Fanhua is gone

Chapter 119 Happiness is having you by my side

It wasn't until the clothes on his shoulders were wet that Lin Fan realized that this wasn't a dream. Shu Yan was really crying while holding him.

Lin Fan's mind went blank, what happened?Why is Shu Yan hugging herself and crying?

Does the toy need to comfort the owner?

Seeing that Shu Yan's body was trembling, Lin Fan felt a little uncomfortable. He raised his hand and patted his back, and said softly, "What's wrong with you? If you need me to do something, you can just say it... "

"Xiaofan...Xiaofan..." Shu Yan kept calling him, Lin Fan's heart was in a mess, so he interrupted him, "I didn't want to run away, you don't have to keep calling my name... "

"Xiao Fan, I'm sorry, can you forgive me?" Shu Yan raised his head, looked at Lin Fan and asked nervously.

Lin Fan was a little confused, and asked blankly: "Can you explain more clearly? I can't understand what you are talking about?"

"Xiaofan, Dr. Li told me everything. I misunderstood you. I'm sorry. I was so wrong this time. Can you forgive me?" She said it in ten words, and then explained that he didn't have any lover at all, and it was just a lie he made up to get revenge on Lin Fan. After he finished speaking, he looked at him expectantly and nervously.

Lin Fan looked at Shu Yan in a daze. Among the many words Shu Yan said, he heard the most clearly that he had no lover, that was just a lie. His already silent heart suddenly felt a little turbulent.

Seeing Lin Fan staring at him blankly, Shu Yan's heart sank slowly. What he did to Xiao Fan in the past two days was no better than a pig or a dog. He knew that he was neither qualified nor worthy to ask Lin Fan extravagantly. Forgiveness, he just hoped that Lin Fan would not push him far away.

He couldn't treat Lin Fan with the attitude of a passer-by who just watched from the sidelines. He wanted him, and wanted him like crazy. God knows how much he has deceived himself in the past three years, lying to himself that he would forget Lin Fan People in the bone marrow.However, that slender figure never left his heart. Whenever he was alone, Lin Fan's voice and smile would clearly appear in front of his eyes, making him want to fly back to S immediately. City, even if you rob him, snatch him back, then tie him by your side and don't leave for a moment!

But at the reunion between 'Xiwei' and Lin Fan, at that moment, Shu Yan knew that he had never forgotten this person. In the past three years, no matter how much he hated him, he still loved him, the loneliness and madness of love.That place in his heart will always be occupied by Lin Fan alone, even if Lin Fan once cut him there severely, he is still reluctant to throw away this person from the bottom of his heart, including that wound.

"Xiaofan..." Shu Yan's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and he called Lin Fan's name dryly, "I've been an asshole for the past two days, no matter how angry I am and how much I lose my mind, I shouldn't hurt you like that, you I can't forgive me now, it doesn't matter, I will spend my whole life to get your forgiveness... from now on, I will stay by your side, you can beat me and scold me, but Xiaofan, don't ignore me Okay? Don't push me away, okay?"

Lin Fan had been quietly looking at Shu Yan, and when Shu Yan was almost in despair, he suddenly said softly, "You just said that you have no lover?"

"Yes... I have a lover, and that person is the love of my life. Ever since I met him, I knew that I would only have him as a lover in my life!" Shu Yan looked at Lin Fan and said word by word. , eyes full of seriousness and affection.

Lin Fan's throat felt sore, it turned out that he had heard wrong just now, Shu Yan still met someone who was more suitable for him than himself, the bitterness in his heart gradually magnified, it turned out that he was really not the only one for Shu Yan.

Lin Fan turned his head slightly, and said with difficulty: "You love him so much, you will definitely be together forever..."

Reason told him that he should politely wish Shu Yan happiness, but the words of blessing were choked in his throat and he couldn't say it no matter what.Lin Fan looked at the light outside the window, and thought that he could pretend to be open-minded, but when it came to love, he was selfish after all, he only hoped that Shu Yan would love him.

He really couldn't open his mouth to bless Shu Yan's love with another person.

It's so sad, but in the end, I still can't be with this person I love so much. Maybe this is God's punishment for him, punishing him for letting go of the person who once loved him so much.

I let go of my hand, now what qualifications do I have to expect that love to come back again?

Shu Yan looked at Lin Fan in confusion, why did he feel like he didn't understand what he said?And it seems that he has misunderstood that his lover is someone else?Doesn't he know that the lover he mentioned, the love of his life is him?

"Xiaofan, you, did you misunderstand something?" Shu Yan asked tentatively.

Lin Fan didn't answer, so there's nothing to misunderstand, right?

Shu Yan stretched out his hand to hold Lin Fan's face, and then let him face him, his eyes met, Shu Yan said softly: "Xiao Fan, do you mean that people who are in love should be together?"

Lin Fan didn't know what he wanted to say, the affection in those deep eyes looking at him almost made him mistakenly think that Shu Yan still loved him.

Although his heart was so painful that he couldn't breathe, Lin Fan still nodded his head: "If you are in love but can't be together, that kind of pain will make you completely collapse... Since you love him, just stay with him well... I... I... ...I wish...I wish you..." After all, the words of blessing behind were still unable to be uttered.

However, the next moment, he fell into a warm embrace. Shu Yan's hands strongly encircled his body, but there was a trace of caution in his movements, as if he was afraid of hurting his body.

