I don't think I'll survive this year

Chapter 39 Choice

When Ji Huai went straight into the Kunde Palace, he saw Ji Yaohua lying on the bedside, his eyes fell on her mother's flat belly, as if she wanted to touch it but dared not touch it.

This tangled little expression is really interesting, Ji Huai paused at the door for a moment before stepping forward lightly, interrupting the harmonious warmth between the mother and daughter.

"Your Majesty?" Ji Huai didn't let anyone know when he came in, and Zhao Yuan couldn't help being a little surprised when he saw him.

Ji Huai sat down on the side of the couch with a straight smile, "How is this child? Is he as noisy as Yaohua?"

"Father!" Zhao Yuan hadn't spoken yet, but Ji Yaohua became impatient first, and stared at Ji Huaizhi with rounded eyes, coupled with that swollen little face, Ji Huaizhi was amused by her and laughed out loud.

He coughed lightly, suppressed his smile, nodded solemnly and said: "Father is wrong."

After teasing his daughter routinely, Ji Huai straightened his expression and turned to look at Zhao Yuan, "But what's uncomfortable?"

Zhao Yuan shook her head with a smile, "This child is so well-behaved that I, a mother, don't even notice it. If it wasn't for today's routine pulse check, I'm afraid it will take some time before I know."

"This is a good boy, and he knows how hard it is to be a mother." As soon as Ji Huaizhi said this, he received his own daughter's eager gaze. He couldn't help laughing, and added, "This is really like his sister." Ji Yaohua's face Only then did he smile again.

Seeing this, Zhao Yuan couldn't help laughing and reprimanded, "You girl, I don't see your father praising others."

Ji Yaohua hummed a few times in embarrassment, and rarely twitched without answering.

……

At the beginning of Zhao Yuan's pregnancy, she really didn't react much, and she ate and drank as usual.But within a few months, I suddenly started to eat and vomit... my stomach grew bigger day by day, but my whole body became thinner day by day.

Ji Huaizhi was so anxious that he couldn't help it, he chased the imperial physician every day to ask questions, but he only got some ambiguous excuses and a few prescriptions for anti-abortion, which were useless after drinking.

Ji Huaizhi really couldn't let go of Zhao Yuan's situation, and in the end, except for the court meeting and summoning ministers, the rest of the affairs were handled in Kunde Hall.

Fortunately, after a while, Zhao Yuan was finally able to eat something. Although her face was still a little pale, she was much better than before.

……

Ji Huaizhi followed the imperial physician's instructions and often took Zhao Yuan out for a walk, but Zhao Yuan was weak, so he didn't dare to take people away for too long, and only walked around the Kunde Hall every time.

Today, the two of them were walking around outside, discussing the name of the child, and they thought it was good after saying a few words, but they couldn't make up their minds for a while.

Ji Huai saw a tired look on Zhao Yuan's face, and hurriedly led her back, persuading her, "Don't worry about it for a while, just think about it tomorrow."

While the two were talking, a black spot approached in the distance.The one who can run so recklessly in the palace, without thinking about it, must be Ji Yaohua.

The two also stood still, waiting for the girl to come over.After seeing her situation clearly, Ji Huaizhi couldn't help showing some astonishment on his face.

The child's hair was disheveled, his face was covered with gray marks, his light-colored clothes were also covered with deep and shallow marks, and the exquisite embroidery patterns on the shoe surface had long been covered with mud.

Although Ji Yaohua likes to run and jump on weekdays, she is still a girl, so she will always notice her appearance.This is the first time Ji Huaizhi has seen such an image today.

Zhao Yuan, who was at the side, was also obviously shocked by Ji Yaohua's appearance, and the tone of the question was a bit erratic, "You... where did you go?"

Ji Yaohua stopped three steps away from the two of them, held out a bird's egg as if offering a treasure, and said excitedly: "I want to raise a baby with the queen mother!"

Ji Huaizhi: ...

He stared at Ji Yaohua silently for a long while, not knowing whether to encourage the child to explore more, or to convince her that the egg would not hatch if it was in her hands.

While he was thinking about it, the palace servants who followed Ji Yaohua also chased after him. Seeing the situation here, they hurriedly bowed to the empress to apologize. She goes to wash up."

He tapped Ji Yaohua's forehead again, and said with a smile: "Little cat... you need to have more lines on your face, your mother and I won't be able to recognize you."

Ji Yaohua covered the spot where he was poked on his forehead, took a few steps back, smiled at the two of them, and was about to speak when he paused as if thinking of something, then bowed politely, saying: " Yao Hua retreats first." Then, surrounded by a crowd of palace people, he walked away slowly.

Behind him, Ji Huaizhi and Zhao Yuan couldn't help but look at each other, and both shook their heads and laughed.

……

After Ji Yaohua took a bath, without waiting for his hair to dry, he ran to Kunde Hall with his wet hair loose.

In the hall, Zhao Yuan was gesturing with a piece of bright red satin, planning to make a small dress for the child in her belly, when she saw the wet hair on Ji Yaohua's head, she couldn't help scolding: "You child, you just ran out like that? It's time to complain about a headache!" As he spoke, he turned around and called out "Green Jade".

Luyu had already held the towel in her hand, and hurried forward upon hearing this.Ji Yaohua also obediently sat in front of the mirror stand, and Luyu who rushed forward smiled and said, "Thank you, Aunt Yu."

