i am not bisexual

Chapter 14 Dao Heart

K began to have feelings for the Tao, probably from watching Henry Thoreau's "Walden".Then, from the theory of the psychologist Jung, he turned his attention to the Taoism and the Book of Changes that inspired him.It's funny to say, it's obviously traditional Chinese culture, why is it learned from the books of Europeans and Americans.Studying overseas since childhood, the literacy of Chinese culture and the self-confidence of the nation are too weak; on the other hand, the strength and flood of Western culture.

Even so, when K was a teenager, he also read the Buddhist saying about the eight sufferings of life: love is parted, you can't get what you want...and then you will suffer from it.You can get rid of greed and hatred, but you can't get rid of ignorance.According to Taoism, it is impossible to send one's desire to clear one's heart, and one cannot always be quiet.However, what's the fun of being so quiet, it's just staying away from pain; but, he still feels a kind of overwhelming sadness, the great compassion of the world, which even makes people immerse themselves in it and give birth to a kind of joy, compared to living numbly .

Sometimes he feels that what the people or the common people need needs to be guided by intellectuals, scientists, philosophers, writers and artists to give them spiritual food that is too empty, or to ensure their material life, and then let them naturally produce folk art Wisdom and aesthetics come.Just like the ideal Song Dynasty, it is so elegant and natural.

When I was young, my hormones were strong, my curiosity was waiting to be fed, and I yearned to explore lust. Desire and sex. Desire; when I experienced it, I was willing to return to pure love, to return to my pure heart, not because of hormones. desire.

The way is natural, everything goes with the flow, since K decided to face his inner feelings, it seems that his heart is no longer so distorted and bitter.

They first met 15 years ago, and they separated just as the seasons passed. They met for the last time 12 years ago, kissed goodbye for the last time, and then hugged tightly as if they wanted to embed each other in their bodies.

And then, and then?Perhaps only by understanding the past can we resolve the future. K plunged into the sea of ​​fantasy again, it seemed that Percy was also swimming there, and that was the only place where they could face each other honestly, and where was hiding there.

Humbert is to Lolita, Gatsby is to Daisy, Ariza is to Fermina... Which one is not the way, and which one is the right way; maybe there is a way to the evil way.The person who has the least character is probably the person who has no Tao.