letter to roommate

Chapter 59

When reminiscing with classmate Peng on the left, Xu Zixin would always go to see Lin Chuan intentionally or unintentionally.

She seems to be happy to immerse herself in the world of love, Yan Xiya is enough.

That look was natural and gentle, completely different from the cautious and indifferent way I was with him before.

Xu Zixin remembered that a long time ago, he could occasionally see Lin Chuan looking at him with similar incomprehensible eyes.

But Xu Zixin chose to ignore it automatically, and insisted on hurting her in the most extreme way like a hedgehog. Only by seeing her wronged expression can she be a little bit convinced that she is actually very important to her.

Now I understand the meaning in her eyes, but it no longer belongs to me.

Even if you already know that the two are together.

Xu Zixin still couldn't bear the oppressive atmosphere, so she left the banquet and went to the rooftop outside on the pretext of being uncomfortable.

Winter Melon's wedding also had an evening show, and fireworks were set off according to the custom of the Chinese New Year.

Xu Zixin remembered that many New Years in the past, he and Lin Chuan looked at the same sky, and the night sky that had brightened so many times was similar to the present one, but the feeling of seeing it alone was quite different.

Seeing someone behind him, Xu Zixin looked back expectantly,

Luo Yu's face flickered under the fireworks, and she couldn't see her expression clearly. She was embarrassed like a schoolboy, avoiding Xu Zixin's gaze: "I'm sorry... I just happened to pass by..."

Just as Luo Yu was about to leave, Xu Zixin stopped her again: "Have we met?"

Luo Yu's heart sank heavily, pretending to be calm, but the mingled fingers revealed uneasiness: "How is it possible...I have such a distinctive appearance, if you have seen it, there must be reflections on it."

Xu Zixin shook her head resolutely, and said softly with her eyes: "Since elementary school, there has been an unknown little girl who has been passing by in front of our classroom. She has never said a word to me, but every time she passes by, she will stop. Look at me, but it won't be too long... She seems to like me very much, so I have always wanted to talk to her. Unfortunately, when I was in junior high school, one day after school, she appeared behind the classroom door, and the sun came from her I couldn’t see her face clearly in the photos from behind. I just walked over and wanted to ask her if she would like to be my friend, but she turned around and left, which made me very embarrassed to stand there.”

It turned out that Xu Zixin didn't have too many thoughts at all, but because he couldn't see clearly, his expression was a little weird.

Carefully, expectantly, Luo Yu continued to ask hesitantly, "What happened next?"

"The glass in the classroom is reflective, and I can't see the face clearly from my position. It was actually the first time I saw her clearly that day. I didn't expect that she would never appear again... I thought she saw something. Things, but out of repulsion, I disdain to like me anymore, but I didn't expect that we would be assigned to the same class in the third year of high school." Xu Zixin remembered it very clearly, which moved Luo Yu a little.

She originally thought that Xu Zixin would not have known her name if it hadn't been for Lin Chuan in her third year of high school.

As if recalling something sad, Xu Zixin's eyes dimmed: "The two of us didn't talk very much in class. I thought she had forgotten me... Later, I started to make mistakes. When I was helping each other, I would always feel concerned eyes from her direction, but she could always quickly pretend that nothing happened. I thought I was worrying too much, but one day, when I was really in crisis, she But he stood up and said he would help me pay off my debts.”

Xu Zixin still remembered how sad she was when she ran to the crime scene next to the pier and cried alone after seeing the news, but no matter how she called her name, she would never come back.

"It rained a lot that night, and I had a premonition that something bad was going to happen. It was her birthday. You appeared here just now, and I almost thought it was her coming back. Every year on this day, I want to say something to her Happy birthday, too bad she never heard."

Xu Zixin instantly had the illusion that the person behind her who had been listening silently was crying, but her voice was relieved and joyful: "I will hear it, believe me, she will hear it."

"Really?" Xu Zixin looked up at the vast sky, leaving her only a profile.

Lin Chuan came from inside, saw this strange combination, and asked, "Luo Yu, Xu Zixin, what are you two doing, isn't it cold outside?"

When Xu Zixin heard that name, she stood up suddenly as if she had seen a ghost, but Luo Yu didn't give her a chance to see her bruised face clearly, and bumped into Lin Chuan by brushing her shoulder, and ran away somewhere.

