fallen star

Chapter 34 Goodbye, Chen Jiatong

After washing the dishes, I lay back on the sofa very weakly, and saw the WeChat message from my sister: "I have discussed with my parents for a long time, would you like to go home?"

Me: "I don't have a home anymore, where do I go back~" I didn't say angry words, it was my innermost thoughts

After a while, she replied to me: "It's not a solution for you to be outside alone. After all, you have no financial resources and lack the ability to live alone. I also talked to my parents. If you want to come back, you'd better come back. Bar"

I smiled wryly, "I'm not going to reply, save everyone looking at each other uncomfortable, there's no need for that, I'm fine by myself" Then I took a small video and sent it over

My sister didn't call me back, so I simply turned off the screen and threw it on the tea table to watch TV. Except for calls from Ouyang and Chen Jiatong, I would never answer them.

Sure enough, after about an hour and a half, Chen Jiatong really called

"how is it?" i asked him

He: "Not very optimistic, you listen to me first"

I didn't speak, he continued, "My cousin asked me to tell you, please forget about him~ and live well..."

This sentence was like a bolt from the blue to me, and I went crazy "What the hell, give him the phone and let him talk to me!"

"That...he's not here with me now..." His tone sounded very bad

"Which hospital? I'm going right now!" I ran to the door to put on my shoes

"You don't need to come, I can't see you anymore..." Even though he said that, I put on my shoes and slammed out the door. When I ran downstairs, I was shocked

He was sitting at the entrance of the corridor, still smoking

"What about people?!"

"It's gone~" His eyes were red and slightly swollen

This sentence gave me a heavy blow, I thought he was teasing me in a trance, I laughed, "Don't be kidding~ I'm already like this, you brothers still make such jokes...It's boring~"

He shook his head and said, "Wake up! Cousin is really gone! I'll never see you again! No more!" He cried while talking, "It's this time, the reality is in front of you You have to admit it!"

I couldn't help myself from laughing, "I don't believe it, the joke should be done in moderation~" As I spoke, my nose became sore, and tears flowed out

"Let me take care of you in the future, don't reject me anymore~" He got up and was about to hug me, I backed away two steps away

There's nothing in my head right now, just a buzz and a blank

When I got home, I went straight to the room, put the quilt that was drying on the bed, didn’t bother to pull the curtains, took off my clothes and got into the quilt to wrap myself tightly

I heard Chen Jiatong's footsteps getting closer, he walked to the bedside

"You go out first, I'm so sleepy, let me sleep" I still can't accept this fact, my brain hasn't reacted yet, I just want to sleep very dull

"People are people. Some people can be separated while they are still alive. Don't keep thinking about it when you are gone. I hope you cheer up..." After finishing speaking, his footsteps gradually became smaller until they disappeared.

Woke up in a daze, it was already dark outside, I got out of bed, wrapped a pajamas and went to the living room, Chen Jiatong fell asleep leaning on the sofa

There was still beer on the dining table that hadn’t been touched during the day. I sat there and opened a bottle. My mind is still dazed and it hurts, and it hurts even if I move a little. Can't make me accept the reality of Ouyang leaving like this

"Stop drinking!" I turned my head, it turned out that Chen Jiatong woke up

He walked over in small steps, snatched the wine bottle from my hand, and put it on the dining table.

"what……"

"Don't drink!"

"I... I'm thirsty~" I was about to take it, but he held it down

"Cousin is gone, if I don't do something... you will fall in love with someone else sooner or later..." He swallowed his saliva, and then attacked my mouth

I have no strength to resist, my whole body is held down by him, let him kiss my lips wantonly, and his tongue get into my mouth to plunder, I can only silently wait for him to be satisfied

Suddenly my body lightened up, and I was picked up by him and walked towards the room. I looked at him, but he didn't look at me, "Tonight, just let me be your man~"

This time it was very sudden, I was not prepared at all, although he is not as good as Ouyang, but it is also very painful, I do not blame him, I hope I will not owe him anything after tonight

"Come home with me~" He washed me while saying, "You can't do it alone, you're so lonely"

I smiled wryly, "It's New Year's Eve soon, you can go back tomorrow, I'm fine by myself"

"Why? Haven't we already...? Why don't you go back with me, you have no place to go, why not come with me..."

I shook my head, "You think too much, I just don't want to owe you anything," changed my tone, and continued, "The two of us, don't you owe each other?"

He gave me a wall-dong and started kissing me again, this time, instead of passively accepting it, I responded with the same passion

After four or five minutes of kissing, he slowly let go

"Even if you are like this, even if you C me ten times or twenty times, I will not resist, but we are not a couple, we are not a couple, at most, we are friends with benefits!"

He was stunned, and then said lightly, "You have changed~" After finishing speaking, he dried himself and went out

When I finished washing and came out of the bathroom, Chen Jiatong was not in the living room, and the door of the guest room was closed

When I got back to the room, my phone showed that Chen Jiatong had sent me a long WeChat message:

——Cousin left at noon today, euthanized, my sister-in-law was forced to sign, take good care of you is the last thing my cousin told me, unfortunately I can’t fulfill his last wish, I’ll just sleep here for one night, tomorrow morning I will leave, I will forget you, I will become a normal person, and I will not come to Nanchang again. From now on, your sinister children and daughters have nothing to do with me. I also hope that you can forget me and live well. I'm so thankful you finally found the right way to get rid of me, goodbye~

I replied "Yes", and what caught my eye was a red exclamation mark

It was late at night, I was sitting on the window sill of the room with a glass of wine, looking at the neighborhood downstairs, the sporadic stars under the light snow turned into water when they landed, so that the street was trampled dirty, but there were still sporadic Scattered people are on their way, some are rushing to tomorrow, some are chasing after death

I opened my eyes again, and I was still sitting on the window sill. I recalled that I drank too much wine last night, and fell asleep directly leaning on the window sill. I suddenly felt that my whole body was cold and my head was dizzy. It must be a cold.

