I still want to pretend after falling off the horse

Chapter 76 Unfamiliar

Shang Yuan pinched his wrist with such force that it seemed to break his wrist bone.Yang Yixin felt the pain and let go, but he couldn't move.

As soon as Shang Yuan pulled, he was forced to fall forward, forming an extremely dangerous posture.If it weren't for the soles of his feet firmly supporting the ground and his knees against the chair, he would have thrown himself into Shang Yuan's arms.

"let me go."

It was too close, Yang Yixin could even feel his breath, and tilted his head uncomfortably.

"Didn't you want me to think about the old relationship? Now I'm reluctant." Shang Yuan said.

"That was not what I meant."

"What does that mean?"

Yang Yixin was speechless for a moment, it was indeed he who mentioned the so-called old relationship first, and wanted to use this friendship in exchange for the desired result.When asked by Shang Yuan, he immediately felt ashamed and even more confused, not as eloquent as usual.

Seeing his silence, Shang Yuan went on to say, "Since you want my help, what do you have to exchange for it?"

Yang Yixin: "What do you want?"

Shang Yuan unbuttoned his shirt one by one with one hand.Yang Yixin looked at his bare solid chest, his eyes widened suddenly, and he had an ominous guess in his heart.

"You can leave at any time if you don't want to." Shang Yuan suddenly let him go.

Being stimulated by him again and again with sarcastic remarks, Yang Yixin couldn't help feeling annoyed.

Isn't it just sleeping?They are all adults, and they can't sleep well.

With a sullen face, Yang Yixin gritted his teeth, took off his coat, and then took off his T-shirt and threw it on the table. He stepped forward and pushed Shang Yuan into the chair, and said through gritted teeth: "Of course I am willing, as long as you are happy." .”

After finishing speaking, he closed his eyes and kissed vigorously, his lips and teeth collided for a moment, only felt pain, and a faint smell of rust filled his mouth.

Yang Yixin has never received such a bad kiss, without any affection, neither tenderness nor enthusiasm, as if kissing a piece of ice, without any response.Although he is not ready to flirt with Shang Yuan.

After the kiss was over, Yang Yixin retreated panting.Shang Yuan stood up abruptly, grabbed his waist and pushed him onto the table, pinning him between his arms, with a stern look on his face, and his dark pupils were like a bottomless vortex, trying to stir him into pieces , said in a deep voice: "If you're so reluctant, why bother?"

"Who says I'm not willing!" Yang Yixin stared at him with a stiff neck.

Shang Yuan pinched his chin, and sarcastically said: "You are willing to do this for that troupe, selfish Yang Yixin, when did he become so affectionate and righteous?"

Yang Yixin's eyes turned red.

The selfish Yang Yixin, the duplicitous Yang Yixin—he still uses these words to hurt him, and after so many years, he can still be hurt by these words.

But he never felt sorry for Shang Yuan.Even on the rainy night of the car accident, when he thought he was going to die, his greatest wish at that moment was to see Shang Yuan again; even if he had been in a coma for a year and a half, the first thing he did when he woke up was to find Shang Yuan; Desperate for life, he still gritted his teeth and persisted all day long, just to go back to see Shang Yuan one day sooner. Even though the leg injury left by his eagerness for quick success still haunts him, he has never regretted it.

But he actually said he was selfish, how hurtful.

"Why do you say I'm selfish?" Yang Yixin couldn't restrain his grievance, and asked with red eyes.

Looking at his aggrieved expression, Shang Yuan felt unspeakable complex emotions in his heart.But he will not be fooled again, he has already seen this person's acting skills, learned the lesson of being betrayed, and will never be deceived by his false appearance again.

Suddenly, a voice came from the stairs: "Brother Yuan, help me see..."

The sound stopped abruptly, Yang Yixin looked over suddenly and saw Xu Xu standing on the stairs.Xu Huan also saw him.

Yang Yixin's face turned pale instantly.

what am i doing?

He violently pushed Shang Yuan away, quickly put on his T-shirt, picked up his coat, turned around and left.Xu Huan's gaze fixed on him, making his face hot.

He almost forgot that there was someone beside Shang Yuan, and he just took off his clothes to meet him. What is the difference between him and a third party who meddles in others?

Crazy, just crazy!

Shang Yuan watched Yang Yixin run away with a sullen face, and the door closed with a "bang!" before he turned his head to look at Xu Huan, and said in a deep voice, "Who told you to come out?"

A hint of jealousy flashed across Xu Xu's face, and he quickly hid it, saying, "I thought you were done chatting, I'm sorry."

He walked over and asked in a low voice, "Did the chat go well?" His eyes swept over the tables and chairs.I didn't see any traces, so it shouldn't have had time for anything to happen.

Shang Yuan sat down, didn't answer his question, and didn't continue to blame him, just said: "What do you want me to help you see?"

As if nothing happened just now.

Xu Huan smiled, and he knew that Shang Yuan would not lose his temper with him, even if he was angry, he would restrain himself quickly.It was the one and only pampering he had.

"I want to buy a designer item, and it's so hard to choose. Brother Yuan, don't you know design? Help me take a look." Xu Huan spread out the magazine in his hand on the table.

Shang Yuan turned two pages, the magazine was moved, and the folder on the desktop was knocked crookedly, revealing the photos pressed underneath.

Xu Xu found the photo with sharp eyes, and immediately recognized the two people in the photo - Yang Yixin and Ran Feixing.

The photo brought back memories for him.

Many years ago, Xu Xu just followed Shang Yuan not long ago. At that time, Shang Yuan took him everywhere. The two had a good relationship, and he didn't know Yang Yixin.