"You're still so independent..." Lin Chuan looked at her back with emotion, and then asked Xu Zixin, "Is the psychiatrist I hired for you useful? How is your condition recently?"

When Xu Zixin heard her casual greeting, the past passed by like a passing cloud, as if nothing had actually happened in the six years between them.

She and Lin Chuan are still two high-spirited girls who don't know how to feel sad when they are young. They ride bicycles to school together every day, complaining that the teacher assigns too much homework, and they will quarrel over small things, but they will make up soon.

She fights for her, at the mercy of others

She cried for her, taking care of her family shouldn't be her responsibility

She grieves for her but it can't stop her from turning bad

She roared for her, but she dare not say that I will protect Xu Zixin

She is nervous for her, but she refuses to say that she likes it

She pays for her, never thinks she deserves it

She changed for her, boyfriend, petty temper, turning into a butterfly, all just want her to pay more attention to herself

She was jealous of her, and she couldn't get along with Li Xiying.

She was jealous of her, and she did not hesitate to hide it from Yan Xiya, tearing up the letter she wrote to her.

She is crazy about her, she rides the train for more than ten hours alone just to see her

She is motivated for her, if the weather is not beautiful, let them separate

She fell for her and opened the furthest distance in the world with her own hands.

......

She has never dared to confirm her heart, but she has never been satisfied with the status quo of friendship above lovers.

But this feeling can be clearly seen by outsiders, so how could she not understand it at all?

Many episodes in the past made Xu Zixin's heart rate fluctuate like fireworks in the sky. Instead of answering Lin Chuan's question, she asked a question that she wanted to ask since the moment they met: "Lin Chuan, answer me honestly, we know each other. Over the years, have you ever felt love for me for a day, a minute, or even a second? I'm talking about love, not liking. "

It's love, not liking.

Lin Chuan remembered that Xu Zixin also asked himself this question in the way of "like" on the day of graduation, but he took it easy and said something against his will in the name of friendship.

Now, without knowing who gave her strength, Lin Chuan looked directly at Xu Zixin calmly, affectionately and decided not to hide the love that was meant to die in his heart: "I did, and it wasn't every minute, every second, every second, it was a long time. Xu Zixin, I have never stopped loving you for a moment. And if I hadn't met Yan Xiya, I might still love you until now."

Xu Zixin waited for the answer she always wanted at the most inappropriate moment, and couldn't be happier.

Lin Chuan couldn't see what she was thinking, and with many emotions that he didn't understand, he asked a little nervously: "What about you... Did you ever realize that you loved me for a moment?"

"No. I never loved you."

In the huge and beautiful background of endless brilliant fireworks, Xu Zixin turned her head and said to Lin Chuan with a smile, her face was full of tears.

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END~

☆, extra episode 1

"A transfer student came to class today! Come on, Qiao Anyi. Let me introduce myself!"

Like a little princess, the little girl in the pink tutu intruded into the sight of Ji Muyan, who was writing hard.

"Hi everyone, I'm Qiao Anyi, my hobby is..." The 12-year-old Qiao Anyi has the shyness that a little girl should have, but the precocious Ji Muyan does not.

Ji Muyan was dumbfounded, and raised her hand, afraid that others would take her away: "I like pretty girls! Come and be my tablemate!"

Why is this person so shameless...

Like girls or something... isn't she a girl herself?

Qiao Anyi hid pitifully behind the teacher's skirt....

"Hehe," the teacher patted the little girl's head, and said to Ji Muyan, who was confused about the situation and why she was afraid of her, "Qiao Anyi came from E city and is not familiar with the environment, Ji Muyan, you are the class monitor, take good care of her. !"

"En!" Ji Muyan promised seriously and solemnly.

then....

Qiao Anyi: "Ji Muyan, where's my homework?"

Ji Muyan: "The teacher said to take good care of you, so I helped you."

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Qiao Anyi: "Why did you throw away the love letter Song Zhi wrote to me!"

Ji Muyan: "The teacher said to take good care of you. I'm preventing you from falling in love early."

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Qiao Anyi: "Ji Muyan, as the monitor, why do you still have to eat in class?"

Ji Muyan: "I'm hungry..."

Qiao Anyi: "I don't like the smell of instant noodles."

