my fairy girlfriend

Chapter 58

There was a thin layer of snow on the ground. Chi Quan was wearing thin jeans and a light-colored shirt. The sleeves of the shirt were rolled up twice, revealing a smooth and slender wrist. She held a diary in her hand, page by page. Flipping around aimlessly, the light hit her face, she was slightly pale, the camera continued to zoom in, facing her face, the expression on her face seemed to be a little dazed, with a little longing in the daze.

The story has come to the present, and the heroine has gradually forgotten her former lover. She realizes that the memories are being killed bit by bit, but she is not reconciled and is trying to resist. She wants to use various means to keep the memories, but it is a pity None of them worked, so she began to write down their stories page by page. When she finished writing the diary and looked back, she found that she had forgotten a lot about the past.

At this time, the heroine's mood collapsed a bit.

Chi Quan was on the eve of collapse now, her fingers were trembling, she touched the cover of the notebook, and suddenly became ruthless, trying to tear off the note, the blue veins on the back of her hand were exposed, Chi Quan bit her lip tightly, knowing that the stain on her lip The bright red color, she also failed to tear off the notebook.

The daze in her eyes was even worse, she suddenly let go of the notebook, let it fall to the ground, then slipped down from the chair, curled up on the cold floor, and cried out hoarsely.

Chi Quan's voice is gentle, and this kind of tearing force is a bit embarrassing for her.

"Card!"

Director Li waved his hand, and Fang Fang immediately covered Chiquan with hot water and a cotton jacket.Her hands were cold, and she didn't open the water glass several times. Fang Fang quickly opened the water glass again, and said in a low voice, "Sister Man, if I give you more ginger soup, hurry up while it's hot, so you don't catch a cold."

"It's okay." Chi Quan's voice was already a little hoarse, and the tears hanging from the corners of his eyes hadn't dried yet.Seeing the director waving at her, he returned the cup to Fang Fang: "Tell Sister Man that everything is fine here, so she doesn't have to worry."

The later the filming of "Killing the Past", the more Zhou Man couldn't bear it. The story itself is a very sad story. The person who was abused was Chi Quan. She couldn't stand it at all, so she let Fang Fang stay Watching here, I can't see for myself, I'm busy running other jobs for Chi Quan, I just hope that in the next period of time, Chi Quan will never see this kind of script again, it's too cruel, really Can't stand it!

Director Li is a very kind director, especially in the face of a dedicated actor like Chi Quan, he can't wait to hold him in the palm of his hand.After calling Chi Quan, seeing that her complexion was not very good, he hurriedly asked his assistant to bring the ginger soup that he had prepared a long time ago, and opened it for her himself: "Drink more, to get rid of the cold."

"It's okay, director, I can hold on." Chi Quan looked at the director's new additions to the script while wearing a down jacket, and asked directly: "Did I owe something for that one time ago?"

Her emotions are inside, but she always feels that something is not quite right.

The director probably called her here because he wanted to talk about the meaning of the play, and Chi Quan understood it very well: "Say it, I'll think about it."

The director brought the script over and said to Chi Quan: "Koizumi, you haven't fallen in love yet. Let me tell you, this relationship is very complicated, and it's not about love or hate. Look here, although they were married many years ago They broke up, but this Xiaoyun has never let go of her former lover. Now that she is sick, she knows that when her memories are disappearing little by little, she is sad and sad. She should be a little fortunate that she finally Can get rid of this memory, you know what I mean It's a love-hate relationship, she wants to keep this memory, but at the same time, she doesn't want to keep it, she wants to forget, but she is afraid of forgetting."

Want to forget, but afraid to forget, want to get rid of, but don't want to let go

Chi Quan unconsciously rolled up the script in her hand, and the two sentences went back and forth in her mind, which made her a little overwhelmed. Sometimes, not only because of hate, but also because of love

"One more time!"

Director Li patted Chi Quan on the shoulder, and encouraged her a few more words: "You are very good, much better than I expected, but we will work on some details."

"Okay." Chi Quan agreed, and said, "Thank you director."

"I thank you. It's almost the same. If it weren't for you, this scene probably wouldn't be able to produce any effect." Director Li's eyes were full of relief: "You are a good boy, and you will definitely be able to accomplish a lot in the future."

The camera continued, Chi Quan was still wearing the same thin clothes after putting on her makeup, making her look even thinner, the notebook was held in her hand again, and the camera passed by again.

Chi Quan closed his eyes and thought about the director's words.So Xiaoyun wanted to love, she just couldn't love it, and hated it, even after several years, when her memories gradually disappeared, she still couldn't let go of this past.There are some memories that you want to forget, some you can forget, but she never has any choice. At the end of time, she is just an abandoned person. She has nothing, even memories. All gone.

