sinovels Chapter 18 Chapter 18
Chapter 18 Chapter 18
I made an appointment with my lover Maeda to go to the playground together on the rest day of the second week, and the days when I was waiting for breakfast every day and had to tell me every time I went out soon arrived.
Xueyue likes spring very much.If the wind is not too strong and the weather is sunny, the mood will improve accordingly.When I was alone, the rest days were more like going to the park for a walk, or buying things from the convenience store outside for a picnic.
The two of them came out together today, Xueyue didn't let Maeda drive.Although it is not Saturday and Sunday, the road is unimpeded, but for Xueyue who has not gone out for more than half a year, being able to take the subway together is better than the long and wordless driving journey.Because it has become more and more easy to blush recently, this guy Maeda seems to have mastered something incredible. Every time the other party deliberately teases him, he always loses first.
"Why does Xueyue always wear so little clothes and still not feel cold?"
The crowd at the subway station was noisy. Although everyone spoke in a low voice, Xueyue was still not used to being stared at by Maeda, so she could only pretend to look in the direction of the subway.
"Oh, this may be because I am used to the cold. I was afraid of the cold when I was a child, but gradually I don't feel so cold."
There was nothing in the direction in front of him, only an empty passage, and Maeda was standing next to him.Xueyue, who felt his breath all the time, began to secretly calculate the time when she knew him.It has been several months since Valentine's Day, and the opportunity to become a lover is that I agreed to the other party's confession in a muddle. Much, Xue Yue even felt that after a long time, her weight has increased.
There are people who are thinking about things in their hearts, but they can't always control the expressions on their faces.
"Let's go, and the car will be closed if you are in a daze."
Urging the dazed Xueyue to get on the train, the already crowded carriage made Xueyue a little out of breath.Although he was carefully protected by Maeda so that he would try not to bump into others, but the stuffy crowd still made people feel uncomfortable.
"Are you uncomfortable?"
Seeing Xueyue frowning with an unhappy face, Maeda was a little worried.
"It's okay, I'm just not used to being so crowded, because I work in the afternoon... so I hardly meet so many people taking the subway together."
Forced to squeeze out a smile, Maeda couldn't bear the disobedient expression on Xueyue's white face.
"Next time, let's drive out, shall we? Or ride that motorcycle?"
Although he wanted to comfort Xueyue who looked uncomfortable, but the physical sadness was not something that could be relieved by words.
"Well, let's go for a picnic next time, and then find a park with a lot of flowers, and we can have lunch while enjoying the flowers."
Resisting the uncomfortable feeling in her throat, Xue Yue could only rely on her imagination to give herself some comfort, to suppress her nausea a little bit, and try not to smell those strong or pungent smells with her nose.
Xueyue, who was leaning against the door, was fully encircled by Maeda's arms in his own territory, and his gaze was staring at Xueyue, watching him feel sick, but he forced himself to smile at himself At this moment, besides worry, Maeda is more in a state of softness.For such a lover, from the very beginning, he tried his best to take care of her tenderly. Xueyue, who was clean and pure, as if she had never been touched by anyone, had the purest appearance hidden in her chest.
"Xueyue, do you know?"
"Ok?"
Xueyue raised her head curiously, her eyes were wide open, and she curiously looked at Maeda who was holding the glass with both hands.
"People say that people whose skin is cold and resistant to cold usually have a warm heart. But those whose skin is always warm but are afraid of cold are actually sharp and cold inside."
"Huh? Is that so?"
This topic aroused Xue Yue's curiosity.
"Why does it feel like there is no scientific basis?"
"Think about it, Xueyue, people who are not afraid of the cold are generally very resistant to the cold. It is actually very difficult for human beings to restrain the low temperature, but those who can endure it show that this person has a strong endurance. Then this This kind of person, most of them have a good temper, even if they make him angry, the other party will give priority to patience. Tolerant and patient with others, generally give people the feeling of warmth in their hearts."
"yes……"
"I think you are like this, Xueyue."
Maeda in front of him looked at him tenderly, with heat on his face, but he couldn't move his body away.The distance was so close that it was difficult to turn around, and I felt that it was not good to turn around, so I had to continue to be embarrassed alone.
"Oh... I don't understand it very well, it sounds far-fetched..."
"Hehe, at least in my eyes, Xueyue is such a person. Although she looks cold on the outside, she is polite and polite to everyone, and always has a sense of distance that rejects people thousands of miles away. Very warm and soft person.”
Compared with what he said on the day of confession, this explanation is even more moving. Xue Yue completely forgot the embarrassment, and felt numb in his heart. The strange feeling made him forget the discomfort caused by the crowded carriage .
