sinovels Chapter 62 Broken
Chapter 62 Broken
hospital.
There was chaos outside the ward, the woman's sharp cries, the man's choked comfort, and the voices of doctors and nurses mixed together, making the already dizzy and painful mind even more uncomfortable.
Yuan Cisheng pressed the gauze-wrapped head. The doctor said that he had a mild concussion and must rest at ease, but in this situation, it is impossible to continue lying down.
He pushed the door open, Zhuang Manyin still covered his face and wept bitterly.From the moment she learned the truth at the wedding scene, she kept crying, until now she couldn't cry anymore, her tears were all drained, and she could only let out a dull and rough panting sound.
Shen Peng raised his head and said to him: "Anyway, thank you, really thank you."
The man said thanks, but there was no half joy, but a heavy sadness.Yuan Ci looked at him, and felt that he had aged a lot all of a sudden, and all the wrinkles suddenly rolled up on his face when he was speaking.
How could he not be heartbroken?If fate hadn't made such a joke, He Jingnian would be the noble and precious young master of the Shen family. He was held in the palm of his hand since he was a child and grew up pampered. He didn't have to endure the slightest bit of cruel wind and rain. A person worthy of love, live a very good life.
Yuan Cisheng leaned on the wall and walked to the door of He Jingnian's ward. Visiting was not allowed yet, so he looked in through the small window on the door.
He Jingnian lay quietly on the hospital bed, so thin that he couldn't even see the ups and downs of the quilt.It was obviously a warm quilt, but it covered him like heavy and cold snow, and he would disappear at any time as the ice and snow melted.
He is only 25 years old, but it seems that all the heat has been drained.
Hearing the movement behind him, Yuan Ci didn't turn his head back, but just said lightly: "I told Niannian a long time ago, don't get close to you, he can't trust anyone except me."
"Why didn't you tell them the truth? I knew about Niannian's background three years ago." Shen Tangfeng asked in a low voice.
"They have already tasted enough of the pain of losing their children. Do you want them to go through it again?" Yuan Ci paused, "I'm just curious, how did you find out?"
"When I rescued him from falling into the water three years ago, I saw the mole on his body, but I didn't think of it at the time." Shen Tangfeng smiled wryly, "Until the first time my mother saw him in the hospital, she just saw it. Think of him as Shen Tangyu."
The original speech lowered its eyelashes, "There is no mother who does not recognize her child, is that what you want to say?"
"In these years, no matter how sick she is, she has never been confused about Shen Tangyu's affairs. At the worst time, even if the whole family lied to her, saying that I am Shen Tangyu, she would still recognize that I am just that wild woman from outside. Child." Shen Tangfeng let out a long breath, "So, this is the most direct proof."
Yuan Cisheng turned around slowly and looked directly at him, with eyes that wanted to pierce him.
"You hate Shen Tangyu."
Shen Tangfeng stared back, "I love He Jingnian."
Yuan Ci moved his lips, wanting to say that this so-called love is deceit and calculation, but he didn't say it after all, he just smiled mockingly and sadly.
Laugh at him, laugh at yourself even more.
The next night, He Jingnian woke up from his long lethargy.He was not injured at all, but his mental state was extremely poor. When he saw the Shen family coming in, he immediately screamed in horror, desperately rang the bell beside the bed, and cried for the doctors and nurses to come and save him.
Seeing the child she was thinking of hiding from her like a monster, with that frightened and broken expression, Zhuang Manyin's heart ached to the point of death, her Xiaoyu, her baby, her life.The treasure that she thought she would never get back was found again, but she couldn't even give him a hug.
She didn't know why he was afraid of her and avoided her, she was always his mother.
He Jingnian's reaction to Shen Tangfeng was the most intense.Shen Tangfeng knew that He Jingnian must hate him so much, he didn't dare to let him see him, but stood in the corridor outside, wanting to look at him from afar.
However, He Jingnian still saw his face through the reflection of the window glass.
As a result, a slightly stable mental state suddenly becomes worse again.Originally, he was still able to speak, but after this stimulation, he couldn't even speak. He just lay quietly on the hospital bed every day, not knowing what he was looking at or thinking about.
Zhuang Manyin couldn't bear to see him like this, and cried every time he saw him, his eyes were going to cry out.She was worried, and Shen Peng was also in pain. The husband and wife suffered so much that their temples and gray hair came out.
The doctor told them very seriously that He Jingnian had a similar mental problem three years ago, and after this relapse, his condition was far worse.
The doctor also asked sadly that before the outbreak, his psychological problems were already on the verge of a state, and his psychological changes and behaviors were obviously out of balance in life, why no one around him could find out.