Until one day Shangyuan received a photo—the one on the table now. In the photo, two people were walking under the shade of a tree, talking and laughing, and the sunlight shone on them through the leaves, so harmonious.

Shang Yuan lost control of his anger for the first time that day, and kicked everything in sight, but it was still not enough to vent his anger, panting heavily, his eyes were red.Seeing his expression at that time, Xu Huan thought he was going to cry, but he didn't shed a single tear, just like a person who hit the south wall and got his head broken, and finally felt the pain, besides pain, anger, and unwillingness.

Xu Huan thought that after spending two years at sea, he had narrowly escaped from the guns of pirates, and his courage was extraordinary.But the way Shang Yuan stared at him that day made him terrified.

Shang Yuan didn't move him, just said: "Get out."

He escaped from that room.It was also from that day on that Shang Yuan no longer took him with him, and even didn't see each other for several months.He never knew why a photo changed Shang Yuan's attitude drastically.

Later, Zhuang Yuxie came, and she talked about the past that Xu Huan didn't know: it turned out that the person in the photo was Yang Yixin, and he and Shang Yuan used to be classmates in high school, and they were also close couples.However, just before the college entrance examination, Yang Yixin suddenly left without saying goodbye. All the signs showed that Yang Yixin had betrayed him, but he never believed it.Until that photo was sent to him, breaking his self-deception.That's why he was so angry and so painful.

Xu Huan was once jealous and afraid, jealous that Shang Yuan liked Yang Yixin, and he was just a substitute, and also afraid that one day Shang Yuan would abandon himself as a substitute.But he knew better that Shang Yuan hated being betrayed the most, so there was absolutely no possibility for them to return to the past.

Coming out of the villa, Yang Yixin walked faster and faster, until finally he ran in big strides, out of breath, and stopped until his knees hurt, and sat down by the flower bed under the street lamp.

The doctor said that the car accident injured the knee joint. Although the leg was saved, it could not do strenuous exercise for a long time.

He rubbed his knee habitually, and the more he rubbed it, the more uncomfortable it became. Finally, he hammered it annoyedly, but the pain was excruciating.

He didn't expect this to happen today, he didn't expect Shang Yuan to have people around him, and he would make such an exaggerated request, and he didn't expect Xu Huan to be bumped into right upstairs.

Maybe he didn't really want to sleep with me, but just a chance to humiliate me.

why?

Yang Yixin didn't understand.

He just felt that this Shangyuan was strange to him, completely different from the person in his memory.

The person who made him want to rely on him wholeheartedly, the person who pulled him forward in darkness and adversity, the person who hugged him tightly in the cold winter night... that warm Shangyuan has changed.

Shang Yuan asked him when he became so affectionate and righteous.But this love and righteousness are all learned around him. It is Shang Yuan who guides him to treat others with sincerity, helps him untie his knots, and removes the mask of guard, so he makes many friends who can treat each other sincerely.

Until now, he has exchanged his sincerity for a theater troupe like home, all thanks to his short time in Chongli High School.

He thought that there must be a place for Shang Yuan in his life.Without him, there would be no Yang Yixin now.Even though the ending is not perfect, he has always been grateful to Shang Yuan and this relationship.

But Shang Yuan actually said such words, denying everything that happened.

Yang Yixin felt very tight in his chest.What is the difference between denying his past and denying him as a person?

It's better not to worship Li, not to meet Shang Yuan, he will be the original self, and now he will not be bound by emotions, and will not be maliciously slandered by Shang Yuan.It is much easier to be ruthless and ungrateful than to be sympathetic and righteous!

Yang Yixin was sullen for a long time, and it took a while to slowly recover, dispelling those cold assumptions.

Even if he is denied by others, he himself will not deny himself easily.

It's just that he messed up today, and he doesn't know how to explain it to Gu Youguang.

He took a deep breath, frustratingly slapped off the flying insects on his sleeves, stood up and walked back.

After a sleepless night, he went to look for Gu Youguang the next day. As soon as he entered the door, he saw Gu Youguang looking sluggish, drinking a cup of tea. His sister-in-law poured Yang Yixin a cup of water and said, "Fortunately, you sent him back yesterday. He vomited at night. I'm going to faint, I still have a headache in the morning."

"Brother Gu only drinks that little, and I didn't hold him back yesterday, everyone was drinking too much." Yang Yixin said, and gave Gu Youguang a look to ask for credit. Gu Youguang raised his eyebrows, praising him for his polite words.

Sister-in-law Gu didn't know that something happened to the troupe, and Yang Yixin also covered it up. She thought she was only drunk at the dinner party last night, so she didn't say much, and sent the children to school.

"You're still smart." Gu Youguang gave Yang Yixin a thumbs up when Mrs. Gu left the house.

At this moment, Yang Yixin was not in the mood to talk poorly, he hesitated and said: "Brother Gu, yesterday I said that I can help you... I'm sorry, but I still can't help you."

Gu Youguang smiled, and comforted: "It's a big deal, don't make a face, there will always be a solution. The worst thing is not to go to the theater to perform. There are many places, and there are no chances to perform."

Yang Yixin said: "I was so worried yesterday that I got drunk, but I can still laugh today."

Gu Youguang took a sip of tea, and the old god said: "There will always be crises when people reach middle age. I drank and vomited yesterday, but I figured it out. There are always more solutions than difficulties, and there are no worries. The body is still important."

Yang Yixin couldn't laugh or cry, how strong is this person's ability to resolve himself.