She dared not look directly at Maeda even more, Xueyue just tightened her body as much as possible, blushing while standing in the safe area built by Maeda, not knowing how to answer the topic.
People who devote themselves wholeheartedly always enjoy being in it, but Xueyue, who is timid, always seems to be vigilant about something all the time.
He vaguely remembered the shop manager who was crying so badly, and he also remembered Jie Luo's words.From time to time, we also see the Shura field of new and old love among the guests. Some people enjoy the sweetness in love, and some people cry inexplicably in the boundless desert of emotion.Xueyue didn't understand back then, and she still doesn't understand now.
He didn't know why Maeda would confess to him, even though he said that he liked him, Xueyue still couldn't understand why Maeda would like this transparent person.
I don't have friends who drink with me, and my personality is not good. I always look at myself and become very nervous and depressed.Such an insignificant self, what attracted Maeda.
The two people who have their own concerns came together with different moods. Although they don't know what will happen tomorrow, Xueyue still wants to try hard.
The 10-minute trip was a bit of a torment for Xueyue, but Maeda felt very happy.On weekdays, the time they can be together with Xueyue is to eat breakfast, after eating Xueyue will help wash the dishes, watch TV together, or go to the supermarket together to buy daily necessities.But as pure as he is, he always keeps his head down, and doesn't take the initiative to find topics. Occasionally, when he hears something interesting, he just laughs along, or interjects a sentence or two.
Maeda always wanted to get closer to each other, and would like to do some lovers' daily life, intimate chat, holding hands, kissing, and even taking a bath together.But the shy Xueyue never dared to hold hands outside, and could only accept being hugged and kissed briefly at home, and it didn't take long for the excuse of being so hot to push her away to cool down alone .
Xueyue, who has eyes like frightened deer and flushed cheeks, is fascinating. Maeda is always trying to restrain his desires, with hardships and pains.But he was even more reluctant to go too far, even if he was hated a little, it was hard to accept.
"Recently, I see that you are always in a daze. Do you have something on your mind?"
Walking out of the carriage, the abundant cool breeze and air made people take a long breath.The dullness in his chest was swept away, and his mood improved.
"Am I in a daze? I don't even know."
Finally showing a smiling face again, Maeda finally felt relieved.
It may be due to the warmer weather. There are not very few people in the playground. There are many parents with children, and there are also a few couples of young lovers holding hands.
The colors of the playground are vibrant, hot pink, crowded yellow and green, flying blue, under the impact of huge color blocks, make the mood high.
"Well, do you want to try it?"
Holding Xueyue's arm, Maeda pointed excitedly at the roller coaster not far away, and the fast-moving crowd let out undulating screams. Seeing this thrilling game, Xueyue hesitated under his feet, feeling more fearful. Overcome the urge to try.
"I……"
Looking at the hesitation in Xueyue's eyes, Maeda realized that he was afraid.
"Forcing you, I'm sorry. Let's start with the less exciting ones first."
Considering Xueyue, Maeda turned around and walked towards the Ferris wheel.Xueyue didn't hesitate, because in comparison, the Ferris wheel is much gentler than the roller coaster.
Maeda always felt that the countless emotional experiences since leaving school seemed like a waste of time.He longed to be loved, to be comforted and hurt, and to be longed for by someone else, no matter who it was, to fill the emptiness in his heart.But there has never been a passage that made him pay so much for someone that he took it for granted, and there has never been anyone like Xueyue, who is so heavy in his heart, but looks so beautiful that people dare not touch it.
This one, that one, Maeda has always enjoyed the other party's dedication, although he will respond in return, but now when facing Xueyue, the dedication he feels at ease is different from anyone else.He desires to obtain Xueyue, but he does not desire to deprive Xueyue.
Careful care, clumsy possession, sometimes even feel like a love apostle with pure desire, wanting to pour all the sweet hope.But in such jerky care, he gradually realized how inconsiderate and gentle he was.
The two people sitting on the Ferris wheel moved slowly with the huge wheel, and the field of vision in front of them gradually became wider. The entire playground and surrounding areas were displayed in front of them. Maeda, who was sitting on the Ferris wheel, did not choose to look around. It was the first time for Xueyue to stand at such a high place to see the scenery. She couldn't help being a little excited, and even stood up and lay down on the glass door, widening her curious eyes and kept looking into the distance.
"It's my first time riding a Ferris wheel..."
Regardless of Maeda, Xueyue, who was immersed in admiring the scenery, seemed to have peeled off the shell of her usual pretense, revealing an innocent expression like a child.
The author has something to say:
Xueyue's son is very cute!