"I don't know... I really don't know!" Zhuang Manyin hid her face and cried bitterly, "I thought Xiao Yu was very happy, Xiao Yu was always so obedient and always smiling... It's all my fault, it's me who is a mother I'm incompetent, I'm not worthy of being Xiao Yu's mother, I can't even take care of my own children!"
"Manyin...!" Shen Peng put his arms around his wife's shoulders, so that she could at least cry in his arms. "Manyin, you can't blame yourself. It's because I didn't take good care of your mother and child. I'm useless. It's all my fault for causing you to suffer for so many years."
"Husband, why on earth...our child became like this?" Zhuang Manyin cried out of breath, "He has suffered so much, why does God want him to continue to suffer?"
Shen Peng was silent, and he had no answer, so he could only keep wiping away his wife's tears.
Except for her husband, Zhuang Manyin did not allow anyone to come to the hospital to see He Jingnian, even from a distance, especially the voice of Yuan Ci.
Zhuang Manyin used to be able to control herself not to blame him, but now she couldn't help hating him.Xiao Yu became what he is now, and he has an inseparable relationship with him.Among the sufferings that Xiaoyu has suffered, at least half of them are thanks to him.
Zhuang Manyin stubbornly refused to let Yuan Cisheng approach her Xiao Yu again. No matter how many times Yuan Cisheng came, she chased him away, and it was useless to persuade him.Yuan Ci's voice was helpless, what he was facing was no longer the old Aunt Shen, but He Jingnian's biological mother, whom he owed.
Therefore, Yuan Cisheng could only go to the hospital in the middle of the night.He Jingnian's ward was on the first floor. He looked in through the glass, but He Jingnian was not sleeping, leaning against the bed with his knees hugged, wondering what he was thinking.The faint light fell on him, forming an extraordinarily clean outline, just right softness, making people feel distressed.
He Jingnian slowly turned his gaze, Yuan Ci's voice couldn't help being tense, he didn't know if He Jingnian would still like to see him, would he be as fearful, resistant, and painful as he was when facing the Shen family.
Unexpectedly, He Jingnian looked at him, but there was no violent reaction.Even, whether it was his illusion or not, He Jingnian's originally dull and indifferent expression gradually softened.
Yuan Cisheng pushed open the window and flipped in gently.
"Every year."
He didn't walk towards He Jingnian immediately, but stood by the window and called his name.
He Jingnian stared at him without blinking.
Yuan Cisheng tried to get closer to him, but within a short distance of one step, the palms of his hands were wet with cold sweat.
He Jingnian still looked at him quietly, showing no expression of fear or disgust.
Yuan Cisheng half-kneeled beside his bed, and finally, he could see him at such a close distance again, without being disturbed by others, without worrying that he would run away, leave, and could not wait to throw himself into another man's arms.
"Every year."
He Jingnian turned his face slightly, his dark eyes shimmered with light, very bright.
"Niannian, do you still recognize me?" Yuan Cisheng's fingertips lightly touched the back of his hand, which was cold, and then pressed it lightly, wrapping his hand in his own.
He Jingnian stretched out his other hand, tentatively touching the Argus on his thumb.
Yuan Cisheng took off the ring and gave it to him, He Jingnian held it carefully, pointed to the emerald on it, then pointed to his eyes, pulled the corners of his lips, and smiled slightly.
The original voice didn't understand what he meant, but he also smiled slightly.This smile seemed to trigger the switch of the lacrimal gland, and the tears that had been endured for a long time came to the eyes.
"You used to be like this. You didn't recognize anything, and you didn't recognize me, but you were interested in Argos."
He Jingnian looked at him puzzled.Maybe it's because his expression is really weird, the corner of his mouth is still smiling, but his eyes are about to cry.
"Niannian, don't be afraid of the two people who come to see you every day. They are your parents. They love you very much and will not hurt you."
He Jingnian didn't seem to listen, he fiddled with the Argos in his hand.
"Actually, I really want to ask you, you are afraid of everyone now, why are you not afraid of me? Obviously you hate me so much." Yuan Ci's voice caressed his soft heart, and He Jingnian's hair became soft Soft and dense, gentle and gentle to the touch, but his palms hurt, and his heart hurts, the kind that is bloody and bloody.
"Niannian, your mother is right, you have suffered enough, but you still met me."
"I have gained a lot from you. You brought me beautiful and clean things. However, I couldn't give you what you wanted. In the end, I really had no choice but to help you get that Someone find it."
"I'm sorry, I didn't find it. But I couldn't help but rejoice. If I did find it, what should I do? Bring him to you?"
"He is like a dream of yours, a beautiful dream that you don't want to wake up from. Once the beautiful dream comes true, you will try your best to catch it, and you will ignore everything else."
He was chattering, but He Jingnian couldn't listen to a word. He just fiddled with the Argos in his hand, lifted it up, and looked out through the emeralds on it, just like looking at a kaleidoscope.
