If this sweet shell is destined to be peeled off by you

Chapter 54 Afterword

This is October 10th, one month after the end of the entire novel, and nearly eight months after the novel was coded. It was written for "If this sweet shell is destined to be peeled off by you" (hereinafter referred to as shelling) summary of feelings.

Here I would like to congratulate myself for finally finishing my debut work!

In the middle and late February of this year, the annual leave has not yet ended, but it is imminent to go back to work.The end of the holiday always makes people inexplicably anxious. In order to calm down, I chose to watch the drama "Western Antiques and Fruit Shop". One of the supporting roles is a female author with her own personality.She has messy bun hair, wears glasses, and the ashtray is full of extinguished cigarette butts. She has a rift with her daughter due to lack of communication and busy work.The plot is about family affection, but when I saw that character, I yearned for it very much.Because she ignited the writing dream that I had buried since childhood.

Staring blankly at the screen, that kind of mood made me a little aggrieved.As a 26-year-old adult, I can only continue to work for my livelihood and let go of those dreams that consume time but cannot be exchanged for money.But that doesn't mean it went out, just that I didn't have time to light it.

In the second year of junior high school, when I met the Chinese teacher who inspired me to write in my life, I knew that what was ignited would not be easily extinguished.At that time, I was often called up to read my composition aloud as a model. Once the teacher took the initiative to submit an essay I wrote to the tabloid office. When I got the newspaper back, I was so happy.I have a deep memory of this incident, and I still remember my mother's smile when she held the newspaper.

So, on that day, I tied up my hair that always hangs down, like her, to write about what I like.I sat from three o'clock to nine o'clock that afternoon and wrote fourteen thousand.Too tired to lie down and get up.

She is a rotten girl herself, so she wanted to write a danmei novel, even if it was just on a whim.After going to work, the time is not very rich, but there are no constraints during the day, so I can change it occasionally, but after a few days, the work gradually increases and I put it aside, and now I can’t remember how long I let it go.It was only after a long time that I continued because of an opportunity.

After waking up at 12:30 one night (I would wake up in the middle of the night if I slept early), I felt the cold sweat all over my body, recalling the nightmare I just experienced, and dared not fall asleep for a long time (I was afraid of heat, I dreamed of being surrounded by a fire) .

But it was too frightening, and because the memory of the fragments of the dream was incomplete, I began to imagine what kind of story this was.It was so scary that I decided to record it with my phone.

The actual scene and fantasy filling of this nightmare have become the outline of a suspense novel.In the next week, in order to enrich it, I spent several hours every day to complete the outline. Until the end, the scene paragraphs and key lines were all ready, and I was excited to start updating, but I couldn’t do it anyway. .

I have been excited by the inspiration brought by this nightmare for a long time, because the rhythm of the story or the way of narration are very satisfying, and I even have an impulse to work hard towards Keigo Higashino!

But in fact, in practice, I found that my writing was so poor that I didn't allow myself to have such a well-designed inspiration, just to be set off by mediocre writing.That's not foil, that's self-deprecating.

After deciding to practice hands first, this inspiration has been sleeping since April.However, the "Shelling" that has been dug out still has only a rough beginning.If practicing handwriting is also suspenseful, I am afraid that I will lose my enthusiasm, so I decided to complete this danmei.

I have experienced a lot during this period. After the summer workload increased greatly, I had to wait until I got home to practice my hands. I dragged my exhausted body home to take a shower. After drying off, I sat in front of the computer and constantly checked and proofread the previous texts. BUG, the first twenty chapters, it can be said that it has been revised and read more than 20 times.In addition to writing, I often have to sit until eleven or twelve o'clock, and I will fall asleep when I lie down. There is no concept of having dinner at all.

After I gradually became enthusiastic about "Shelling" (actively and slowly warming up the personality), looking at the men I created, I felt a kind of pleasure slowly piled up in my heart.People created with both hands and brains, they live in the world I have given, whether it is hard work or happiness, they have existed, even if it is a fantasy world.I've grown to love my character.

I once posted a message in Moments: There are very few places I can go in this life, and there are not many emotions I can experience.Then let them go to the world that I can't go to, love the people I can't touch, and experience the life that I can't reach.

The wonderful feeling made people unable to stop, it was so beautiful that it made people cry.

After going through endless cycles of self-denial, self-affirmation, negation and affirmation, I finally accepted that my writing is just like this, and I just do my best.

Several readers have asked me, why do I write Japanese Tanmei light novels?Maybe it's because the things I've come into contact with, such as manga, horse hunting, and anime, are all in that style, and it feels easier to get started.

As for the story of "Shelling", although the place name is not clearly marked in the text, in fact this book can also be called "Tokyo Basic Love Story" (laughs.

This story is a slow and light story. Xueyue's orphan status is afraid of excessive contact with people, but she is simple but has been working in a gay bar. Maeda was a man who played crazy until she met Xueyue.Due to family reasons, Jie Luo can't easily believe and accept. He is extremely afraid of losing his freedom, and Nakajima struggles to escape the harm of his ex-girlfriend Cormorant.It seems that everyone has a secret that they don't want to say, and they have to rely on disguise to be like an invincible social person, but when true love comes, they have to peel off their hypocritical, cold, seemingly complete and beautiful shell.

In front of the cherished one, expressing frankly and embracing choices without any scruples is what this story wants to express.The ending was very happy, Xueyue got her family, Maeda abandoned the old habits and matured, Jie Luo waited for someone who was willing to hug, Nakajima chose Jie Luo.Irie met idiot Han Chuanyuan, and my favorite little angel Irie also got happiness.

Maybe it's too bitter in my heart, so I want to write some candy by myself, so I don't have any worries about eating it.So I hope that this sweet article can be liked by others, sharing is a kind of joy.

When she saw the ending she had written, Xueyue finally took the initiative to propose to Maeda, and sighed greatly. At the same time, her phone randomly picked up a song, which was the very well-received "人として".At that time, I felt a lot of emotions, and I also felt that this song was the most suitable for the ending of this story.

If you are interested, you can listen to this song and see the lyrics, it's really great!

Finally, I would like to thank a few people for accompanying me until now. If you have finished reading this article, if it is convenient, you can leave a message to let me know that I am not alone until the end.

There is an old saying in the update, and a present has not been released.After all, writing will continue. The goal before the age of 30 is to write 100 million words with heart. For this goal, I will work harder!

(The original text of shelling is 23.5W. After deleting the river crab, the remaining is less than 18W. It’s a pity.)

Thank you for your company all the way, we will see you in the next article!