my buddhist boyfriend

Chapter 33 33. Cinnabar Mole

Mo Nan got out of the car and walked over, followed by Yan Sheng. When Mo Nan approached, he found that the man was face down, lying face down on the ground. Just looking at Mo Nan like this made his face hurt.

Mo Nan wanted to squat down and reach out to touch him to see what was wrong with him. As soon as he stretched out his hand, suddenly the person on the ground jumped up like a corpse, and reached out to grab Mo Nan's palm. He felt the thorn in the palm of his hand. Pain, something is continuously entering his body.

Sheng Sheng stepped forward and kicked the man away, and he was replaced by him to the wall by the side of the road, smashed directly on the wall, and fell to the ground into a cloud of black mist and dissipated immediately.

Mo Nan squatted on the ground, put his hands|inserted into his hair and grasped it tightly, his head buried in his knees, he felt as if his head was about to burst, something flashed over and over again.

Sheng Sheng stretched out his hand to help him, but he hadn't touched him yet.Mo Nan said coldly, "Don't touch me."

Sheng Sheng's outstretched hand froze in mid-air. What he had always worried about was that he was always afraid that time would not be enough, that Mo Nan would not have time to fall in love with him, and that he had not yet entered his heart.

It seems that God does not always do what people want.

Sheng Sheng stood aside, retracted his outstretched hands, and clenched his fists tightly. He just stood there quietly, looking at Mo Nan.

Mo Nan stayed like this for about half an hour, and his head gradually became less painful, and everything became clearer, and those past events flashed like a slideshow.

Finally, Mo Nan got up and squatted for half an hour. His feet were a little numb, and he almost staggered. Yan Xian wanted to reach out to help him, but Mo Nan pushed him away.

"Don't follow me." Mo Nan wanted to be alone for a while, he didn't know where to go, but he just wanted to go to a place where there were no people and stay quietly for a while.

Sheng Sheng stretched out his hand to hold him, and hugged him from behind. He could clearly feel the stiffness of the person in his arms. He really didn't want to let go. Why couldn't he give him a little more time, and Shen Sheng's head rested on the back of his neck. He whispered softly, "I'm sorry."

"Let go." Mo Nan's tone was still indifferent, as if he had changed into a different person, he stretched out his hand to break away the hand that was wrapped around his waist, and left.

Xiansheng watched him leave step by step, disappearing into the night, he stood there and watched for a long time, he felt as if his heart was being cut with a knife, one knife at a time, the pain was piercing, his whole body and mind ached from the inside to the outside , Nothing can be paralyzed.

He only realized it now. Mo Nan told him at that time that if they were safe and they didn't see each other, they would never want to meet each other in this life or the next.My heart really hurts.

Mo Nan was walking on the street alone, aimlessly. He could still feel the unsteadiness of the demonic energy in his body. Just now that person was a carrier of the demonic energy. Mo Nan felt that his body had recovered. Five points Fourthly, he was still thinking about how long it would take to recover from the devilish energy, but in the end it was violent.

Mo Nan wandered around the street, and he realized that at this time, everyone around him was celebrating New Year's Eve with their families, and he had no place to go.

Mo Nan went to the bar, he ordered a glass of vodka by himself, he didn't remember how much he drank in the end, he just wanted to numb himself, but a person who usually drinks a few bottles of beer will get drunk, today his mind is He was very sober, but his body was paralyzed by the alcohol and he couldn't keep up. He took a taxi all the way home.

After getting out of the car, he took a piece of money from his pocket and threw it to the driver, and went home without looking back. His leather shoes still made a rattling sound. When he went home and opened the door with the key, the key could not be found. Open the door in the right direction.

The door was open. When Mo Nan was holding the door with his hand, the door slammed against the shoe cabinet with the force of his support. There was a loud sound. Mo Nan was caught by the door suddenly. As soon as the car opened, he couldn't stand firmly and almost fell to the ground.

