Olives

Chapter 36

Hu Ziqiang stayed in Chunshui Hall, literally, Liu Yadong stayed in Lan Zhou's body overnight.Lan Zhou woke up and wanted to separate from him, but found that the flesh was glued to the flesh, as if they had been together for a long time.It's nearly September at this moment, it's not considered a few days of dog days, but it's so hot that people scold my mother, I am willing to hug like this, that is really love.

The dawn light leaked in, covering half of Liu Yadong's face. Lan Zhou looked at him carefully, his thoughts were very light, and it flew to nowhere.He touched Jiaolian's lower body with his back hand, and first thought: Am I really a woman?My dad, Quanxia, ​​will definitely scold me if you know it, and grandpa will also say that I am shameless and that I am a boy in vain.But what does it matter?Lan Zhou swings on the bridge of Liu Yadong's nose with his fingers.When I was young, I never acted like a baby on the knees of my relatives. I even forgot my father because I didn’t look back at my face for a long time. Love was godless, invisible, and there was no hint of shimmering in the corners. Lan Zhou thought, I didn’t at all Learned to love.

At that time, I often had the idea of ​​getting close to my father, wanting to be hugged by him, or even just close to his breath.

But never, he always glared sickly and hissed: "Contagion."

So the "father" was on the other side of the Niger.Lan Zhou would occasionally lie on the side of the sunken bed where he slept, pretending to be taken into his arms.These boring pursuits are not satisfied, and gradually become holes in his heart. If Liu Yadong is only blocked by gentleness, he will be humble and grateful, and he will be stuck in the mud, but he will overwhelmingly overthrow himself.What is the dignity of a boy?Pee standing up, don’t cry when it hurts, don’t be weak when you’re in pain, don’t flatter when you’re suffering, it’s lonely, stubborn and unhappy.If you are not happy, why would you want it?The teeth are broken and no new ones can grow. "If you are extremely happy, one second is a lifetime, don't care about the short and long." His father confessed in front of Bimo, saying, "So I am incompetent, and I can't make up my mind to quit drugs."

Lan Zhou is also addicted.He pulled out the stuffed thing in his body, the skin and flesh rubbed and stretched like taking off a sock, the stick kicked off, bounced and retracted for a while, and then fell down withered.No longer wet and warm, no longer strangled, no longer happy, Liu Yadong shrugged forward with trembling eyelids.Lan Zhouhan held it stickily and squeezed it, rolling his oily tip against his.Liu Yadong opened his eyes and said in a rough voice, "Are you looking for sex? Chuaner."

Lan Zhou trembled, didn't speak, just looked at him, and kissed him on the nose.

Liu Yadong touched the cover tucked under the pillow, turned over and pressed against him, "Open your legs."

"You're still soft."

Liu Yadong kissed him from the corner of his mouth to the root of his ear, "If you touch it, it will become iron."

I had an illegal job, and I was fined and detained. I was called an escort, and Liu Yadong thought that I was almost there—accompanying the shooter, running, and being a driver.

At the very beginning, Shao Jinquan asked like the people are the masters: "If you don't want to, you can refuse, everyone has the right to portrait, I will tell him." Liu Yadong asked: "Should I take pictures naked?" Shao Jinquan raised his eyebrows: "You What kind of messed-up TV do you usually watch? You want to be so biased." Liu Yadong laughed. "I don't know what he wants to photograph you." Shao Jinquan knocked on the table, "Aside from being stubborn, he is not a bad boy, so he should not be annoying to you." Liu Yadong said in his heart: Do you still care who hates it or not?Out of a subservient mentality, he didn't have the courage not to agree, Liu Yadong said it's okay, my face is worthless.

It's really hard to say whether Miao Qian has the talent of Bresson.What scene did you choose?Sushui Labor City, Sushui County No. [-] Middle School, Sushui Unfinished Building, etc.He said in a young but old-fashioned way that the brilliance of a person should lie in contradictions and constraints.

He only patted Liu Yadong's back and said, "Leave me alone, you go forward."

It's strange to be able to do whatever you want.But Liu Yadong seldom pays attention to the crowd, and there is no chance and no need for it. It is rare for someone to tell him, just walk forward and take a look, and do whatever you want.He's pretty blunt, and he's really free-spirited.

