sinovels Chapter 15 - Bitter Scruples
Chapter 15 - Bitter Scruples
Chapter 15 - Bitter Scruples
Time passed quickly, and the day when Xing Nuotian went abroad was getting closer and closer. He didn't want to give up Ye Yi, but he also knew that it was impossible for the two of them, and he couldn't give Ye Yi happiness. Although they were not related by blood, they were legally brothers !
Standing in the middle of the vast lawn, looking up at the blue sky, Xing Nuotian slowly closed his eyes.
Perhaps it was because of the fact that he was about to leave, Xing Nuotian suddenly felt a little reluctant. He had never felt nostalgia for Xing Nuotian in the past few years in this campus. Now, it was the first time that he was so unwilling to leave.
At this time, Guo Shanshan walked slowly towards Xing Nuotian from a distance.
When Guo Shanshan learned that Xing Nuotian was going abroad, she decided to have a good talk with Xing Nuotian. She knew everything about the two of them, and she hoped that her friends and lover would be happy.
So, when she saw Xing Nuotian standing alone on the playground, she walked over without hesitation. She hoped that Xing Nuotian could understand:
Loving someone is not easy, meeting someone who loves each other is even more difficult, no matter what happens, don't give up easily...
"Nuo Tian."
Guo Shanshan's melodious voice sounded like a yellow warbler.
Xing Nuotian turned his head, looked at the more beautiful and elegant woman in front of him, and smiled.
The person in front of me used to be the one who pursued him when he was young, and now he has gradually changed from a boy to a man. I don’t know when it started, and the eyes chasing me were far away from me, or maybe it was from that time. , the person he loves has become Ye Yi, but no one understands that.
Looking at Xing Nuotian who was frowning tightly, Guo Shanshan didn't know how to comfort her, but there were certain things and hurdles that had to be overcome.
"Nuo Tian, when is your plane?"
Guo Shanshan came to Xing Nuotian and asked softly.
"Flight next Monday."
Xing Nuotian replied lightly, with loneliness in his eyes.
"So you're leaving after this week?"
"Um……"
After that, the two were speechless, each having their own thoughts.
After a long time, Xing Nuotian looked at Guo Shanshan, who was wearing thin clothes, and couldn't help persuading him:
"Shanshan, it's windy here, you'd better go upstairs early."
Hearing this, Guo Shanshan smiled slightly and said:
"Nuo Tian, you used to not do things that take the initiative to care about people."
Xing Nuotian just smiled and didn't answer.
"In the past, you were arrogant, playful, and arrogant, so I actually don't like you."
"So that's why you rejected me?"
"No, I reject you because I like Ye Yi."
"really."
"Nuo Tian, do you know what I liked about Ye Yi back then?"
For this question, Xing Nuotian in the past wanted to know very much, but now Xing Nuotian has no interest in such questions at all, but Ren did not stop Guo Shanshan from continuing.
"Ye Yi is upright, single-minded, kind, without any airs, and is the exact opposite type of you. Ye Yi is a very quiet person, he will not expose his emotions to others too much. At the beginning, I fell in love with you. It's his quietness."
Seeing the tenderness on Guo Shanshan's face when she mentioned Ye Yi, Xing Nuotian knew that Ye Yi was always in Guo Shanshan's heart, but he really didn't understand why she wanted to break up in the first place, when she could have him forever.
Xing Nuotian knew that if Guo Shanshan hadn't proposed to break up at the beginning, Ye Yi would definitely marry her in the future.
"Since you love him so much, why did you let him go?"
This is a puzzle that Xing Nuotian has been unable to solve in his heart.
Guo Shanshan smiled bitterly,
"Nuo Tian, if you love someone, you must make him happy."
After hearing this, Xing Nuotian just wanted to sneer,
"How do you know that if you let him go, he will be happy?"
"Nuotian, love is not possession. I can see that Ye Yi's love for me is not love. I have struggled and doubted, but in the end I let go of his hand. Maybe you will think I am stupid, after all Just give up the happiness you got, right?"
"really."
Xing Nuotian couldn't hide his thoughts.
Guo Shanshan looked into the distance, with endless sadness in her eyes,
"Because I have my dignity, I refuse to spend my life with a man who doesn't love me, even if I love him to death, I don't want to."