Ji Muyan (immediately throw it into the trash can, and start eating mints.): "It doesn't stink, does it?"

Qiao Anyi (somewhat embarrassed): "I didn't let you do this..."

...

Qiao Anyi: "Give me the umbrella, won't you be drenched in the rain?"

Ji Muyan: "It's okay, our house is very close. Besides...the teacher said that I will take care of you."

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Qiao Anyi: "Do you have a cold?"

Ji Muyan: "Ahhh... Ah Chiu...No."

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Qiao Anyi: "Stop saying you like me in the future, haven't you noticed that others are secretly speaking ill of us?"

Ji Muyan: "..."

......

Qiao Anyi: "Ji Muyan, why don't you speak?"

Ji Muyan: "I'm afraid that others will say bad things about us."

......

Qiao Anyi: "Ji Muyan"

Ji Muyan: "Mmm..."

Qiao Anyi: "I told you not to say you like me in front of others, but I didn't tell you not to like me."

.......

then......

"Qiao Anyi, why do you get so close to my Ji Muyan?" Li Xiying called Qiao Anyi to the back door of the school, "Is that the relationship between you two? It doesn't matter even if she is, because she is mine, so I I want to declare war on you!"

As usual, Qiao Anyi said without hesitation: "All acquaintances know that we are just ordinary friends."

Li Xiying pleaded carefully, without being reckless, "Then... can you help me chase her?"

The girl in front of her is obviously straightforward and simple, why did Qiao Anyi hesitate for the first time: "Well...I will try my best..."

Then one day...

Dad asked her to go on a blind date.

Qiao Anyi refused: "I'm only in high school...Is it too early?"

But the business at home couldn't last anymore.

And you also know the other party. Didn't Mu Mu Mu Mudi call you very close when you were young? .And said to marry him.

Yan Ximu...Mu Mu...Mumu...Ji Muyan....

"I'm sorry, Ji Muyan. The family's business is not good, and I may have to transfer schools."

"Where are you going, can you not go?"

"This time I'm going abroad with the young master of my partner company. I don't know if I can come back. Let's break up. Forget that I am good to everyone."

"No, I will wait for you...I will always wait for you to come back to me..."

And then.....

"Yiyi?" Yan Ximu knelt on one knee and shook the diamond ring on Qiao Anyi's hand, "Will you marry me?"

.......

"Ji Muyan! Why don't you listen to me!"

"I just don't want to leave you. Are you willing? I have endured two years without you, and I am going crazy. What if I go to Beijing again and you are snatched away again?"

"How many times have I said that I won't...I won't fall in love with others. If I would, why should I come back from abroad to find you?"

"Then why do you want me to leave City E? I don't want fame, achievement, or glory. I just want you."

"I want, I want you to want these, okay, you should shine, why do you have to live so hard because of me?"

"Only I know whether it's hard work or not, Qiao Anyi, I will be happy only when I'm with you!"

"But I'm not happy. I'm not happy at all when I see you who are begging for perfection because of me!"

......

"I promise to marry. Can you let Ji Muyan go? Dad."

......

Yan Ximu, Mumu...Ji Muyan...Mumu

"I would like to marry you... Mumu"

......

Qiao Anyi, one by one...why do you want to get married?

"Get lost! What else would you do besides giving up on yourself, crying and begging me to come back without me? Ji Muyan, you are nothing, you have nothing! Where did you get the confidence that I would be willing to suffer with you for the rest of my life? I told you You, no one forced me, I, Qiao Anyi, am such a realistic person. Ji Muyan, get out!"

......

Qiao Anyi, fame, achievement, brilliance, I got everything you said.

do you like me like this

But I am no longer the one who likes you.

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I didn't expect that nemesis...it really came back as it said in the news.

When we met on the road, Li Xiying really wanted to pass by like a stranger, but Ji Muyan grabbed his arm: "Hey, don't you miss me?"

"What? Did Qiao Anyi make you sad again?" You only think of me at such times.

But my heart is so scarred that I can't even organize the words to comfort you.

Ji Muyan frowned, and let go of Li Xiying: "I who like you reminds me of me who like her, so I am back."

"So you want to say that Qiao Anyi's abandoning you is the retribution for your wanton abuse of me for ten years without hesitation?" Isn't Li Xiying very dull, how did she understand such twisted words?