There are so many people in the Labor City, I can't figure out a single county, so there are so many people eager to beg for a meal?The job offers on the bulletin board were torn and pasted, pasted and torn, layers upon layers like fish scales.The people looking up don't show any expression, their mouths are half open, and they move their feet or heads in parallel with the reading speed.He lit a cigarette and walked on the outer edge, his eyes on the notice, masonry, plumber, driller... There are so many livelihood jobs that don't involve fighting or killing.Coincidentally, who and who clashed over the matter of stepping on one's foot, and the verbal debate escalated to physical manipulation. The recruiters stopped recruiting, and the job seekers stopped looking, clustered into a circle, surrounded by the protagonist, and looked around on tiptoe.Ben's face was all stunned, and in a blink of an eye, there was a smile on his face.Someone dropped the ballpoint pen, Gululu rolled out of the circle, Liu Yadong bowed to pick it up with his back to the crowd, smoke plume upwards.Miao Qian pressed the shutter button three meters away to take this frame.

County No. [-] Middle School is still like that, the copper characters in front of the door have been tarnished for a long time, and students who ring the bell after school are pouring out, like old deflated balls leaking air.Liu Yadong went to a small shop next to him to buy things, and he became an outlier among the crowd.He is tall, the student has a backpack on his back;First ordered two bottles of water, and then a bag of Ashima. When the girl heard that someone was buying cigarettes, she turned her head in amazement to see who it was.I didn't recognize him at first glance, but his face was raw but handsome, so he walked two steps away and turned his head frequently, whispering, covering his mouth and snickering.The man also glanced at him, with praise, disdain and resentment, "Which class is this kid from?" Liu Yadong found the money and came out, they parted to make way, their eyes stuck together.Miao Qian clicked.

It is said that the unfinished building was not sincerely intended to be unfinished, the roof was sealed, the developer was framed by a ghost, and turned bankrupt, leaving a few low-rise buildings on the banks of the Nerima River.Climbing up the stairs to the fifth floor, the four sides are exposed, the view is flat and wide, and you can overlook the shantytowns along the Changlian and the mixed and scattered riversides.Liu Yadong tried his best to stand close to the edge, stretching out one leg, trying to show his numb and desperate face to the camera, and a fake action that he wanted to jump down.

He is very smart and has not read much, but he knows how hypocritical and metaphysical Miao Qian's so-called "light" is.

"Oh." Miao Qian leaned against the concrete pillar, staring at the small screen, "I can't get the feeling I want..."

Liu Yadong probed down and looked down, there was a pool formed by rainwater at the bottom, with a layer of green moss floating on the surface, he couldn't die if he jumped into it. "You'll feel it if you pat it more, maybe it's because I'm not you." He smiled at him, speaking lightly, no matter how he heard it, there was a bit of sarcasm.

Miao Qian was also tired, hung the camera rope around her neck, sat down on the ground, and said with a smile, "I want to ask you something."

"You said."

"Do you really look down on me in your heart? It feels like a father messing around with a child, holding back the fire."

How the hell would I dare?I don't deserve it either, I just follow suit.Liu Yadong shook his head, "You think too much."

"Just tell me, it's fine."

"Really—no." Why don't you believe it?

"Then at least, you think I'm stupid?" Miao Qian added: "Hey, this is an academic discussion, chat, I swear on my graduation certificate that I'm not a snitch. Don't tell my brother. You're blunt!"

Having mentioned this point, Liu Yadong raised his eyebrows and did not deny it.

"Hey, do you really think I'm stupid?" Miao Qianle said, "I don't think so at all, I thought I was pretty cool!"

Liu Yadong also sat down, with the sand and stones on his back, his calves hanging in the air, dangling, "I can't say you're stupid, I think you... are quite simple, unlike anyone I've ever met before."

"This word is used." Miao Qian raised his eyebrows, "It's obviously not as old as me, and it speaks more old-fashioned than me."

Liu Yadong smiled, "I've always had this kind of virtue, which is annoying."

"So, do you think what I want to express is false? I don't think you are annoying, you are attractive, and many of my female classmates in college like your style."

