He doesn't know today

Chapter 32

Lu Guican asked me when I was going to see Xu Mingxuan, I hesitated and told him it was Saturday.

He was a little surprised, "Isn't that tomorrow?"

I felt guilty, and my voice was weak, "I want to discuss it with you..."

After I finished speaking, I realized that this was not true. It was already decided, so how could it be called a discussion.

The microphone was silent for a while, and then his voice came out again, "Do you want me to accompany you?"

"Ah?" I subconsciously wanted to pick out my ears, thinking that there was something wrong with my ears.

Lu Guican asked again, and explained: "If you dare not go alone, I can accompany you."

How could I dare not go, Xu Mingxuan doesn't know how to eat people, not to mention he might be beaten up by me.

But in the face of male gods, I always have to act weaker. Since he said I was afraid, then I should be afraid.So I obeyed, "Really?"

Then I'm welcome.

Lu Guican, whether intentionally or unintentionally, always seduces people invisible.

The straight ball teasing method is unbearable, and I can't stand it several times.

But the premise is that my guess is correct - Lu Guican also has that kind of meaning for me.

Even a little bit is enough in my opinion.

……

I thought I could face this matter calmly, but in fact, when I opened my eyes in the morning, I was still in bed for a long time.

Sometimes people's emotions are delayed, such as getting angry after the fact, such as being sad after knowing it, or like me now, full of three words about what to do.

I no longer have charming thoughts about Xu Mingxuan, but the emotions involved are also complicated.

Angry, helpless, and even guilty...

The guilt stemmed from the day we broke up. I looked at his expectant eyes and announced the end of the relationship word by word.He didn't understand it, and Chen Yu didn't understand it afterwards. Now there is an extra Lu Guican...

……

It is thanks to Chen Yu that I met Xu Mingxuan.

I hid my head and tail in high school, and my sexuality that I had hidden for three years was hit by Chen Yu. Not only that, he also brought me into his circle, including a dating forum.

I met Xu Mingxuan there.

At that time, I was just a freshman and had never been in a relationship. The only knowledge about love came from novels and TV dramas.Facing old fritters like Xu Mingxuan, I naturally fell for it.

By the time Chen Yu reacted, I had been on the line with Xu Mingxuan for a long time.

This person talked sweetly like he didn't want money, and every time we met, he would collapse.besides.He loves to be coquettish, always calling poor between the lines.

It's not that the living expenses are not enough today, or that tomorrow I will only eat one meal a day to save money...

I have never seen such a battle, and my heart softened, I just thought he was really poor.

I don't know if he is really poor, I just know that I am really stupid.Every time I go out to eat, I am reluctant to ask him to pay, and I usually don't forget to order takeaway for him.

He didn't eat in vain, he always brought me one or two gifts when we met, ranging from happy bubble water to small wild flowers on the side of the road...

After Chen Yu found out, he was afraid that I would be cheated, so he asked me to pay attention.

At first I listened to it, until it rained that day, and he ran to look for me downstairs in my dormitory in the rain.

I looked at him in disbelief and asked, "Don't you have a club show?"

Xu Mingxuan belonged to the drama club, and there was a performance during that time.

He rubbed my face with a smile, "I rejected it, today is Qixi Festival, I will come back to accompany you."

After the rain stopped, I completely let go of my guard against him.

It was only later that I realized that it was a shame for this person not to act in a drama.

He is worthy of being the vice president of the drama club, and he has brought out his acting talents to the fullest.I have been in love with him for more than half a year, and it was like a drama.

To sum it up, roll up some money without saying a word, and write it off in a few words.

The former treats me as handsome and kind-hearted, and gives me the little money.I saw the latter with my own eyes, and every time I think about it afterwards, I realize that it wasn't that he changed his mind quickly, but that I noticed it late.

The first time I ran to the outer courtyard to look for him without saying hello, and saw him chatting with a girl at the door very happily.I didn't notice it then.

The second time was when watching a movie, the boy was absent-minded and busy answering messages with his head down.I casually asked, "Who are you chatting with?"

He frantically put away his phone.

……

I happily booked a table at a restaurant until Christmas my freshman year.Then this morning, I called and asked him to come out for dinner at night.

But Xu Mingxuan refused very simply, saying that he had no money and would not eat.

I have a stomach problem, and I understand the importance of eating better than others, so I immediately said with distress: "I always have to eat, why don't I treat you?"

He also said that he didn't have time, he had a lecture tonight, and told me not to go out, it was cold outside.

The tone was as gentle as ever.

Chen Yu also had a dinner party that day, so I ended up bored in the dormitory alone.

After that day, I often think about a question, if I didn't feel sorry for the seat I booked that day, and ran to the restaurant alone foolishly, would everything not happen now.

I won't break up with Xu Mingxuan, I won't hate double-faced people so much, and I won't see him and a girl sitting not far from me, eating the same set meal happily.

