i can't like him

Chapter 61

Time always slips away silently, and it will be summer in the blink of an eye.

In the last semester of his senior year, He Qinian needed to spend a lot of time preparing his graduation thesis, so he gave up the opportunity to compete abroad.

When he just flew back to City B, Sheng Xinghe was particularly uncomfortable.

There is no one around me, and I can't share in time when I encounter funny and fun things, and I can't even sleep well at night.

When you want to eat strawberries, you will think of He Qinian; when you want to drink rice cereal, you will think of He Qinian; when you are watching variety shows, you will think of He Qinian; I will think of He Qinian...

Anytime, anywhere.

It's not that there were no cases of long-distance relationships before, but they were not as serious as this time, probably because they lived together before and stayed together 24 hours a day.

If I have to describe it, it feels like a tooth has fallen out, and I feel awkward.

However, there is also an advantage in He Qinian's absence, that is, he has more energy.

Sheng Xinghe felt that the theory of "frequent sex life will affect grades" drawn by his seniors definitely has a medical basis.

When He Qinian was around, he had to play for an hour or two no matter what. When he got excited, he would make some props, tie his wrists and ankles, torture him for several hours, and the next day his mental state was not good.

After He Qinian left, all his attention was returned to the competition, and he went abroad to participate in the tour league at the end of March.

The results in the previous few times were average, maintaining a height of about 2 meters 26.

Many people questioned his decision to switch feet, and even he himself doubted whether he could do well, because there is no experience of his predecessors to refer to, and everything has to rely on his own groping.

It is very likely that all these time, energy, and hard work are just a result of failure, but new muscle memory is slowly forming, and he can no longer turn back, and must move forward all the way.

He Qinian also gave him a lot of encouragement. Almost every game, He Qinian would watch the live broadcast and analyze with him what went wrong after the game.

In high jump, it is difficult to control the position of the jump point, or the height and angle of the jump by consciousness. What athletes can do is to strengthen their beliefs, adjust their mentality, and then train day after day, rain or shine. In the end, they must rely on Nerve reflexes to control angles, arcs.

Practice until you can cross the pole with your eyes closed.

I once fell to the bottom, but now I am not afraid of the abyss.

No matter how optimistic others are, Sheng Xinghe still believes in himself, believing that this is the last big hurdle set by God.

He just wants to go beyond, not only to prove himself, but also hope that one day he can use his achievements to tell his juniors that "dream" is not an unattainable word, as long as you are willing to work hard and try, you must be approaching it.

There was pain, loss and confusion along the way, but he did not give up, nor was he willing to give up.

Finally, at the Asian Games at the end of May, he successfully crossed the height of 2 meters, won a gold medal for the Chinese team, and achieved the best result when he took off with his left leg, which is the one that made him face a suspension. high.

But this time, the drug test passed, and the gold medal was firmly in his arms.

This breakthrough means a lot to him, even more exciting than when he jumped for the first time.

This achievement proved that he can do it, and his efforts were not in vain.

When they agreed to live with He Qinian at the beginning of the year, they bought a transparent glass cabinet with a total of five floors, which contained all the medals, certificates, medals, trophies they won in their sports career, and the auspiciousness they got when they participated in the competition. things.

Now that a new trophy and souvenir have been added, the cabinet is almost out of place, and he plans to add a new one after He Qinian comes back.

Winning a gold medal in an international competition must not only be him alone, but the entire track and field team and even all the audience who pay attention to sports across the country.

All the officials of the track and field team sent their congratulations on Weibo, various media rushed to interview him, and even invited him to appear on variety shows, but except for a few interviews, he politely turned down other programs.

When doing anything, the most fearful thing is distraction, and variety shows will push people 360 ​​degrees without dead ends into the public eye, and the advantages and disadvantages will be infinitely magnified.

Thinking back to the variety show with He Qinian last year, he still has lingering fears.

At that time, the program group wanted to create some public opinion, and the later editing left some ambiguous scenes in a targeted manner.

The Propaganda and Development Department only selected the parts where they had physical contact as hot spots, and frequently searched them. Although they brought them a lot of popularity, there were too many complicated voices disturbing his thoughts.

The most intuitive change is the soaring number of comments and private messages. If there are praises, there will naturally be derogatory ones.