Xing Nuotian: "..."
"However, Nuo Tian, you are different."
"Ok?"
"Ye Yi loves you, if you give up now, maybe you will never have it again..."
When she said this, Guo Shanshan looked at Xing Nuotian with extremely firm eyes.
"Perhaps Ye Yi did love me in the past, but now he... Since he chooses to forget, it shows that he wants to say goodbye to the past. He will never forgive me. He used the cruelest method to show me I will take his revenge. In this life, I will live my whole life with regret, guilt and love for him..."
If he hadn't agreed to Guo Chenyu's bet at the beginning, if he hadn't fought hard against him and then evaded him, if he had found his mind and spoken to him earlier, if... But there is no if.
Ye Yi, it seems that you really want to let go this time. Is this the ending you want?
Looking at the sky, closing his eyes, Xing Nuotian asked silently in his heart.
"Nuotian, do you really not regret leaving like this?"
"Shanshan, Ye Yi is counting on you guys. Although I feel unwilling, if he can live happily without me, I will admit it."
"Well, if you think this is the best ending for Ye Yi, I won't persuade you anymore. I knew everything during the college entrance examination. Although he tried his best to conceal it and kept saying good things for you, but I never thought of exposing him. In fact, I longed for you to leave Ye Yi for a long time. You never really cared about Ye Yi, and you indirectly forced him to go abroad. Now that you finally came back, there was a car accident, and now you are like this Leave irresponsibly, an irresponsible person like you should leave him early!"
Guo Shanshan let out the resentment in her heart in one breath. In her eyes, she despises a person who can only escape.
Xing Nuotian couldn't express his heart to the emotional Guo Shanshan, so he naturally knew how much effort it took Guo Shanshan to negotiate with him today and persuade him not to give up Ye Yi.
But reality is cruel,
Afterwards, Guo Shanshan left.
Xing Nuotian smiled wryly, only he knew the bitterness in his heart.
Leaving the playground, Xing Nuotian walked towards the cabin as usual.
Open the door of the wooden house, come to the piano, and touch every key on the piano with your fingers.
Then, a beautiful melody sounded...
Xing Nuotian played Ye Yi's favorite piece "Luvletter".
On Ye Yi's birthday, he played this piece himself, and Xing Nuotian still clearly remembers the happy expression on Ye Yi's face that day.
The beauty of the past, the happiness of the past, the touch of the past... were all destroyed by myself.
Ye Yi, it doesn't matter even if you don't remember me anymore, let me be the last to leave you with the best memories that belong to us now.
At night, when Ye Yi came to KING, Yuxuan happened to be on duty. When he saw Ye Yi coming, he went up to meet him and sat at the bar with him.
"Why did you come here?"
"Oh? Can't I come?"
"But here..." Yu Xuan hesitated to speak.
"I know it's gay here at night, and you're here with me."
Although Ye Yi was smiling, there was pain in his eyes, Yu Xuan could see that he was here to relieve his worries, so he ordered a glass of sake with the lowest concentration for Ye Yi.
Since the last time, Yuxuan and Ye Yi have become friends who talk about everything. Sometimes, no matter how late it is, Ye Yi will pick up Yuxuan from get off work, and then the two of them will go out for supper together.
But it is the first time to enter KING.
During these days at KING, Yuxuan has already learned to observe words and expressions, so he can naturally see the loneliness behind Ye Yi's smiling eyes at a glance.
For Ye Yi, Yu Xuan has already changed from his aversion when he was studying to his admiration now - a person who dares to love and hate.
"I said, why are you coming out so late? You usually only look for me on Fridays. Could it be that you plan to skip work tomorrow?"
In fact, what Yu Xuan said was correct, Ye Yi's mind was indeed so messed up that he couldn't concentrate even at work, so he decided to ask for leave tomorrow and not go to work, and the only person he wanted to chat with was Yu Xuan.
For some reason, Ye Yi always felt an indescribable intimacy with Yuxuan, maybe it was related to Yuxuan's blood transfusion to him, but Ye Yi really liked Yuxuan.
In Ye Yi's eyes, Yu Xuan is straightforward, simple, and kind. In today's society, there are very few people like this.Therefore, I cherish the friendship with Yuxuan very much,