Lazy rabbits only eat grass

Chapter 17

For a long time after I said that sentence, my brain was sluggish.

The weather was gloomy, and the cars on the side of the road hurried past with their lights flashing and their horns on, but I couldn't hear anything.

Su Zhan's mother stood aside with her arms folded, looking at me with irony and contempt, she said, "Call Su Zhan now, I want to hear you break up with him."

I took out the phone mechanically, my fingers trembling when pressing the buttons, and I kept pressing the wrong ones.Finally, I found his number and dialed it.

Su Zhan seems to be in a good mood today, and his tone is jumping: "Xiao Gan, miss me? It's so early today, what's happy, come and talk to my husband."

"Su Zhan, let's separate." I said.

The other side was stunned for a second, and then began to explode: "Why are you here again? You want to tell me that you are straight again? The last warning was not enough?" Su Zhan's words were full of danger through the phone.But in recent days, I have been hit one after another, and my willpower has become much stronger. In addition, his mother is beside me to give me courage. I just found an excuse and said: "Long-distance relationship is too hard. I don't feel safe. We still broke up." Bar."

Su Zhan said: "I know, I can understand. We are not in the same place. When we want to hug and hold hands, we can only talk on the phone. I know it makes you very powerless, and the same is true for me! I also want to talk every day. Seeing you, I stick to you every day. But we can't be as willful as children, we have to be rational, there are certain processes in life that must be experienced. No couple can avoid long-distance love, Xiaogan, You have to believe in me, you have to believe in my feelings for you. Wait for me for three years, I swear, I will go to you when I graduate. At that time, we will nest together every day, and no one can separate us. At that time, I will never let you be alone again, okay?"

By the end, he was almost begging.

I was so distressed that I couldn't breathe, tears were rolling in my eyes, I turned my head away and took a big breath.

I closed my eyes, pretended nothing had happened, and said calmly: "No, I'm tired, I don't want to continue, so be it."

Without giving him another chance to speak, I hung up and turned off the phone.

I wiped my tears and looked at Su Zhan's mother. She was very satisfied, left a check, and left with her bag.

That same day, I packed my things and moved out of the small apartment we had lived together.Instead of going back to the school dormitory, I rented a cheap rental room near the school.Much smaller than that small apartment, and enough for me to live alone.

It started to rain in the evening, so I put away the salute and simply arranged the furniture.Lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, feeling very depressed.I didn't turn on the light, the lightning pierced through the thick dark red curtains and hit my heart one after another.

The heavy rain didn't stop, so I took an umbrella and went out to take out the garbage.

I opened the door and saw a familiar figure not far away in the rain, I was too surprised to speak.

Su Zhan was still wearing the school uniform of University A. With a gloomy face, he walked towards me step by step, with fierce eyes: "Why did you break up with me?"

It will not exceed 6 hours since I broke up with him at noon, and today is still in class.I didn't expect that he would skip class, and within six hours, he flew over from University A in a hurry.He must have gone to our apartment first, didn't see me, then went to the school, but couldn't find me, and after asking all the way, he found here.

I don't know how long he stood in the rain, let alone how long he looked for me, how many people did he ask?His clothes were already soaked, the sky was raining heavily, and his clothes and hair were drizzled.

So embarrassed, so running around, just to ask me, why did you break up?

My heart suddenly ached, and I wanted to rush over and hug him, and scold him fiercely, "Are you a fool, you don't know how to hide in a rainy day, Yunluo is a coward, a selfish person, he doesn't deserve you to do this at all"!

However, the only thing I can do now is to clenched my fists and try to suppress my emotions.

I calmly said to him: "Let's be friends. It's not good for two men to be together. Instead of being judged, it's better to find a girl, hold hands openly, fall in love, and accept other people's blessings. "

"I can't be friends with you." He said without any room.

I said: "Actually, it's good to be friends. We can eat, drink and sing together as friends. There is no gossip, and no one will judge us. After many years, we each talk about a girlfriend and date. , get married, have children, and see each other have a happy and complete family, isn't that great?"

Every time I say a word, my heart will be stabbed severely.

Thinking about the fact that in the future we will fall in love, get married, have children, and have nothing to do with each other from now on, I really would rather die now.

At least now, at this moment, I know he loves me.

