sinovels Chapter 62 Diary
Chapter 62 Diary
Pei Yang shot another handsome shot, and the unfamiliar limbs slowly regained their previous feeling.
He didn't give up basketball after work. In fact, occasionally he would hold the ball with Fu Shuzhuo to play casually and relax when he was free.
Since when did I stop playing basketball... It seems like it started a year ago. I didn't want to go out or meet people.
Pei Yang froze for a moment, and a boy next to him jumped up and patted him on the shoulder: "Senior is awesome!"
Pei Yang smiled, looking back, Fu Shuzhuo was sitting under the shade of a tree, looking down at the phone, looking a little strange.
He subconsciously wanted to walk over, but he saw Fu Shuzhuo raised his head and smiled at him, and made a mouth shape: "Come on, kitty——"
Pei Yang blushed: "Don't bark!"
Fu Shuzhuo looked at him innocently, and shouted: "Brother Pei, do you want some water?"
There are many spectators around, all drinking for the basketball team players they support, some of them are girlfriends, holding mineral water in their hands.
This reminded Pei Yang of high school many years ago. In the eyes of his classmates, he and Fu Shuzhuo were still at odds, but in fact, as long as you observe carefully, you will find that every time he plays basketball, Fu Shuzhuo is either on the opposite side or in the audience.
They tacitly refused to accept the water offered by anyone, and left one after the other in the same direction, and then went to a deserted corner or rooftop to taste the same bottle of mineral spring intimately.
They protected each other very well, did not give outsiders and gossip the chance to hurt, but enjoyed the intimacy that only each other knew among the crowd.
Pei Yang thought that Fu Shuzhuo had gone to buy water, but he hurriedly turned his head while chasing after the basketball. Fu Shuzhuo was still in the shade of the original tree, looking at him intently and with a smile. He didn't know when there was an extra bottle of water in his hand.
I must have asked someone to buy it again.
spendthrift.
Pei Yang was a little happy again, because he knew that Fu Shuzhuo was not too lazy to run away, but just wanted to stay here and watch him.
The successful Pei Yang is like a peacock with its tail open, basketballs are frequently dunked into the basketball hoop from his hands, causing cheers from all around.
He knew that among the many cheers and applause, one pair belonged to Fu Shuzhuo.
Like many years ago.
Fu Shuzhuo watched quietly, sincerely feeling that Pei Yang should not be bound by family and career.He should be chic and free, doing what he likes and wants to do.
It was he who restrained the originally flamboyant young man, made him suppress for too many years, and sacrificed too many things.
Fu Shuzhuo looked down at this trumpet again, it was registered a year ago, that is when Pei Yang just found out that he was sick.
He turned to the earliest news, which was the day when Pei Yang was diagnosed.
[Light rain on June 2021, 6]
I never thought that I would have a day to keep a diary. I wanted to write it in a notebook, but I was afraid that he would find out.Only the memory of the Internet is eternal. Maybe no one will read it, but the traces I left will always be there.
I went to the hospital today, and the result of the diagnosis almost blew me away.
Some time ago, I felt that something was wrong, and my behavior seemed to be a little slow.I wanted to tell him something today, but I opened my mouth for a long time, my mind went blank, and suddenly I couldn't say the words I wanted to describe, and my heart thumped violently.
After the diagnosis, the doctor comforted me and told me not to be anxious. I did not have brain atrophy, but the amplitude was reduced. I don’t understand those professional terms, but after the cognitive ability and mental state evaluation, it was confirmed that all my symptoms were in line with Al. Alzheimer's Disease Symptoms.
All the way back I was thinking, what would he do, the rest of his life is so long.
……
[Sunny on July 2021, 6]
I didn't tell him about the diagnosis. It was the first time I wanted to leave him so strongly after being together for so many years.The last time I proposed marriage, I just had the idea of being angry. If he really refused, I might not be willing to leave.
But this time, we must divorce.I can't drag him down, I can't let the Pei Yang in his heart become a fool who has lost all dignity.
I even complained a little because he always called me a silly cat.Well now, I'm going to be silly.
[Overcast on September 2021, 6]
His former assistant resigned due to illness. I saw a familiar name among the new assistants. It’s not good to expose other people’s names on the Internet. Let’s call him A.
A is his college roommate who once had thoughts about him.I personally interviewed A, and I knew at first glance that he was not interested in drinking. A was obviously taken aback when he saw me, and he felt that he would be wiped out, but I still kept A. It is undeniable that I had some self-defeating thoughts at the time. If he and A...
But within a second, I regretted it. How could I think so? He is not a person who cheats in marriage. Even if we want to separate, I shouldn't think that he is with this kind of person who covets a husband. .
Since it is impossible for him to betray me, it doesn't matter whether he stays with A or not. It seems quite interesting to show affection with him in front of him and see A's face look ugly.
【June 2021, 6 heavy rain】
We slept in separate beds, and I filed for divorce.After I finished speaking, I was even more sad than him, because I found that he seemed to really love me.
He looked stunned, the second time I saw him so helpless in so many years, the first time was when he was getting a marriage certificate.
He didn't know why I wanted to file for divorce, and he insisted on asking me to give a reasonable reason. When I said I didn't love him anymore, he didn't believe me and didn't agree to the divorce.
He went to sleep in the second bedroom. I don't know if he slept well, but I didn't anyway.Really bad, miss his hugs.
……
[Sunny on July 2021, 6]
He found out about my illness. We have been together for 16 years. He already knows my personality well. For the first time in so many days, I wanted to cry so much.
[Sunny on July 2021, 6]
I can't give him a future, on the one hand I want a divorce, and on the other hand I want him to be with someone more suitable, but on the other hand, my possessiveness is also growing wildly.
