midsummer night

Chapter 13 Cold and White

Zhu Ping glanced at him and said, "Hey, this is really too much. Xiao He has to practice his drinking capacity. This is not a dinner, and there will be more opportunities to drink in the future."

After finishing speaking, he stretched out the back of his hand and touched He Xiyuan's forehead, "It's still a little hot, you need to go back and drink some water, just rest for a night and you'll be fine."

The back of Zhu Ping's hand was pressed against his forehead for a few seconds, and He Xiyuan felt very uncomfortable.He hasn't felt the touch of an Alpha for a long time, let alone a middle-aged Alpha, whose skin is thick and rough to the touch, reminding him of his parents' hands.

When he got downstairs to his apartment, He Xiyuan signaled to pull over and stop.There were very few people on the street. The moment he opened the door, Zhu Ping patted him on the shoulder again and said, "Xiao He, rest well, see you on Monday morning."

He Xiyuan nodded, and said to Zhu Ping and Gao Qingnian, "Thank you Mr. Zhu, please Mr. Gao, see you on Monday." Then he walked into the campus.

Gao Qingnian started the car, and Zhu Ping's hand touched the seat where He Xiyuan had sat, and there was still a little body temperature left by the Omega on it.The car was quiet for a while, Zhu Ping said: "This Xiao He is a bit interesting. She is usually quite stable, but she is timid when she meets acquaintances."

Gao Qingnian was also thoughtful, "No, but I think Mr. Lu and Mr. Yan are very happy. If there is no Omega in the dinner, it will not be called a dinner. We will bring him next time. Xiao He is still very reliable. of."

Gao Qingnian said: "You have to take him with you. Mr. Lu may not like it, but it's better to have it on the side than nothing." Then he said: "This smell is also very good, like a navel orange."

Gao Qingnian laughed when he heard this, and said, "President Zhu's metaphor is really good."

Zhu Ping also smiled, "That's right, this Xiao He is usually very strict, but after a closer look, he finds it's really wonderful."

I don't know if it's because of the alcohol, but He Xiyuan hasn't been able to sleep well for many days.He was lying on the bed on time, wearing blindfolds and earplugs, but he heard the roar of his own heartbeat in the dark.

Probably remember a certain drunkenness many years ago, nestled in Lu Chengfeng's arms in the summer evening.

Many years have passed, and he should have almost forgotten Lu Chengfeng's appearance, but after dinner together on the weekend, the touch of his youth returned to his perception more and more.

The smell of pine, no matter how much he ignored it, was in the evening air and in the wine.

Before seeing Lu Chengfeng, He Xiyuan felt the signs of his pre-estrus period, the suppressor in his body was buried under the skin, and he felt a dull pain.He took off his shirt, looked at the back of his neck with his back facing the mirror, touched a certain place with his index finger, and felt a piece of metal under the skin penetrated the skin and fused with the blood vessels.

He Xiyuan was 15 years old when he buried a subcutaneous suppressor for the first time. His parents found a vibrator in his schoolbag and slapped him on the face on the spot.

"No shame, the book has been read into the dog's belly!"

"Fortunately, I found out. If someone else finds out, who will think highly of you."

"If you don't read when it's time to read, you don't have any self-control."

"Injections don't work, so let's be conscious and say it earlier, and go to the hospital to bury a suppressor and we'll be done."

"How long has it been used, tell me!"

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In the end, He Xiyuan didn't say anything, only that he bought it by himself, there was no coercion from Alpha, no vendor selling it, and he was just disturbed by the development of the glands so that he couldn't live a normal life.

It was spring when he went to the hospital, there was water vapor in the air, and the cold white sunlight shone on his body through the window of the bus, making his whole body cold.

In the white corridor of the public hospital, the walls are painted with dark grass green paint, and the smell of disinfectant floats in the space, which is dazzling and pungent.

It's been a year since Lu Chengfeng carried him to the hospital, he almost forgot what the ward looked like, he vaguely remembered the milky white wallpaper and soft lighting, and the indifferent Alpha sitting beside his bed through the curtain.

When he was grabbed by his parents and walked into the consulting room, he heard the sharp voice of Omega yelling at Doctor Beta in white: "I don't want to regenerate! Why can't I implant a suppressor? I'm not a dog, I don't even want one born!"

Doctor Beta looked very calm, it seemed that this was not the first time he had seen such a scene.

She said to the elderly Omega who came with her: "This is prescribed by the hospital. Without Alpha's signature, it is against the law for me to let you implant inhibitors."

Omega yelled in a crying voice: "Fuck breaks the law, you are all in the same group, you Beta and Alpha have never treated us as human beings..."

The old Omega had wrinkles at the corners of his eyes. He patted the young Omega on the back and said, "Then get an injection. You don't need to sign for the injection. If you can't implant it, just get the injection."

The young Omega was very thin, his cheeks were slightly swollen, and a strand of hair hung down from his forehead, which couldn't hide the anger and disappointment in his eyes.

