Fugue

Chapter 36

"of course--"

The wall is an old dark wooden wall, full of scratches, and there was a slight knock as Gan Lan leaned back.Because of Gan Luan's approach, shadows slowly covered Gan Lan who was against the wall.First, the neck, blended into the shadows, then the chin, which fell into the darkness, and then, the lips, the tip of the nose, the red corners of the eyes, the tips of slightly frowning eyebrows, and the forehead hidden in the brown-gold broken hair, all submerged.He was overwhelmed by shadows, as in a deep lake.Kill all the light in his eyes and make him his own.Control all his flaws, as long as he fills them up for him.Bind, leave no room.Suffocate, stop breathing.

Darken him.he thought.At the same time, he smiled slightly: "Of course it's reasoning with him. I want him to stop making you sad."

As if afraid of Gan Luan's gaze, Gan Lan lowered her eyes slightly: "Is there such a reason?"

"Why not?" He stood so close, his breath was about to be entangled with Gan Lan's.In order to see Gan Lan clearly, he tilted his head slightly, and said word by word: "There will always be... to create this truth for you."

"He's dead." Gan Lan looked into his eyes and told Shen Hei to go: "What reason do you have with the dead?"

"It's better if he's dead." The voice was so low that no one could hear it.He only talks to himself.

"What?" Gan Lan asked him.

Gan Luan seemed to relax, he plucked Gan Lan's bangs, and said softly, "I see. It's okay, everything will be fine." A new smile woven on his face, like a thin cool crescent moon.

If the dream is divided into three stages: dream, drunk dream, waking dream.Then the moment when he was caught off guard and witnessed a car accident that seemed to have nothing to do with him, but actually had everything to do with it, could be counted as when Gan Luan fell into a dream.Looking back carefully, I feel that every thread is in the dark: the frivolity of deciding to tease the motorcycle is the first ridicule; the twisted and fleeing figure of the motorcycle also indicates the ruggedness of the dream ; and the disordered heartbeat when he suddenly faced Gan Lan was a dose of rosemary in his dreams.Like a diffuse mist, the fragrance is like a bath, gently plucking a string in his defenseless consciousness, the vibrato echoes, reverberates... The fragrance guides him into a dream.His memory seemed to have been completely tampered with at that moment, and many shadows appeared invisibly, piled up in his heart, and countless sad past events were veiled but came to tease him. He couldn't see anything clearly, so he wanted to see more clearly. ... This person, this person... actually grew into the depths of his memory at the moment they met on a narrow road.If he never sees Gan Lan in his life, all these things will be meaningless; but this person's face has tampered with his memory with just one encounter, that's all.

Just blame the hasty side of tampering with memories.After that, it was a long journey of drunken dreams, hesitating and wandering, fascinated and crazy.The dream fell deeply, and the waking up became more tender. Unfortunately, he was caught by Ye Jing's words, but just when he was about to wake up, he fell deeper and deeper. One dream after another, the real became false one after another, he It seems to be waking up constantly, and I don't know when it will stop waking up, but I am afraid of waking up again, so that I can't tell what is real and what is fake.Waking up is because of the discovery of the dream.Witnessing something that should not exist in the world, one tries to wake up in order to escape from the entanglement of reality and illusion; escape is the accomplice of despair.

When did the long journey of "drunk recovery" begin?It seems to have eyebrows.Although it was dark at that time, it was muddy as if a pool of sand at the bottom of the water had been disturbed... But there was always silence, and the fine sand at the bottom showed faint lines: the first was to realize that Gan Lan had a living part, and the second was to realize that Gan Lan had a living part. The truth was pointed out by Ye Jing.But "truth" always destroys "dream", and truth and dream are not allowed to coexist, so he woke up.

It has been more than half a month since those two lines became vaguely visible and gradually deepened, becoming a ravine in Gan Luan's heart.Gan Luan and Gan Lan, their common "birthday" is coming soon.