Mo Nan was supported by someone, and the man directly reached out to hold his arm. Mo Nan wanted to push him away, but he was drunk, and his head and body couldn't keep up with the rhythm.

Sheng Sheng helped him into his own room, put pillows on the head of the bed, helped him to sit on the bed, and wanted him to lie down more comfortably.

Mo Nan reached out and grabbed the collar of his shirt, pulled it down, and grabbed one side of the collar. Mo Nan's force was a bit strong, and he directly pulled the derived shirt open, and three buttons fell off. A large piece of chest was exposed, and the neck and collarbone could be clearly seen.

The distance between the two was very close, the width of a palm, and he dragged Xian Xian to bend over to look at him, while Mo Nan sat on the bed.

"Monk, why, I haven't seen me in two lifetimes, and no one is begging for mercy like a pug by your side. You're not used to it, are you? As I said, this life is irrelevant. The bridge returns to the bridge, and the road returns. Don't be a fool like me, I used to revolve around you, I live my own life as you wish, why, you don't really fall in love with me, don't you say that the world of mortals is full of flowers, you have already Are you disillusioned? What are you doing now? What about your Buddhist precepts? What about your asceticism? Hehe." Mo Nan spoke in a soft tone, with disdain for Derivatives and self-mockery of himself .

The breath of Mo Nan's words can be scattered on Dean's face. In the first life, he felt that Dean was very handsome. No matter when, when and where, he would not be surprised. He was like a loyal follower, never leaving. Staying by his side, it was only in the second life that he realized that Sheng Sheng was like a rock, no matter how hard he covered it, he couldn't get hot.

Only then did he realize that Shengsheng would save him as well as other people. He just regarded these as his practice and would not stop because of a certain episode. His belief was his Buddha.

Mo Nan hated the cold sandalwood fragrance that was all over his body.

Before Shengsheng could answer, Mo Nan moved forward lightly and kissed Shengsheng. He pried his lips open and stuck in to touch the tip of his tongue. Mo Nan stretched out his hand and pulled off his collar, All the buttons of the shirt were torn off by him, and Mo Nan reached out and slid his hand into his waist|side, wrapping his arms around his waist.

Mo Nan pushed him back hard, Sheng Sheng pressed directly on his body, and Mo Nan's hand wandered around his waist.

"Don't you want | me, or fall in love with me. It's a pity that I'm far away and can't come back." Mo Nan staggered his kiss, whispered in his ear, and kissed him lightly He flicked his earlobe with the tip of his tongue, and continued: "After tonight, you can go."

Mo Nan obviously felt the daze of Dean, he got up from him, got up from the bed, stood by the bed, turned sideways and said, "You have a good rest."

Sheng Sheng went out from his room, Mo Nan heard the sound of the door closing in the next room, Mo Nan was lying on the bed, his alcohol was getting stronger, and he went to sleep soon, it is said that drunk people have no dreams at night, But Mo Nan dreamed of the memories of the previous two lives, playing them bit by bit like a memoir.

In the first life, Mo Nan was an orphan with no father and no mother. He ate hundreds of meals, and sometimes he didn’t finish the next meal. At that time, the villagers’ families were not rich. Anyone who thought he was pitiful would give him some food. Yes, he has an introverted personality. The children in the village like to bully him. He dare not fight back. Once he fights back, he will be beaten harder next time. He doesn't know where else to go. He is afraid of being driven out of the village, just like duckweed Adrift without support.

He was so hungry that day, he wanted to see if he could catch fish by the river, he had no tools, he didn’t even have a needle all over his body, so he could only touch it with his bare hands, at this time, those children in the village who bullied him Seeing him, he threw small stones at him in the middle of the river.

Mo Nan stretched out his hands to hug his head and protect himself. He could block this but not that. He staggered and fell in the river, got up and fell again. His pitiful and ridiculous behavior made these people feel that they had seen enough. After being bored, Those people left.

