go the same way

Chapter 24

It is precisely because of Li Pei's arrival that Nie Xunqiu feels that this world is more like a place for everyone's regrets.

Those lost and missed can be grasped again.

What Li Pei regretted was the night when Li Yan left, what Nie Xunqiu regretted was almost his whole life.

That's why he stepped on this time-rewriting train in [-], listening to it run across the railroad tracks alone, looking out of the window, and seeing sand dunes stretching for thousands of miles, and bolides in the dark night Falling, one after another after the storm, the sparse trees finally broke through the ground, decorating his barren wasteland.The train kept moving forward, slowly driving under the blue sky, and the wild flowers between the ridges on both sides grew towards the sun.

He was the only car in this section, and finally on that day 18 years later, a second passenger entered the station.

It's like meeting each other once, but it's not very special.

Li Pei even felt that it was only yesterday that he died in front of Cun He.

And the condition that needs to be satisfied for this encounter is that everyone in this time and space has made the choice to lead to happiness. Li Pei and Nie Xunqiu who belong here will die on the day they most want to go back, and they still have hearts. With undissipated thoughts, they urgently need to be realized in order to accommodate souls from another world.

That Li Pei probably couldn't let go of his elder brother the most, and every Nie Xunqiu just wanted to live on.

These harsh conditions, piled up, made the possibility of him seeing Li Pei goodbye infinitely close to zero.

So this encounter can be called a miracle.

He waited for a reunion and a miracle.

"[-] years," Li Pei felt dazed when he mentioned this year, and murmured, "So I spent so long in an unknown place."

From confusion to waking up, Li Pei felt that it was only a moment.

For Nie Xunqiu, it was 18 years of struggle and learning.

In the world that he never knew before, fate directly overwhelmed him, generous and cruel, and let him start from the beginning and walk again.

That is a special sentence, and it is a practice without time limit.

"Not long." Nie Xunqiu said softly, "I'm not too old yet."

As if to prove it, he stroked his short-thorned temples with his hand.

It's still blue there.

"I haven't grown any gray hair yet, and there is no problem with my shoulder, neck and lumbar spine. My brain is also considered smart and can remember many things. I remember that you like raising stones, sour cherries, and sweet strawberries. I remember that there is one on your right collarbone. A small mole. When you eat beef noodles, you add coriander to enhance the taste, but you never eat it. You like small animals, cats, and watching red pandas eat apples. I still remember that you wanted to go to Australia to see seals... I haven't forgotten."

When Nie Xunqiu met little Li Pei that winter, it seemed that he was able to spy on Li Pei's childhood, which he hadn't been able to participate in. He was very touched and very happy.

But what I think more is that they will miss each other, and the scarred person will stay in the unknown world, living a peaceful but happy life without him.

He still wanted to wait, imagining that one day the man would land, and he wanted to catch it with his own hands.

Isn't that long enough?

Li Pei thought.

too long.

Long enough for a child to grow from newborn to adult, enough to have a general understanding of this strange world, long enough for any canned food to expire, long enough for countless dreams to pile up and fill the night.

He asked, "What if... I go somewhere else?"

"Other places..." Nie Xunqiu repeated, there was a faint flicker in his eyes, and he looked towards some distant place, "Then, wait a little longer, we will meet again."

I will leave before my brain degenerates, miss you over and over again, and turn my short-term memory into a permanent memory, so that I will not forget you when I go to other time and space, until I confirm that the soul is you.

Not the unique you, no.

If you can't wait, just wait for the next miracle.

Waiting in the infinite unknown is very stupid and lonely. Nie Xunqiu believed in this matter and never thought about other possibilities.

"I've waited, didn't I?" Nie Xunqiu smiled, his eyes were red, and when his eyes were bent, tears also fell, "Many things I didn't understand before, this period of time is enough for me to think through them over and over again, and even cherish my heart. Dream, work hard for it, live well, just like this, it is worth it. I may not do enough, I am not worthy of you, but I like you very much, love you very much, I hope you can try to love me, a little Just do it."

