messed up

Chapter 21

"Teacher Yu," Xu Baiyu went to check the room early the next morning, only to see Yu Jing watching old man Yu eating breakfast.When the old man saw him coming in, he didn't even eat the buns, and greeted him with a smile: "Son, are you here?"

Xu Baiyu was taken aback for a moment, then subconsciously looked at Yu Jing.Yu Jing didn't speak, just shook her head at him.

Seeing that Xu Baiyu ignored him, Mr. Yu hurried forward and grabbed the corner of Xu Baiyu's white coat: "Son, how did you do in the final exam last semester? Even though you are in college, you can't slack off in your studies, but Don’t believe in passing grades, long live, university is the time to learn skills.”

Yu Jing looked at Xu Baiyu and smiled wryly: "The old man regards you as his son." He walked over and bent down: "Dad, look clearly, that young man is Dr. Xu, not me."

Hearing this, old man Yu turned his head to look at Yu Jing, and murmured, "What?"

"Teacher Yu, take a break." Xu Baiyu suddenly felt a lot of sorrow, which was different from his usual mood when facing other patients: it is said that he did not see this kind of situation either in the book or in reality. Not much, but this time it's different, caring makes chaos.Standing here, he was holding a tool by the deep water pool to save people, but he was also trapped in it unknowingly, and only then did he realize the saying that doctors are not self-sufficient, and people are not self-sufficient.

"I'll go first." After a moment of silence, Xu Baiyu looked at Yu Jing: "Actually..."

"Xiao Xu, go get busy." Yu Jing was probably in the worst mood, and interrupted him on a rare occasion, but even so, the man's tone was still gentle and steady, and he could hear frustration and distress, anger and anger. However, his worries were well hidden: "Work is important, and you have to see other patients." He paused, and smiled at Xu Baiyu: "It's all right here."

"Okay." Xu Baiyu sighed.Out of selfishness, he stepped forward and gave Yu Jing a gentle hug as a comfort.

The days that followed were as busy as ever.It's hard for Xu Baiyu to notice the passage of time when he's busy, and when he thinks about it, it's already the last day of the year.

There will be many grand activities in any city on New Year's Eve, and Yaocheng is no exception.When Xu Baiyu was a student, he was often dragged by his friends to the school’s New Year’s Eve party to join in the excitement, or he went out of the school to buy a ticket to watch the artificial ice and snow and fireworks, and he would not agree until midnight. give up.

This is Xu Baiyu's first New Year's Eve after saying goodbye to school. A few days ago, he planned to drag Yu Jing out, but after seeing the shift arrangement, he seemed to be poured cold water: On January 2016, 1, he Xu Baiyu still had to work.This means that he can no longer stay tired until twelve o'clock, and can only welcome the new year in his sleep.

After returning home at night, he took a shower and got into bed, grabbed the mobile phone on the bedside table, first sent a happy new year's day to his classmates, colleagues and elders as a routine, and chatted with Pei Yuning for a while, and finally In the entanglement of not knowing what to say, he clicked on the chat interface with Yu Jing.

After get off work, Xu Baiyu kept thinking, what should I say to that man?He didn't want to be perfunctory, and he was afraid that he would appear too wordy, so he curled up under the quilt with his mobile phone in his arms, thinking about it, and finally found a sentence that had been hidden in his heart for many years from his distant memories.

That was a sentence he had accidentally glimpsed in the library when he was studying a few years ago.Xu Baiyu smiled, and typed in the input box: next year there will be next year's snow, next year's fog, next year's endless sunshine, and next year's countless vitality.

Xu Baiyu liked this sentence when he saw it back then, and he has kept it firmly in his heart for many years, and has never shared it with anyone.At this time, when he pressed the send button, he suddenly had an illusion, as if the words and all the time he had been so far were all sent away.

Yu Jing had probably arrived home, and the news came back quickly.At the beginning, it was also about Happy New Year’s Day, but later it mixed in some other content:

Xiaoxu, I remember you said before that you feel that life is actually all about gold and jade, but inside it.

If Yu Jing hadn't mentioned this, Xu Baiyu would have almost forgotten it.He thought about it carefully, and it seemed to be true.

Xu Baiyu replied with "Yes", quietly waiting for Yu Jing's next words.

After a while, the other party's news came back: next year's vitality will surely resolve the troubles in life.

These words are simple, and all the metaphors in the diction are picked up from Xu Baiyu, but in Xu Baiyu's eyes, they are more comfortable than the colorful and elegant parallel poems: This person is not necessarily living well. I am happy, but I am still willing to share the warmth with myself in the cold and bleak winter night. Most importantly, this is not a casual encouragement.

It was the first time for Xu Baiyu to realize that there are people who can be so attentive, and even remember the details of life clearly.

The two exchanged a few words in different places, talking about the recent arrangement, Yu Jing said: My mother's death day is coming soon, and I plan to take my dad to see her when the time comes.

That's it.Holding the phone, Xu Baiyu typed and deleted only a few words before and after, and finally did not form a complete sentence.

Xu Baiyu got a little anxious, reached out and tapped his head, thinking that his language center must be intermittently malfunctioning when necessary, referred to as the chain dropping at critical moments.He thought about it for a while, and finally only replied with a few words:

The deceased is gone, Mr. Yu must take care of himself.Please also convey my condolences.

