sinovels Chapter 67 Fork in the Road
Chapter 67 Fork in the Road
Yuan Cisheng stood in front of the closed door of the dean's office, with his hand on the handle, hesitating for a long time before slowly turning it.
Just such a movement, it seems that all the strength has been exhausted.
In the room, an old man was standing in front of the window with his hands behind his back. Hearing the noise, he turned his head, and after a moment of stupefaction, he showed an excited expression.
"Mr. Shen invited me here and said that Ms. Xie Lisi's son wanted to see me, but I didn't expect it was really you."
The original voice slowly frowned, "May I ask if you are..."
"I am the former dean of this orphanage." The old man was very pleased, "I have worked here all my life, but now I come back and I almost don't recognize this place. It has become very good here, and the children live better than before. Well, you are as kind as your mother."
The original speech suppressed the nervous heartbeat, "So, my mother did come to charity before?"
"Yes." The old man smiled kindly, "You were only a teenager at that time, and you have grown up so much now."
"Please make this trip, I have something to ask you." Yuan Ci hesitated, "Of course, if you really can't remember anything...it's okay."
"Just ask." The old man sat down, "My legs and feet are not working, but my brain is still clear."
The original voice took a steady breath, "Do you remember... a child named He Jingnian?"
"He Jingnian...? He Jingnian..." The old man pondered for a while, then shook his head apologetically, "I don't really have any impression of this name. But don't worry, I brought this photo album here today. Look, can you find the child you asked me about?"
Yuan Cisheng took it with both hands, and there were group photos of the children in it.Big children, small children, boys, girls, many, many children, the photos are not big, and each child's face is even smaller, but he can still see He Jingnian at a glance from among the crowded children.
Compared with the photo taken with He Wenxiu, the thin and small boy doesn't seem to have grown much?He stood there obediently, with his fair and delicate face half-up, looking nervously at the camera in front, very serious and cute.
"He..." Yuan Ci pointed tremblingly, "He is."
"Let me take a look..." The old man put on his reading glasses, leaned closer to take a closer look, and blurted out, "Hey, isn't he the child who has been waiting for you?"
The voice of the original speech could not be heard clearly, "What did you say?"
"Look at my memory, I don't remember the child's name, I just remember that he has been waiting for you." The old dean sighed with emotion, "I can't help it, I really remember this too deeply. Maybe you don't You know, that winter, after you and your mother went back, this child was waiting for you every year."
The thin lips of the original speech moved, "Wait... for me?"
"Of course I'm waiting for you to come again." The old dean didn't hear the strong emotion in his voice, and said with a smile, "This kid is usually very quiet and doesn't talk much, but don't say it, once you get stubborn, That kind of energy can't pull nine cows back. Every year from January to December, he would go to the gate to wait for a while almost every night, asking me if you will come this Christmas?"
Yuan Ci closed his eyes, "Why... did he wait for me?
"It seems because you told him before you left that you would come again next Christmas. Children, it's always easy to be true."
The old dean continued to recall with half-closed eyes, "I recalled that one winter was extremely cold, and the weather was freezing. The child was not in good health, and he insisted on waiting there for you. My mother and I advised him , tell him to go back, don't wait any longer, you won't come. But he couldn't listen, his face was pale with cold, and his teeth were chattering. He said, maybe? Maybe the young master will wait later Appeared?"
"Young master..." Yuan Ci's eyelashes twitched, his chest tightened suddenly, so tight that it was extremely difficult to breathe.
——Young master, don't you remember me?
Three years ago, the first words He Jingnian said to him after the car accident.
He thought He Jingnian had forgotten him, but in fact, he had forgotten himself.
He felt that He Jingnian was cruel to him, but it turned out that he really had no heart.
He thought that he put down his pride and dignity for He Jingnian, and worked hard to redeem this love.Actually going the wrong way from the very beginning, he's just a ridiculously useless one-man show.
I am sorry.
He bowed his head in pain.
I have long forgotten you.
Until this moment, a vague afterimage finally emerged in my mind.He vaguely remembered that he had indeed met a boy here.The boy was small, a little thinner than his peers, with a gentle personality, and his voice was always soft, but when he looked at him, his eyes were black and bright.
They may have had a good time together, but that's about it, what kid doesn't have a few good playmates?When we are together, we play together, and when we are apart, we are separated. Isn’t it like this for all children?
This memory is nothing to him at all, a wave in the sea, as time goes by, it will naturally turn into foam.
That boy was nothing to him, just someone he met by chance.The boy thinks that Liao Xia treats him well only because Liao Xia treats everyone well.
How silly.He Jingnian, what a fool.
How can you be so stupid.
He slowly bent down, as if he couldn't stand anymore, put his hands on his knees, and gasped for breath as if struggling for his life.What he breathed was not the sunny and warm air of spring, but the bitter wind and snow of winter.
The wind knife and frost sword cut his body, but he couldn't survive more than ten years of winter.Those cold and long winters, the hopeless waiting made them endlessly long, how could he trek back, and embrace the little figure who was waiting by the gate into his arms.
I am sorry.
I am sorry.
Yuan Cisheng buried his face deeply in his palm, and tears seeped through his fingers.