Ji Muyan took out the exquisite square box containing the ring, and knelt down on one knee: "Not every couple who loves each other has the courage to go on together. Do you want to believe that I can give you happiness?"

I wanted to be reserved no matter what, even if it was just a little bit, I wanted to let her taste the hardships I have suffered all these years because I couldn't wait for her to turn back.

But Li Xiying was always so worthless in front of Ji Muyan, Ji Muyan hooked her finger, and Li Xiying fell.

........

"Li Xiying, will you marry me?"

"I am willing to marry you...Ji Muyan."

The author has something to say: The story of these three people was originally intended to be written as a sub-CP

As a result, Lin Yanxu wrote a very long main line --.Then I felt a little powerless to write, and finally I only made such a short irresponsible introduction.

Anyway, it was Ji Muyan who succeeded in hooking up with Qiao Anyi, and then Qiao Anyi dumped her because of family pressure and went on a blind date to get married.

Afterwards, Ji Muyan also found out that Li Xiying, who had been chasing her, was a happy ending.

Qiao Anyi liked Ji Muyan, but she didn't have the courage to go on with her.

Express such a meaning!

☆, extra episode 2

The scorching heat of City No. [-] Middle School makes people feel particularly hot and uneasy.

The playground is all in army green camouflage uniforms, making it impossible to tell who is who.

The companies next to them all rested, but the instructor of the company still had no intention of slacking off, and just said casually: "There are not many opportunities like this. Only when you suffer and suffer, you can be a leader. If you can't bear it, just go to the hospital and let it go." Tell me, don't force it."

Lie Yan is so poisonous, and I really don't want to force it. Gao Yuanwan was about to raise her hand. When she raised her head, the scorching light rushed into her pupils, fainting a few circles of light. In the dazzling sharpness, just like that, Yan Xiyadi, who was pale but persisted, gritted her teeth Once into her line of sight.

The chaotic sounds of cicadas, whistles, military orders, and the noise of this young boy running and frolicking in the playground seem to be so miraculously filled by the stubborn face of the girl next to him.

That's about it.

Why should you be patient when you have already worked so hard?

What is she fighting with?

"Lin Chuan, stop for me!" The blurry figure in the line of sight was shaky, and was bumped into a thick and colorful oil paper painting by the more dazzling light spots that rushed out suddenly. Come chase me if you can~" In the ending, Yan Xiya had already fallen straight on the stiff plastic floor.

It can't be so fragile...

The girl who was "knocked out" looked weak and painful, her lower lip was tightly pressed, and fine sweat appeared on her smooth forehead covered by a few broken hairs, a bit like dewdrops jumping on the leaves in the morning.

Standing in the center of a group of people watching, Lin Chuan didn't know what to do next.

Fortunately, with the reminder and help of Luo Lu who was catching up, she made the correct reaction to run to the infirmary with Yan Xiya on her back...

When Gao Yuanwan realized it, the instructor had already ordered the rioting crowd to disperse.

Yan Xiya's expression was lingering, causing her to realize that she cared a little too much when she walked to the door of the infirmary.

Seen through the crack of the door, Lin Chuan took the Sprite from Xu Zixin's hand, exchanged the wet towel, wiped his face and said, "Then I'm going to push the bicycle, and you take care of her."

Xu Zixin agreed, and Lin Chuan met Gao Yuanwan face to face. After walking a few steps, he turned around and said, "Are you here to see the girl inside? She is a bit malnourished and anemic, but you don't have to worry too much." , it’s just a temporary shock, and I’ll wake up in a while.”

Gao Yuanwan gave a "hmm", Lin Chuan stopped talking and went to pick up the car.

Not long after, Xu Zixin also came out. The two had known each other since junior high school, but they seldom spoke.Nodding was a handover, Gao Yuanwan entered the door and saw that Yan Xiya was already awake, struggling to get off the bed.

Gao Yuanwan quickly went to help her, but Yan Xiya chased after a few steps and almost fell again because of poor physical fitness, but she still pointed to Xu Zixin's back and said, "Did she save me?"

Lin Chuan came out from the carport, saw Xu Zixin waiting there, and asked a little strangely, "Why did you come out?"

