I only like you when I'm a junior

Chapter 42

Song Xu lightly stepped on the small stone under his feet, leaned on the stone chair, and looked at the Shang Xuanyue tonight. Most of the people had already fallen asleep, and no one was around as far as he could see.

He didn't say it directly, but asked: "You know that many people say that we are very similar."

Zou Kai nodded.

Song Xu went on to say: "Many times I look at you as if I were looking at myself. There are endless things to do every day, and I can fill myself up as soon as I can. I wish I could work hard for the part that I can work hard for in the four years of college. , Change yourself, let yourself start towards the talents that a society needs, with a good personality, optimistic and talkative without stage fright.”

He laughed, "It is not an exaggeration to say that I have always felt that my hard work is worthy of what I have achieved, and I know the best way to go forward. People are different, and their growth environments are different. , the people I meet are different, and even some characters can be determined in genes. But there is one thing that we are really too similar, love the limelight."

Song Xu laughed, looked at Zou Kai and said, "It doesn't mean that we must do our best, but once we do something, the first thing we think about is whether we can do it better and whether there is any difference. In fact, you hate the same things, don’t you Zou Kai.”

Zou Kai was silent for a while, "Shouldn't all young people be like this? Only by doing your best in this situation can you not leave any regrets. At least you have to leave a mark on the road you have traveled to be worthy of yourself."

"Yes, you want to go with me again." Song Xu kicked the small stone onto the lake, causing ripples. "Some people want to dawdle, some people want to escape from here, some people are bored in middle school, and go crazy to have fun when they go to college, some people try to find a way out in college, and some people finish the college entrance examination. It has been sinking, and everyone has different choices and ideas."

"Song Xu, since you think I agree with you, is it so hard to accept that it's only a year away? If you take the postgraduate entrance examination, I will also take the postgraduate entrance examination. We will make progress together. If I like boys, I'm not afraid of coming out." , you are afraid that I can face it with you, we have the ability to live a better life, you say that you are not smart, I never believe it, humility is your protection word. But you don’t have to do this when facing me, I look good It’s not ugly, it’s even surpassed most people, although you can’t force sex, but you’re not homophobic, you’ve never been in a relationship, wouldn’t you even give it a try?”

Zou Kai let out a long sigh of relief, "Song Xu, this is the first time I like someone, I really don't understand these things."

"I don't understand either." Song Xu patted him on the shoulder, "But I actually thought about the scene where we were together."

Zou Kai regained his energy, and Song Xu said, "I don't think I can bear that kind of life."

"It's not about you being a boy." Song Xu looked at Zou Kai seriously, and Zou Kai knew that he was about to speak his mind.

"It's that I actually know that this kind of life that everyone thinks is right, and that I can see the life ahead, if I go forward alone, it may only be my burden, but if I add you and encourage each other, I may not be able to do it. Well, even I just feel more pressure, I don't want to be reminded every day what to do today and what to do next."

Zou Kai actually saw some sadness that never appeared in Song Xu's eyes, "Some people take it for granted to move forward when their talents and goals are the same, but some people, if their minds are not here in the first place, Being bound by other things, even if you have this ability, you have to repeatedly convince yourself every step, take three steps and take two steps back. I can't fight with you. I will be very tired when I am with you, and you will Find that I can't keep up with you."

"Brother," Zou Kai couldn't find the right words.

"Zou Kai, I really admire you. In other words, I envy you, but we are really not suitable, because you don't know what kind of person is hidden in your heart in front of this person. He is definitely not the kind you like. Type. Thank you for liking me." In Song Xu's serious and pure eyes, the mystery in Zou Kai's heart was finally solved.

No wonder, he thought, it's not that Jiang Mingchuan didn't want to go further, but that he already knew what Song Xu needed. It's no wonder that Sheng Lan said before that senior brother is good at everything, but he loves others too much and is too cruel to himself.He used to think that young people should be ruthless to themselves, otherwise how would they survive in society, but if a person is always suppressing himself and pretending to be another person, then how cruel this kind of ruthlessness would be.

He began to feel sorry for Song Xu, and finally he could only say: "I know, I accept this reason." He wanted to hug Song Xu, but he still didn't reach out.

"Brother, it's hard for you to tell the truth, but I know your words are from the heart, thank you for not perfunctory me." He stood up, "Nothing will change, everything will go according to your ideas Go on, just a little bit." Zou Kai looked at Song Xu, "Senior brother, you have to be kind to yourself, there is nothing necessary, nothing is necessary, I don't know why senior brother persisted until now, but senior brother had better be yourself Like things, it’s still too late, you know, you can’t always hide yourself.”

"I know." Song Xu said with a smile, "When the time is right, you have to trust my ability."

Zou Kai laughed, "Then I'll go find my group of kids."

