Feelings are just pediatrics

Chapter 23

Sijing thought about Xu Yan all night in the hotel room, with her naughty smiling face, the steady appearance of a young adult, and her coquettish and giggling face in her arms, as if everything was still in front of her eyes. It turns out it's all an illusion.

The heartache was unbearable, and tears poured out uncontrollably, crying and crying, and she gradually fell asleep again.

The next morning, Han Tong and his assistants staggered the morning peak to the hotel to pick up Sijing for training at another hospital. They arrived at the agreed time and waited for Sijing for a long time but she did not show up. Han Tong called her but no one came. Answering the call, with some doubts in his heart, he sent Xiao Cai in to find someone, but found that Sijing was blocked by someone.

Mr. Liu called a group of bodyguards in black to surround Sijing to block the security team of the five-star hotel, and he knelt down in front of Sijing again.

When I went back to the hospital to see the child last night, the dean who knew about the situation came to talk to him in person, and heard him say that he had talked with Dr. Lin, but after Dr. Lin said he could do nothing, the dean frowned and sighed: "If even Lin The doctor also said that there is no way, I am afraid no doctor can cure it."

This sentence made him realize the importance of Dr. Lin, so he sent someone to inquire about the hotel where she stayed.

Such a thing happened in the first ring, the hotel had no choice but to call the police, but the police saw the situation of the Liu family and chose to try to persuade Si Jing, who seemed to be inexperienced.

When Han Tong and the others arrived, they saw Sijing standing there with a dazed expression, watching the policeman "trench" her.

Such a big battle made Han Tong frowned, turned his head and whispered to his assistant to go forward to negotiate with the police, while he stood in front of the leading bodyguard and said, "Do you know me?"

The five big and three rough bodyguards stared at her, and then turned to look at the master kneeling in the encirclement. Han Tong said in an extremely cold tone, "I don't want the matter to continue to make trouble, so you let me go."

The bodyguard thought for a while, and finally turned sideways to let her into the encirclement.

Si Jing has never been exposed to such a thing, and his face is full of confusion.

When seeing Han Tong, Sijing's eyes lit up as if seeing a savior. The appearance of being bullied miserably made people feel pitiful. Han Tong walked over and held Sijing's hand tightly, and touched her little face comfortingly. Said softly: "Don't be afraid."

Then he turned his head and said to the policeman who was trying to persuade Sijing: "I know it's difficult for you, but Dr. Lin is not someone who can move in the Liu family, and she is not only a foreigner, but also a well-known doctor in the world. It will hurt no one if this matter spreads." benefit."

"But..." The police uncle hesitated to speak, Han Tong said in a very indifferent tone: "Miss Huang's people will arrive soon, if you don't take your people away, you will stand in the Liu family's team."

Hearing these words, the police uncle pondered for a while, walked out of the encirclement silently, and stood aside with his people to wait for orders.

Listening to the conversation like a boss, Sijing seemed to be in a fog. Seeing her cute expression, Han Tong sighed softly.

She should have been more vigilant last night, but she never thought that Liu would always do such an extreme thing. Fortunately, he didn't want to offend people to death, so he didn't do anything to kidnap people secretly.

The two sides stalemate for no less than half an hour. After wiping off the cold sweat of the general manager of the hotel dozens of times, an enchanting woman appeared with a group of people on three-inch high heels.

Sijing wasn't tall enough, and she didn't see the person until the tall and strong bodyguards sensibly let the enchanting woman into the encirclement.

Sijing looked at the dazzling woman in front of her with charming red phoenix eyes and stroked Han Tong's arm affectionately. Han Tong smiled gently at her and said softly, "Come here?"

Ms. Huang smiled lazily, narrowed her eyes with her smile, and said charmingly, "Well, what's the matter?"

Still kneeling, Mr. Liu looked up at her and said, "President Huang, I just want to save my son's life, please don't interfere."

"Rescue people?" Ms. Huang sneered, straightened her back, raised her index finger and twirled around, and asked, "Are you asking for help in this way?"

Mr. Liu clenched his cheeks tightly and just stared at Miss Huang without making a sound.

Ms. Huang sighed softly, bent down and pressed her hand on Mr. Liu's shoulder, and kindly persuaded like a big sister: "Xiao Liu, don't make it difficult for everyone, the people from the embassy are on the way, don't worry about it." Let things get out of hand."

Mr. Liu lowered his head and thought for a while, and finally stood up. After kneeling for a long time, the blood circulation was poor, and his whole face was wrinkled. He gritted his teeth and said to Sijing, "I really just want you to save my son."

Use this method of persecution.