Xu Zixin took the schoolbag in her hand and said, "She's already awake, Gangbang will take care of her."

Steel jump?

Hearing this strange name, Lin Chuan grinned, and stared at Xu Zixin directly: "She seems to care about her very much, maybe it's that kind of relationship."

"What's the matter?" Xu Zixin pretended to be stupid.

Lin Chuan glanced at her and smiled ambiguously: "It doesn't matter, it's just our relationship."

"What's our relationship?" Xu Zixin asked persistently. Seeing her face suddenly approaching in the sun and her curious and probing gaze, Lin Chuan couldn't calm down anymore like a gong beating a drum.

"That's the relationship! Hurry up and push the bicycle, I won't wait for you, let's go first!" Lin Chuan avoided stepping on the bicycle and took a few steps. The arc, the foot also deliberately slowed down to wait for her to catch up.

"Hmm." While Yan Xiya was staring at the two childhood sweethearts who had a good relationship, Gao Yuanwan kept looking at her profile.She waited until the laughter and laughter of the two people faded away before she replied slowly.

Yan Xiya breathed a sigh of relief, and then noticed the strange girl next to her, and smiled with difficulty, looking a little thrillingly beautiful under the effect of dusk: "Who are you?"

"My name is Gao Yuanwan." For the first time, instead of using the familiar nickname, she introduced herself with a formal full name.

Yan Xiya smiled sweetly next door, shining brightly throughout the summer, and it was from that moment that Gao Yuanwan understood the throbbing emotion that could not be diverted from the first sight of her, which is called love at first sight in the legend : "You are the girl standing next to me during the military training, no wonder you look familiar, can I call you Yuanwan? I am Yan Xiya."

Gao Yuanwan was a little afraid to look at her clear and transparent gaze, touched the cut hairstyle uncomfortably, and said shyly, "You can just call me Gangbang."

Once you find out that you like it, you want her to know.

This kind of emotion has sprung up like mushrooms in the rainy season since the end of the military training, and it can no longer be contained.

Such emotions overflowed, but when she found that Yan Xiya's smile was not directed at her alone, it inevitably became moldy.

Because she is special, I hope it is my own. I hate that she sees others in her eyes. How can she be willing to share with others when she is so beautiful.

So at the school gate, when she was stopped by Shang Zhu, who fell into a possessive predicament because of the same person, Gao Yuanwan, who coincidentally coincided with her, stretched out her hand: "I am her deskmate, why don't you buy her instead of rejecting me?" Me? I think we can cooperate."

With the power of Shang Zhu, eradicate those nasty "bugs" who entangled, plundered and devoured her.

Although after losing her friends one by one, she no longer loves to laugh so much.

But that's okay isn't it?

Yan Xiya, you just need to smile at me alone.

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It was a sudden rainstorm that trapped them at school.

Yan Xiya stood in front of the window with her chin propped up and looked down with a smile.

Gao Yuanwan approached, only to realize that she was looking at two people who were arguing on the eaves downstairs to avoid the rain.

"It's all your fault! I said that the weather forecast will rain, but you still said not to bring an umbrella!" Xu Zixin blamed angrily.

Lin Chuan smiled very nicely, and was not in a hurry compared to Xu Zixin: "Didn't you learn it in the textbook today? Why not sing the flute and walk slowly."

Xu Zixin saw that she was so defiant, and pinched her nose in a savage and mischievous way: "I'll do it, you big-headed ghost~"

Shen Cheng, who had been peeking at the side for a long time, finally plucked up the courage and walked over: "Well...our house is very close, if you don't mind, you can use my raincoat."

Lin Chuan's good mood was swept away, and he probably was another suitor of Xu Zixin. Seeing that classmate Xu blinked her eyes and looked back and smiled, she was about to start thanking her. Lin Chuan circled her first and took off her school uniform The coats covered the heads of the two people, and politely said to Shen Cheng who didn't know what she was going to do: "No need, a raincoat can only protect one person from getting wet, we two are of the same mind, we share our difficulties Yes. Your kindness is appreciated."

Unable to help Xu Zixin speak, Lin Chuan copied the scene in the movie, caught Xu Zixin stepping on the bumpy rain, splashed a ripple, and disappeared into the twilight of the rain curtain.