……

Afterwards, Xu Mingxuan explained over and over again that he and the girl were just having a meal, and they had nothing to do with each other.

I even forgot to be angry, and asked calmly, "Then why are you lying?"

He paused, then fell silent.

"In order to have dinner with her, you lied to me that you didn't have time."

I looked up at him, not even knowing what I was talking about, nor what I wanted to express.

I said, "Is it because I can't afford to invite you to dinner? So you go when someone treats you?"

"Is it my bad grades? So you don't bother to tell me the truth?"

"..."

Finally,

"Is it because I'm a man?"

Xu Mingxuan didn't answer a single question, only apologized repeatedly.

This is the second time I have deeply experienced what disappointment is. The first time was when my parents got divorced and they tricked me into going to my grandma's house.

Both times it was because of lies.

……

After one night, Xu Mingxuan and I lived together peacefully for several months as if nothing had happened.

Xu Mingxuan was surprised at my usual attitude at first, but gradually let go of his doubts.Until the final day of the term, Xu Mingxuan came to see me, and I broke up with him without warning.

He looked blank, and asked after a while, "Do you still mind that?"

I said no, then turned and left.

He came up to me and asked me why.

I looked at him for a while, then sighed: "Think about it yourself."

I thought, I hate it when people lie to me, but I also lied to him, so we owe nothing to each other.

……

When I opened the door of the coffee shop, I found that Xu Mingxuan had arrived.He was sitting by the window, looking down at the menu.

Although the store he chose was also near the University City, but the location was remote, the area was small, and there were pitifully few people in the store, not even a clerk, only the store manager, who was dozing off behind the counter.

It's a good place to talk.

Seeing that I was still not moving, Lu Guican reminded, "Is it him?"

The environment was too quiet, Xu Mingxuan heard the sound, looked up, and frowned when he saw us approaching.

He looked at Lu Guican, "It's you."

Lu Guican nodded in a friendly manner, "Hello."

Xu Mingxuan's gaze stayed on Lu Guican's face for a while, then suddenly turned to me, "Boyfriend?"

Before I could refute, he laughed again, "Just kidding."

He didn't ask what Lu Guican was doing here, and even said to him in a very calm tone: "I'm sorry, classmate, can you avoid it for a while?"

Lu Guican looked at me, then walked to the seat on the other side.

……

I sat down opposite Xu Mingxuan and looked at the ornaments on the table absently.

I don't know what this guy wants to do.

Xu Mingxuan pushed the only coffee on the table to me, "Drink?"

I looked at this cup suspiciously, thinking that this person would never drink it.

As if he saw through my thoughts, he said, "I haven't drank it, I just ordered it for you."

I stirred the brown liquid with a spoon, but still didn't drink it.Seeing the empty space in front of him again, I couldn't help being curious, "Aren't you going to drink?"

After asking what I thought of, "No more money?"

He chuckled.

I wanted to ask, how are you doing recently, but I thought it was too polite.Want to ask him directly what's the matter, but seeing that he is about to cry poorly again, I can't help but soften my heart.

How did this man live so poorly.

After thinking about it, I ended up saying:

"How are you still alive?"

Xu Mingxuan: "?"

……

Xu Mingxuan was a little speechless, "You don't have to be so mean to me, right?"

I was actually extremely embarrassed, but the more I explained, the more chaotic I became, so I simply shut up and didn't answer.

The two sat quietly for a long time, but their eyes did not meet.I didn't even lift my head, a cup of hot coffee was about to be stirred cold.Xu Mingxuan was still holding the menu in his hand, as if he was holding a treasure map, and he couldn't get tired of reading it over and over again.

After an unknown amount of time, he broke the silence and said, "Are you hungry? Can I order something for you?"

I said no.

He asked again: "Then go out to eat?"

I couldn't bear it anymore, "What the hell are you going to talk about?"

There was a moment of stupefaction on the boy's face, and after a while he lowered his eyes, seeming to be in a low mood.

I've seen this look so many times that even though I tell myself it's probably fake too, I can't help but soften my heart.

But times have changed, and I can't ask.

When Xu Mingxuan raised his head, there was already a smile on his face, and he took something out of his coat pocket.

He handed it to me, it was a red envelope.

I opened it and took a look, and was shocked when I saw the hundred-yuan bill lying inside.

"What are you giving me this for?"

Xu Mingxuan smiled and said, "I wish you an early year."

I wondered in my heart that this person had broken his brain, and saw him stop laughing for a second, "Yu Yuan."

I twitched my forehead and frowned to see what he was going to do.

He didn't do anything, leaned back in the chair, and said slowly, "Don't you always feel that I owe you money? I'll pay you back."

It took me a while to digest this sentence, and asked: "Did Chen Yu tell you?"

"No." He shook his head, and said in a helpless tone, "I also said it casually, it seems so?"

I wanted to say something, but I fell silent after hearing the next sentence.

