!"

After yelling in one breath, Xiang Cheng's voice weakened, and he continued: "Nian, do you know? Bao is a single-parent family. His father died early, and he was raised by his aunt since he was a child. The mother and son depended on each other. When I was four, my aunt was diagnosed with cancer, which was the second stage. Fortunately, it was discovered early. At that time, Abao resolutely dropped out of school and worked several jobs outside for his mother’s medical expenses and surgery expenses. Fortunately, the operation was successful in the end... The death of Ah Bao this time caused a great blow to his aunt. Before he died, Ah Bao told his mother about the situation at that time, and his mother knew that the other party was a drunk driver... If this lawsuit is lost, there is no way to help her. Ah Bao seeks justice, Auntie will definitely not be able to bear the blow...Nian, count me in, please, please? Please, can you please?"

Xiang Cheng begged me, and I fell into a dilemma.

I don't know, really don't know what to do next?

I didn't know that Bao had such a growth process.

If I withdraw my hand at this time, although the professor will not lose the lawsuit, but... He Shan is right, the professor is a mentor, without the professor's full support and support, the development of the firm today would not be the way it is It went well, the professor's favor had to be repaid, had to be repaid...

I lowered my head, not daring to look into Xiang Cheng's righteous eyes.

With my mouth opening and closing, I struggled to make a sound: "...Xiang Cheng, I'm sorry."

The atmosphere was deadlocked.

Xiang Cheng didn't speak.

I know he's still standing there, and his gaze is like a prickly needle that pricks me, makes me feel ashamed, makes me feel ashamed.

I don't know how long it took, it seemed like decades, or maybe only a few minutes passed, Xiang Cheng finally spoke——

"Ke Nian, I'm so disappointed in you."

The cold, ice-like voice pierced through the eardrums instantly.

I raised my face suddenly, but he had disappeared, as if he had never appeared before.

A burst of cold rushed up from the soles of the feet, paralyzing the brain, and the brain suddenly shut down.

A blank.

cold war.

Xiang Cheng had a cold war with me again.

He started coming home late, started not dumping me, and even when I talked to him, he always looked like he wanted to escape from me. I was a little angry, angry, and I didn't understand what's the point of arguing about such a thing?

Did he think I really wanted to take that case?Does he think I really love money?

What are you doing, wrong!it's not like that.

If it weren't for the favor on the left and the morality on the right, I wouldn't even touch this muddy water.

I explained it to him that day, but Xiang Cheng didn't dump me at all.

The boundaries in his heart are too clear, there is no darkness, no hard-to-demarcate areas.

It's either black or white.

I tried to talk to him, but he made excuses to avoid him, he didn't read the note I left on the table, he was going to drive me crazy, I never knew, so I cared about him so much, I even started to regret, started Think about whether you really want to pull your hands away from the case.

But as the court date approached day by day, I couldn't get out at all.

The calendar paper was torn off one by one, and finally it was August NO.16.

On the morning of the court session, before going out, Xiang Cheng gave me a deep look.

"I will accompany my aunt to the court today."

"..."

"Nian, there is still a chance to draw your hand now."

I held the handle tightly, and I didn't move.

"Nian, do you remember how my mother died?"

Xiang Cheng's words pierced through my head instantly, and I froze.

"In the second year of high school, my father had a car accident. The other party was driving drunk and driving in the wrong direction. My father was hit and flew out on the spot... My mother was busy morning and night for my father's medical expenses and legal fees. My own body was also damaged, and I suddenly died at home not long after, and the doctor said that I died from overwork.”

I haven't forgotten that what Xiang Cheng once said is still echoing in my ears, so I understand why Xiang Cheng is so persistent in this matter, and why he insists on me not to touch this case.

His mother died of overwork, but the biggest reason was the injustice of the judiciary, which was caused by the secret collusion between the government and businessmen. He didn't want me to be one of the accomplices. He hoped that I would remain an innocent and clean Ke Nian.

However, it was too late.It was too late.

Once you step into this world, you won't be able to live here safely without getting dirty.

There are too many professors in the judiciary. They didn’t reject the professor outright. Part of it was to repay the kindness, part of it was moved by the professor’s father’s love, and part of it was that if he really refused the professor and the professor gave an order, He and I How long can Shan stay in the legal profession?

Success is also Xiao He, failure is also Xiao He, this is just what he said.

Xiang Cheng, remember when I asked you "If one day I stop being a lawyer and become a vagrant, you will look down on me"?

Now, I want to ask you, if I become filthy and no longer the clean and innocent Ke Nian, will you despise me?

It's just that I couldn't ask, for a moment, I seemed to be able to hear Xiang Cheng's answer.

I stared at the door panel and said, "I'm sorry."

Pushing open the door, I straightened my waist and walked away with my head held high.

At that time, I didn't know that this lawsuit actually became the fuse of Xiang Cheng's complete break with me.

Not to mention, an innocent life was lost as a result.

"Last night in T City, a woman jumped to her death. A 46-year-old woman surnamed Zhang was suspected of being dissatisfied with the judicial decision. She jumped off the roof of her house at about 10:30 last night and died on the spot. There was a suicide note written by the deceased in her pocket. According to the neighbors, the deceased’s son died in a car accident a while ago. The deceased once confided to the neighbors that the perpetrator was drunk and driving, and the police tried to conceal the fact that he was drinking and driving...

