i'm not a phoenix

Chapter 1

My wife, Li Wan, is a man.

I still can't believe that I chose a man to marry.

Before my wife appeared, in my imagination, the other half might be a virtuous and generous girl, maybe not pretty, but definitely understanding.

Then, when I earn enough money, I will take her back to my hometown to open a small shop, cook, chat, and watch TV together during the break time...

The married life I imagined is so leisurely and comfortable.

I once told my sister about this kind of thinking, and she was shocked for a long time before she realized it and said, how can my thoughts be so old-fashioned and unmotivated? If I insist on this kind of thinking, no girls will like it me.

She also said that while you are young, you should have a peerless love!

I……

I suspected that she was being poisoned by bad novels, so I didn't argue with her again.

As a result... As my sister expected, the people who went on a blind date with me, after I finished talking about my life plan, they all looked at me with disdain and turned their heads to leave.

Then I met my now wife when I was 25 and I never thought about being with a man until I met him.At least I, who was born in the countryside, have not seen it yet.

……

But now, Li Wan filed for divorce from me.

When Li Wan and I first started dating, everyone thought I was using him.Up to now, there are still many people who don't understand the situation and feel that I am greedy for Li Wan's family background.

We have been married for five years, and this marriage is finally not questioned by Li Wan's friends.And my parents were finally able to accept Li Wan this year.I originally planned to take Li Wan back to see his parents during the Chinese New Year...

But now...

Li Wan would be a little sad occasionally, I asked him what's the matter.

He said nothing.

Later I learned that because of my taciturnity, he misunderstood that I didn't love him.

But how to explain this...

My mantra has always been to talk less and do more.If I said lightly, "I love you, I married you", how credible would it be based on my status at the time?almost zero.

——I am used to and think that actions can better show my cherishment for him.But my actions are too cryptic - I don't say, he doesn't understand.So it fell into a knot of misunderstanding.

In fact, when I got to the bottom of it, I still relied on his family background, otherwise, no matter how hard I worked, it would be impossible for me to accumulate the resources and connections I have today within three years.

He once asked me if I would be with him if his parents had no money or power.

I said I don't know.

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, even a dull person like me could see that he was obviously disappointed.

But I really don't know.

Because if he hadn't been rich and powerful in his family, I wouldn't have worked in his company, and then I knew him because of it.

This is indeed the unknown.I am used to thinking rationally, but this rationality applies to answering papers, but not to our marriage.I got married for the first time, and no one told me how to do the marriage test paper-so, I had unnecessary misunderstandings with him-those misunderstandings made me regret and make him sad.

After answering his question that day, he became indifferent, and now he is asking me for a divorce.

……

I agreed to associate with him only after careful consideration.When I agreed to associate with him, I made a plan to be with him for the rest of my life—although, he proposed to me first.

However, who would propose marriage after only a month of formal dating?

I seriously doubt it's because I don't agree with doing...ahem, that kind of thing before marriage.That's why he was so anxious to get married...

He is a little shorter than me, 1.7 meters eight, I am 1.8 meters three.He has slender eyes, a handsome nose, and an excellent body proportion. Because he often goes to the gym to exercise, he has a thin layer of muscles, which is different from the muscles that I naturally form when doing farm work. He is very beautiful, and his skin is fair. The whole person is a suave and rich kid.

Before marrying me, because of his innate superiority and the fact that he was the only child of his parents and was loved, he was not only ignorant but also very rebellious, wearing a head of yellow hair every day—although After dyeing his yellow hair, he is also very good-looking, and besides not messing around with men and men, he is so fun that Father Li is often angry with him.I suspect that Father Li agreed to let me marry him so easily, probably because he thought I could cure him and calm him down.

When we go out with him after we get married, we can always run into his old cronies, and when he sees my cold face, he bites my ear: "Ah Zhi, I'm in the same circle anyway, just say hello, don't be angry! Besides, you didn't listen to me when I told you to be quiet last night, and you..." I interrupted him angrily, "Shut up!"

He doesn't know how to cook. When he first got married, he wanted to cook me a meal on a whim. Even though the food was not well presented, I still ate two bites.

I'm definitely not soft-hearted because of his expectant eyes, but...he blew up the kitchen, and if I don't eat, I won't have anything to eat.He swallowed it in one bite, didn't dare to chew it, and swallowed it directly. Seeing my disheveled face, he tried to taste it and immediately vomited...

Later, I suggested whether to hire a nanny. He looked casual, but he was a little particular in his bones, saying that he didn't like outsiders at home.The same is true for eating, he is very picky eater, and he asks for a few hours to cook, but he can't eat a few bites.

So I can only find out his preferences and cook for him every day: dishes like light salt, meat likes strong flavors, green onions but not coriander, potato chips like fried a little bit...

I was very busy with work later on. Even though the company was 15 minutes away from home by car, I didn’t go back at noon. Gradually, he didn’t ask me if I would go back at noon. He went directly to his favorite restaurant to eat, and then went to see his coffee shop.

In the evening when I was cooking, he offered to do the dishes. He hadn't done any work at all except for fighting.It is conceivable that the process of his learning to wash dishes was very... hard to describe. After breaking many dishes behind my back, he finally learned to wash dishes!

He also has a very troublesome problem for me. He is always "angry" inexplicably-I later learned that it was jealousy.I seriously discussed this issue with him, saying that he shouldn't be so rude to shake his face, but he refused to admit it. The white jade soaked in dew, the veins in the white jade seem to burst out one by one... I was confused by it again and again-causing him to continue to do his own way next time.

……

He loves to play, loses money, has a stubborn temper, is petty, and has many problems...

He didn't match the wife I originally envisioned in everything, even a hard little muscle - even the wrong gender.

But I actually love him.

I'm also ready to fall in love with him until I grow old.