What a poor man!

When Chi Quan fell to the ground, he stretched his hand towards the notebook, trying to reach the notebook, but she couldn't reach it, and she would never reach it, and then curled up, screaming hoarsely.

"Card!"

"The sound! Everything else is very good, the sound needs to be broken a bit more! Use more force!" Director Li shouted to the live radio: "The radio must be closer, the sound must be shocking enough!"

"do it again!"

Over and over again, this scene of Chi Quan has been filmed from the morning until the sky darkened, and the headlights in the shed hit her eyes, which were all bloodshot. Fang Fang felt very distressed watching it, and finally knew why Sister Man was not there. I stayed in the crew, and watching it day by day, I really can't bear it, it's too uncomfortable.

"Sister Quan, Sister Quan." Fang Fang hurriedly put on her clothes, and stuffed the warm baby into Chi Quan's hands: "Let's have a sip of ginger soup first, and let's eat hot pot later, it's warm."

Chi Quan didn't ask for anything, and looked a little sleepy, Fang Fang said: "You go, don't worry about me."

Fang Fang saw that Chi Quan's spirit was not in a good state, and muttered in a low voice: "This is too hard, thankfully it's over, or do I have to do it again tomorrow?"

"There is no hard work, it's all the same hard work." Chi Quan comforted her and said, "Go quickly, I'll go back to my room and read the script for a while, and take a rest."

"Then you..." Fang Fang was still worried about Chi Quan: "It's been a busy day, so how can you not eat?"

Chi Quan has no appetite at all.Since she started filming, her appetite has been declining every day, and her figure has become thinner and thinner, which is in line with Xiaoyun's state in the play. Because the filming is still going on, Fang Fang dare not persuade her to eat more. I just hope that this scene Hurry up and finish the filming, and then bring Chiquan back to his previous white and fat appearance.

It's true, a beautiful woman who is obviously good, tossing herself like this for such a bad show, who can feel sorry for seeing it? Fang Fang only dared to say a few words in her heart, but she didn't dare to say it, of course Finally, I saw Chi Quan's passion and desperation for his work.

Dragging her heavy body back to the room, Chi Quan took a hot bath, trying to drive away the sad breath on her body. She knew that actors should release their emotions in the camera, and leaving the camera means detaching themselves from emotions. It is not difficult for Chi Quan. She has been exposed to acting since she was a child, and An Jin took her to watch various large-scale stage performances when she was very young. She would listen to An Jin's scripts when she was free at home. They are all too familiar, and I know that it is easy for her to enter the play, and it is also very easy to get out of the play.

Under the camera, she can completely release herself, but outside the camera, she must take back her emotions.

But now, lying on the sofa with the script in hand, Chi Quan watched as the words on the book blurred a little bit, turning into bugs one after another. The bugs crawled off the script and climbed onto her body, Chi Quan With an exclamation, he raised his hand and overturned the script, and he also staggered, his calf hit the sofa leg, leaving a bruise.

The script was lying on the ground alone. Chi Quan wanted to reach out to pick it up, but she retracted her outstretched hand. She just sat on the ground blankly, her eyes were a little empty, as if she was thinking about something, and she seemed to be thinking about something. Without thinking, I put my arms around my calves, put my chin on my knees, and closed my eyes.

In a trance, she seemed to smell a faint fragrance of flowers. Chi Quan was startled, and immediately stood up. After standing up, she felt that something was wrong. If nothing happened, she picked up the script, her eyes wandered a little, and the hand holding the script slightly exerted force. The fragrance of flowers seemed to be It disappeared again, as if it had never appeared before, and everything was just her hallucination.

Chi Quan lowered his head and smiled wryly, sat on the sofa again, opened the script and continued to watch the scene to be filmed tomorrow.

Then there was a knock on the door, and a friendly voice from the customer service: "Ms. Chi, I have your order."

"Thank you, no need." Chi Quan refused without raising his head, "Take it away."

The customer service was a bit embarrassed: "Well, the customer said that it must be delivered to you."

It's not Chiquan's style to embarrass the service staff. I also know that it must be Sister Man who knows that she hasn't eaten all day, so she sent someone to deliver it. It's all good intentions.

She got up to open the door, and the customer service staff pushed the cart and smiled apologetically, "I'm really sorry to bother you, but the customer must deliver it to you."

"It's okay, let's leave it alone." Chi Quan didn't look at the dining car after he finished speaking, but when he passed by, he smelled a faint fragrance of flowers, and suddenly stopped in his footsteps, and asked, "Who asked you to give it to me?"

The customer service was a bit embarrassed: "Sorry, I don't know about this. The customer places the order directly, and I am only responsible for delivering the food."

