Heart has a thousand knots

Chapter 13

Drinking tea is an important part of life.There are dozens of flowers and plants in the yard of the house where ordinary people live, and they are constantly blooming bright flowers all year round.Spring here is usually one to two months earlier than in the north.From February and a half to March and a half, the streets and alleys are full of red plums.When plum blossoms wither, Begonia, Magnolia, Peach, Apricot, Pear, Li Yingchun and various flowers and trees come to spring again. Edge, brushed across the water surface, rippled little circles of ripples.

In March, the peach blossoms in Longquanyi are all over the mountains.After the warm spring rain, flowers bloom everywhere. "Dawn looks at the red and wet place, and the flowers are heavy in the official city".The year before last, I went to Longquan with Xiaoshi to see peach blossoms.Xiaoshi's smiling face is hidden in the peach blossom forest, and the faces of the two are happy...

"Last year and today in this door, the peach blossoms on the face of the person are red. I don't know where the face is going, but the peach blossom is still smiling at the spring breeze." Reading these familiar poems silently, two years later, it really makes people feel a little bit like a lifetime away. Psychedelic.The peach blossoms in Longquan are in full bloom at this time, right?

After 09:30, the old lady and the old man who danced the baba dance began to disperse.A few old ladies looked at me, and then at the trolley case next to me.A fat old lady said loudly: "Sister, are you waiting for someone? Which one?" I pointed to the east-facing window on the second floor. "Teacher Yang's house? I went out with her husband after dinner, and I think he'll be back soon. Why don't you come to my house? I'll live opposite her."

I thanked the old lady, and I continued to sit on the bench and wait.The hour hand pointed to ten o'clock, and the neighborhood became quiet.When my eyes hurt, I saw Lei Yunfei, holding a big bag in one hand, and a small poem in the other——

My heartbeat quickened, and I felt blood start to rush to my brain, my throat was a little dry, and the hands in my pockets trembled slightly.

Xiaoshi walks slowly, with a big belly.It seems that the labor period has arrived.It would be great to have a daughter, she looks as beautiful as a little poem.It is said that daughters follow their father more, maybe, they will be more like Lei Yunfei.

My mind was full of chaos, and I watched her off, entered the corridor, went upstairs, turned around, until there was a metal sound of the security door hitting the door frame in the distance.

Regardless of whether the child in Xiaoshi's womb is a boy or a girl, what flows in him (her) is Lei Yunfei's blood, so it has to follow Lei Yunfei's surname.No matter who it looks like, it is also Xiaoshi's child, Xiaoshi will hurt.

Looking up at the east-facing window on the second floor, I was shocked again——Xiaoshi was standing in front of the window, facing my direction!Immediately shrunk down and didn't get up until she turned and walked away.

I immediately realized that my panic was unnecessary.The plantain almost covered my whole body, and the light in the neighborhood was not very good, so it was impossible for her to see me.

At 10:30, the lights in the windows went out.Slowly, along the road that Xiaoshi just walked, I walked over step by step.There is an air passage where the first floor turns to the second floor, and a protective fence is installed. Standing on tiptoe, you can touch the flower pots on Xiaoshi's balcony.I took out the diary, touched the card, and gently put it into the jasmine pot on the far side.It was a pot of two-color jasmine flowers, which were covered with flower buds early in March, exuding a faint fragrance.After work, we went to the flower market together to bring it back.Jasmine has grown a lot taller and is more luxuriant than last year, but the person who is by her side is no longer me.

Xiaoshi, good night.After reading silently, I turned around, still feeling a lingering sense of loss in my heart.Seeing the happiness of Xiaoshi, I should be satisfied.But why does this feeling of loss still surround me like sea water?

Dragging the box, I left the community and walked along the direction of Wenshu Monastery. I kept walking, accompanied by lights along the way, and intertwined figures, long and short, until I couldn’t walk any more. I took a taxi to the nearest Kentucky store and stayed until dawn.

([-]) Who Says No Grass Heart?

Back in Dujiangyan, dragging the suitcase, as soon as I arrived at the alley of my elder brother’s house, I saw a few old men sitting under the yellow jue tree playing chess. It's over..." It doesn't matter the precept of "watching chess and not talking to a real gentleman".The old man who was being yelled at looked calm: "Your son knows how to put an afterthought."

My father doesn't smoke or play cards, but he likes to drink some wine and play chess.When he couldn't find an opponent, An An, the elder brother's son who was in primary school, became his disciple and opponent, and the grandfather and grandson would often end up making concessions for the younger one.But today, the father is not under the tree.The spores of the Jue tree are scrambling to bloom, and the outermost white leaves are like petals, blown down by the wind and spread on the thick floor tiles.Step on it, soft and soft, no sound.