"Basically."

"But I don't think it's fake."

"You're not me, and it's normal if you don't think so."

"Aren't you lost and desperate?"

"Occasionally a word twice." Liu Yadong tilted his head, "Your words are big and broad, and I'm just an ant, so I can't use them."

"In your heart, don't you desire to go to a normal high school? Live a normal life?"

"What is normal?" He really didn't know.

Miao Qian thought it was a rhetorical question, "But—"

"Just like you think that every beggar will shed tears of gratitude for a steel ball in the rice bowl, and you think that every chicken has a burden. You give me your hypothesis and let me act according to your hypothesis." You Just trying to be a prophet, or a savior.

Miao Qian's words froze on her lips.He asked after a while: "Then how can you show the real you? Really, a person like you?"

"I don't even know what I really am." Liu Yadong touched the bridge of his nose, "I'm just a fool."

Miao Qian raised her eyebrows, "Your hand?"

"Ah? Oh, a little injury." Rubbing four fingers, he lowered his head and glanced at his eyes.

"Broken? A small injury?!" Miao Qian stared, squatting forward, "I, I'll go!"

Liu Yadong felt that the obsession with "I'll go" was worthless, if you fuck your mother, you'll fuck your mother, I'll be the fart.He didn't hide it either, he was neither ashamed nor proud of it, he let him watch in amazement.

Miao Qian was stunned, and the question was very grand: "So, don't you think that fate is unfair to you?"

Liu Yadong was overjoyed, and said, "You are so interesting, who has the time to think about fate? Just live."

"We? Who else?" He asked tactfully.

Liu Yadong glanced at him, "What do you want?"

"Explore the grandeur of the universe and the tenacity of life."

So when Miao Qian came to knock on the door early in the morning, Liu Yadong and Lanzhou were so busy that they rolled to the ground and didn't care.

Shao Jinquan provided Miao Qian with a new place to go. Take bus 136 on Yinchating Road, get off after five stops, and walk 800 meters past the waterworks, which is Sushui Jinta Park.There are many people there, and there are many stories with them.

When Miao Qian met Lanzhou for the first time, he really liked his eyes, which were quiet but not too cold, clear but not too silly.He commented that "it looks like the big eyes of Project Hope", Lan Zhou shook his head and denied it, saying that his eyes are not big, Miao Qian smiled, saying it was a feeling, not a shape.

The bus was bumpy and stuffy and sweaty.Liu Yadong turned his head, approached Lan Zhou's ear and said, "Those are his eyes when he has never seen you being fucked by me."

Lan Zhou swung his arm at him, but Liu Yadong blocked him, and there was a slapping sound in the carriage.

"shut up."

Liu Yadong surrendered, "I was wrong."

Jinta Park has good greening, willows are planted everywhere, there is a roller slide at the entrance, and in the center is the tomb of the Northern Song Dynasty civil servants.There is a pond under the pavilion. The water used to be extremely cool and clear. In the summer of the 80s, 24 children were drowned one after another. The pond became a life-threatening pond. After that, the double-petaled lucidum was planted, and the carp was raised to make the ink painting cold and human. Once you see it, you will retreat.The 24 households who lost their only child are not worthy of being looked at by history, so they formed a group and established a poetry and dance club. They have a small gathering at the Hongyu Pavilion every Monday, and it has been the same for more than ten years.Shao Jinquan said: "They have been knocked down by history, but Xiaoliu is still struggling on the road. You can take a picture." Miao Qian was a little confused.

Liu Yadong didn't understand these things either, he just took it as a play and a companion.In the past two months, the stinky onion gang has called Miao Qian "little son" in private.Miao Qian clicked east and west, walking on a tree-lined road, with the breeze blowing, Liu Yadong went to hold Lanzhou's hand.He couldn't help himself in this situation, he felt that love can't always be fake, if you have that heart, you can't stand the key and the lock.

Lan Zhou was like being scalded by boiling water.Liu Yadong pinched it with some fingering method, "Did you go to prison with them yesterday?"

Lan Zhou looked out of shape, looked back and forth, and poked Liu Yadong's palm with his fingers, "Yeah."

"How is he?" Liu Yadong frowned, "You tickle me again?"