Li Pei saw Nie Xunqiu's tears for the first time.

He is not an emotional person, never relying on tears to vent, and hides happiness and sorrow miserly. Li Pei even really feels that this person's heart is a hard rock, which cannot be pierced or pierced.

The current person mentioned many small things in their lives, remembered the scenery he hadn't seen, and said that he likes him very much, loves him very much, and hopes that he will do the same, even if he is willing to give only a small piece of heart.

So sincere, so soft.

That's 18 years of polishing.

Let him be in a trance, like in a dream, forget even blinking, let alone believe it.

After a long time, Li Pei raised his hand, but the wound was so painful that he groaned.

"Wipe your tears," he said hoarsely, "you are fine now, there is no need to say whether you are worthy or not. For you, everything has passed for a long, long time, but for me it is not. So, give me Give it some time, let's... get to know each other again."

Just leaving a possibility, but it made Nie Xunqiu's heart beat violently.

He seemed to see that the door that was once opened and closed for him was finally loosened, and the dust was shaken off, and pure light shone through the narrow gap.

His eyes were dry, and he reached into his trouser pocket and took out a small gadget.

Yesterday he was just like this, he took out five baby toffees.

Li Pei thought it was some kind of candy, until he felt that the thing in his hand was rough and cool with metal, and he shook it reflexively, only then did he feel that it was shaped like a key, with a rough fur ball attached to it, and he didn't know how to use it. how long.

"I was born on a boat and my mother committed suicide by jumping into the sea. The sailor took me in. He called me Everardo and took me to Medellin, Colombia. This key chain was a gift he bought for his daughter, but he was caught before he could send it out. Robbers killed it on the street. A prostitute took it and took me too. She was my adoptive mother who died of AIDS when I was 12 years old. I was adopted by Li Huisheng and went to high school in New York. He went to college in Baltimore, got a doctorate, and became a doctor." Nie Xunqiu briefly stated his life, "This ball, it is very old, it was very fluffy and soft at the beginning. I don't know how to maintain it, so I can only try my best. It doesn’t get dirty, doesn’t need to be cleaned, it’s been too long, and it’s shed a lot of hair, so you may feel uncomfortable, but it’s very clean, and I washed it before I wanted to give it to you.”

Said that he wanted to get to know him again, so he briefly talked about the situation in his life, not for gaining anything, but he felt that this fur ball keychain was a gift he received in his rough life, full of expectation and happiness. A well-intentioned gift, even if it wasn't originally intended for him.

In addition, there are two keys on the keychain.

He is used to taking two sets of keys with him when he goes out. He is afraid of losing them, and he also thinks that one day, he will be able to hand over the keys to Li Pei calmly like Li Pei did in the past.

"These two keys originally belonged to you. I made a spare and lived in our former home. It's still the same as when you didn't leave. I still use the kind of shampoo that needs to be shaken. Back then you When I was given the key, I didn’t take it properly, this time I will give it to you, keep it or throw it away, the decision is up to you, but I still hope that after we get to know each other again, you can also go home.”

After Nie Xunqiu said the last word, his heart seemed to be dry, and his throat was burned, making him a little thirsty.He knew that Li Pei was listening, but he didn't expect an immediate answer.

He is willing to spend the rest of his life waiting for that answer.

Li Pei's face was still pale, and he looked very tired. Nie Xunqiu wanted to touch the back of his hand, but when he reached out, he retracted and gently tucked the thin quilt on his body instead.

Don't dare to press too tightly, for fear of affecting the wound and oppressing the heart.

He felt a little regretful, and chose the time at this time. What Li Pei needed most was to rest, instead of forcing a lot of worries.

"I've said too much, so don't take it to heart. Get well first. Your health is the most important thing. I have to go to work tomorrow. I want to see you after get off work, okay?"

Li Pei nodded, thinking that even if he refused, Nie Xunqiu would probably come secretly.

Like that soft steal kiss last night.