At the same time soft, and my legs.I don't know what happened to my father.Uneasy all the way, speculation all the way.

Opening the door and seeing me, the eldest brother smiled: "Now, Dad's illness is cured."

"What's wrong with Dad?" I asked my brother, and the question tormented me all the way.The eldest brother took my luggage and pouted towards the balcony.

On the balcony, my father was reclining on the rattan chair, squinting his eyes, as if he had fallen asleep.The rising sun of spring flows quietly on his face.Looking at my father is a bit like looking at myself.All the aunts felt that I was the only one who looked very much like him.I reached out to turn off the radio on the small stool——the Desheng brand, I bought it for him when I was in school in Chuanmei, and I earned the first money I earned from portraits at Jiefangbei.In his spare time, he likes to listen to opera.

I squatted there, watching his thin face covered with the sun up close, and felt that he was getting older.Life at seventy is rare since ancient times.He, after his sixtieth year, was dragged by the years all the way to his seventies.

"Momo, are you back?" My father called me.It turned out that he was not asleep.

"Dad, what's wrong with you? Did you go to the hospital?" I asked him, "If you feel uncomfortable, you need to see a doctor. You can't delay." Young soldiers, from the outside to the inside, are tough.

"What do you think is wrong with me?" My father stood up from the rattan chair and stretched his arms and legs. "It's all because of your elder brother, who made all the fuss. He insisted on going to the hospital to make a fuss..."

"Isn't elder brother worried about you too?" I said, the three brothers and sisters, and almost everything about my father was taken care of by him.

"As soon as possible, let me go back to the countryside, I live a healthier life than Hades!" Father muttered, probably because he missed the countryside.

He is getting older day by day, who can trust him to stay in the country alone?This is also the reason why the eldest brother insisted on him going to the city.Life in the city made him a little lonely.

At noon, at the dinner table, I said, "Dad, why don't you find a companion?" My words made the dinner table surprisingly quiet.Our family has always been extremely traditional.

My sister-in-law looked at me and said, "Momo, if you bring a boyfriend back, Dad's body will be just like the one in the advertisement - it tastes good and looks great. Dad is happier than finding a partner. "

I lowered my head and didn't answer.I don't know whether my sister-in-law felt that my father missed me and got sick, or she simply didn't want my father to find another companion.

"Momo, you are also 25 years old, it's time to think about it." The elder brother said, "You are the only one who is single. Dad is in a hurry."

I was a little disturbed, I bit my chopsticks, and after a while, I said, "Got it."

My father kept picking up food for me: "Shanghai food, where does it suit your taste? Look at you, how thin are you?" In my father's eyes, I was like a laborer who was tortured and hungry for the boss. I wish I could eat fat all of a sudden.If I gain another ten or twenty catties, he will think I am too thin.

"Don't worry, it's a personal problem, take your time." My father looked at me with a smile, "Eat some green peppers, you like it." After a while, he said: "Eat less, your stomach is not good."

An An said: "Grandpa, do you want my sister-in-law to eat or not?" The people at the table laughed, and the father laughed too.

The sister-in-law said: "Hey, no wonder people say 'the emperor loves the eldest son, and the common people love the younger son'. Look at Dad, when Momo came back, he was so happy..." The sister-in-law's words were a little sour.

"Brother, be nice to my sister-in-law." I said with a smile, "Look, she eats even my jealousy." The elder brother put food for the sister-in-law: "Eat it, you will get fat."

The sister-in-law pointed her chopsticks at my eldest brother, facing me: "Look at your brother, he is just a lump of elm." My brother ignored him and ate his meal with his head buried.

In the afternoon, those who go to work go to work, those who go to school go to school, and my father and I are left in the room.I decided to go out with my dad for a walk.

Opening the suitcase, picking up the clothes, a card fell on the ground.

This card must have been placed by Jiang Qiuyue.Before leaving, she folded the clothes for me.When I went through the security check, I was told to "keep an eye on the box".

I walked around with my dad and bought him two bottles of wine—one bottle of willingness and one bottle of intoxication.Buy him some clothes, he reluctantly.In this regard, I have obtained his true biography.

When passing by my alma mater, my pace slowed down.In a blink of an eye, it has been seven years since I left here... Outside the door is me at the age of 25, with an unknown future; inside the door are my youthful years, those tender days from 15 to 18 .

Want to go in?my father asked me.

I shake my head.After looking at the door that had been remodeled, he turned around and held his father's arm.

No matter how good the days are, they will go far away.And I must go forward and continue walking after looking back.

([-]) The Rain and the Wind Madness in March Twilight

In the evening, at eleven o'clock, I lay in bed and stayed awake.Tomorrow, March 3th, is Xiaoshi's first wedding anniversary.I thought that when I returned to Chengdu and this familiar land, my temples would be covered with frost like that of a Siming madman.