"Thank you."

After closing the door, Chi Quan stared at the dining car for a while, then walked over and retracted his hand when it reached mid-air, and finally opened it directly. There were a few simple snacks in the dining car, decorated with crushed The small petals look delicate, delicious and appetizing.The exquisite white porcelain bowl contained simple white porridge. Chiquan picked it up and smelled it, and it really smelled like fresh nectar. She tasted it with a spoon, and it was a little sweet. In addition, it was paired with a few small dishes, which was very sweet. Delicious zucchini salad.

Putting it together, the color, fragrance and taste are all good, the expression on Chi Quan's face faded a little, put down the bowl in his hand, covered it back again, and then began to sit on the sofa staring at the dining car in a daze, after a while, stood up again When I got up, I still ate everything, and it was obvious that I wanted to vent my anger in it. In the end, there was not a single bite left, and I ate very clean.

The night scene in the crew was a bit lively, and it was the first time for Taoyao to walk alone in such an environment. She walked past Chiquan's filming set, which was empty and not as lively as it was during the day.Chi Quan worked really hard, really desperately, she didn't step forward, listening to the live radio, her heart was full of tearing pain.

The pace slowed down, and Taoyao found that Chiquan could really affect her emotions. When she was sad in the play, she was also sad outside the play. Looking at her pale face and thin appearance, Taoyao felt very sad. I want to go forward and hold her in my arms, touch her face, and feed her a mouthful of warm flower|honey porridge. When Chiquan has no appetite to eat, she is so worried. She has already done it for this scene. I have exhausted too much energy and shed too many tears. How can I do without something to eat?

Taoyao specially made a few small pastries she likes, light porridge and vegetables with her own hands, just hoping that she can eat more or less, so as not to drag her body down.

Looking at the crooked moon in the sky, the wind blows her long hair, this moment is so long, she has never understood the feeling of loneliness, a long time ago, she was a different kind, there was no companion by her side, and then she knew What is loneliness, she has no partner, so she is lonely.

Then now she knows what loneliness is.

She has no lover, so she is lonely.

A long time ago, in Taoyao's world, loneliness and loneliness were the same word, she couldn't tell the difference, she was always just one person, but now she understands that it is a different feeling.

When she was alone, she was alone, no one would talk to her, no one would eat with her, she stood alone, with only her own thin shadow around her.But loneliness is different, even if she is surrounded by many people now, some people talk to her, some people accompany her to eat, some people accompany her to laugh and laugh, but her heart is still empty, that feeling is called loneliness.

It turned out that it was a different feeling. Now she can clearly distinguish these two feelings, but she still doesn't know why Chi Quan said that he doesn't love her, and what exactly is the love that Chi Quan wants.

Looking at the moon and sighing in a low voice, Taoyao suddenly felt that she had spent all these years in vain, that she had wasted her life, that she didn't even understand such a simple question, and she didn't know what she was doing all these years!

Because the recent filming was a bit too depressing, and Chi Quan's progress was not bad, Director Li specially gave Chi Quan a day off to let her have a good rest. It just so happened that the fan club over there contacted Zhou Man , Said that they wanted to visit my sister's class, knowing that my sister had worked hard in filming, they wanted to do condolences.

After Zhou Man contacted the crew, he decided to have a rest day for Chiquan. It was a small fan meeting, thinking that there were so many enthusiastic cuties visiting Chiquan, which could just dilute the depression in the crew. The dull atmosphere is also a good thing for Chi Quan's emotional adjustment.

Because of this drama, Zhou Man was worried a lot. He was afraid that Chi Quan would get too involved in the drama and hurt his body. This kind of thing is normal in the circle, and most people are not surprised. It is considered a work-related injury of an artist. Emotional breakdowns, anxiety and depression, seeing a psychiatrist are commonplace, and she is afraid that Chiquan will also be affected by this.

Originally, this child was very thoughtful, and he didn't like to talk about something in his heart. He was always bored in his heart. In such an emotion, if he couldn't adjust well, he might really be depressed.

As a manager, Zhou Man has too many problems to worry about. She wants to ensure that Chi Quan will not suffer any physical or psychological harm while performing a good show!

The time for the meeting was set at three o'clock in the afternoon, and the specifications were still relatively large. There were about a hundred fans who came. Zhou Man took Fang Fang to regulate the gifts from fans, and picked out all the expensive ones to express that they could not accept them. There can’t be comparisons in the circle, otherwise if you give an expensive one, I’ll give you a more expensive one tomorrow, and the comparison will make the atmosphere crooked, so most of the gifts are flower cards or small gifts made by hand, which is a bit It's complicated, and the two of them are a bit too busy.