He closed his eyes slightly, recalling what Nie Xunqiu said, and when he raised his eyelids again, the person next to the bed had changed. Li Yan sat on the chair and asked softly, "Are you sleepy?"

"No, I can't sleep, I know a lot, and the impact is too great." Li Pei's mind is clear, but his body is still heavy, "Did you hear that outside the door?"

"Well, seven seven eight eight." Li Yan said, "I'm not for him, nor will I stop you. Follow your heart, don't let it go if you can't let it go, don't let it go if you don't like it. Love is often as simple as that."

Li Pei smiled: "Okay, listen to brother."

"You have to listen to yourself. My brother is not good. Fortunately, there is a chance to make up for it. It won't be too late."

Hearing that he was blaming himself, Li Pei felt puzzled. After thinking for a while, he realized that he was talking about the cause of Li Pei's death here: "Brother, it's not your fault. He doesn't blame you, no matter which 'I' it is, The happiest and luckiest thing will always be to be your younger brother."

Li Yan is so smart, he listened to what Nie Xunqiu said about the state of coming here outside the door, and then thought about the change of memory, his brother's heart has a hidden disease that has not been discovered for many years, and he probably guessed that he was a child. The child who watched him grow up was not pushed aside, but really left.

It was another mature soul who took over Li Pei.

If he hadn't waited for Li Pei to wake up by himself that day, and had called Li Pei earlier, he would not have missed the best time to rescue him from sudden death.

Outside the door, he remembered Li Pei sitting on his back seat when he was a child, holding the clothes around his waist with one small hand, and covering the sharp little sweet potato with the other.When the spring became colorful, Li Pei sat on the grass, clapped his hands and laughed under the bright light, and couldn't tell who was more sunny.

He has always been so obedient and kind, even when he was dying in an accident, he wanted someone to continue to accompany his brother for him.So he found Li Pei who had lost Li Yan in another way on this day, and he couldn't say what he had to say, but Li Yan seemed to see the reluctance and suddenly let go.

After Li Yan digested the grief alone, there was still pain in his chest. Hearing Li Pei say the happiest and luckiest man, the resolute man's eyes were red, and he kept nodding: "Yeah."

"It's getting late, let's rest first, I'm next door, if you feel uncomfortable ring the bell, the nurse on duty and I will come over."

When Li Yan left the ward, he was afraid that the light would disturb Li Pei, so he drew the curtains, turned off the lights, and the door was tightly closed.

Li Pei lay on the bed, moved his wrist, still holding the fur ball and the bunch of keys in his hand.

I didn't look carefully, but in my impression, the fur ball is pinkish white, and because of the age, more white has faded.Many hairs are stuck together, and it feels rough to the touch, but the top is clean and there are no stains.

He remembered that Nie Xunqiu said that he washed it before giving it to him.

Hearing the new life that Nie Xunqiu said casually, like introducing himself, saying that he wanted to get to know each other again, he also dug out the root and showed it to him, which was light but dripping with blood.

The biological mother committed suicide, the adoptive father was murdered, and the poor adoptive mother also left.

This is just a small part of Nie Xunqiu's life. In the previous world, he was never adopted, and he never had a stable desk. He was just treated as a hunting dog who was bought and sold at will, tied tightly by a rope around his neck, Complete hunt after hunt.

Li Pei finally understood that Nie Xunqiu tremblingly said "I can't understand it" in the gazebo that day was not a stubborn excuse, but a fact.He also has no position to criticize, because Nie Xunqiu has tried his best, and the wish he wants to realize is to live, but fate is really harsh, and he has taken too much away, so he can't be taught to be gentle again.

That's why there are innocent people who have been hurt. Li Pei doesn't think mistakes can be justified, but repentance can be forgiven.

He suddenly began to suspect that what Nie Xunqiu said at that time was a natural death.

Is this really the case?

He pinched the somewhat stiff hairball.

It feels like there is a heart that has spent 18 years rinsing and cleaning it so that it is spotless.

The author says:

=v=This chapter clicked on the questions in small gray characters ~ Kaixun