Mo Nan waited for them to leave before he dared to walk towards the bank. He didn't dare to go to their side, because the road over there would definitely meet them again when he went back. He walked towards the other bank of the river, and he could walk around from the other bank back to the village.

When Mo Nan walked to the middle of the river, his foot slipped and he accidentally fell down. The child was always flustered, he thumped, and ended up thumping into the depths of the river. Mo Nan felt that he was about to die, so he Is this dead?He is very afraid of death, and he is also afraid of living. Living is very tiring, and the feeling of suffocation is very uncomfortable, and he is also afraid.

When Mo Nan's head was sinking into the water, he was thinking whether he was going to die, whether he would see his parents, whether he could beg the underworld, and whether he could vote for a better family for the rest of his life.

Before Mo Nan lost consciousness, he felt someone hugging him around his waist, brought him out of the water, and swam towards the river, staring at the person who rescued him.

It's an elder brother. Judging by his appearance, he should be a monk, but according to those old people, shouldn't monks be ugly?Why is this brother so good-looking? Mo Nan is only 12 years old. In his vocabulary, he only knows that this brother is very good-looking.

That elder brother saved him, wanted to leave without saying a word, Mo Nan followed closely, he wanted to follow him, this was the first person who treated him so well, this elder brother saved his life, he to follow him.

"Thank you, big brother, thank you for saving me, big brother, I have nowhere to go, can I follow you in the future?" Mo Nan followed behind him and said cautiously.

"I am a Buddhist, do you want to practice Buddhism? It is very hard to practice Buddhism."

"I'm not afraid, I'll go wherever big brother goes."

From then on, Mo Nan followed his elder brother to his place. Mo Nan later learned that his elder brother's Dharma name was Derivation, and Mo Nan thought it sounded good.

The eldest brother asked him to lead him to practice and attend lectures every day. The abbot valued him very much, saying that his eldest brother had a profound knowledge of Buddhism, and if he practiced hard, his future would be immeasurable.

Mo Nan didn't understand this, he only knew where his big brother was and where he was.The big brother follows wherever he goes, he is like a little follower.Although sometimes other senior brothers would be upset because he disturbed the elder brother's practice, the elder brother would speak for him and say it was nothing.

Mo Nan stayed in the temple until he was 17 years old. On this day, he went down the mountain with his elder brother to practice. As the abbot said, he experienced all kinds of tastes in the world.

Mo Nan thinks there is something good to understand, why he has to rush to endure hardships, but as long as he is with his big brother, he is willing to beg for food.

That night, they rested in a dilapidated temple. The eldest brother fell asleep long ago, but he couldn't sleep. He kept staring at him. He thought how the eldest brother was so beautiful, the scenery was beautiful, the scenery was beautiful, the zhilanyushu, Mo Nan thought this In the world, no one can compare to him.

Mo Nan walked over cautiously. He looked at his big brother and touched his lips lightly. He wanted to do this a long time ago. He wanted to kiss his big brother. He just thought it was a way to express his love. , did not find anything wrong.

The elder brother woke up, opened his eyes and looked at him, his brows were wrinkled, he should have something to say to him, but he didn't say anything.

Mo Nan didn't understand what was going on. When he entered the city a few days later, he saw those people hugging and kissing outside the brothel. He seemed to vaguely understand why his big brother frowned.

The elder brother is still very kind to him, gradually as time goes by, he is 22 years old, no matter what happens between men, he can't be like when he was a child, but his thoughts on the elder brother are getting deeper and deeper, and he can't suppress it.

Gradually, someone in the temple spread bad words, and the abbot was very angry when he heard it, because the abbot was going to pass on the mantle to Xiansheng. If he wants his brothers to be convinced, he has to behave properly.

The abbot asked Xianyan to let Mo Nan go down the mountain by himself. He is 22 and can be self-reliant.

"Mo Nan, do you want to go down the mountain?"

