Heart has a thousand knots

Chapter 1

Heart has a thousand knots

Author: A Blossoming Tree

Shulian 2013-05-12 ended

brief introduction:

Shen Momo, a girl from Sichuan, left Rongcheng sadly after sending her first love girlfriend to the red carpet.In Yunnan, I ran into Jiang Qiuyue, a northeastern woman who was traveling.Jiang Qiuyue fell in love with Shen Momo at first sight, and became a traveling companion with her.After the trip, Shen Momo, who had nowhere to go, followed Jiang Qiuyue to work in Shanghai, got along with each other for a long time, and gradually fell in love with Jiang Qiuyue, who was seven years older than herself...

Keywords: Jiang Qiuyue, Shen Momo

前言

Some people say that it is best to fall in love three times in a lifetime: once ignorant, once deeply, and once for life.In early summer, I started a ignorant love affair with my first love.Youth is shallow and love is deep.It started ignorantly and ended ignorantly.

I used to think that I would never encounter such an unforgettable relationship again. It seems that there is no better relationship in this world than first love.Perhaps, just because we are young, just because we are so young, we are most reluctant to let go.It’s not that the past was so beautiful and irreplaceable, it’s just that we stubbornly love ourselves in the youthful years, and in the lonely days, we are nostalgic for the youth listening to the beauty of Yuge upstairs, and we don’t want to listen to the story before the steps. Leng Yu who can't understand the joys and sorrows, and the loneliness of those who are getting old.

Until later, I met you.To this day, I still believe that meeting is a beautiful accident.

I once marveled at the extreme beauty of Zhang Ailing's love classics: Among thousands of people, you meet the person you want to meet. In the wilderness of timeless time, there is no one step too early or one step too late. .Then there is nothing else to say, only to ask softly: "Oh, are you here too?"

The poet said that at least once in a life, you should forget yourself for someone, don't ask for results, don't ask for companionship, don't ask for possessions, don't even ask for you to love me, just ask for in my most beautiful years, meet your turn.In my pretty good years, I met you.Meeting you once made me feel that God's care for me has exceeded my dreaming needs.

Met you, and fell in love with you bit by bit.The reason why I fell in love with you little by little is because the word "love at first sight" has never appeared in my emotional dictionary.Love at first sight, in my opinion, cannot withstand scrutiny.

In short, I fell in love with you, unknowingly, quietly guarding you, and then, thinking about this life, I can never leave you.I love your smile so much, it's like the bright sunshine shining on the green leaves.Love, let your name become the most beautiful poem in my heart.In the thoughts like the tide, I often forget myself unconsciously.Listening to any song, every word is like a love song.Even in Tsing Yi's melodious tones in Beijing opera, the high and low sounds all rhyme with love songs.

The short youth often makes me have the despair of drowning.The most beautiful years are always as gorgeous as silk, as soft as silk, as swift as meteors and as rushing as clouds, so I can’t be as romantic as the poet said. I met you and passed by frankly.I love you, I don't need to say these three words, just treat it as some kind of unbreakable motto, practice it with time, use my youth that will soon end the curtain until I am old.

When I met you, I became very low, low to the dust, and then happily bloomed a flower.That flower, I don't want it to be a mandala that blooms on the other side. It blooms for 1000 years and falls for 1000 years. The flowers and leaves will never meet.Love is not causal, edge destined to death.

We don't have 1000 years to waste.I just want to, in the ordinary days, my eyes follow you and look around, and in the hustle and bustle of loneliness, I can clasp my fingers with you, look at each other silently, but silently and joyfully.Life and death are in agreement with each other, and you can talk to your son; hold your hand, and grow old together with your son.

I just want to exchange such a deep love for a lifetime of happiness, a stable happiness.

You once said that falling in love is easy but staying together is too difficult.Yes, there are always variables that we can't control in the seemingly peaceful days.We have been powerless to change the past.Just like you when I first met, you are already someone else's wife.The Pearl of Huanjun wept with tears, wishing not to meet when she was not married.In the unknown future, we may not necessarily be the masters.But we can control our love and obey the call of the truest voice in our hearts.How pitiful is a person who can't even control his own emotions?

I often think of the city you are in, I am used to looking at the weather and temperature there, I am used to using your birthday as a lucky password, I am used to missing you alone in the carnival of the whole world... You have become a habit of my life, and I miss you Like breathing, you don't think about it deliberately, but it is going on all the time.Fall in love, Fall in love with a city.When you are not by my side, that city has become the castle I miss, put myself in it, and sit in a city of sorrow from now on.