It is the end of autumn, and the coolness sneaks into the neck from time to time, slips to the back to "mooze oil", and steals the slightest bit of body temperature.It's not sure whether Gan Lan is afraid of the cold or not, but Gan Luan can tell that he doesn't have basic common sense in dressing.He often looks like a heretic, wearing a pair of summer shorts and a winter coat over his knees, with two bare legs ostentatiously walking through the market.He doesn't like to wear socks, once when Gan Luan was lying on the sofa, a pagan just passed by, and a claw suddenly appeared in the air, grabbing Gan Lan's shimmering calf—it was as cold as a popsicle—

"Don't you know it's cold?"

Gan Lan stepped back: "To be fair, let's grab this leg as well." It turned out to be the warmth from Tan Ganluan's palm.

Gan Luan dragged the pagan back to the room, and opened a certain wardrobe door: "You have a closet of trousers, cotton denim, casual, formal, black, white, red and blue." He pulled out a huge gift from Ye Li: "There are also rainbow ones! You Don’t wear it! Walking around barefoot in the cold weather, and your legs are so cold that they can be cooled, are you a rebellious period or an anti-human being?”

The heathen chose one: "Probably against humanity."

Gan Luan said seriously, "What's your dissatisfaction?"

"I can't hear what you're talking about." The nonsense is top notch.

Gan Luan was about to stare at him and reward him with a lion's roar, but suddenly changed his mind when he spoke, stretched out his hand to grab Gan Lan's left wrist, pulled her sideways, lowered his head and slowly moved closer to his ear until the tip of his nose It stopped when there was a faint scent of mint.

Beside Gan Lan's ear, breathing slowly, letting the breath intertwine, Gan Lan suddenly wanted to step back, but his wrist was imprisoned, and he couldn't move half a bit; into his arms, and at the same time felt that his wrist was also being grabbed.

"Then..." He spoke softly, as if whispering to a frightened animal: "Can you hear me?"

The light brown hair that gradually faded to gold nodded slowly, and Gan Luan smiled again: "You think I have a low voice, but you can't even speak?"

Suddenly, he felt a tight grip on his wrist. Immediately afterwards, Gan Lan turned her face to him. It won't take much distance, but at least they can see each other clearly.

A pair of wet drooping eyes looked at Gan Luan, deeply reflecting Gan Luan's outline.Slightly sullen, with a little support, still so empty—yes, Gan Lan's eyes always seem to have not settled down, because there is anxiety at work, at this moment, Gan Luan is blessed to the heart.Maybe this world doesn't yet have a place where Gan Lan's eyes can be fixed.

A thought suddenly came to his mind: he hoped that Gan Lan's eyes would fall on him, not like now, he was in his eyes, but in fact he was not.How much he wanted Gan Lan to see him, he himself was not "brother", not even "Gan Luan".He wanted Gan Lan to see the silhouette that only belonged to him?soul?No matter how you say it, he hopes Gan Lan can see his truth.Just as he wanted to see Gan Lan clearly.It was only at this moment that he realized that his longing for this matter was mutual.

"Look at me—" Gan Lan once said, "then kill me."

yes.See me and kill me.

Isn't this attitude towards death the most pleasing to him?

It turned out that as early as the moment Gan Lan sent out the invitation, the gears had already been pulled, just like the passing of the stars determined the trajectory of fate.

It turned out to be the case, because what he asked for was what Gan Lan would not give.

Therefore, after being exposed by Ye Jing, Gan Luan consciously made himself a "normal person".Facing Gan Lan is like facing a stranger who came to the house suddenly; this is the attitude he should have—for Gan Lan, he will let him let go, and hide when he can't bear to see him. Life is like a wheel, why? Daoteng has nothing to worry about, as long as he survives, he can keep going forward.Until today, he couldn't bear this mental retardation so much that he gave up his previous efforts.

But at this moment, a stare at each other makes people realize that the unyielding gaze of the pagan is like a wildly growing vine, entangled closely, and there is a great feeling of martyrdom that wants to be tied to him to die.It's like catching the same rope when falling, winding it left and right, so that they are inseparable, shaking in the air together, bowing their heads to the abyss and raising their heads to heaven.

No, no, no... The voice in my chest was amplified, and my eardrums trembled... This metaphor is not suitable... Speed ​​up, speed up again... This kind of look... Okay!alright!Don't look anymore... stop, stop, can't stop!Play to the climax!

Plop plop!Plop plop!

