messed up

Chapter 24

Xu Baiyu was taken aback for a moment, then murmured as if he hadn't realized it, "What do you understand?"

Yu Jing looked at him, still smiling, and said in an ordinary way: "Every family has scriptures that are hard to recite."

Xu Baiyu looked into Yu Jing's eyes, and Yu Jing was also looking into him.When looking at each other through the screen, Xu Baiyu's thoughts suddenly drifted away.In his mind, there were many joys and sorrows that he had read in idle books before. They were the emperor's dominance, the iron horse and the autumn wind, the lights of thousands of families, and the ancient Buddha with blue lights.He used to be ignorant of the heights of the sky and the depths of the earth, thinking that he could just be a bystander in the face of all kinds of human conditions.But at this moment, he clearly saw his own drama in this man's peaceful and gentle eyes.

He doesn't know what direction the future will develop, and he has no blessing to participate in this person's past time, so he can only piece it together through scattered words.He is a mortal who can only grasp the moment, but he suddenly wants to act recklessly once.In the eyes of the other party looking at him, in the samsara of love, resentment, greed, hatred and ignorance in the world, he devoted himself without hesitation, hoping to be drunk and unwilling to wake up.

"You're right." Xu Baiyu nodded in response.In front of Yu Jing, he couldn't act like a secret, and he said his own truth: "That being said, but Mr. Yu, I really hope that you will have a better life in the future and don't have too many difficulties." .”

Hearing this, Yu Jing smiled and said: "The ancients said that you can't have both fish and bear's paws. I claim to be not an insatiable person, and I have always understood what it means to choose." Seeing Xu Baiyu yawn, his smile became stronger : "Xiao Xu, you should rest earlier."

"Okay." Xu Baiyu smiled and said, "You too."

After hanging up the video, a stone in Xu Baiyu's heart finally fell to the ground: he had been talking to Yu Jing for so long, but all he wanted was a "don't mind" from the other party.

Xu Baiyu lay on the bed and thought about it carefully: adult talk about marriage is completely different from campus love. Men and women have to put forward conditions when they enter the marriage market. The days passed.They are not too young, and although they can't become a legal partner for a while, they want to live together after all.He didn't know the weight of "like" in Yujing's heart, but he knew that he must do his best not to let the trivialities of reality become an obstacle to feelings.

A while ago, Pei Yuning had handed over information to a dating agency, and he watched the whole process while making sarcastic remarks with a mentality of joining in the fun.In fact, the most important items are nothing more than those: income, property, and work.Xu Baiyu examined himself in his mind, and he felt that apart from the troubles in the early years of the family, he had no other reasons for the other party to refuse.However, after he confessed everything tonight, he also got the answer he wanted.The worries of the future have been resolved, and the next thing to do is to confirm Yu Jing's mind.

If Pei Yuning were here instead, that person would have asked straightforwardly.Xu Baiyu didn't have that ability, even if he was killed, he couldn't do the thing of directly declaring what he liked in his heart.He lay on the bed for a long time, and finally grabbed his phone and sent a message to Pei Yuning: Brother, let's have dinner together at noon tomorrow?

Pei Yunning didn't know what he was busy with, and returned to him more than half an hour later: Why do you suddenly think of your senior brother?Tell me honestly, what is your plan?

Xu Baiyu smiled: You really understand me.There is indeed something I want to ask you.

Pei Yuning replied: I am really flattered that you use this "ask for advice".

Xu Baiyu knew that this person agreed, so he didn't reply.He threw the phone aside, and began to think about how to talk to Pei Yuning tomorrow.

After lunch, the two went to a corner of the hospital with few people.Xu Baiyu found a bench to sit down, and motioned for Pei Yuning to sit beside him.

"Let's talk." Pei Yuning took a sip of water.As if he knew it a long time ago, he looked at Xu Baiyu with sharp eyes, which made him feel a little uncomfortable.But he still asked knowingly: "What kind of question can make you use the word 'ask for advice'?"

Xu Baiyu lowered his head, and after a while of mental preparation, he said, "I have someone I like."

"I knew it!" Pei Yunning's deliberate coldness and composure disappeared in an instant, and he jumped up from his chair and pushed Xu Baiyu: "Boy, I have long thought that your situation is not right, you finally agreed Admit it!"

"Calm down." Xu Baiyu stood up and pressed Pei Yunning's shoulders, making him sit down again: "I..."

"What are you?" Pei Yunning laughed so hard that his eyes almost narrowed, he patted his chest to make sure: "If you have any questions, just ask, senior brother knows everything."

Xu Baiyu closed his eyes, took a deep breath and let it out slowly.He thought that before he confessed to Yu Jing that he liked men, he had lived with this secret for many years, but since that time, it seems that coming out of the closet is no longer a big difficulty for him, probably It is the so-called difficulty in the beginning.