After the fans Yishun entered the arena, Chi Quan came out wearing a camel coat, holding a guitar and a microphone in his hand, and cheers immediately followed.

Li Daosi was in the second row, looked at the guitar in Chi Quan's hand, and said to the people next to him: "The goddess can also play the guitar, do you know?"

There was a cute little girl next to her, who said disdainfully: "Look, how can you not know that my sister can play the guitar? Although I don't know, but my sister must be able to do everything!"

Li Daosi: "Hehe, you are right."

"Hey, you are a male fan." The little girl was very curious, surrounded by girls, it was a little strange to see Li Daosi a big boy: "Girlfriend doesn't mind."

"What do you mind, isn't this a single dog?" As soon as Li Daosi finished speaking, the little girl's eyes immediately widened: "I warn you, don't let Xiao miss our sister!"

"I dare not! I used her as an aunt." Li Daosi shook his head quickly, and after thinking about it, he quickly added: "I am from the support club, the vice president." It can be regarded as an intelligence officer. Although the aunt at home is a She broke up with Chi Quan, but she obviously cared about the state, so Li Daosi took a look for her.

"Oh, you!" The little girl patted Li Daosi's shoulder very understandingly: "As long as you don't care about your sister, that's fine."

Li Daosi was very curious: "Why?"

The little girl lowered her voice and said: "Because my sister can only think about it, you have nothing to do."

Then he continued to wave the support stick in his hand and ignored Li Daosi.Li Daosi thought about it for a while, and soon understood the meaning of these words. Apart from the bonus of acting skills for so many female fans of Chi Quan, her aura is really, really aggressive!

Until now, Li Daosi didn't know why his aunt, cough, was planted here in Chiquan.

Look at the goddess, she sat on a stool with a guitar, her long legs stared at the ground, her face was still a little cold, but that cold was not the alienating and annoying cold, but the coldness of snow lotus flowers on Tianshan Mountain , with the microphone in his hand, the little girls in the circle danced excitedly when he spoke.

Li Daosi raised his forehead, it's all a group of people!

"Hello everyone, because I didn't have any preparations before, thank you all for coming to see me, I am very happy." She adjusted the position of the microphone, picked up the guitar and continued: "Actually, I major in acting, and of course I am not suitable for the Here’s a performance for everyone, I’ll just sing a few ditties, and I hum a few lines occasionally, pure amateur.” The guitar just flicked like that, and then there was another burst of cheers, which made Li Daosi’s head explode .

The popularity is really high.

After Chi Quan played and sang a few songs, it was time to select fans to answer questions. After manager Zhou Man reminded some questions that could not be asked, he returned the microphone to Chi Quan and asked her to choose randomly.

"Second row, third from left to right."

Li Daosi never expected that he would be the first to be selected!

The little girl next to him pinched his arm violently: "It's you! My sister is calling you!"

At that time, there was only one thought in his mind, it was over!

Until the microphone was handed to him, Li Daosi didn't know what he was going to say. He didn't prepare this thing, he just came to join in the fun and see Chi Quan. How could he have thought that Chi Quan was the first to see something? After falling for him, Li Daosi was a little dazed, and when he was thinking about what questions he could ask, he heard Chi Quan on the stage speak.

"This boy looks a little nervous. Didn't he think about what questions to ask? It's okay, why don't I ask you a question." Then, without waiting for anyone to answer, he asked directly: "Excuse me, what is your reason?" I just came to this event”

This question is simply not a problem. As soon as Chi Quan finished asking, all the girls below shouted "Because I like you." With a smile on his face, Chi Quan motioned for everyone to be quiet, and then asked again: " What about you why?"

"I," Li Daosi paused for a moment, then looked at Chi Quan's calm eyes, he suddenly felt a little nervous, inexplicably nervous, and he didn't know why, in short, he just wanted to avoid Chi Quan's eyes , swallowed, and said with a little panic: "Because I like you."

Then quickly returned the microphone.

Chi Quan on the stage shook his head, with an inexplicable smile on the corner of his mouth, and then said: "It's not good for you to copy other people's answers. It seems that the purpose of this boy to participate in this event is not simple. Okay. ,Next person!"

Then the question and answer continued, Li Daosi's mind was buzzing, looking at Chi Quan who answered freely on the stage, he suddenly felt something strange, especially what Chi Quan said to him just now seemed to have some deep meaning, but what to say Deep meaning, he is really hard to say, and Chi Quan has not remembered

Since the aunt took away Chi Quan's memories related to her, it is reasonable to say that Chi Quan would not remember him, but why, just now Li Daosi felt that Chi Quan still knew him, and that feeling made Li Daosi feel very No, it might just be because the atmosphere at the scene was too lively, maybe he lost his mind for a while