"Brother, if I have a bad influence on you, I can go down the mountain."

"It's okay, I'm just afraid that you won't be able to stay here for a long time in the mountains, and the world of mortals is prosperous. If you stay here, I'm afraid that I will suffer for you."

"Not bitter, not bitter at all."

Mo Nan didn't know how the eldest brother told the abbot, and no one said any weird words in front of him after that.

One day, Shengsheng invited him to go to other temples to discuss Buddhism, because Mo Nan was sick and was blown by the wind in the snowy day, so he didn't take him with him.

Mo Nan didn't expect that people in Buddhism also have bad intentions, and not everyone treats him as well as his elder brother.

Not long after the eldest brother left, the other senior brothers in the temple drove him out of the mountain gate, who was still in a high fever. Those senior brothers were usually dissatisfied with the eldest brother. on him.

In a snowy day, Mo Nan guarded the mountain gate, and those people wouldn't let him in, so he didn't dare to go far, for fear that his elder brother would not find him when he came back.He felt that the abbot should know about it, because the abbot hadn't visited him for such a long time, and the abbot probably hated him too. He dragged down his elder brother's path of cultivation. The abbot said that the elder brother is a rare good seedling, Quite wise.

Mo Nan didn't know how long he waited. His high fever persisted. In the end, he saw a figure in white clothes running towards him, looking very anxious. Is that his big brother?

It’s great, he’s back, but it’s a pity he couldn’t hold on any longer. It’s no regret to see him before he leaves. Big brother, in the next life, I will come to you, and I will become stronger when the time comes. Let me protect you. .

Mo Nan walked across the Naihe Bridge, and he quietly poured out the soup that Po Meng handed over. He couldn't forget his big brother, and he would continue to look for him.

In the second life, Mo Nan became a captive disciple of a demon cultivator. There were many apprentices, and he caught a lot of them. They practiced the way of the devil, and it was extremely easy to get mad. These disciples were forced to practice the way of the devil. Every step of the practice, it was confirmed that there was no problem. Afterwards, the devil directly killed these disciples, and he could still absorb the skills.

Mo Nan is highly concentrated every day. He can't die yet. He still has unfinished business and people he hasn't met. He practices seriously every day, for fear that the next person will be his turn. He has to work hard and get out alive.

The devil may not have expected that there may be no problem with people coming to practice and experiment stage by stage, but all his steps are practiced together, the devil energy is overbearing, and people without special physique and wisdom roots are extremely easy to go crazy, which is also true. It is the reason why it is difficult to cultivate the evil way and the ghost way is difficult to walk.

Mo Nan took advantage of the devil's madness and stabbed him in the chest with a knife, killing him. At that time, Mo Nan was 12 years old, and he was about the same size as when he met Sheng Sheng in the previous life, but he was no longer cowardly.

Mo Nan found the practice secret book hidden by the devil, and with the foundation of being forced to practice before, Mo Nan should be born to follow the path of the devil in this life. He practiced very smoothly. Think about that man, he's got himself under control, he has unfinished business, he can't just die like this.

Mo Nan practiced in the cave for 50 years, and he finally learned all the secrets. When the magic skill was about to be completed, there were dark clouds in the sky, lightning and thunder, and the thunder shook the sky, as if to shake the whole earth. Shake it three times.

Heavy rain and thunder, for seven days and seven nights, the entire demon world, ghost world, and heaven knew that a demon master would be born in the demon world, and all demons worshiped him, and Mo Nan became the youngest demon master.

Mo Nan remembered the person in his heart, he went to Jinshan Temple, the place where he practiced in his previous life.

The author has something to say:

Little Mo Nan is very pitiful, it is derived like the belief in his heart, the direction he is going, he followed him in the first life, ignorant of joy, in the second life he matured, capable, less cowardly, and finally capable Protect him.

Cinnabar mole, never forgetting, the joy of thinking, the pain of forgetting.