He glanced at Pei Yuning, then lowered his head: "Senior brother, I don't think you can be of much help, after all, you have only chased girls before." He didn't look at Pei Yuning, and continued on his own: "But this I fell in love with a man."

"Sure enough." Pei Yuning put down the water glass, and hugged Xu Baiyu suddenly: "Xiao Xu, I have always had doubts about this before, but I didn't have the nerve to ask you. You are too mean, you didn't tell me until now .”

Xu Baiyu originally thought that Pei Yuning would be surprised, but unexpectedly, it was his turn to be surprised.He was a little out of breath from being strangled, hurriedly pushed Pei Yunning away, and said in amazement: "How do you know?"

"Guess." Pei Yuning said with a smile: "It's been so many years, every time you go out to play, you don't even look at a beautiful girl you meet, and you are indifferent to the beauties who wink at you, I feel..."

"What do you think?" Xu Baiyu couldn't bear to interrupt him: "This reason is not valid, it only shows that I am not frivolous."

"Yes, you are not frivolous, you can hide faster than anyone else." Pei Yunning suddenly moved towards Xu Baiyu's direction, just as he expected, this person instinctively stepped back a little.He smiled smugly: "I used to think that you were not close to anyone, even if you were brothers, you always liked to keep a little distance." He moved closer and lowered his voice: "Actually, you are Do you think it’s not acceptable for men and women to kiss each other?”

"You are too boring." Xu Baiyu pushed him away: "What have you been thinking about all day?"

"Okay, let's stop teasing you, let's get down to business." Pei Yunning retreated to the original place, keeping a polite distance: "By the way, who do you fancy? Do I know you?"

Xu Baiyu nodded, "You knew him earlier than I did."

"That's it." Pei Yuning pretended to be contemplative, and after a while, he looked suddenly enlightened: "Could it be our director? I advise you to give up early, her children are going to go to college."

"Get lost!" Xu Baiyu kicked him, angrily saying, "I really regret coming to you."

"Don't mind." Pei Yunning bent down and patted the dirt on the trousers, and leaned forward with a playful smile: "Then tell me, who do you want to chase?"

Xu Baiyu glanced at him, then lowered his head again, and spoke two words with great courage: "Yu Jing."

Pei Yunning did not answer for a long time, which made Xu Baiyu a little flustered: "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Pei Yuning said in a rare serious way: "Mr. Yu, he used to be a family member of a patient to me, and I don't know him very well. But," he looked at Xu Baiyu and smiled suddenly: "I believe Your eyes."

"Then do you have any suggestions?" Xu Baiyu continued to ask.

"Do you still need my advice? I think you are very powerful." Pei Yunning analyzed with him with her fingers: "Look, you are going out with others, and you are sending this and that, and you have created so many meetings Opportunity. You always go to take care of the old man, and even take down his father. What else do you want?"

"That's right." Xu Baiyu felt that what he said really made sense.He thought for a moment, then asked again: "Then what do you think Mr. Yu is thinking?"

"I'm not him, how do I know?" Pei Yunning couldn't laugh or cry, thinking over and over again in his mind what he saw Yu Jing when facing Xu Baiyu: "I don't know if he can accept a man, but I'm sure What's more, he doesn't dislike you, or he has to go to the next level, otherwise the matter wouldn't develop to today."

Xu Baiyu was a little frustrated: "What's the difference between what you say and what you don't say?"

"Of course." Pei Yuning said seriously: "I'm telling you sensibly that you have great hope, young man."

"Okay." Xu Baiyu didn't want to quarrel with Pei Yuning anymore, he wanted to ask something practical: "Then tell me, how should I confess my love to him?"

Pei Yuning was drinking water, when he heard him ask this question, he was choked up and coughed continuously.When he recovered, he looked up and down the person next to him in disbelief: "Xiao Xu, you've been running for three years, don't I need to teach you this kind of thing?" He sighed and asked tentatively: "You really didn't talk about it before. Ever been in love?"

"Talk about one." Xu Baiyu replied truthfully, "During my undergraduate studies."

Pei Yunning asked: "Then how did you make it clear to others at that time?"

"At that time he asked me if I could accept him as my boyfriend, and I said yes, we will be together." Xu Baiyu sighed: "But that was seven years ago, and now that I think about it, I think it was The big boy's way of expressing his love is too hasty and clichéd."

"That's your fault. Words are just a support, the most important thing is people." Pei Yunning smiled: "As long as you like each other, these things are good no matter how you do them."

Xu Baiyu felt that what Pei Yuning said was indeed reasonable, but after thinking about it, he realized that he still hadn't received any practical help.He was about to ask a few more questions, but Pei Yunning jumped ahead of him: "Xiao Xu, are you sure Mr. Yu doesn't have a girlfriend now?"

Xu Baiyu half-closed his eyes: "He has handed it in before, but now he really hasn't."

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thousands of miles

I hope I will not wake up after being drunk."Will Enter the Wine" by Li Bai. . .Come on, Xiaoxu, it's about to become hahahahaha