He felt that there was nothing to hide.He takes a deep breath.Finally he said: "Let go, you hurt me."

Tell Gan Lan to finish changing her trousers——At first, Gan Lan wanted to choose the "Ye Li's Juxian". Seeing this, Gan Luan stepped on the trousers without hesitation: "To wear them, first step Let’s talk about my dead body.” ——They returned to the living room together and found Ye Li and Ye Jing coming.The former squatted in front of the TV, tinkering with some machine, while the latter greeted Gan Luan with a smile, "Yo."

Seeing Ye Jing was fine, but with Ye Li around, Gan Luan couldn't help asking, "What's the matter?" At the same time, Gan Lan behind him rushed out and squatted next to Ye Li: "What is this?"

Seeing Gan Lan, Ye Li's eyes lit up -- brighter than the diamonds on his mouth -- and he hooked his hand on Gan Lan's chin unconsciously: "Game console, my dear." He is doing metal products today. Dress up, and with an obsessed look, look like a hooligan.

Gan Luan kicked Ye Li away, "Give me a seat, thank you." He pulled two cushions, one for Gan Lan and one for himself: "Let me take a look."

The game console should have been brought by Ye Lixin, but there wasn't one in the apartment.The machine has been connected to the TV, and the game catalog is full of gaudy things. Gan Luan flipped through the disc brought by Fan Yeli again, and finally slid to a music rhythm game, and handed the handle to Gan Lan: "Come on, try it." The basic reaction ability is fine. Define the game area.Added another sentence: "Look at the symbols on the screen, you just press the button, it's very simple." Not long after the game started, Ye Li, who was howling and ignored, got up and yelled: "I'm so hungry!" Opened his mouth About to bite Gan Luan's shoulder, Gan Luan naturally wanted to hide, but he didn't know that the divine power came from behind, dragging him out of the battle range as soon as he retreated, and returned directly to the audience, only to see the back of Gan Lan rushing up , and the phantom of Ye Li being knocked down instantly.Ye Li rolled and rolled on the floor: "I was pushed down, woo woo woo, I don't care if you are responsible." The perpetrator, Gan Lan, knelt down obediently, put on an innocent suit, and followed the attacker Not like him, "This is God's punishment. If you don't bite my brother, nothing will happen." The speaker next to it also made a continuous "Miss" sound like thunder, accompanied by a noise like crackling fried beans , Gan Lan's first game "GameOver".Gan Luan returned to the battle zone, twisted Ye Li, the expression on his face didn't match his words at all, he narrowed his eyes as if he had eaten candy: "Why are you doing this?"

In order to heal Ye Li's wounded heart, they left Ye Li with the child, while Gan Luan and Ye Jing eloped upstairs.Gan Luan took out a photo album from the bookshelf, spread it out and said, "After about seven or eight years old, whenever I have a birthday, Bian You and I will take a group photo under this Ferris wheel. Collecting all the photos together, I found a person , in the shadows, he comes every year. Whether he is Gan Lan or not, of course we can't tell from just a few vague shadows, but I think it is."

Assuming that figure is Gan Lan, then every November 11th, Gan Luan, Bian You, and Gan Lan will appear in the same place at the same time. The first two take a group photo, and the remaining one is in the background. It's like having a ceremony.It is a habit to take pictures with Bian You under the Ferris wheel on birthdays, and if there is no accident, they will also go together this year.So, what about Gan Lan? ...There is no doubt that the vague shadow in the back should also be there.

Humans are obsessed with reenactment.You will hold on to familiar scenes and think they are of great significance; you will fall in love with similar people, groping and rolling in the emotional quagmire to repeat the same mistakes;

Ritual is the acme of reenactment, which can be called reenactment.Once the sense of ritual is formed, all behaviors are like laying the groundwork for the ritual.

"So, I think on his birthday, Bian You will be where he should be."

It was as if the "ritual" was calling Gan Luan, and his direction was like the calculated answer of a math problem, which was unique and definite.