"It's so romantic." Gao Yuanwan interrupted Yan Xiya's thinking. For some reason, watching her observe others so intently, that kind of discomfort always came out.

Yan Xiya smiled at her, and said in agreement: "Xu Zixin is really lucky to have such a boyfriend."

"Boyfriend?" Gao Yuanwan remembered that Yan Xiya always looked at the two people from a distance, but she never thought that she always regarded the tall and thin Lin Chuan as a boy, "You seem to have misunderstood, those two people They're all girls."

Seeing Yan Xiya's surprised expression, Gao Yuanwan had a thought in her heart, and then said, "Perhaps you didn't misunderstand."

Those two people, anyone with a discerning eye can see that their relationship is not normal.

Yan Xiya, who has thick lines, is very confused: "There is no misunderstanding? Didn't you say that they are all girls? How could it be...?"

Gao Yuanwan looked at her relentlessly with fiery eyes, and took a step closer, shortening the distance to a dangerous distance: "So what about girls, I like girls too."

The sudden confession made many things ready to come out.

Yan Xiya's hand grasped the back of the chair next to her nervously, and as Gao Yuanwan's contact rubbed against the tiled floor, there was a harsh metallic sound, and finally she had no choice but to push her away.

"Yan Xiya..." Gao Yuanwan looked at her unwillingly, but Yan Xiya no longer smiled, and she could see that she was flustered, blamed herself and contradicted.

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

She didn't know how to deal with such an unprepared confession, so she ran out of the classroom alone...

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Obviously so disdainful, obviously so panicked, obviously so scared.

After Gao Yuanwan expressed her heart, she was silent for another two years. Finally, after discovering Yan Xiya's obvious love for Lin Chuan, the fountain erupted like a fountain.

She felt that Yan Xiya had betrayed her.

So she wants revenge.

Especially when he accidentally witnessed Yan Xiya acting with Li Ji, his anger and unwillingness had already borne fruit.

If you can't get it, you will destroy it.

Why, Lin Chuan and Li Ji can do it, but I can't?

The torn pages twisted like her broken heart, Gao Yuanwan cursed, ferocious and frantic.

She started laughing again, brighter than before.

But not to myself.

friend?

Not enough, not enough, far from enough.

Want more, more, more.

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"Hi"

When Xu Zixin turned her head, she saw Gao Yuanwan looking at her knowingly.

The two were not very familiar with each other, Xu Zixin nodded as a greeting, but Gao Yuanwan grabbed her wrist: "Is it okay if Lin Chuan was snatched by Yan Xiya?"

I hated being too close to people other than Lin Chuan, so Xu Zixin shook her hand away without losing face: "Does it have something to do with you? I have to leave beforehand."

"It has something to do with it." Gao Yuanwan looked at her back and said, "I have something to do with Yan Xiya being snatched by Lin Chuan."

"Oh?" Xu Zixin looked at her with interest, "It's a pity, I'm not worried at all that your Yan Xiya is capable of taking away the Lin Chuan I've been with for so long."

Gao Yuanwan folded her hands on her chest, and looked at her not to be outdone: "After getting along for so long, do you know that she didn't have to send Qiu Jinjin home a long time ago, and she has been avoiding your affairs recently?"

"Then...so what...it's also about the two of us. Don't think that the whole world likes that nerd of yours!" It took only a moment to capture Xu Zixin's deep anxiety.

But Gao Yuanwan still said: "You wait for me here."

Xu Zixin seemed to be drugged.

Obviously choose to believe no matter what.

In any case will not waver.

But it was like being under a Gu, and he couldn't move his feet no matter what.

"I'm going to the toilet, you wait here for me!"

When Gao Yuanwan ran over with a panicked expression, stuffed her schoolbag into her arms, and appeared again, Xu Zixin realized that she was actually doubting her relationship with Lin Chuan.

When Lin Chuan found her, Xu Zixin knew that she had fallen into a trap.

But her unnatural behavior made Xu Zixin very frustrated to know that there were secrets between the two of them, not only herself, that she didn't want to tell each other.

How frustrating.

Is it really because of Yan Xiya as Gangbeng said?

Yan Xiya, who came out halfway, easily destroyed the relationship line that had been painstakingly maintained.

It must be.

So even if he knew he was framed, he knew he was misunderstood, he knew that Lin Chuan was accommodating, understanding, and concealing things on his own initiative.