The biggest king in the Western Regions, the most beautiful lover on the streets of Lhasa, his poems, through a hundred years of silence, are still for me, for every pair of lovers' encounter, interpreting the unspeakable beauty of the so-called fate: in this life, turn around Turning the water to the Buddhist pagoda is not for cultivating the next life, but for meeting you on the way.

I would like to use this book to write to you, to my beloved you, every word, to sing the most beautiful love for you, and sing the deepest meaning: May I be like a star king like the moon, and the night and night stream be bright and clean.

([-]) Passionate since ancient times, free of hatred

When I was 24 years old, I suddenly felt very old.People often don't grow old slowly. Aging is always easily overlooked by people. Many people always find themselves getting old inadvertently.

I am.

March 2004th, 24 was my [-]th birthday.On this day, my best friend, best friend Yang Xiaoshi walked on the red carpet.Bridesmaids, no suspense is me.

If I had to count the most stupid things I have done in my 24-year-old life, being Yang Xiaoshi's bridesmaid would be the first. When the "Wedding March" sounded, I was so nervous that I didn't know which foot to take.To make matters worse, in a panic, I stepped on the hem of Yang Xiaoshi's wedding dress, causing Yang Xiaoshi to almost fall, causing the guests to scream.

My face was flushed all the time, my head was slightly lowered, and my eyes kept chasing the hem of Yang Xiaoshi's wedding dress. Under the lights of the hotel, I felt blurred, dazed, and dizzy.

When exchanging rings, I raised my head slightly and saw Yang Xiaoshi put the "Fate of the Three Worlds" on the ring finger of the groom Lei Yunfei.There was thunderous applause all around, and then the guests booed for the groom to kiss the bride.I saw many mouths that opened and closed constantly, many festive expressions, exaggerated and deformed faces, floating in front of my eyes; my ears were buzzing.In addition to this buzzing sound, I also heard the crackling sound of the ice cracking, one after another, very clearly.

When I woke up, my eyes were filled with large expanses of white, white ceiling, white walls, and white sheets.A slanting sun shone in, right in front of my bed, and dust was flying in the beam.

After thinking for a while, I finally figured out that I was in the hospital. Today is March [-]th, my birthday, and Yang Xiaoshi's big day.

Yes, Yang Xiaoshi...

The ring on Yang Xiaoshi's hand is the style I like, and I like the entangled name - Sanshi Qingyuan.Past life, present life, future life, because of the previous life, the love is fixed in the present life, and the next life is met, what a beautiful relationship!Lei Yunfei once asked her why she only wanted this one, and Yang Xiaoshi only responded lightly: I like it.

At the wedding, she saw all my panic.My sudden fainting made her unable to remain calm and calm as before.Holding me, tears dripped down uncontrollably.

The line of sight is frozen in the beam of light and shadow in spring, and grains of dust dance endlessly in the sunshine.The phone rang for a long time before I came back to my senses. "Momo..." Xiaoshi shouted, her tone choked with sobs.

"I'm fine, Xiaoshi, don't cry, you want to be happy." Before she could speak again, I hung up the phone.I'm afraid that all the pretended calmness will collapse in her tears.

I don't know where the familiar singing sound came from, I leaned against the window and listened silently.

"Looking at the clock in the square / You are still hiding in my arms / I am not used to speaking insincerely / How silence can make you understand / Embracing you at this moment is a beginning and an end / There are many blessings / Heartache is all in words /You must be happier than me/I will not waste my embarrassment and quit/No matter how painful it is, I don’t need to be sorry to make it up/At least I can fulfill your pursuit/Please remember that you are happier than me/It is worthy of my cruelty to myself /I silently count down/I will see you clearly at the end/See me so blurry in your eyes/Slowly exiled..."

Holding the phone tightly, dizziness struck again.My eyes began to blur, and the scenes of the wedding scene and Xiaoshi's new house alternated in my mind:

After delivering the last batch of guests, Lei Yunfei staggered into the room.When the smell of alcohol sprayed on her face, she couldn't help but tremble, and her body immediately became stiff and cold.Her head began to become empty, so empty that the past of 24 years had turned into a white dot. The white dot kept getting bigger and more blurred, and then it became a foggy world.

A burst of tearing pain made Yang Xiaoshi fall back to reality.Lei Yunfei entered her body, yes, at this moment, she is the wife of the man in front of her, although her spirit is not faithful to her body.

Chen Xiaodong’s singing continues: “Please be happier than me / I’m not in vain and quit in embarrassment / No matter how painful it is, I don’t need to be sorry to make up for love / At least I can fulfill your pursuit / Please remember that you are more than me Happiness/is worthy of my cruelty to myself"...