I often dream that he is standing with another person whose face cannot be seen clearly. In the dream, I am so jealous that I am going crazy.
He loves me, and I love him too. We have gone through so much, why can't I be the one who stays with him until we grow old?
……
Fu Shuzhuo didn't dare to read any more, he was afraid that Pei Yang would notice the redness of his eyes later.
Under the faint sunshine, Pei Yang and his teammates made a handsome shot. The teammates bumped into his shoulder to show their applause. Pei Yang subconsciously looked back at him, as if he was afraid that he would be jealous.
Fu Shuzhuo wanted to laugh, but couldn't.
His cat is so good, why should fate be so harsh?
Pei Yang was still playing well at the beginning, but gradually he was in Cao Ying's heart. At the end of the game, he waved his hand: "No more fighting, you guys continue."
He wanted to go to Fu Shuzhuo's side.
For some reason, he felt lonely when he saw Fu Shuzhuo sitting under the shade of a tree holding water.
A teammate chased after him: "Senior! Add a WeChat account? Let's go together next time."
Pei Yang smiled: "Sorry, my partner is there, I'm afraid he'll be jealous, and I've graduated, so I don't come here often."
The elementary school boy was taken aback for a moment, obviously disappointed, but he didn't bother: "Okay, see you later."
"Goodbye."
Pei Yang trotted to Fu Shuzhuo's side, and Fu Shuzhuo not only asked someone to buy water, but also bought a towel.
"Keep your head down." He raised his hand to wipe Pei Yang's sweat, "Are you tired?"
"A little."
"It's only been a while, Mr. Pei can't do it." Fu Shuzhuo pinched Talian, "You must follow me to exercise in the future."
Pei Yang nodded obediently. He looked at Fu Shuzhuo wiping his sweat earnestly, then suddenly lifted up the hem of his clothes, and covered Fu Shuzhuo under the clothes.
Fu Shuzhuo, whose head was covered, said in a muffled voice, "Aren't you naive, Boss Pei?"
Pei Yang was overjoyed: "Is it fragrant?"
Where can the smell of sweat go, Fu Shuzhuo leaned against his sweat-stained chest and listened to his heartbeat for a while, and then suddenly kissed a certain point on his waist.
Pei Yang jumped away violently, his face was so red that he was about to smoke: "Fu Shuzhuo!"
Fu Shuzhuo is innocent: "It's not like I haven't bitten before."
"Is it dirty..."
"My cat smells good everywhere."
Pei Yang muttered something in a low voice, then approached slowly, as if he was afraid of Fu Shuzhuo's attack again.
Fu Shuzhuo unscrewed the bottle cap: "Brother Pei, drink water."
Pei Yang thought a lot, and went back after drinking for a little while: "You drink too."
Fu Shuzhuo took a big sip to save face, his Adam's apple rolled along his slender neck.
Pei Yang looked away: "I want to eat ice cream."
"I ate crushed ice today."
"Only half."
Fu Shuzhuo had no choice but to flick his thin abdominal muscles: "I have diarrhea after eating too much."
Pei Yang took his hand: "I want to eat, Fu Shuzhuo—"
Fu Shuzhuo had no choice but to get up: "The sound is nice."
Pei Yang complimented cleverly: "Boss Fu."
Fu Shuzhuo: "Is this nice? Everyone in the company calls me Mr. Fu."
Pei Yang squeezed his throat: "Brother Fu~"
"Speak well." Fu Shuzhuo patted his ass, "Don't you know what I want to hear?"
Pei Yang's face turned red again, and he muttered for a long time before whispering, "I'll call back at night."
Fu Shuzhuo raised his eyebrows: "Our Boss Pei is very hungry and thirsty, do you still want to do it tonight?"
Pei Yang refused to accept it: "Didn't I also hold back for more than a month?"
"You didn't hold back." Fu Shuzhuo hooked his hand, "When you touch it in the office, your legs become hard."
Pei Yang became angry from embarrassment: "This is going to be hard, right?"
Fu Shuzhuo: "Don't forget, you agreed to my office on the train two days ago, huh?"
Pei Yang pretended to be stupid: "That's what the person wearing the book agreed to, it's none of my business."
"..."
Pei Yang lifted his legs and slipped away, while Fu Shuzhuo swayed slowly behind, the smile on his face never fading.
Even though he knew it was impossible, he still hoped that Pei Yang would stay in this state, that his condition would not get worse, and that he would forget all the bad and unhappy things.
But no matter whether his cat is stupid or not, Fu Shuzhuo wants to be by his side.
He is willing to accept every kind of result, but divorce is not acceptable, and strangers from now on are not acceptable.
The second post on the trumpet was just the day before Fu Shuzhuo's birthday. At that time, Pei Yang was still thinking about divorce.
[Overcast on September 2022, 5]
Pei Yang recorded in the newsletter: "Actually, the end is more painful than the end, and it's wasting in a muddle. It's better to cut off the relationship at the best moment in each other's impression."
"But every night, he leans into my body and says he loves me. I know that these are not perfunctory words of love in bed/things, but he is saying to stay in his own restrained way. When I wake up in the morning, I hear him bury me on the back of my neck Said good morning in a low voice. When I walked out of the room, I saw the rose in the vase that had never been defeated in the seven years of marriage. When I came to the kitchen, he was so stupid that he was cooking for me seriously. As soon as I approached, I was hugged by him Go to the stage and kiss..."
"I really... can't give up. I'd rather be like before, not feel that he loves me, rather that he really doesn't love me, so that we won't be so sad."