Yu Jing's reply was also very clear, only the word "good" couldn't be simpler.

It was only later that Xu Baiyu found out that the death day of Yu Jing's mother was January [-]th.However, what he didn't expect was that he was not on duty that night and was sitting at home reading a book, when his cell phone rang suddenly, and the caller was Yu Jing.

He hurriedly pressed the answer button, only to hear that the other party's side was not quiet, the voices of people and cars were mixed, intertwined into the most lively and desolate background sound.

"Mr. Yu?" Xu Baiyu hurriedly asked, "Where are you?"

"I'm at the gate of your community." Yu Jing's voice was hoarse: "Can you tell me which building you live in?"

"Find a shelter from the wind first," Xu Baiyu was taken aback, so that he was not at ease and asked Yu Jing to find it by herself.He said while putting on his coat: "I'll be there right away."

Yu Jing was in a bad state at this time, and she could tell just by listening to her voice.Xu Baiyu didn't dare to delay for a second, and hurried downstairs to the gate of the community, only to find Yu Jing squatting in a corner smoking a cigarette.

He saw the flickering light first, and then he saw the man.At first, he never thought that this would be Yu Jing: this person has always followed the doctor's orders, and has basically given up all unhealthy living habits. As a doctor, Xu Baiyu often feels ashamed of himself.He couldn't think of the possibility of combining the words Yu Jing and smoking at all.

He stopped in astonishment, and walked to Yu Jing's side after a while.He looked carefully, and after confirming that this person was indeed Yu Jing, he suddenly snatched the half-lit cigarette from the person's hand with some courage.

Yu Jing was startled, and looked up at him silently.Xu Baiyu stubbed out the cigarette and threw it into the trash can next to him, meeting Yu Jing's eyes.

Only then did Xu Baiyu feel a little embarrassed, and he smiled a little embarrassedly: "Mr. Yu, this thing is not good for your health, let's stay away from it."

"Xu Baiyu," Yu Jing said suddenly, and her voice was mixed with the cold wind and poured into Xu Baiyu's ears: "In this life, people's hearts are separated from their belly, and they wear masks when dealing with most people. There are only a few of them. Blood relatives, best friends, lovers." He murmured with a wry smile: "As for me, one of my parents has already been buried in the ground and is separated from me. Although the other body is still there, the soul is still there. Drinking Mengpo soup." He shook his head: "I'm just talking nonsense, don't take it to heart."

As soon as Yu Jing finished speaking, she was suddenly grabbed by someone.Unprepared, he was directly pulled up, and staggered onto the man.

"I know," Xu Baiyu held Yu Jing's shoulders and whispered in his ear, "So I often feel the loneliest time is not when there is no one around, but when I am in a crowd. Wearing a mask." He sighed: "I feel that I am far away from them, but those confused old men and women make me feel more at ease."

Xu Baiyu knew that he and the opponent were just ordinary people, there was no such thing as invincible, let alone indestructible.All he met in the past were Yu Jing who was well-founded in his advances and retreats. That person was calm, modest, and reasonable, which often made him feel very alienated.But at this moment, this person was willing to reveal his bloody inner thoughts to him, and for a moment Xu Baiyu suddenly felt that he was very close to this person.

Xu Baiyu grabbed Yu Jing's forearm and dragged him back.The wind was getting stronger and stronger at night, and the two walked against the wind all the way.He was very glad that they still had a definite destination. When he walked downstairs, he smiled at Yu Jing: "Here we are."

When Xu Baiyu was at home, he usually turned on the lamp in the room to read at most. Now because of Yu Jing's presence, he turned on the light in the living room, and even felt a little uncomfortable for a moment.He asked Yu Jing to sit down on the sofa, poured a glass of warm water into Yu Jing's hand, and then sat beside this person.

He knew that Yu Jing was feeling uncomfortable, but he didn't know what to say to make Yu Jing confide in his heart, so he could only sit quietly and wait.

Fortunately, Jing didn't make him wait for long.The room was very quiet, even the sound of the water glass being placed on the coffee table was a bit harsh.Yu Jing sighed, and said in a low voice: "It was January 11, 1, exactly five years ago. I had not graduated with a master's degree for two years, and I found a job in Beijing with my ex-girlfriend. During that time, my mother always told me that she wanted to visit me in Beijing. I was too busy with work, and I was quite annoying. Now that I think about it, I am really not a thing.” He paused, and then said: “I was in Beijing that morning. Waiting for her at the high-speed rail station, I saw her smile at me, but the next moment she fell down in front of me. I was so frightened, I quickly called 10, but in the end I couldn’t be rescued. Later I thought, it’s absurd , maybe there is a feeling in the dark, and she probably wants to see her son for the last time." He suddenly raised his eyes to look at Xu Baiyu, and was stunned for a moment before saying, "Sudden cerebral infarction, you should be very familiar with it."

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thousands of miles

Next year there will be next year's snow, next year's fog, next year's endless sunshine, and next year's countless vitality.From Mr. Lin Qingxuan; Another: It is not my original creation to compare Alzheimer's patients to drinking Mengpo soup. Many articles have written like this, even if it is from the Internet~