"Then, what I'm going to do..." Ye Jing took the photo album, and suddenly moved aside with Gan Luan, his expression unchanged, but there was a fallen body in the place where they were just now.The body rolled on the ground: "Whisper and don't take me alone, and don't let me sneak attack, brother Jing, have you changed your mind?" Gan Luan patted Ye Jing: "My request is actually just that, Guarantee his safety, you can figure it out." After speaking, he stepped over the body, left the screams behind him, and went downstairs.

When Ye Li reappeared, he seemed to have been ransacked, the metal from head to toe was gone, and his weight could be reduced by about ten catties.The specially combed bangs also drooped, piled loosely on top of the eyebrows, and occasionally a few raised restlessly, dangling, like his people, stumbling.

"What's wrong with you, it looks like you just peeled off a layer of skin." Gan Luan said sarcastic words, his hands were not busy, and the villain Gan Luan on the screen dodged left and right leisurely, and then sent back a roundabout kick, throwing The villain Gan Lan flew into the sky, and was caught by the princess.The handle crackled, but Gan Lan's villain couldn't get away. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Gan Luan sneered and said, "You still want to run after taking my big move? You're already dead, watch out for this little pervert's lore."

The reason is that the two are playing a fighting game.The character played by Gan Luan has a special personality, his name is unknown, and he is nicknamed Yuan Yang, "little pervert".This little pervert looks like a dog, with blond hair and purple eyes, a small inverted triangle tattooed between his brows, half masked, a thin chain hanging from his right earlobe, and a black hollow inverted triangle frame hanging there.Inside is a white shirt with a raised neckline, a black vest and black trousers, black shoes and black gloves, and a black long windbreaker, revealing two white cuffs, and the cuff buttons are also black inverted triangles.The classic action is to pull the glove with the left hand to help the right hand, then sneer and shake the hand, the hem of the windbreaker flutters accordingly.This image, when I first saw it, gave people the impression of a cold and handsome guy, but when he entered the battle, he fell below the grand concept of philosophy in various ways. name.The little pervert is a playboy who doesn't care about meat and vegetables, and his lines are full of frivolous words to tease his opponents. When he sees a woman, he asks for marriage, and when he sees a man, he rapes him. He is also good at close combat. Blood also took advantage.Its operation is so difficult that it competes with his strength, making players hate and love it.Gossip aside, this little pervert's ultimate move is very worthy of its title. First, it kicks people into the sky with a flying kick, then gracefully jumps up from the princess to catch the opponent, and then spins to the ground. .This set of movements is not only good-looking, but also has a dizzy effect, so the villain Gan Lan can't escape.After landing, the little pervert will kneel on one knee, put down the immobile opponent, and let him lean on his thigh, with gentle and loving movements, like treating a deeply loved lover.At this time, the inverted triangle on his cuffs and hanging from his ears began to spin, and three black ropes sprang out of them, seeming to be alive, spinning around spontaneously, and tied up the opponent fancy-style in the blink of an eye.Then, the two triangles were butted together and connected into handcuffs, which circled the opponent's hands behind his back, and the remaining one turned into a collar and wrapped around the opponent's neck.After the success of this set of combos, the opponent fell into a controlled state again, kneeling on the ground, his eyes were lifeless, and there was nothing to love-the little pervert can continue his second-stage "attack" of lore, and he will single-handedly attack. Kneeling down on his knees, he picked up the collar in a gentlemanly manner to hook the person over, and gave him a deep kiss through the mask—the opponent consumed most of his blood.Basically, being able to operate and advance to this step is the end of a one-hit kill.

Sure enough, the villain Gan Lan on the screen was sucked dry by the last kiss of the little pervert, and died.Gan Lan threw away the handle, covered her face with her hands and rolled on the ground, like Ye Li, which made it hard to look at.Ye Li, who was stunned by the sidelines, rushed up and said reverently, "As expected of pervert Luan! I've never seen anyone who can complete this perverted big move! Please accept my worship!" After speaking, he was ready to lie down and roll.Gan Luan seemed to be used to Ye Li's teasing and teasing, so he didn't refute the perverted statement, instead he said with a smile: "Why did you even take off your nails? Doesn't that represent your supreme philosophical love? I vowed to bring you Is it something for a lifetime?"