Lan Zhou was right, "I have gained weight, I seem to talk less, and my hair is gone."

"Nonsense, you have to shave your head in a labor camp."

Lan Zhou paused for a while, suddenly smiled, glanced at him and said, "He asked me if I was fucked by a dog man."

"Hold?"

Lan Zhou pulled the collar of his clothes, raised his head to reveal the red mark on his collarbone, "It was bitten by a dog man."

Liu Yadong helped him straighten his collar, "Still laughing? You are more shameless than me." After speaking, he was also happy.

"He said that we are the most free, whoever we want to love. He said he has a walkman behind the makeup mirror, and he gave it to me."

From a distance, I heard a chorus in the pavilion, the tune is "Singing the Motherland".Shuizhi is a lotus flower, it is in full bloom, but there is hardly any fragrance.Is it because the flowers in the county are not as good as those in the city?The pavilions are connected to the corridors, and there are mixed figures, in groups of three or five, those who eat and feed fish, those who play chess and watch chess, those who are in love, and those who do small business.The "poetry and dance club" that Shao Jinquan mentioned is easy to find. First, people are all gathered and singing, and second, they are all visibly aging and ruined, wearing white T-shirts with uniform prints, and their armpits are full of sweat stains.No one is allowed to shoot, but no one is not allowed to shoot.Miao Qian held up the camera and asked in a low voice: "Will you hit me?" Liu Yadong patted him on the shoulder, taking full responsibility: "I won't when I'm here." Miao Qian gave him a thumbs up, "It's so cool."

Unexpectedly, a woman with gray hair and glasses looked up and smiled when she saw the camera.She compared V, then asked: "Are you a reporter?" The singing stopped.Miao Qian spoke nonsense without blinking, nodded and said yes, I am.

The poetry and dance club is called "Nianzi", which is a homonym for "Nianzi".It seems that people's boredom and worry have been digested by time, and the intensity is unsustainable, and it becomes sudden and untraceable.

The first person to ask questions is the spiritual leader of the Poetry and Dance Club, that is, the "head". He is over 50, with two chiseled nasolabial folds. His eyes are too clear, which makes him look sharp, and a little mist-like water vapor comes out, which makes him soft. melted.The pain of losing a child turned into pity and connivance for the young man. Miao Qian asked some straightforward questions "on the rampage", and got answers one by one, but they were bland, unconvincing, and did not meet expectations. .It is nothing more than to say that they slipped and fell in, drowned when they went into the water to cool off the heat, and those who lost their things while fishing. Some of them were kind of chivalrous: rescued a drowning playmate, and drowned together.Miao Qian's words are all hints inside and out, hinting, where are your sorrows?They turned a deaf ear, eager to end the past, and talked about the present, about the blue book of poems everyone had.The poems in the collection are created by themselves, and the content is about "lost".The moon has lost its star, the petal has lost its pistil, and the elephant has lost its baby elephant.Talking about creation is complacent.A man who claimed that his daughter died at the age of seven and had been celibate for 20 years turned over a page and read aloud. Considering the camera, he even wiped the barren hair on his forehead with his hands.His voice was high-spirited, his sentences were contrived, without the slightest sign of pain, and he even smiled.

Miao Qian concluded that his brother was lying.Knocked down?Maybe not.

Liu Yadong pulled out the gazebo, squatted on the edge of the pond, and said that as soon as the carp approached, he would throw a stone into it.

listen to poetry.Lan Zhou lowered one arm, scratching the top of his head.It is like this, if a person raises a fierce dog, he always wants to tame it and show it off to others.In the same way, after Lan Zhou tamed Liu Yadong, he couldn't help teasing his bottom line, hoping to provoke him.What about after anger?Lan Zhou was embarrassed to continue thinking.

"What does that man keep watching you for?" Liu Yadong glanced to the right.

"Huh?" Lan Zhou looked along.

A woman with thin eyes and heavy eyebrows, about forty or fifty, with yellow skin and swollen face.Once they looked at each other, as if they were replying, she raised her eyebrows and then smiled, sat closer, and tentatively said, "How old are you? My child." There was a movement of wanting to grab Lan Zhou's hand.