"Row."

When Song Xu walked to the school gate, Jiang Mingchuan had already been waiting there for a while. Jiang Mingchuan was also wearing shorts, short sleeves, and a pair of hole shoes, standing under the streetlight and swiping his phone.Song Xu wanted to go forward, but he stopped suddenly and looked at Jiang Mingchuan.

My heart is always beating uncontrollably, and I can feel the joy in my heart. This person is waiting for me.

Song Xu thought, and felt a warm current in his heart, what did he think of himself.

Song Xu didn't have other thoughts at first, but recently he always had some weird thoughts. His rationality told him that Jiang Mingchuan would not like boys, and he had met several girlfriends before and after.But emotionally, he would think about why he was so kind to himself, those gentle eyes always appeared in front of him, and his reason told him that Jiang Mingchuan is a person who is kind to everyone, but he just said that he treats you as a good relationship bro.Emotionally, he also felt that if they were just brothers, why would Jiang Mingchuan never deny it every time others teased the two of them, at most they would just play around and let it go.

Song Xu figured it out. He really fell in love with Jiang Mingchuan. He knew that he was beginning to rely on Jiang Mingchuan. He would feel good when he saw him every day. No matter what he did, it was as if he had a support and was very comfortable. Song Xu For the first time, he felt that being with a person could ignore everything, and he didn't have to think too much. He enjoyed this kind of bland little beauty very much.

Jiang Mingchuan saw him, and Song Xu wanted to walk towards him, but Jiang Mingchuan quickly walked in front of him.He said, "02:30, Ah Xu."

Song Xu checked the time, and it was indeed.

"Our only option for supper is the porridge casserole across from the school. What should we do? You won't be able to get up early tomorrow to go swimming." Jiang Mingchuan said with a smile.

"Tomorrow evening will be enough." Song Xu said as he walked.

"Don't you think there are too many people now?"

"I still dislike you for taking me to eat supper in the middle of the night." Song Xu's lips slightly raised.

"Can you tell me what you are going to do?" Jiang Mingchuan asked.

"Go and chat with Zou Kai for a while, and if you make it clear, you probably won't have other thoughts about me in the future." Song Xu said.

Jiang Mingchuan snorted, "Singing in public to confess your love? If you have the ability, just say it's for you. So cowardly."

"Don't tell me, Zou Kai sings really well," Song Xu said.

"Then you haven't heard me sing." Jiang Mingchuan said, "It sounds ten times better than him."

"Hey, yes, yes, I didn't have this chance to listen," Song Xu teased, "Maybe Miss Yue has heard of it."

"Here again." Jiang Mingchuan said angrily, and then seemed to think of something, with a smile on his face, "Our classmate Song Xu is not jealous, is it? What, you like me?"

Song Xu was stunned for a moment, then sighed, "I'm jealous, haven't I been jealous all day long? I won No. 1 by selling my beauty, and I've overturned the jar of jealousy."

"Oh, isn't it because I'm good at cooking?" Jiang Mingchuan chuckled, turned around and approached Song Xu: "Do you dare to say that today's mung bean paste is not good?"

Song Xu couldn't hold back a smile, "It's delicious. But I didn't use that bag of expensive tangerine peel."

"What are you thinking? I'll do you a favor and give you money." Jiang Mingchuan didn't stroke Song Xu's hair, and then began to show aggrieved expression, "President Song is so charming, girls often confess to you Bar."

Song Xu thought of the girl on the stage, and slapped Jiang Mingchuan hard as he walked forward, "If you continue to perform, I'll let you die on the street."

"By the way, I have something to tell you." Jiang Mingchuan walked across the sidewalk.

"Actually, Brother Cong and A Huan also went to eat supper, so they went to order first."

Song Xu nodded, "That's great, you can eat it when you arrive."

"They clamored to climb the back mountain to watch the sunrise." Jiang Mingchuan answered honestly.

Song Xu froze, "Just, the four of us?"

"Well, it's about 3 o'clock after eating, and it's 4 o'clock when I come back to get something, and I can go climbing."

Song Xu said "Oh".

Jiang Mingchuan suddenly made a face in front of him, and Song Xu let out a wow.

"Jiang Mingchuan, are you looking for a fight?" Song Xu looked at Jiang Mingchuan who was running towards the casserole porridge shop, and chased him all the way.

Xu Cong and Lin Zehuan chose a location outside the store. The wind at night was much more comfortable than the air conditioner in the store. Xu Cong looked at Song Xu, "Since when did Song Xu become so lively?"

Lin Zehuan said: "Maybe Jiang Mingchuan was born to be beaten up. He insisted on dragging us to climb mountains at night."

Xu Cong chuckled, "That's pretty good, I've always wanted to take a look."