He said: "Is this why you broke up with me? Do you think I owe you?"

Maybe he took my silence as an acquiescence, and before I could say anything, he continued on his own, "To be honest, I couldn't understand why you were angry at first. If it's just this kind of thing, I couldn't understand it either. But I I still want to understand, maybe we have different attitudes towards the same thing, maybe it's too late for me to look back at you now..."

Speaking of this, he glanced at Lu Guican's position.

"No matter what, I want to apologize to you. I'm not that poor, I just like you. I'll pay you back what I owe you."

I took a deep breath and held the red envelope.

What kind of liking is this.

He was still saying, as if he was determined to win, "You let me think for myself earlier, and I figured it out."

"Xu Mingxuan," I couldn't help asking, "Do you really think I'm angry because of this?"

Seeing his hesitation for a moment, I thought I had nothing to say, so I stood up first.

"I see." I said to him, "Then I'll go back first."

He didn't stop me, he only asked about my relationship with Lu Guican before leaving.

I glanced at Lu Guican beside me, and said that he was a classmate with a good relationship.

He smiled at the time, "Then you have a really good relationship."

……

A few days later, Xu Mingxuan sent me a message saying that he had gone abroad, and besides that, there was another missed call.

At that time, I was going to find Lu Guican, and I found a high-sounding reason: to go to the library to review together at the end of the semester.

I didn't realize the call until I got out of the car. After a moment of hesitation, I still pressed the call back.

A cold robotic female voice sounded directly from the microphone.

Xu Mingxuan blocked me.

Come suddenly, go clean.

This is the biggest feeling Xu Mingxuan has given me in the past year.

Originally, there was still economic loss, but I ran into Lu Guican after we broke the fortune to eliminate the disaster.

After I came out of the library, I still told Lu Guican about it.

Lu Guican only knew that Xu Mingxuan apologized to me that day, and when I heard that Xu Mingxuan had left, he was silent for a while, then suddenly asked: "By the way, did he give you anything that day?"

As soon as he mentioned it, I remembered that the red envelope was still in my schoolbag, so I quickly took it out.

"Give me a red envelope, saying that I owe me money," I poured out the money while sighing, "To be honest, I don't remember how much..."

The amount of money is neither too much nor too little. There are five hundred-yuan bills in total...one is 20 yuan.

Together, it is exactly 520 yuan.

I frowned subconsciously, and took a closer look at another note, which was sandwiched between the banknotes.

There was not much written on the note, only a few sentences, the first three words were said by him face to face, sorry.

"I owe you 500 yuan, and I still owe you 20 yuan. Together, I owe you a sentence."

I took the note and stood there for a long time without moving.

......

Lu Guican worried from the side, "Are you all right?"

I closed my eyes and said to him: "Senior, I lied to you before."

He paused, then smiled and said, "Call me senior again?"

I curled my lips, "I just called it that way..."

Like a ship that has finally docked after a long time, my mood gradually calmed down, and I talked more and more, as if I had a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, so I wanted to tell the whole story.

Lu Guican is a very good listener, and he is also someone I am willing to tell the truth, not only because I like him, but more because of the sense of security in him, maybe this is why I have persisted for so long.

I told him briefly about Christmas.I have been holding back something in my heart for a long time, and even Chen Yu didn't know about it. At this moment, facing him, I said it without reservation.

……

"Actually, I asked afterward that he and that girl really just had a meal."

"I just can't accept that he lied to me."

I sighed, "It's annoying."

Lu Guican was playing with the key in his hand, making a clanging sound. After hearing this sentence, he paused and the key fell to the ground.

I quickly picked it up for him, Lu Guican took it, and said thank you in a low voice.

"So it's not that I don't want to tell you, it's really stupid." I said in a joking tone, "Speaking of which, my taste has not changed from the beginning to the end, and I have no resistance to gentle people."

Lu Guican didn't know if he understood my suggestion, his eyes were lowered, and he remained silent.

I noticed that his expression was a little strange, so I asked, "Are you uncomfortable?"

He shook his head, looking up to meet my gaze.

Just when I thought he was going to say something about it, he just asked, "So how are you now?"

I thought he was concerned, and quickly said: "It's been fine for a long time, it's just a dark history."

Lu Guican's eyes darkened, like a deep pool hiding something, "Yu Yuan, do you hate others lying?"

I didn't understand why he asked this, but I answered honestly: "I hate it, but we usually lie more or less, I just can't accept that one appearance on the surface, but another appearance behind the back... "

He lowered his eyes and pocketed the keys in his hand.

I still thought he was a little strange, and asked again: "Are you really okay? Why do you feel uncomfortable?"

Lu Guican said lightly: "It's too late to stay up late for reviewing recently."

Afterwards, when I think about this day, I always regret why I couldn't be more sensitive.

After all, what was wrong with him wasn't because of staying up late at all.