Ye Li, who has lost her lip studs and ear studs, gives people a sense of incompleteness, like seeing ordinary people running naked.Ye Li probably wasn't used to it either, as he kept licking down while talking, he felt that his thin lower lip was so light that it could fly away at any time.He smiled bitterly and said, "I'm just talking." He answered perfunctorily.He asked again: "Your birthday is coming soon, how are you going to spend it? I heard from Ye Jing that you postponed this year's birthday party, so it will only be you and Gan Lan that day? How about it, do you want me to give you a birthday party?" Have fun?"

"What? What's the date today." Gan Lan, who was mopping the floor with her body, got up suddenly and rummaged on the sofa.Ye Li said, "You don't even know the date." Gan Lan didn't look up, "I only know today is Sunday." Ye Li shrugged: "It's a common problem among students." Gan Luan said, don't look for it, Today is the 9th.Gan Lan stopped, bowed her head and snapped her fingers, muttering something.Gan Luan replied to Ye Li, "No, thank you." Ye Li touched his empty earlobe, tilted his head and said, "You're welcome."

"Who is being polite to you?" Gan Luan threw the handle and walked to the kitchen: "I have a date that day, so don't bother you." Ye Li followed persistently: "A date? With whom? Take me!" Steadily Gan Luan who was walking forward couldn't help but stop, took a deep look at Ye Li, shook his head, ignored him, and continued walking forward.The spirit of questioning to the end often shines at this time, Ye Li stopped Gan Luan: "If you don't tell me, I laid a bed in front of your room the night before, and turned into a tail the next day, and followed you to the ends of the world... ..." Gan Luan couldn't help but say, "I'm dating my girlfriend. You want to come too?"

"What?!" Ye Li was very surprised. He retreated to the corner of the wall in three steps, squatted down, his face shrunk back, his double chins were drawn out, and his hands were pressed against the wall: "Girl, girl, girl, girlfriend!" Opening his mouth slightly , with a terrified expression, shrank into the wall with all his strength, as if he had been kidnapped.

It happened that Gan Lan rushed over: "What girlfriend?"

Ye Li pointed at Gan Luan, as if pointing at the heartbroken man: "Your brother has a girlfriend? Do you want to date her on her birthday?"

Gan Lan was stunned for a while, which showed that he didn't know about it. Seeing this, Ye Li acted more vigorously: "You just secretly got a girlfriend! Oh, wait, if that's the case, Gan Lan won't have a girlfriend that day." Are you free?" Gan Luan said, no, Gan Lan has to go to school.Then he laughed again, wickedly, what does it matter if I have a girlfriend, Gan Lan even has a wife, behind your back.

Ye Li shook her body: Really, really?Gan Lan ignored him.His hand shakes out a phantom: All of you, where is your conscience?

Gan Luan took advantage of the situation and acted like a rascal: "I have no conscience. Anyway, I'm going on a date with my girlfriend that day, Gan Lan is going to school, and by the way, I have a puppy crush. As for you——Ye Jing, you came just in time. Go back, I'm going to rest."

Dog legs can't beat the owner... In short, today Ye Li came in vertically and went out horizontally.Ye Jing didn't have a free hand, so he could only turn around and kick the door, leaving the two people in the room to slam the door shut.

"so."

Before she could take a sip of water, Gan Lan's chilly voice slammed into the back of her neck like an ice knife.Gan Luan put down the water glass, the mint leaves swayed lightly, a piece of green shadow swayed in the glass, and directly in front of him, in a blurred reflection, a piece of green also swayed.On the unclear mirror of the refrigerator opposite, his outline and a pair of eyes hanging over his shoulders were vaguely depicted.The broken blond hair is very flirty, not very clear, and the black and white pupils under the cover of the floating snow are clear, as if they want to penetrate.Those eyes caught Gan Luan's gaze, and he couldn't take his eyes off it.To reach this height, Gan Lan needs to stand on tiptoe... But it is obviously not the time to think about such details, because the cold touch from the back of the neck is real.

He felt the blade sliding, and the cool breath lingered in his ears: "So... brother, you don't see anyone every day, so you are going to fall in love?"

Taking a step forward, the blade and the person followed closely behind, just in an instant.He sighed: "Gan Lan, this knife is real."

