sinovels Chapter 43 chapter 43
Chapter 43 chapter 43
"I never thought I'd meet you." Ah Ji pulled his coat tighter, hugged his knees and curled up into a small ball, "I didn't think about it then, and I don't think about it now."
"Don't you want to see me?" Cheng Yi looked at Ah Ji and asked.He thinks that Ah Ji probably doesn't want to see him!Otherwise, he would not leave without saying goodbye, nor would he disappear without a word.
"I want to..." Ah Ji's voice was choked with sobs, "I want to see you, I wanted to see you every day for those five years...but...I didn't save enough money, and I didn't have the face to see you." He bowed his head He buried his face, and his voice became a little muffled, "I hurt you, I hurt you like that, what face do I have to see you again..."
Ah Ji raised his head slowly, and looked at Cheng Yi with those red eyes, "But I have to pay off the debt I owe, and I have to pay back the money and the life I owe you. It seems that there is no time left, I can’t keep going, and the debt should be paid off.” As he spoke, Ah Ji suddenly smiled, with a sad smile: “Actually, this is pretty good, I’m already so dirty, and you don’t Will want me again, what do I still want to see you for?"
Cheng Yi looked at Ah Ji's frail figure, and felt a twinge of pain in his heart.But what's the use of heartache?Time has come to this, those things before, no matter how much you regret it, it will never be undone.They've already been bruised all over...
"God has mercy on me, let me see you again, and help you block a bullet. You don't know how happy, satisfied, and happy I was at that time." Ah Ji no longer looked at Cheng Yi, but stared at Cheng Yi. The air in front of him was in a daze, "How wonderful it would be if that was the ending! But I woke up! Why didn't I die! Why must you be so cruel to me!"
Ah Ji spoke a little anxiously, and his tone became agitated.He coughed a few times and said again: "Look at how sick I am now, this is punishment. Whether it is my mother's death or your injury, it is my punishment. I am sorry That's too much, so they're going to punish me..."
"That's not the case, A Ji, don't think so."
"I'm sick...stomach cancer!" Ah Ji's tears flowed down, and he pointed to his chest, "And the hole in the lung...I feel uncomfortable...it hurts...I don't want to do this alive... I really don't want to..."
Cheng Yi pulled Ah Ji into his arms, and wiped away the tears on his face with his hands.Looking into Ah Ji's eyes, listening to what he said, my own eyes gradually became moist.He cupped Ah Ji's face and kissed it without thinking.
It was a lingering kiss.In fact, they had never kissed so passionately before, and Ah Ji never responded in the past.Cheng Yi hugged Ah Ji tightly, and Ah Ji also hugged his neck tightly.The emotions brewed in those past times, whether it is joy, sadness, or regret, are all melting in this kiss, turning into blood in their bodies, filling their bodies with those long-lasting but Unweathered wounds.
"No matter what happens in the future, I will be with you, and will always be with you." Cheng Yi held Ah Ji's hand and said affectionately: "I love you, I really love you."
Ah Ji smiled, nestled in Cheng Yi's arms, and said softly, "I love you too."
"How did you get here?"
Cheng Yi hugged Ah Ji and lay back on the bed.It was still very early, and the two of them basically didn't sleep much that night.
"Choose whatever you want. On New Year's Day, only the trains that arrive here have tickets." Ah Ji slowly told his own story, "I wanted to find a place to fend for myself, but I met Xiaoyang. He is a poor man. My child, I gave him a roasted sweet potato, and he just clings to me and won’t leave.” Ah Ji sighed softly when he said this, “But I can’t be with him forever...I can’t live Long...but I can't leave him alone...so I opened a shop to earn some money to support him." He looked up at Cheng Yi, squinted his eyes and smiled softly: "That's the coffee shop. "
"Did you borrow money to open it? Or..." It takes a lot of money to open such a store.Cheng Yi didn't know if Ah Ji had any savings, if it was borrowed money, he could help him pay it back now.
"I have a card, 20 yuan. But I don't know how it came about, maybe it was sold at that time..." Ah Ji's voice trailed off at this point.It was a very bad experience, neither for him nor for Cheng Yi.That experience constantly reminded Ah Ji how dirty and unbearable he was.
Cheng Yi saw Ah Ji's disappointment, hugged him tighter, kissed his face again, and said: "It's okay, didn't I say, I love you no matter what you look like, and will always be with you looking at you."
Ah Ji nodded, he leaned on Cheng Yi's shoulder, and said slowly: "Later, I will take Xiaoyang to kindergarten. When I registered him, I temporarily named him Baiyang, and I also gave him the name Baiyang." The name was changed back. Later, Xiaoyang brought you here by mistake."
"and after?"
"Didn't you know all about it later?"
"I want to know if what you think is the same as what I see."
Ah Ji smiled helplessly, and continued: "Seeing you, I am completely confused. Sitting face to face with you, I have so many things to say, but I can't say anything. Seeing you, listening to you Seeing your tears, my heart hurts, but I know that I can't have anything to do with you anymore."
"why?"
"Because I can't delay you anymore, and you shouldn't waste time on me, it's not worth it."
"Aji!" Cheng Yi was a little annoyed, "I don't want to hear these words."
Ah Ji didn't refute or argue, his tone was still slow and gentle, "Cheng Yi, I think you promise me one thing, okay?"
"You said."
"After I'm gone, help me take care of Xiaoyang, help him find another good family, who can treat him well, okay?" Ah Ji looked at Cheng Yi, his eyes full of pleading, "Is that okay?"
"Okay...I promise you."
Looking at those pleading eyes, Cheng Yi felt sore in his heart, as if he wanted to drown himself.