Whether this judicial result is the main motive for the woman to jump off the building, we will make further follow-up reports for you after the prosecution announces the content of the suicide note. "

I stared at the TV screen, my mind blank.

How could this be?How could this be?

My hands trembled slightly, I pressed them down quickly, and pressed hard, but they still trembled slightly.

Po's mother died...

I have no thoughts, only fear, only fear.

A strong sense of fear enveloped me, as if something strangled my throat, and I felt a burst of difficulty breathing.

What will Xiang Cheng think of me?

I suddenly glanced at the room tensely, and then I realized that Xiang Cheng didn't come back all night yesterday, I waited for him in the room all night, until dawn, and finally I still didn't feel sleepy at all. I saw this news report on TV.

I didn't have the mind to think about what to do next. If the suicide note was made public and the professor's conspiracy was exposed, how would my life be impacted? I didn't think about it that much.

Sitting quietly in the living room, it was too quiet here, so quiet that it was breathless.

As if the seconds are like years, the time travel is too long, every minute and every second is torture, tossing people's hearts.

Suddenly, there was the sound of a key opening the door.

I immediately tensed up, panicking, not knowing what expression to make to face Xiang Cheng.

boom!

The door was pushed open angrily by the person who came, and hit the wall with a loud noise.

At the same time, it knocked on my heart, and my heart shrank suddenly.

The door was slammed shut, and the visitor broke into the living room without even taking off his shoes.

I could feel that he was standing right behind me, staring at me with hatred and hostility, and I didn't have the courage to look back at him.

"Ke Nian." He called me by first and last name, and his heart constricted even more.

I did not speak.

"Aunt is dead."

"...I know." As soon as I said it, I realized that my throat was tight.

"Do you have anything to say?"

I lowered my head and wrenched my fingers one by one, he was waiting for me to speak, I knew it, but I couldn't say anything, I knew it was me who killed Po's mother.It's my fault, I didn't listen to Xiang Cheng's words.

He said Po's mother couldn't bear another blow.It's me, I'm ignoring the meaning behind this sentence.

"I don't have anything to say," I said.

"Is that so... that's it."

I still bowed my head, clasping my palms and trembling frequently.

Suddenly, Xiang Cheng rushed in front of me, from top to bottom, staring at me with red eyes, regarded me as an enemy, with such an angry expression.

"Bastard! What do you mean you have nothing to say? Why, why can you say this so calmly! What is dying in front of you is a human life, a human being! Why can you be so indifferent? Your conscience is also Like the group of people, they were eaten by wild dogs?"

I narrowed my eyes and said coldly, "Why not? What do you want me to say? Excuse me? Okay, do you want to listen? Then let me say, let me say it! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

"Ke Nian, don't you think you are wrong now?"

Turning my face away, I said stubbornly, "I, Ke Nian, have never done anything wrong."

"...you!" He paused, then added after a moment, "I'm so disappointed in you."

During this period of time, the pressure from all directions kept rushing towards me, pressing on top of my head and I couldn't breathe. Xiang Cheng's words fell hard on my heart like a stick.

As if he could no longer bear it, this huge suffocation continued to expand and exploded in his chest instantly.

I looked at him, my temperature dropped, and said, "Who do you think you are, why should you teach me? I don't need you to tell me whether I am right or wrong." I snorted coldly, and said contemptuously, "Don't think that you have sex with me The first time I slept, I had sex a few times, and I thought I could control my thoughts. To me, you are not even a fart. I'm too lazy to have sex with you! Now, I've had enough of you, get out of here immediately!"

I don't know why I suddenly said these words.

I only know that if I keep quiet, Xiang Cheng will find out that I am afraid of him, and Xiang Cheng will find out that my momentum has defeated him. Therefore, in order to protect my face, I can only say more hurtful words , to suppress Xiang Cheng's anger and hatred.

I thought that as long as I said that, Xiang Cheng would immediately bow his head and apologize to me because he was afraid of being separated from me.

I waited, waiting for him to say "I'm sorry", waiting for him to say "Nian, it's all my fault, I don't want to leave".

But I waited and waited, but Xiang Cheng never spoke.

He just looked at me, for a moment, a touch of disappointment flew from his clear black eyes, and then disappeared, as fast as my illusion.

Suddenly, I started to feel uneasy.It seems that once I let go, Xiang Cheng will not take my hand again.

Fear and fear eroded my heart again.

I couldn't stand it anymore, and when I was about to speak, Xiang Cheng spoke first, "I promise you, I'll leave now." After a pause for half a second, he said again: "I lost that game, congratulations, congratulations I can finally get rid of my entanglement, and I will leave, leave completely.”

There was a sound of footsteps, I tensed up, and heard the door being opened.

"Ke Nian, goodbye."

Finally, the door closed and Xiang Cheng left.

I couldn't believe it, I jumped up and rushed to the entrance in one breath, secretly hoping that all this was Xiang Cheng's silly joke.

But I was disappointed.

There was no figure of Xiang Cheng at the entrance.

He's gone, really gone.

As if all the strength in my body had been drained, I leaned limply against the wall and slid against the wall to the ground.