Holding the medical records, he walked out of the consultation room with obvious blue veins on the back of his hands and red eyes.

The parents pushed his back, and He Xiyuan sat down in front of the doctor.

Dr. Beta opened his medical records, looked at him, then at the parents, and asked, "What's wrong with this child? What's wrong?"

Parent: "Just started high school, usually live in school, but there are signs of estrus, which affects learning. Take him to implant a suppressor."

Dr. Beta: "In general clinics have suppressive drugs, you can usually wear a wristband, and if not, you can get regular injections.

The parents said: "His injections are useless. He has been given injections for a year, and the injections are given once a month, but he still can't suppress it."

Dr. Beta: "Injections can be combined with drugs. After all, I am still young, and it is a bit too early to bury the suppressor."

The parent's voice was sharp: "It's not young, I understand everything, and I don't know what it will look like if I don't care about it. If you go out and mix with dubious people, your life will be ruined, so just implant it."

Doctor Beta asked He Xiyuan: "Do you remember when you started to be in heat?"

He Xiyuan whispered, "Junior high school, sophomore year."

Doctor Beta asked: "How old was it?"

He Xiyuan replied: "14 years old."

Dr. Beta asked again: "Have you experienced any headache or nausea after the first estrous period?"

He Xiyuan said: "Sometimes I have a headache."

Doctor Beta: "Is the first estrus spontaneous or triggered by other people's pheromones?"

He Xiyuan was silent for a while, and then said: "It should be spontaneous."

Dr. Beta asked, "Any drug and food allergies?"

He Xiyuan: "I'm allergic to shellfish."

Dr. Beta nodded: "The guardian signs, and rests in bed for a day or two after implanting the suppressor. If there is rejection, take the slow-release medicine." Then he closed the case and handed it back to He Xiyuan.

After he stood up, the parents asked the doctor: "At his age, how long can he last after implantation?"

Doctor: "Normally speaking, it can be taken out after three to five years, but it is not recommended to take it out within one year, as there will be side effects on the stimulation of the glands."

He Xiyuan stood beside him without making a sound.

When the suppressor was implanted in the back of the neck, he was half-body anesthetized, lying face down on a hollow circular support pillow in the middle, and his consciousness was still clear.

He felt the doctor touch the back of his neck with gloves on, wipe the skin of the back of the neck with cotton soaked in alcohol, and then there was a sharp pain, the skin was cut open, and cold metal was buried under the skin of the back of the neck.

He whimpered and struggled slightly, but his shoulder was held in place by the machine, and his movement only deepened the pain.

From burying the metal under the skin to suturing, every tiny movement involved his nerves, so that when he sewed a needle, he could feel the needle pulling the thread through the skin, and even hear the sound of the thread rubbing against the skin tissue. subtle voice.

Then it was over, his neck was immobilized, and he lay on the hospital bed in a daze for a day.The parents seemed to be in a good mood. In addition to the nutritious meals bought outside the hospital, they also made a soup and brought them from home.He even asked if he wanted to listen to music.

He Xiyuan had been falling asleep during the day, and the nerves involved in the glands made him feel pain all over his body, from the brain, to the limbs, to the heart.

He opened his eyes in the middle of the night, and there was another Omega across the curtain in the same ward, and he didn't see each other, and he didn't say hello.He only heard the parents and the guardian of the Omega in the next bed say hello during the day. The Omega was one year older than him, and he was in heat at school. After the injection, he was sent home to rest. The guardian decided to bury the suppressor.

He didn't hear the Omega's voice, only the conversation between the doctor and the guardian, the clanging of metal equipment and glass bottles as the cart passed by in the corridor.

At night, he opened his hands slightly, and put the inside of his wrist under his nose to smell the cold white light coming in through the glass ward door.There is no smell of pheromones, only the touch of the skin.

Then he turned sideways, turned to the side where the light couldn't find it, and curled his legs.The air-conditioning in the room is very low, the nose feels sore and swollen, the throat is dry, and the rise and fall of the chest can be heard when breathing, as if all the strength has been exhausted just to live.

As an adult, He Xiyuan acts like a Beta, and lives like a Beta.Most people can't see that he is an Omega. After knowing that he is an Omega, many people still choose not to believe it.

The main reason is that he has lived alone for many years and is single, wears a pheromone suppression ring all the year round, and has never slept in the same bed or shared a room with anyone for a long time since he was an adult.

When I was a teenager, I didn't have my own room at home, not even a desk of my own.The desk is an old thing left by a friend of the parents when they moved, and half of the side drawers are sundries, medicines and thread ends.

The desk for homework and reading is facing the laundry pool on the balcony. Parents come in and out at any time, interrupting He Xiyuan's problem-solving or other thoughts in the middle.Parents either come in to look for things, or use the excuse of looking for things to check what he is doing.

It never occurred to his family that he needed personal space.Personal space is a concept that does not exist, and parents probably do not have personal space either. Parents sleep in the same room and share the same wardrobe, like two inmates locked together.Quarreling and shouting are only aimed at each other, but they are powerless to shake the cage.