sinovels Chapter 55 Decision
Chapter 55 Decision
After returning back, before He Jingnian found Shen Tangfeng, someone from the Shen family took the initiative to find him.
It's Shen Peng.
When the usually calm and peaceful man saw him, he couldn't help being surprised, "Niannian, are you sick? Why are you so haggard?"
He Jingnian smiled wryly, and could only say that he was seriously ill a few days ago, but he is much better now.
Facing Shen Peng, He Jingnian thought that he would ask himself more questions and even blame himself, but he didn't. Instead, he treated him with the kindness almost like his biological father as always.
"Niannian, I know everything about you and Tang Feng. You young people are different from our generation in terms of feelings, and I don't like to interfere with you. But no matter what, I respect your decision. And in the hearts of your Auntie Zhuang and me, we already regard you as our own child."
He Jingnian lowered his head, his nose was sore and swollen. "Do you know... where Tang Feng went?"
"I haven't been able to get in touch with him. But don't worry too much. Tang Feng has been very sensible since he was a child. He has his own discretion in everything he does. Maybe he just wants to be alone." Shen Peng paused, "Year after year , I came to you this time to ask if you could go and see your Auntie Zhuang."
He Jingnian asked anxiously, "Auntie Zhuang, what happened?"
"She knows that you have been very sad since you broke up with Tang Feng, and your spirit has gradually deteriorated." Shen Peng said seriously.
However, after going to the hospital, He Jingnian discovered that Zhuang Manyin's "not good" far exceeded his imagination.
Zhuang Manyin's current condition is far worse than when he was receiving treatment in the United States.She doesn't recognize anyone, and once someone gets close to her, she will struggle and scream desperately, thinking that the other party has abducted her child.
In desperation, the doctor could only ask a few strong nurses to fix her on the hospital bed with restraint belts, and the nurse injected medicine into her trembling and slender arms, so that she was like an animal that finally dried up and died after being thrown on the shore. The fish remained silent and motionless.
He Jingnian looked at her through the glass, Zhuang Manyin in his memory was still elegant and intellectual, with a high bun and a dignified black dress.
Every time he sees himself, that fair and beautiful face will show a loving smile, and the eyes that are shining with happiness will always give him the illusion that he is really her eldest son, Shen Tangyu.
But now, she was lying there with disheveled hair, the pale light of the incandescent lamp shone on her tear-stained face, and the blue and white joints that were about to be strangled by the restraint belt, looked like a corpse, with no vitality at all.
He Jingnian covered his face and couldn't help crying.
Shen Peng bought him a cup of hot drink, and the two of them sat on the bench in the corridor and drank silently, with heavy black clouds pressing down on their hearts.
"Didn't Aunt Zhuang recover from her illness before? I remember the doctor also said that she can live a normal life."
"That's because of you." Shen Peng said, "You are her dream and her only hope. She hopes that you and Tang Feng will get married soon, and that you can really become a child of our family. I can listen to you." Call her mother. But..."
He Jingnian lowered his head, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault."
"You must not apologize, how could this be your fault. Instead, thanks to you, Manyin has hope." Shen Peng sighed deeply.
"Back then, in order to comfort her in the pain of losing Xiao Yu, I adopted Tang Feng. I thought that if Xiao Yu was still there, she would be as old as him. But what I didn't expect was that although Man Yin was seriously ill, she could see at a glance I was lying to him, crying and asking why I brought a wild child home, it wasn't her Xiaoyu at all."
"I've been looking for Xiaoyu for these years, and I don't give up hope, but she never gave up on Xiaoyu. In other words, she has always been with Xiaoyu. For more than ten years, she insisted on putting another pair of The bowls and chopsticks are given to Xiaoyu, and they will also pick up vegetables for Xiaoyu, and ask his mother if the dishes are good."
"She clearly remembers Xiao Yu's age. She bought him clothes, stationery, books and toys, and cleaned his room every day. No one in the house could touch Xiao Yu's things. Once Tang Feng accidentally touched Xiao Yu's cup, On a snowy night, he was kicked out of the house by Man Yin, if I didn't come back early, I'm afraid I'd really freeze to death outside."
"Man Yin has been living in the pain of losing Xiao Yu until he met you."
"I don't know why Manyin thinks you are like our Xiaoyu so persistently. Maybe it's God's will. Anyway, I really want to ask you, can I accompany her through this most difficult time of treatment. As long as there is If you're here, she'll be fine."
He Jingnian nodded, "I understand."
Next, during the days of treatment with Zhuang Manyin, although every day was very busy, even hard work, he gained a peace that he hadn't seen for a long time.With him around, Zhuang Manyin was finally willing to actively cooperate with the treatment, and his mental state improved visibly every day.
A few days later, the doctor announced that Zhuang Manyin could be discharged from the hospital and rest at home.In order to calm her emotions, He Jingnian temporarily moved into Shen's house and lived with Zhuang Manyin and Shen Peng.
It's strange to say that although he got along well with the two elders of the Shen family before, they never lived together.But after living together, there is no restraint or unaccustomedness at all.
Both husband and wife treated him very well, caring about his health and care, almost making him feel that this is his real home.Since his mother passed away, he has never experienced such a warm and comfortable feeling.
Especially Zhuang Manyin, who treats him like a child.Take him shopping, buy him this and that, and within a few days, the entire cloakroom is filled with luxury goods.
Once, when the two of them were visiting an art gallery together, he casually sighed that this place is really beautiful.As a result, within two days, Zhuang Manyin asked someone to rent the largest municipal art gallery for a year, saying that he would hold a jewelry exhibition for him.
For three meals a day, Zhuang Manyin personally directed the chef at home to make delicious meals for him in different ways.