Liu Yadong raised his eyebrows, stood up and turned back to the gazebo, and sat down heavily beside Lan Zhou.The woman looked up at him, disapprovingly.

Lan Zhou said, "I'm eighteen."

"You look a bit like my son." This sentence is very fictional, and the second half of the sentence can obviously be "but he is dead."

Lan Zhou told her truthfully: "I am not a Han nationality."

She nodded, "You must be a Chinese after all."

This is undeniable.Later, Lan Zhou didn't feel that he had done a good deed, and he still couldn't understand the reason for doing that. He just had a momentary thought that he couldn't wait.Hurts people all the time, if it can heal people.Lan Zhou blinked, and mouthed very briskly at her, the sound was squished and thin, and could not be pronounced, "Mom." Lan Zhou had almost forgotten how to say this word, and it was not her mother tongue.He also felt inexplicable, like being possessed by a ghost in the pool.

The woman was dumbfounded when she understood.Her facial features collapsed and she burst into tears in an instant.Liu Yadong also suddenly smelled the fragrance of Shuizhi.The woman trembled nervously, pinched his wrist, and asked if he could shout again, but Lan Zhou acted selfish and cold.He refused, firstly because he was confused and shy, and secondly, he felt that it was an insult to the deceased and himself.The woman didn't look disappointed, she even breathed a sigh of relief, as if she was saying: It's okay, I thought... I thought so.

For a while, they were innocent children.

Liu Yadong caught a glimpse of Xiong Bainian hugging a woman on the side of the pond.He gambles on slot machines and usually has a knife hidden in his body. He owes Jinding [-] in water money and [-] in principal on his account. He has been missing for almost a month.Liu Yadong stood up, stepped over the fence, pushed aside the pedestrians and rushed forward.After making a movement, it was only when he realized what he was doing in his mind that Liu Yadong felt a burst of terror.There was a commotion behind him, Xiong Bainian turned his head, leaned over to see clearly, his face was panicked, he pushed the woman away abruptly, and jumped into the pond to the left.Liu Yadong followed Crash and jumped in.

Lan Zhou stood up and shouted in a low voice: "Liu—" He climbed over the fence, rushed over, and jumped down.

Things can get even stranger.The woman yelled "My child!", splashed, and jumped into the pond.

Miao Qian pressed the shutter just in time, and everyone in the frozen scene stared blankly, and the four who entered the water all had hideous faces.Later, I really participated in the school exhibition and won the first prize.The judges said that your photo has the power to reveal the absurd and comical nature of life.At that time, Miao Qian felt that she was awesome, and the judges were also awesome.It was many years later that I felt that I was an idiot and that the judges were also idiots.He was just talking nonsense, and he was basically talking nonsense.

At dusk, there was a beef soup restaurant next to the waterworks, and the waiter brought three bowls of stewed noodles.

Xiong Bainian was dragged ashore in his old clothes, and disappeared without a trace while Liu Yadong was turning around to fish for Lan Zhou.

Miao Qian was suddenly a little afraid to speak, he pushed the noodle bowl, "Don't mess around, please, do you want a drink?"

Liu Ya held her head up, staring at the piles of red outside the door, and was distracted by smoking; Lan Zhou continued to blow the water in her nose, feeling that it was also in her lungs, but she wanted to cough but couldn't.Miao Qian didn't understand the fear and anger between the two of them because of each other.From the perspective of others, they are weird, withdrawn, uncertain, the most unworthy of approaching people, nothing else.

Miao Qian was so reduced that he wanted to say haha, "It's almost summer." Without saying a word, he just bowed his head and ate his noodles resentfully.

Liu Yadong spoke suddenly, his throat was choked with smoke, "Handsome guy, I want to trouble you."

Miao Qian swallowed, looked up and smiled: "Huh? Tell me, just call me Miao Qian."

"Can you take a picture of us together?"

"Okay! Then what's the trouble?" Miao Qian picked up the camera, "How do you want to take pictures?"

"You count one, two, three."

"Count now?"

"Ah."

"Then I counted... I counted one, two, three."

Liu Yadong strangled Lanzhou and kissed him viciously.The waiter "Oh, fuck me", got into the back kitchen, Miao Qian couldn't describe it.