Lin Fan was a little at a loss, and stood there in Shuyan's arms.

"Xiaofan, you said it yourself, don't go back on your word, people who love each other must be together, so in this life, we must be together..." Shu Yan's voice was a little trembling, with a little choking.

Lin Fan was stunned for a long time, and finally understood what Shu Yan said just now. The heart that had been split into pieces seemed to be slowly closing, and he mustered up the courage to ask: "Shu Yan, you... the lover you mentioned ...is...is...me?"

"Fool, who else is there besides you?" Shu Yan hugged him and said, "You stole my whole heart, and I put my heart on you. Who do you think my lover will be?"

Lin Fan opened his mouth, unable to utter a single syllable for a long time.

Seeing that he was still in a daze, Shu Yan let go of his hands, grabbed his shoulders instead, stared at Lin Fan, and said affectionately: "I love you, Xiao Fan, from the beginning to the end, I love you. There is only you! These three years, although every time I think of you giving up our relationship, I wish I could grab you and tie you by my side to punish you, but my love has never changed a bit! In my heart there is only I have been in you alone, and my whole heart is beating for you! You have occupied that heart full, what do you want me to use to love others?"

"But...but...we met in 'Xiawei' two days ago, didn't you say that you have forgotten me? You also said that you have found a new lover?" Happiness came so suddenly, Lin Fan felt like It was a dream, so I still couldn't believe it and asked.

"Fool, at that time I thought you were with Chen Ying. I just wanted to make you angry and make you think that I could love others besides you..." Shu Yan scratched his nose, "Actually , what I want to know the most is, what kind of reaction will you have when you hear that I have a new lover? If you look sad, I will feel that I have not failed in a mess... At that time, I saw your My face suddenly turned pale, you don't know how much my heart hurts, but in order to pretend to be chic, I pretended to be very disdainful, that kind of feeling is really uncomfortable..."

Lin Fan was stunned for a while, suppressed his pounding heart, and asked nervously: "So, you, you... still love me?"

"Fool, didn't I just say that? I love you, I only love you in this life!" Seeing Lin Fan's wide-eyed expression of disbelief, Shu Yan gently pecked his lips and said, " Will you forgive me? Forgive me for hurting me these two days?..."

Finally realizing that Shu Yan still loves her, Lin Fan's pale and thin face showed a look of joy, his heart was beating fast, he stretched out his hands to grab Shu Yan's hand, and said eagerly: "Naughty doesn't hate you at all... ...Shu Yan, I love you, I love you...don't leave me again, okay? Shu Yan...I...I miss you so much...In the past three years, the most I have done is to miss you...we Can we be together in the future? Will we really not need to be separated in the future?"

"We won't be separated anymore, we will never be separated again..." Shu Yan held Lin Fan's trembling hand tightly, and said softly, "We will spend every day together..."

Lin Fan's eyes were red, and he looked at the affectionate person in front of him. The pain in his body these two days turned into sweet joy under Shu Yan's gentle gaze. Shu Yan still loves him, and they can really be together. Together!

Seeing Lin Fan's eyes filled with tears, his long eyelashes stained with a trace of moisture, trembling slightly because of his excitement, and his beautiful pair of Yan Jing staring at him without blinking, Shu Yan's heart overflowed. Filled with pity, she stretched her arms around his waist, pulled him into her arms, and said softly: "Xiaofan, thank you...thank you for still loving me...I thought you were hurt so deeply this time. , you will not forgive me easily, thank you for waiting for me..."

Lin Fan put his arms around Shu Yan's back, leaned into his arms, and said in a low voice: "I don't blame you, it was I who hurt you first, and you hate because of love... Do you know that, Seeing your indifferent eyes, I thought you didn't love me anymore. At that time, my heart was so painful and hopeless. Let's stop talking about the past, okay? We still have a long, long time to be together Stay together, this time, we will never let go of each other's hands!"

Shu Yan hugged Lin Fan tightly, this is the person he loves, gentle and kind, pure and clean, at the beginning he was deeply attracted by the extremely clean look in Lin Fan's eyes, he wanted to Protect this person with his whole life, so that his eyes will always have the clarity that is almost not stained with a trace of dust.

That year, they met and fell in love, but they really spent very little time together. After the initial love, they only spent a few short months together, and then they were separated for six years , reunited again, they still only spent more than half a year together, and then there was a sad parting.

This time, they will never let go of each other's hands easily.They have been separated for nine years, and that kind of heart-piercing miss almost swallowed them whole. Without the figure of the person you love by your side, loneliness is like a bottomless abyss, so deep that you can't see the bottom.

This love, after nine years of separation, has never changed. On the contrary, it makes them cherish each other more, because they have tasted the crazy longing and the heartache like a knife, and they know how to cherish and know how to love each other. What a blessing it is to have each other!

There is nothing that can separate them. In this life, they will hold each other's hands tightly and walk through those long years.

"Xiao Fan, we will get married when your health recovers. This time, I will definitely put a ring around you!" Shu Yan hugged Lin Fan and whispered in his ear.

Lin Fan's pale face was stained with blush, although he looked a little shy, but he nodded his head firmly, with blissful seriousness in his eyes, looked at Shu Yan and whispered: "I promise you..."