Finding that he likes those delicate and beautiful dim sum, he specially invited several well-known dim sum chefs home, Chinese and Western, and a master chef who has made wagashi for most of his life in a century-old shop in Asakusa, Tokyo.
In the warm afternoon, Zhuang Manyin asked him to drink afternoon tea with her in the gazebo in the courtyard.A table full of exquisite dots of various colors, beautiful shapes and colorful colors.
Zhuang Manyin watched him eat without taking his eyes off, and from time to time wiped the jam and debris from the corner of his mouth with a handkerchief.Looking at it, Zhuang Manyin couldn't help laughing, and said with a smile: "Niannian is like my mother, she likes beautiful things very much, and Niannian is indeed my child."
After another snowfall, Shen Tangfeng came back.
He Jingnian stood there looking at him, with the same dark and deep eyebrows, and a clear and gentle smile.He leaned down, opened his arms and hugged himself, the familiar feeling of warmth and warmth, but with the taste of the harsh wind and snow.
"Niannian, I miss you."
He Jingnian remained motionless, dazed for a while, and then slowly put his hand on his back.
Seeing his son coming back, Shen Peng was still very happy, but Zhuang Manyin's face was not very good-looking. When he came up, he scolded him and asked him why he wanted to break up with Nian Nian, and said that Nian Nian, who is so good, why didn't he take care of it.
In the end, he raised his hand and pointed at the door, and said calmly that if he didn't apologize to Niannian and coax him back, he wouldn't enter the house again.
Shen Tangfeng didn't say anything, his eyelashes were half down, and there was always a faint smile on his face, he didn't care.But He Jingnian couldn't listen anymore, and begged Zhuang Manyin to stop talking, all of this had nothing to do with Shen Tangfeng, it was his own fault.
Zhuang Manyin took his hand and said, "Niannian, I beg you, just give him another chance."
At night, He Jingnian couldn't sleep, so he put on his coat and came out quietly, and saw Shen Tangfeng standing by the window alone, a thick black shadow condensed under his feet.
He walked over and apologized to him in a low voice, an apology he had always owed him.
Shen Tangfeng shook his head, "If I really want to apologize, I will apologize to you even more."
He Jingnian looked at him puzzled.
"Niannian, you can ignore my mother's words. I don't want you to ignore your feelings for others. "
"No...!" He Jingnian bit his lower lip, "The matter of the original speech... is really over. During the time you were away, I thought a lot. I dare not admit it before. If you don’t face it well, in the final analysis, it hurts you.”
Shen Tangfeng looked at him gently, and said in a firm tone, "You love him."
"I'm indeed attracted to him." He Jingnian's eyelashes quivered, "but not in the future."
"What do you mean?"
"I promised you to be your family member, and I will do it." He Jingnian took a breath, "During my most painful and difficult time, you were the one who saved me and stayed with me all the time. You gave me Many precious things. From now on, I also want to be by your side just like you are with me."
"Can you forgive me? Can you...give me another chance?"
"Niannian." Shen Tangfeng held his shoulder, his voice was soft but firm. "I never really blamed you, I just kept competing with myself."
He Jingnian didn't understand.
"I'm too selfish. I shouldn't be obsessed with who you love in your heart, as long as you stick to your original intention. However, I have been thinking about how I am not as good as the original speech, and I still can't let go, and I will vent my unwillingness on on you."
Shen Tangfeng raised his hand and gently stroked the top of his hair. "Year after year, my heart for you has never changed. During the days when I left you, I missed you all the time. However, I will not push you anymore, and I will give you the right to choose .”
"This time, you don't have to rush to make a decision, just follow your heart."
Although Shen Tangfeng did not agree to the request to get back together, Zhuang Manyin seemed to have tacitly agreed that they would be together again.She personally arranged for people to prepare for the wedding that was put on hold. In order to avoid long nights and dreams, she insisted on bringing the wedding ahead of schedule, and did not listen to the advice of the people around her.
Once, even Shen Peng got angry and told her not to interfere in the children's affairs. She was persecuting the children in disguise.
Unexpectedly, Zhuang Manyin, who was still struggling with which dress to wear at the wedding, suddenly changed his face, and threw the high-order organza spliced dress to the ground with his hands, tearing up the old score with Shen Peng.
She said that it was all because of his enmity in the business field that she lost her child; she said he was useless, that he was cruel, how easy it is to be a father, how can I understand the pain of being a mother; A wild child whose path is unknown can be regarded as a treasure. The wild child's surname is Shen but she didn't shed her blood. If he can't marry Nian Nian into the family, then I have raised him for nothing all these years!
Shen Peng couldn't take it anymore, he slammed the door and went out with a livid face.
He Jingnian quietly raised his eyes to see Shen Tangfeng's expression, he was still the same, with half-drawn eyelashes and a faint smile on his face, but it made his heart throbbing, so he couldn't help groping over and gently holding him palm.
The next day, He Jingnian went back to the apartment where he lived before, trying to tidy up some things that he hadn't taken away.He has made a decision in his heart.While sorting things out, a letter "clicked" off the bookshelf.
He picked it up and looked at it, only then remembered that this was the letter that Yuan Cisheng had sent him before, and he hadn't opened it to read it.After hesitating for a moment, he tore open the seal and pulled out a colored postcard from inside.
On the postcard, three villains were uglyly drawn with crayons, one was Yuan Cisheng, the other was himself, and in the middle was a little girl hugging a rabbit.
Under the painting, there are immature handwriting mixed with pinyin, crooked, but each stroke is very serious.Holding the card, He Jingnian seemed to be able to see the little girl's milky round face, and the bright black eyes radiated with anticipation.
"Dear Daddy: On February 2, the kindergarten will hold a garden party. The parents of other children will come, and I hope you can come too. I miss you 2 times. I love Daddy the most."