"Sorry……"
The old dean thought that he was deeply moved by this childhood friendship, so he said in a whisper: "The most impressive thing is the time when the ring was lost. A few older children hid your ring under his bed as a prank, and said in a daze. He took it. We adults all know in our hearts that the child is very upright and honest, he will only give his own things to others, how could he take your ring. "
Yuan Ci raised his right hand tremblingly, "Is this the ring you are talking about?"
"Oh, yes, that's it." Recalling what happened back then, the old dean can't help but blame himself. "Although we all believed him, because there was no evidence, the older children insisted on it, and they really couldn't say anything. The child was so pitiful. He kept crying and crying, saying that he really didn't have one, but many children still didn't Believe him and say he's a thief, a thief."
The hard and cold ring was clenched tightly, and the sharp edges pressed against the flesh, about to pierce the palm.The pain is unbearable, the pain is unspeakable.With reddened eyes, Yuan Ci asked, "What happened to him afterward?"
"Then you appeared." The old dean said.
Yuan Cisheng's hands trembled, and he slowly stretched out his fingers.Through the mist of sour tears, he saw these hands piercing the void and clasping a pair of small hands at the other end.
Small, dusty hands.
He pulled the little boy up from the ground, wiped away his tears, and said that he absolutely believed in him, and no one could bully his good friend.He saw the boy smiling at himself, although there were still tears in his eyes, he still tried his best to smile.
—Thank you, young master.
——Young master is so kind.
——Young master is the best in the world.
Tears flowed down, landed on the backs of those small hands, penetrated the void, and shattered into countless crystals on the ground.He wanted to speak, but because of the choking at the moment, he could only blow hot air on the boy and make mouth shapes.
He said, don't let me see such an expression, I can't do anything for you.Such a trivial thing, such a trivial thing, why do you keep it in your heart?
The boy just laughed tearfully.He wants to help him wipe away the mottled tears, wants to hug him, wants to comfort him, wants to treat him well, wants to buy a lot of presents and put them in his arms, wants to experience the same heartache when he is sad, wants to be in his heart When you need support and protection, you will not look back.
I want to do much more for him than Liao Xia.
Because, just... just want to see him smile happily, or don't need to ask for a smile, as long as he doesn't cry.
However, the fingertips can only touch the air.
Boys don't exist.
The boy has grown up.
——In your memory...Has Argos ever been lost?
——Such a beautiful gem, even if it is lost, it must be found.
The boy who grew up gave him many hints, but he always thought it was just a casual question.It wasn't until I turned my head that I saw that the road I came to had been sprinkled with signs along the way.
"Oh, that child is really suffering. He has been suffering since he was a child. I heard that the family who adopted him has not treated him very well since they had a biological child. They even refused to let him continue to study." He sighed, "Actually, that child is pretty and well-behaved. Many families have come here before and wanted to adopt him, but he just refuses to leave. He must stay here."
Yuan Ci whimpered, "He's waiting for me, isn't he?"
"He said he couldn't leave, and if he left here, if you came, wouldn't he be able to see you?" The old dean shook his head helplessly, "Oh, in the end, there is really no way, the adoption age is approaching. After that, the orphanage can no longer keep him, so he left with that couple as a last resort. If he hadn't been so persistent, he could have found a good family, and he wouldn't suffer so much in the future. "
"He...he has broken away from that couple and found his own biological parents." Yuan Ci's voice became hoarse and deep, "and me...he married me and had a child."
The old dean was stunned for a while, "Really? Then...then he must be living happily now, right?"
The heart that had been numb from the pain began to ache sharply again.Yuan Ci bowed his head, too painful to say a word.
"Fate is really amazing. After more than ten years, he finally got you." The old dean was deeply moved, "Although the child suffered a lot, he still learned to love bravely and fearlessly. Fortunately, he met you. It's so good , It's great that he can meet a good person like you."
Yuan Cisheng lowered his head, and his arched back trembled weakly, as if something heavy was about to crush him.
No.He Jingnian did not meet a good person.
He Jingnian's love, the pure treasure that he had been pursuing all along, had been obtained from the very beginning, and in the end it was himself who destroyed it completely with his own hands.
Walking out of the dean's office and standing in the bright spring sunshine, he felt cold to the bone.The children around were running and laughing, and when he heard it, he felt like a knife was twisting his heart.
Staggering two steps forward, his chest suddenly seemed to be hit by a heavy hammer. The severe dull pain forced him to stop, and a burst of blood rushed to his throat. Without warning, he spit out a big mouthful of blood .
As bright as a pigeon's blood ruby, the blood in my heart is boiling.
——Don't show such a dejected expression, we will definitely meet again.Next winter vacation, I will ask my mother to bring me here again.
——Come, let's pray together.Today is Candlemas.Candlemas is the end of winter and the beginning of all new life.Let God hear our voices and all kinds of good things will happen.
— But when the goodness of God our Saviour, and his love to man, were revealed, he saved us.Not because of righteous works of our own, but according to his mercy, washed by regeneration and renewed by the Holy Spirit.
—Love is patient and kind; love does not envy, love does not brag and is not puffed up.
— Bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
-Love never ends.
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The author has something to say:
As I write this chapter, my tears never stop
It’s too bitter, it’s really too bitter, I really want to yell at which dog* the author desperately flaunted glass shards into my mouth, but the dog* author is myself
Prayer from the New Testament
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