A cold hand slowly covered his Adam's apple, he coughed, but didn't feel the strength of that hand, it seemed that it was just placed on his neck. "Is that so, brother?" Gan Luan only said, "Then let me turn around first." However, that hand slowly grabbed him, and he felt Gan Lan's leg passing over his side, and he He took a step to the right and turned around at the same time, so the back of the knife drew a circle around his neck.Almost at the same time, Gan Luan moved to the edge of the table, half leaning against the edge of the table, and Gan Lan moved along with him, as if dancing tango; one knee rested on the edge of the table, the right hand let the knife slide to the back of Gan Luan's neck, the other hand He also touched the back and surrounded Gan Luan with his whole body.Gan Luan felt that it was a little close, so he sat down on the table, Gan Lan crossed his other leg, put his arms around Gan Luan, sat on Gan Luan's lap, and knelt on both sides of the table——Anyway, Gan Luan didn't even think about moving. want to escape.

hot.Gan Lan's breath was cold, but her body was very hot.The entire lower body was pressed against Gan Luan's thighs, and the heat flowed continuously, as if passing on skills.No one has ever forced him to such an immobility state, the key is to use his legs... use his legs to fuck him!This feeling of powerlessness is like eating marshmallows and staining your face with syrup, sugar is nothing but a sticky face, it’s always uncomfortable, so you hesitate and struggle between continuing to eat and giving up, a good one Man, delirious at the mercy of a lump of marshmallow.

There is still a chance to escape, but Gan Luan is a little delirious now.He said, "Yes or no, what do you care about so much?"

Her thighs sank, it turned out that Gan Lan just sat down completely now.A slightly disappointed face faced Gan Luan.There is no curvature at the corner of the mouth, but it may have been bitten tightly before, so it looks abnormally bright red, and together with the light golden hair tail, it makes the person's skin pale.His eyes were downcast, and he seemed to be hurt—this must be an illusion—the knife on his neck was still holding on, and he was covered in heat.

This intonation is uncommon.Seemingly aggrieved, but also with madness: "If you don't tell me, I will always find her."

"Find her, and then what?" He asked, and at the same time felt a little wind from the hot knife, and it stopped on his neck again.

"Then—" Tilting her head, Gan Lan, who was lost in thought, suddenly brightened her eyes, and then rolled her eyes with a smile: "Of course I reasoned with her..." His smile disappeared, and he flew away like a water dragonfly. The moment when the water waves evenly spread out is also gone.His words were without warmth: "I want her to stop occupying you."

"Gan Lan." Hearing this familiar phrase, Gan Luan smiled slowly: This follower is a quick learner.He held Gan Lan's waist with one hand, pulled up one of his legs with the other hand, turned it over and smoothed it out -- this little thing is quite flexible -- and asked someone to sit sideways on his lap.Gan Lan was a little dazed, Gan Luan reached out and pinched his ear: "Go ask your teacher for leave, on your birthday, I'll take you out to play."

It seems that he has not realized what Gan Luan said.Gan Lan, with dull eyes, murmured, "No, I'm not going on a date with my girlfriend."

This idiot.Gan Luan pinched his other ear again: "That's a lie to him." Accompanied by a few low laughs.

"Kang Dang." Wen's knife on his neck finally fell to the ground, and he pulled his hands around him to the front, but saw a bloody mess.The heartbeat missed half a beat, and it seemed that the world was extremely quiet and empty for a moment, and then gradually calmed down by a burst of tinnitus.

"When did you cut your finger?!" Hysterical.

"I don't know." As if nothing had happened.

"You don't know? Do you think you can be acquitted if you don't know?!"

He grabbed Gan Lan, as if holding this guy in the palm of his hand, and stared at him, speechless - he was going crazy, he wished he could kill this little lunatic!But can't!want to kill!cannot!Let him die!But his death is my death!

Falling into frenzy, tyranny and obsession.Wanting him to die or want him to live is like waking up and falling into a dream.

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The direction signs have all entered the store, and someone who once boasted "because you are the plan" can't hesitate anymore and can only continue to follow up.He entered the store with Gan Lan, and found that the store was relatively clean, and there were too many people watching at the door. Although he was fully armed with a hat, sunglasses, and mask, it always made him uncomfortable to be alone in the crowd.