Sijing sighed deeply in her heart. She didn't quite understand and digest such things, but seeing that this father was also extremely helpless, out of kindness, she wanted to have a detailed talk with Mr. Liu so that he could truly understand this matter. .

Han Tong was not at ease with her, and insisted on following them to the meeting room prepared by the hotel manager. Han Tong seemed to be very interested in this doctor, which aroused Mr. Huang's curiosity, and looked up and down thinking Jing took a few glances, and finally decided to follow for the sake of safety.

In the spacious meeting room, Sijing silently activated the borrowed computer, sat down and adjusted the height of the chair while waiting, and politely thanked the hotel staff who came to serve tea.

I typed the familiar URL on the keyboard, and quickly went to the official website of Hopkins. After clicking several times with the mouse, I found the page introduced by the staff. I entered my name to search the entire page, but the result was zero.

She picked up the notebook and handed it to Mr. Liu, asking him to double check that there was no such doctor in the hospital.

Mr. Liu searched again and again, and clicked on the webpage several times. After confirming that Dr. Lin was really not working at Hopkins Hospital, he looked at Sijing with a gloomy expression. Could it be that his information was wrong and he found the wrong person?

Impossible, even the dean knows this doctor, so it is impossible to make a mistake.

Seeing his doubts, Sijing slowly explained: "First of all, I want you to know that I resigned from Hopkins Hospital half a year ago, if you don't believe me, you can contact Hopkins Hospital to confirm. "

"Secondly, I want to say that the doctors at the Children's Hospital are highly skilled, and everything they do is what I can and can do." After watching Mr. Liu who was getting more and more depressed for a while: "My so-called powerlessness , means that I can't do much. In my opinion, your son's illness can continue to be followed up by this team, and the illness can be well controlled and a long-term self-discipline life can be started to bring his life back on track. Of course , There will still be some inconvenience, which requires the cooperation and support of family members."

"Third," Sijing swallowed with great difficulty, expressing his feelings for the first time: "I haven't picked up a scalpel for almost a year, maybe, maybe I won't be able to pick it up again in this life, Your child's life cannot be entrusted to a man whose hand shakes when he picks up a scalpel."

Self-disclosure of the wound made Sijing very depressed. Looking at Sijing's sad and lonely eyes, Mr. Liu finally nodded in confidence after a while.

Seeing that he finally obeyed, Sijing wanted to smile, but found that she couldn't do it, so she nodded to Mr. Liu with a sorry expression on her face, got up and left the conference room.

Han Tong also stood up and called Sijing's name, but she was obviously immersed in her own intense emotions and could not respond.

Seeing the door closed again, Ms. Huang stood up and nodded to the dejected Mr. Liu, and took Han Tong's hand and left.

With deep and shallow footsteps, Sijing finally returned to the hotel room, closed the door forcefully, leaned back against the door, tears that had been suppressed for a long time fell from his eyes, and Xiao Xuyan's figure flashed in his mind one after another.

"Mom, is this the right way to sew?"

"Mom, look! I know how to remove the stitches, am I a good doctor?"

"Mom, my left hand can't tie a knot, why can you..."

That lovely girl who likes to use needlework as a toy, chases after her every day to teach her suture techniques, and aspires to be a doctor.

Sometimes Sijing would think, if Xuyan knew that she could no longer be a doctor because of her relationship, would she be angry?

It's more sad, Sijing thought. My daughter must be very sad that her mother doesn't want to be a doctor anymore. She always proudly tells her friends that her mothers are amazing and save people in the hospital every day.

Her godmother Hongyu once asked Xuyan in front of Kaixuan, fearing that the world would not be chaotic: "Then you have two doctor mothers, who do you think is better?"

The little guy replied without hesitation: "Of course it is Sijing's mother. The newborn baby is so small, and the mother can perform operations on them, which is much better than the mother!"

Kaixuan's face darkened immediately after hearing this, Hongyu and the others' presumptuous laughter almost knocked the roof off.

Looking down at her hands through her tears, these hands were powerless to save any little life. She has been a doctor all these years, compared with the lives she saved, she remembers more clearly the feeling of life passing by in her hands.

Feeling powerless, lost in thought, living numbly day by day, using endless work to cover up the pain of losing many patients.

Many people become indifferent after working as surgeons for a long time, because they can't and don't want to get too close to patients, otherwise they can only watch them die when they are unable to treat them, and they will torture them to death.

They can only comfort themselves constantly. Birth, old age, sickness and death are the norm in the world, and they can only do their best.

It wasn't until she lost her beloved daughter that Sijing realized how pale these words were.

Xu Yan is still so young, she didn't even live past the first day of her sixth year.

The author has something to say: I'm going to find a tissue to wipe my tears~~

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival, continue to stick to the daily shift position, ask for points, flowers and thunder~~