What impressed me the most was the private messages sent to him by several homophobic netizens, calling them disgusting, embarrassing to the national team, and even brazenly asking them to get out of the track and field team.

Although falling in love is a fact, it is not a reason for people to vent and attack.

There are also netizens who sneer and sarcasm: I have injured my leg and still have the energy to make money?Going to variety shows can improve your grades?

There are always some people who wantonly vent their negative emotions on the Internet, which cannot be stopped, and they have no time to explain.

He didn't want to be distracted by these disturbances, so he had to turn down some opportunities. Even in the reporter's interview, he answered very clearly: he would not consider entering the entertainment circle in the future.

What he loves most is always the arena, and the only thing that can make him excited is the arena...

And He Qinian.

With that breakthrough in the Asian Games, Sheng Xinghe's whole game state was mobilized. In the next two games, he passed 2 meters once and 28 meters once. Praise his competitive state this season is getting better and better.

On the other hand, He Qinian's graduation defense was very smooth. On the day of the graduation ceremony, he was invited to give a speech on stage, paying tribute to his youth and dreams.

After the ceremony, he was dragged by his classmates to sing and eat. He was different from other classmates. His classmates asked him to have a meal, and his old teammates in the track and field team also dragged him to chat.

In a good mood, he played games at the KTV, but was drunk by a group of classmates. Zhang Daqi and Qin Pei sent him back to the apartment together.

In the early hours of the morning, He Qinian rolled under the bed and fell awake, staring dazedly, aggrieved when he touched the bed and unable to sleep, so Sheng Xinghe received a call from him.

He Qinian was still drunk, he couldn't make up the words, and after a few words, he muttered: "Then do you miss me?"

"Of course I did."

He Qinian said with a complaining tone, "Then you don't take the initiative to call me."

"Won't I send you messages during the day?"

"Have it?"

"Of course, you still replied to me."

He Qinian couldn't turn his head around: "When, what did you say?"

Sheng Xinghe thought that he must have drunk too much in this state, so he didn't hang up the phone and chatted with him until a very low snoring sound came from the other side.

After waking up the next afternoon, He Qinian packed up the luggage in the apartment. He loves beauty and has a lot of clothes. He packed up four large boxes and sent them to City A. He asked Sheng Xinghe to sign for them, and then packed them back home. .

The plane pierced through the lingering clouds, flying from one city to another.

There are people he wants to meet in the city, and the whole journey is pleasant.

March to September is the most intensive stage of track and field competitions. After October, athletes enter the state of winter training to prepare for the World Championships in the coming year.

Sheng Xinghe had participated in the selection for the Olympic Games once, and the selection for the World Championships three times, but failed to achieve the desired results. The fourth time was last year, when he abstained because of a torn ligament.

Looking back on the past, he failed countless times, which was a huge psychological blow to him, but compared to other players who retired due to injuries or were forced to retire due to family reasons, he felt that he was still lucky.

At least you can make a choice for your own future, whether it succeeds or fails, do it first.

Time passed through his fingers, until the day he received his Christmas greetings, Sheng Xinghe suddenly realized that his 29 years old was coming to an end, and from next year, he would be a person starting with three words.

It's a bit unreal.

His memory still stays in a summer when cicadas were singing and noisy. A young man who killed Matt was holding a bunch of male hospital leaflets and asked him if he needed one. The second one would be half price.

That little boy has become his little husband, and he sleeps with his arms around him every day.

Everything is so incredible.

In fact, men, like women, are also under pressure to grow older. This New Year's Eve that jumped from two characters to three characters, He Qinian heard him say at least seven or eight times, "I really don't want to grow up, I really don't want to grow up." big".

unprecedented.

This anxiety is constantly passed on.

He Qinian was cooking a pot of glutinous rice balls in the kitchen, comfortingly said: "Age is just a number, in fact, it is just like usual, when the sun sets and the sun rises, everything will be the same when you get up tomorrow morning, and you can live forever."

Sheng Xinghe lay listlessly on the dining table, and stuffed a strawberry into his mouth: "I really want to change with you, I want to go back to being 23 years old."

He Qinian took out the glutinous rice balls and put them on the table: "You should think about how to spend today so that you won't regret it tomorrow."