And I love him too.

He took the concentric knot out of his pocket and handed it to me.

The sky gradually darkened, the heavy rain continued for a long time, the street lights were dim, and at the end of the rain curtain was a white mist.Dirt from flower beds spread across roads, washed down drains along with rotting leaves, and flooded the ground.

The rain ran down his face rapidly, like tears, his eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse: "Do you remember that we went to the mountain to pray? Do you remember the concentric knot you made up? Didn't we promise to be together forever Is it?"

Looking at the concentric knot, my eyes were blurred, my hand suddenly lost strength, and the umbrella fell to the ground suddenly.

The rain wet my face, hair, and clothes, and he suddenly pulled me into his arms: "Xiaogan, what's wrong with me, tell me, and I'll change it." His body was cold, and he hugged my arm That kind of force seemed to insert me into his bones.

"Don't break up with me... okay?" His voice was pathetic, pleading.

The hug was just a brief moment, but I remember it very clearly.Like the thunder that never stopped that night, no matter where it is, no matter how many years, it is so deeply imprinted in my mind that I cannot forget it.

Su Zhan, you are not wrong, it is the world that is wrong.

I believe in you, of course I believe in you!However, we have no way to turn back.

I said: "Originally, I thought I only liked boys, but I didn't. It turns out that I also like girls. Long-distance relationships are not guaranteed. If you are not by my side, I can't control myself from liking others. I fell in love with you." A girl from our same department."

I said, "Su Zhan, I don't like you anymore."

The rain is cold, and my body, from heart to limbs, also loses temperature at this moment.

Su Zhan was stunned, the rain washed his pale face and body, he couldn't turn his eyes, he just stared blankly at the road blurred by the rain column.

In the rain, under the street lamp, his body was like a residual leaf in the wind, crumbling.Without further hesitation, I turned around and strode away.

The door was closed by me, completely shutting down all the possibilities between us.

I pulled up the curtains, curled up in the quilt, weeping uncontrollably.

I didn't go to school, I didn't come home, I didn't even go out.I hid in the small rented room, drew the curtains, and lay on the bed, unable to distinguish day from night, neither wanting to eat nor drink.I didn't know that I hadn't eaten or drank for three days and three nights until my mother called.

If my mother called a few days later, and a few days later, when the landlord came to check, a dead body on the bed would definitely give him a big surprise.

I told my mother, I'm fine, I just had a little fever and it's subsided.I said, I have already borrowed money, so they don't have to worry.

Over the weekend, I packed my things and went home with that 400 million check.

The gambling debts were paid off, my dad was discharged from the hospital, and my mom kept crying, beating and scolding my dad, until he swore he would never gamble again and wrote a note to guarantee that the matter was over.

The weather is fine, the sky is very blue, endless, very beautiful.

I think everything will gradually get better.

I turned all my attention to my studies, joined a lot of clubs, found a part-time job at night, and almost filled up all my free time.With a high scholarship, I became a good student in the eyes of my classmates, parents and teachers.The grocery store run by my mother has gradually grown, and the money I earn is four times that of before. With the money from my part-time job and scholarship, the family’s debts were all paid off in less than two years.

From my sophomore year to my senior year, I have never been in a relationship.

After graduation, I was an intern in a state-owned enterprise, and my mother also started urging me to find a girlfriend.

Chu Chu told me: "Brother, Xia Yin has liked you for many years, every time I come to my house to see you, since mom has been urging you, why don't you try with Xia Yin."

Chu Chu is a junior this year. She has been playing online games since high school, and she has always played male characters.The Xia Yin in her mouth is the lady in her game.Of course, as Chu Chu said, they knew each other in real life. Not only did they know each other, but they were also good friends since childhood.

I have seen Xia Yin, long hair, neat bangs, thin, very cute.She does often come to my house to play, but why don't I know that she likes me?She came to see me?I always thought she was here to play with Chu Chu.

Thinking about it, I think Xia Yin is pretty good, and my mother likes it too, so I agreed.

I exchanged mobile numbers with Xia Yin, and started dating, shopping, and watching movies like all couples do.Everyone envied me very much, saying that we were a good match, a man of talent and a woman of beauty.

Had a great time.

I think it won't be long before I forget about that person.