I will die the day I want to die

Chapter 21

I asked the driver brother to take me to the hotel. After paying, I watched the taxi go away, and I turned and walked into the hotel.This hotel is owned by Xieji. I have a free consumption card, which was also given by him, but I have never used it once.

I always feel that I can't owe him anything, but in fact I still owe him all the time, hey, why think about it so much, I have to forget it anyway.

Putting my thoughts behind me, I slept in the room until noon the next day, washed up carefully, and went upstairs to the restaurant for lunch.

I didn't reply to Xie Ji's message yesterday, so I guess he should be here soon, so I called him with my mobile phone.After only two rings, he was connected. The man remained silent as usual. When I spoke, I naturally wanted to show him face, and immediately said "Good morning" with a smile.

He said "hmm", and his tone sounded calm, "Is this all for lunch?"

I looked at the sandwich and milk in front of me, and took a big sip of the milk, "This is breakfast for me."

"Then I'll treat you to lunch." The voice on the phone was slightly stuttering and low, mixed with the sound of electric current.

I was dazed when I heard it, and I had the illusion that I had made a wrong call. How could I hear someone's voice with gentle components out of thin air?

"Huh...?" I replied confusedly.

He said softly: "Come down after eating, I'll wait for you in the lobby on the first floor."

"..." It's really weird, he seems really gentle?I gnawed on the sandwich in my hand in bewilderment, not knowing what to say, and then I heard him say, "You're cute when you lose your temper."

? ? ?who

Who loses their temper cute? ? ?

I was so frightened that I felt that I was mentally disturbed, so I hung up the phone quickly, wiped my mouth after two mouthfuls, and went to take the elevator.

I was eager to see him, even though eight hours ago I was still thinking about how to avoid him, I was just a little curious, just a little, but enough for me to meet him.

I was born to be a frank person, but he seems to be the opposite, awkward, he likes to tell me through countless poems, the only time he is frank is to lie to me.

He wished me to fall in love with him soon.

But it's all in the past, and now he just wants me to go to hell as soon as possible.perhaps.

There were very few people in the lobby during lunch time. When I got out of the elevator, I saw Xie Ji sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette from a distance. There were a few wisps of white smoke in his brows and eyes. He lowered his eyes slightly and stared at the water glass on the table.The whole person seemed quiet and slumped, I rarely saw him slumped, even when An Jing was not with me.

It's really awkward.

People say that girls are awkward in front of boys because they like it and dare not say it, so why is Xie Ji awkward in front of me?Do you like it too?

Ghosts believe it, I walked towards him silently.

As soon as he got close to the table, he raised his eyes to look at me, seeing that I was frowning, he casually put the lit cigarette into the ashtray filled with water.

"Where to have lunch?" I stood where I was and didn't go over.

He raised his eyebrows slightly, the corners of his mouth curled up, and he seemed to be in a good mood, "Can you still eat?"

"Mr. Xie invited me, of course I can eat it."

He blinked when he heard the words, his eyes looked moist, and suddenly smiled and said: "Okay, let's go, I will take you there." After he finished speaking, he got up and walked to me. He was tall and stood in front of me Looking down and looking at my head, just about to tell him not to look, he came closer and blew on the bandage on my head.

I:"……"

Could it be that he really... was scolded by me and something went wrong?

Um?This fucking must be caused by eating some harmful substances, right?

He is so scary!

I didn't dare to talk nonsense, so I was led out by his hand, until I got into his car, the smile on his face didn't disappear, until he started the car and started to go to the destination, he pursed his lips and spoke.

"Although I know the purpose of your coming back, I still hope that you will tell me yourself."

"..." Knowing what to ask?

"You are usually very stupid, you only have a little cleverness, and only this little cleverness is the most unlovable." He looked straight ahead, talking rubbish like he thought he had given me such an honor.

My heart suddenly felt at ease, tsk tsk, sure enough, Xie Ji was still there, and there was nothing wrong with his mind.Thinking of this, I immediately replied happily: "Come back and see my brother~"

He turned his head and glanced at me, "See if your brother will come back at midnight?"

"It's not to avoid you." I looked at him with a smile and said.

After hearing this, he squinted his eyes and looked at me, very much like a raccoon cat I saw in school many years ago, arrogant and indifferent, and he didn't seem to be easy to provoke.

I looked at me for a long time, and I kept smiling at him. I didn't care if he didn't look at the road ahead. At worst, we would die together. Anyway, there were no cars on this road, and I wasn't afraid of hurting others.

After a long time, he questioned me with a completely incomprehensible look: "You decide to like me, all the choices are made by yourself, who are you pretending to be like now?"

The tone sounded quite sincere, I guess he really thought so from the bottom of his heart, so I didn't get angry with him, I just told him frankly what I thought.

"First of all, you have to understand that my liking is the behavior of me, and my choice is indeed my own decision, but these are all on the premise that you deceive me, you let me like you, I like you But you asked me to be with Xie Ming. I think anyone, as long as they are normal people, would feel sad, do you understand what I mean?"

Still confused, he parked the car on the side of the road.

I was so helpless, I felt my nose was a little sour, so I could only tell him indiscriminately, "Not only me, but also Xie Ming, likes cannot be given, you can't just give my likes to Xie Ming just because I like you, It's not fair to me or her and we're all going to be sad."

He frowned, "I didn't lie to you, I was just helping my sister pursue you."

Maybe the human heart is sometimes not too listen to the brain, if you let it not hurt, it hurts so much that you want to dig it out.

"Yes, you didn't deceive me, it's just that my only cleverness is not enough." I replied with a smile.

He was satisfied, nodded, and started the car again, "I think about it now, it's good that you like me so much."

"Hmm." I nodded.

He smiled happily, "Then you come back."

"Ah."

"I also went to Zhou Wanxing that day. He said that you hated me so much and left. Who would believe it? I think he just fell in love with you." He continued.

I still nodded, "You're right."

He suddenly turned his head to look at me again, and said in a low voice: "I used to treat you badly, but I didn't realize that you were so cute when you lost your temper. Now treat you well, you continue to like me."

"..." I laughed, and was speechless for a while, the previous conversation hurt my vitality, I really couldn't figure out what crime I did, and he started playing this trick again?

"It was only when Zhou Wanxing said that he liked you that I realized that you were loved by someone." He whispered, I was suffering from the blunt pain in my heart, and I could only vaguely hear him say: "... At that moment, my My heart hurts so much."

I suddenly opened my eyes to look at him.

He turned his head away and stopped looking at me, his ears were red all over.

I looked at him in a daze, my heart beat faster and faster, like someone knocked over the chessboard in my heart, scattered around, ping-pong-pong.Heart pounding.

It’s really a model of self-promotion, but it just reminds me of a poem by Tagore——

If you give me a dead flower, I will also wear it on my heart.

What if the flower has thorns?

I just endured it.

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As long as he gives it, then I will bear it.

As long as he likes me.