While wiping her hair with the green jade, she watched Zhao Yuan's movements in the mirror for a long time, then suddenly pointed at the things in Zhao Yuan's hand, suddenly smiled and said, "This, this, I have it too!"

Zhao Yuan was stunned, looked up at Ji Yaohua, her eyes gradually turned gentle, she shook her head and said with a smile: "It's hard for Mother Zou to keep these things."

After the two chatted for a while, Ji Yaohua couldn't sit still, he reached out to pick up the hairpin from the dowry, and gestured to the bronze mirror.

Luyu also brushed her hair to a similar level, and was using a wooden comb to run along her long hair little by little.

Zhao Yuan raised her head and saw her movements, and her eyes couldn't help but feel a little hot. She stabilized her emotions and asked in a gentle voice, "Yaohua, can the empress tie your hair for you?"

Ji Yaohua looked back puzzled, his eyes fell on Zhao Yuan's protruding belly, hesitating for a while, "...my mother is heavy, so don't stand for a long time, Aunt Yu combs it very well."

As soon as he finished speaking, he couldn't help but let out a soft "hiss". It turned out that she was dishonest in walking around like this, and Lvyu accidentally pulled her hair.

After the sound, Luyu hurriedly knelt down and pleaded guilty: "Your servant deserves to die, I beg Your Highness to make amends!"

Before Ji Yaohua could say anything, Zhao Yuan had already stepped forward and said softly to Luyu, "You girl, you are always messy."

As he spoke, he took the comb and sent him away.

Now that Zhao Yuan had stood up, Ji Yaohua couldn't refuse anymore, so he had to straighten up honestly and let her mother follow her long hair.

One stroke, two strokes... Zhao Yuan stroked her long hair bit by bit, but the hand holding the wooden comb gradually began to tremble, and there was water in her eyes: She thought about the scene where she tied her daughter's hair , but not now, but a few years later - on the eve of her marriage, every movement must be full of blessings and reluctance, expectations and worries... But she can't wait for that day.

If the queen mother is not by your side, you must listen to your father's words; don't be so self-willed in the future, after bathing, you should dry your hair well; it doesn't matter if you don't want to guard the etiquette, you are the princess of the Great Wei, no one dares to say anything; don't Always playing crazy with the Yang family boy, dancing with knives and guns, what if I hurt myself...

There were so many things she wanted to say, she didn't know how to speak, she opened her mouth, and the shape of her lips slowly changed——

……sorry.

He silently recited these three words over and over again in his heart, and the movement of arranging his hair was light and slow, for fear of hurting the child.

"Mother's queen?" Zhao Yuan just kept arranging her hair, but did not tie her hair. Ji Yaohua couldn't help reminding, "The imperial doctor said, you can't stand for a long time..."

Tears that had accumulated for a long time rolled down her cheeks, Zhao Yuan blinked hard, and replied in the same tone as usual: "Not long, very soon..."

She raised her hand to wipe off the water marks on her face, then gently brushed Ji Yaohua's long hair back and forth, and after a short while, she pulled up a delicate bun, and then she turned her eyes to the hair on the table. On top of the dowry, the hair accessories inside were exquisite and delicate, and each piece was a high-quality goods. Zhao Yuan lowered her head and looked at it for a while, but raised her hand to fiddle with the hidden door above, revealing the bottom layer.

Inside, a wooden hairpin was quietly lying on the brocade mat. This hairpin seemed to be carved from ordinary peach wood, and it was not a masterpiece. There were only a few rough patterns of auspicious clouds on it.Compared with other exquisitely crafted hair accessories, this hairpin looks extremely shabby.

Zhao Yuan took it out with great care, rubbed it lightly for a long time, and then inserted it into Ji Yaohua's hair. She pressed Ji Yaohua's shoulder and leaned slightly until the similar faces of the two were reflected in the mirror. , she looked at Ji Yaohua's eyes reflected in the mirror, and smiled softly, "Look at Yaohua, do you like it?"

……

In the 16th year of Shaode, on the winter solstice, the eldest son of the emperor, Ji Yao, was born.

On this day, Empress Zhao died, and her posthumous posthumous name was Xiaolie.

It got dark very early that day, and the cold wind passed through the window gap, and even the burning coals in the hall didn't feel much warmth.Ji Huaizhi only felt that there was a blank in front of his eyes, and the words of the report echoed back and forth in his ears several times before he slowly comprehended the meaning.

The grief, the pain... and the anger that came with it... was to himself.

He should have discovered it a long time ago: the thin body, the pale complexion, and the uncharacteristic dependence... If he could pay more attention, wouldn't he be in the situation he is today.

His eyes were hot for a while, he turned his gaze slowly, and met Ji Yaohua's face, the child stood there blankly, as if he hadn't understood what happened yet.

Ji Huaizhi took a deep breath, took a step forward, held her in his arms, and patted her on the back lightly, "Father is here..." Only now did he realize that the child's body was shaking unconsciously. Trembling.

There was intermittent crying of a baby in the distance, and Ji Yaohua called out in a low voice, "Mother's queen." After these words, as if a switch had been turned on, she suddenly began to cry loudly, sobbing while crying : "Mother's queen... Mother's queen..."

She kept repeating these two words, as if as long as she kept shouting, the person who answered her would appear again.