How should I live today so that I won't regret it tomorrow?

The answer is bound to be unsolvable.

However, He Qinian said the closest to the standard answer, which is to spend happily.

"Don't worry about what you should eat and drink if you have something to do."

Sheng Xinghe scooped up a glutinous rice ball and stuffed it into his mouth. It was filled with sesame seeds and was very sweet.

"So, let's go upstairs to exercise later," He Qinian glanced over with suggestive eyes, "I found something good online, it will move, I guarantee you will be happy."

"He Qinian!" Sheng Xinghe roared with embarrassment, "Don't buy such weird things next time! Last time the swelling took three days to disappear."

"I bought the wrong size that time. I guarantee it will be fine this time. It's very small." He Qinian took out his mobile phone and opened Taobao and handed it over. "The seller also gave a mouth ball as a gift. Do you know what a mouth ball is? ?”

The picture shows a whole set of props for torture, black leather, metal chains, collars, small bells, things that bind hands and feet.

As soon as Sheng Xinghe thought of that shameful scene, he blushed like a pussy and yelled angrily: "I don't know! Why did the seller give you that kind of thing!?"

He Qinian was rather complacent: "Because I bought too much!" He changed his mind and slid towards Sheng Xinghe's side, "Actually, you know what that is, right?"

"..." Sheng Xinghe calmed down after finishing a big bowl of glutinous rice balls, and said seriously, "You are no longer as good as me in PB, why should it be my turn?"

The glutinous rice balls in He Qinian's mouth almost choked, and he pretended to be stupid: "Huh?"

Sheng Xinghe put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, and turned his face to look at him: "Ah, what? Every time it's you who are having a good time, I haven't had a good time yet."

He Qinian was shocked and said: "Are you upset? You scream so hard every time, fake orgasm?"

That's not the case!

Sheng Xinghe cleared his throat: "Well, how can you be on top all the time? It was agreed that whoever passes 2 meters first will be on top. Now I am 30 meters, and you are still on top... "

It's okay not to mention this, but the more he mentions it, the more wronged he will be: "What's the use of my hard work for so long?"

He Qinian felt a bolt of lightning strike behind his head, and ate a glutinous rice ball to calm his shock.

"Otherwise, whoever crosses the height of 2 meters first will be on top, how about it?" Sheng Xinghe said.

"Again!?" He Qinian thought that his rank was not much different from Sheng Xinghe's, so he nodded in agreement.

Sheng Xinghe stretched out his little finger: "It's a deal, no regrets."

He Qinian stretched out his hand and ticked it off.

That night, with a full set of small props served, Sheng Xinghe was almost played until he ascended to heaven.

...

Back to the trouble, the business still has to be done. After the short spring training, Sheng Xinghe and He Qinian returned to the team together.

First, a national championship to test the waters and mobilize the competitive state, followed by indoor competitions, diamond leagues and world championships.

Sheng Xinghe's goal this year is very clear, which is to break the height of 2 meters 33.

Naturally, He Qinian had the same idea.

The two fought from the field to the field, eating faster than the other, training more than the other, like two kindergarten children, endless.

From time to time on the field, he gave the opponent a look of provocation, and even declared war with great momentum during the reporter's interview.

Many netizens believe that the relationship between the two is not harmonious in private, guessing from "robbing the other party's girlfriend" to "robbing the other party's resources".

Gossip is never absent.

Everyone began to believe that the brotherhood and co-worker love before were all fake and staged. In short, the relationship was broken!

Some enthusiastic netizens even analyzed that before, they didn’t take each other seriously because their PBs were too far apart, but now it’s really their turn to earn a gold medal, just like a pair of old couples who have torn their faces. Don't let anyone.

The people who eat melons strongly echoed: What you said is simply too reasonable!Benefits can really kill people's hearts!Where does true love come from in the competitive circle?

However, in a place where they couldn't see, Sheng Xinghe was pressed down by He Qinian, and he was still cursing.

"Can you die if you take it easy?"

"That's not allowed! Don't use it! Put it down! Fuck! Let me put it down!"

"He Qinian, think about it, you will suffer what I suffered today sooner or later!"

"He... ouch..."