Wrapped in pajamas and left the room, the door of the guest room was open, and the quilt was neatly spread, the new day was gloomy, and the idea of ​​committing suicide became more and more intense

I found a thermometer in the living room and measured it. It was [-] degrees. I wanted to laugh, why didn't I just freeze to death, and made me even more sad

When I went out, I found a nearby pharmacy, bought some medicine and returned home, poured some boiling water back into the room and hid in the bed. I saw the withered plants on the table that smelled like sunshine. I was curious. Take it and search it on Baidu

I asked what it was called several times, but unfortunately Ouyang didn't tell me until he left. Now I finally know, but he is gone

To be honest, I have thought many times that suicide is not without reason. Now that I have nothing left, it is better to die than to die

Suddenly the phone rang, it was Song Qi's girlfriend calling

"Hey~ what's the matter?"

"The results of the entrance exam are out today, how did you do in the exam? Did you check it?" She asked me

What, I'm living in a trance, I don't know that the results of the entrance examination will come out

"I haven't checked yet, how are you doing in the exam?" Actually, I don't bother to check, and now I don't care about this matter anymore

"Uh... not bad, the best candidate in the studio exam is probably Chen Jiatong, more than 90, awesome!"

"Okay, let me check, let's talk later~" After finishing speaking, I hung up, using the check score as a cover, but in fact it was because I was not interested in continuing the chat

Click on the art student joint entrance examination result query page on the official education website, enter my candidate number and the end number of my ID card, and my score will come out, more than 7000, haha, garbage life and garbage scores are a perfect match, but it doesn’t matter, I don't need to please anyone with grades anymore

Thinking back to last night, did I really say something wrong?Isn't this the result I want?how?It's here, but it's not what I expected...

My sister sent me a WeChat message again, asking where I was in Nanchang, and she said he had already arrived in Nanchang

"Oh, I'm fine by myself, I'm alright~" I sent him the listless selfie I took yesterday

"Am I still your real sister? You don't welcome me when you come to see me?" Looking at the line, I was also very contradictory, but I was running a fever

In desperation, I still sent her the WeChat location

After more than half an hour, my sister arrived, told her which floor she was on, opened the door and stood waiting for her at the door, and dressed specially to pretend to be normal

Hearing the sound of the elevator door opening, my sister appeared at the corner with fruit and a bottle of whiskey in her hands

"Haha Fan'er, long time no see~" She waved the whiskey in her hand and said, "Your sister doesn't have any hobbies either, so don't be disgusted~"

I laughed, this feeling is so kind, I took the things in her hand, and said, "Where is the outsider, you are also home and the bar can't satisfy you~"

"This house is quite big, the decoration is not designed by you, is it?" she asked

"How could it be me~ I didn't even know there was this house at that time~" I fell silent while talking, and my sister also understood

"Uh...you...boyfriend has good taste~" She smiled awkwardly, "Your sister and I don't know how to cook, why don't you order takeaway at noon?"

I was at home before, and I was the least able to live. My sister, although she has been working in the society for several years, still can’t turn on the gas. I can cook noodles or fried rice with eggs.

"Well, there are some leftovers in the kitchen, how about I make fried rice with eggs?"

My sister laughed, "Okay, it's been a long time since I ate your egg fried rice? I still remember at home, I drank until midnight and came home, and you always wanted to cook me an egg fried rice haha"

I smiled and gave her a blank look, "You are ashamed to say that being your younger brother is really tiring. You, as an older sister, will not teach me to study hard, but only teach me to drink and smoke..."

The leftovers in winter are really hard, and you have to heat them in the rice cooker first. I was still busy in the kitchen, and my sister yelled in the other room, "Wow, this is a photo of you and your boyfriend~"

I ran over, and she was standing in front of the bedside table in Ouyang's room, holding a photo of me and Ouyang in her hand, and said, "Your boyfriend is very handsome~"

"Ah...it's okay~" I smiled slightly

"What about other people?" My sister looked a little curious, "Pull me over and let my sister meet you?"

I'm silent, my heart hurts

"By the way, how old is he?"

"It will be 29 years later, [-]~ for the time being." I held back my nose and didn't feel jealous

"Wow, the age difference is a bit big~" My sister slammed her mouth

I still couldn't hold back the pain in my heart, and said, "It's okay, I can catch up with him in another ten years~" After speaking, tears rolled in my eyes unsatisfactorily

My sister said she wanted to go back, so I told her to stay here for one night to accompany me. There were two layers of blankets on the balcony, and I sat on the balcony with her and a small table to drink. I drank a lot. When I was at home, the bomber , Sham Shui, I drank all of the Third Plenary Session, I also drank the [-]% pure alcohol eaux-de-vie, none of those were as good as today's drink, I was as drunk as a lunatic

"I'm right! I'm right!...Who wants you...to like...me...I've never...never wanted to...don't be with me...pretend...pretend to be pitiful...take me for...what, Bailian ...flowers??"

I don’t know these words. My sister told me the next morning. I drank more than half of that bottle of whiskey by myself, and then the words were broken after I finished speaking. My sister didn’t understand. I was talking to Chen Jiatong. even though he can't hear