As long as she doesn't ask her.

She didn't explain anything.

Thinking about it now, the inseparable two people also tore apart the rift at that time and fell into the abyss of crisis of trust.

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And then.

Xu Zixin accidentally witnessed Yan Xiya's "questioning", and she was wrapped up in a strong sense of insecurity.

Did those two really have anything?

letter……

If Lin Chuan read that letter...

He will definitely be snatched away by Yan Xiya as Gangbeng said.

That is Lin Chuan, which is so within reach and yet out of reach.

Xu Zixin lost the belief that life would be worse than death.

How could it be okay.

The Internet cafe bag separated her from others.

In such a small sinful space where both sides can feel the breath and heartbeat,

Xu Zixin did bad things because she knew she couldn't let go.

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When Gao Yuanwan saw the letter.

After graduating, she couldn't find Yan Xiya anymore and accumulated anger.

Xu Zixin swears over and over again that she doesn't believe that Lin Chuan will fall in love with others.

It made her depressed to go crazy.

forest boat.

Why do you.Why did Yan Xiya, who was stingy with saying goodbye to others, become so well-intentioned.

What right do you have to smile at her and ignore her tears.

You are sorry for my precious Yan Xiya.

So I want to destroy your most precious Xu Zixin.

Let you also taste the taste of love.

Gao Yuanwan almost forgot that Xu Zixin was of the same kind as herself.

Therefore do not understand.

I don't understand.

Lied to her, abducted her, framed her, imprisoned her, even let her take drugs, self-abuse, and filth.

Smooth out all the brilliance on her body.

He became as useless and obscure as himself.

Such Xu Zixin is still proud and shining.

Why is Xu Zixin not to be seen by Lin Chuan even if she is willing to degenerate when Xu Zixin is full of scars.

"I'm not like you at all!" When awake, Xu Zixin would usually point at Gao Yuanwan numbly with hostility, and complain hysterically, "Give up, even if I die, I won't let Lin Chuan see me like this, you Rather than torturing me like this to satisfy your perverted psychology, it is better to kill me as soon as possible!"

Maybe it was because the separation time was too long, when Gao Yuanwan figured it out, it was better to let go, but Yan Xiya came back.

She didn't change at all, she had two dimples when she laughed, and the jumping light spots around her seemed to dance along with her.

Lin Chuan's eyes circling her were as warm as when he was looking at Xu Zixin.

Yan Xiya is the sun.

Gao Yuanwan tried to cover her with a curtain, deceiving herself that she would only be able to see herself.

But Lin Chuan used the most tolerant way to bathe in the spring breeze that was only once.

No wonder Yan Xiya and Xu Zixin both like her so much.

Because she is not as selfish as herself.

When Gao Yuanwan thought so thoroughly, she noticed the low-key Xu Zixin.

She greedily and obsessively looked at the long-lost reunion and thought about it day and night before seeing the person she loved so much, but she didn't have the same persistence and conceit that Gao Yuanwan expected.

Gao Yuanwan succeeded in destroying Xu Zixin, but in her decisive silent cry, she heard the sound of her own heart being torn apart by her own hands.

"Let's go home." Lin Chuan noticed Xu Zixin's gaze, turned his head to look at her kindly, and smiled bitterly.

Xu Zixin is the moon.No matter how dark the quagmire is, Lin Chuan can recognize her at a glance.

Knowing that she was afraid of his own touch, Lin Chuan didn't dare to get too close, but carefully observed her every movement, for fear of breaking the priceless porcelain.

She knows about those things...it's all so dirty...I look down on myself, hate myself, despise myself, punish myself, hate myself...

Why is it still so pure and clear, as if nothing had happened, and cherished as always?

Xu Zixin no longer ran away, but lost the ability to laugh. She shrank into Luo Yu's arms like a child, but she still didn't have the courage to hold Lin Chuan's hand. In the silence, everyone heard her Sobbing like a little beast, she acted like a baby with a sluggish cry: "I really want to eat fried rice with eggs..."

"Well, I really want to eat too." Lin Chuan's eyes were full of tears, but he tried his best to smile at her and said, "Hurry up, the convenience store will close later, and I won't even eat if you don't come to eat recently." I didn’t buy so many ingredients.”

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