It's so beautiful.He couldn't help opening his eyes with joy.Bright green, soft green, the world surrounded by this color is as beautiful as a dream.
"Niannian, you like it so much, may I give it to you?" Yuan Ci closed He Jingnian's hand and asked him to hold Argos, but He Jingnian put the ring back on his hand, Looking at him brightly.
Clean and clear eyes, no sadness, no hatred, no fatigue.In memory, He Jingnian seems to have never looked at him with such eyes.
Except three years ago, when he was mistaken for that person.
It doesn't matter anymore.He Jingnian loves him or not, hates him or not, does not forgive him, everything.
"Actually, no matter whether we find out the truth about your life experience or not, it is impossible for the wedding to go on. Because I have planned a long time ago to take you away on that day, and then hold a wedding of our own."
Yuan Cisheng smiled slowly, full of happiness and longing, and the light like tears flashed in his eyes.
"I will take you to a place where no one can find you, no one can bother us again, only me, you and cake, the three of us live together."
He Jingnian sat obediently with his knees hugged, staring at him with a smile on his face.
"You see, I even prepared the ring for this day." He took out a ring from his pocket, and the moment he opened it, the silvery-white metal light pierced the dim night.
"Niannian, do you still remember them? Juno, you designed the wedding rings. Sealed with your heart. Heart, heart and heart are the same. May this ring, never leave."
He Jingnian took the ring box, looked at it curiously, then quickly lost interest, and threw it aside.
The two rings rolled to the ground, making a particularly crisp sound in the night.
Yuan Cisheng picked up the ring, shook his hand, moved to his lips and kissed, then pressed his cheek again, looked at him and said: "That's right, you don't necessarily need a ring to get married."
He Jingnian tilted his head and smiled.
"Niannian, let's get married, shall we? Let's get married." Yuan Ci's voice rubbed against his palm, his voice gradually choked up, and hot tears trickled down the end of his eyes into his fingers, warm and wet, entangled.
He Jingnian didn't seem to listen, pulled his hair, and smiled mischievously.
"That person is your dream, but I... I never dreamed before I met you. Do you know that I am a person who can't dream. "
"After meeting you, I can finally dream. I want to be with you even in my dreams."
Naturally, He Jingnian couldn't understand his dream, and just immersed himself in his own world.Yuan Ci knelt beside his bed and murmured for a long time, pleading, confessing, and repenting, but until now, no matter how earnest and sincere the words were, none of them could reach He Jingnian's ears.
The doctor said that he was mentally ill. Although it was not caused by genes or caused by acquired organic diseases, it was a serious illness that was difficult to cure, but the intensity had seriously interfered with normal thinking.And because the body is physiologically normal, it is not easy to use special drugs for treatment, at most it can only play an auxiliary role.
His heart is broken.
Everyone loves him, but it seems that everyone is hurting him. Surrounded by countless loves, his mind is shattered, leaving only a thin and thorough soul like a snowflake.
Even though he hired the best doctor, He Jingnian's condition has not improved.The whole person was numb and didn't respond, except to eat and sleep, and he became more and more tired every day.After being raised so lazily, he has gained a lot of weight, with flesh growing on his waist and stomach, which are white and soft.
Zhuang Manyin watched him watch him more and more closely, especially after she twisted a curly hair on the side of the hospital bed one morning.
As a result, one night later, when Yuan Cisheng came in through the window again, all the lights in the ward were turned on at once.Under the pale light of the incandescent lamp, Zhuang Manyin sat expressionlessly beside the empty hospital bed, raised his head, and asked coldly, "What are you doing here?"
Yuan Ci smiled and called out politely: "Mom."
"..." Zhuang Manyin's face changed suddenly, and he said through gritted teeth, "How dare you call me that!"
"You are Niannian's biological mother, and I am Niannian's husband, so I should call you that."
Before the words fell, Zhuang Manyin roared angrily: "You are not at all!"
The voice of the original speech was unusually calm, "I want to take Niannian away."
"Don't even think about it!"
"Everyone is afraid of Niannian now, except me. Niannian will smile when he sees me. Didn't the doctor also suggest that, try to find someone who he doesn't resist to accompany him, this will also have a good effect on the recovery of the disease. " Yuan Cisheng stretched out his hand straight to her, "So, give me Niannian."
Zhuang Manyin patted the edge of the bed, and said in pain: "Injustice!"
The next day, she transferred He Jingnian to the hospital, secretly and quickly.After being admitted to the hospital, the doctor would give the patient a full body examination as usual. Looking at the results of the new report, Zhuang Manyin's complexion was pale, as if struck by lightning——
He Jingnian was pregnant for almost two months.