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Chapter 8 6. Touching Yue

... "

Xuan Feng smiled.

"Where can I see the end of the world, it's good for me to disappear slowly like now."

"no!"

Haruhiko's eyes were firm.

"Then you come to absorb my life! My recovery power is very fast, and there are too many 'spirits' to run out. You prolong your life and live well. In exchange, you have to accompany me to the south, how about it?"

"I had to keep getting closer to achieve my goal..."

"Then... isn't it just right?"

"You...do you treat everyone like this? If you continue like this, you will encounter a lot of trouble when you leave the forest."

"No, it's not, but I don't think you are bad. I don't know why you belittle your own thunder and darkness. I think they are very powerful. And, I believe we can get along well."

"...how did you see it?"

"Bad people can't say those words! I can feel them!"

Haruhiko said while patting his chest.

"We are the same!"

"Little devil... I don't really like being ignored. After I follow up, you can't go back on your word..."

"no problem!"

His serious appearance made "Haruhiko" cover his heart. When he met his shrunken self, he suddenly felt a little ashamed and paled in comparison. What is he?He is the kind of light that deliberately reveals half of it from the dark, an ugly soul hiding under a virtual mask, but he, Haruhiko, obviously can't laugh, but he can speak out his inner thoughts directly, without any scruples, without any hesitation. Without hesitation, he directly resembled the pure Bai Yang.Where is the distance between them?Can't say it...Having a vague understanding, "Qing Yan"'s heart was beating, but with a jerky pain, he was thinking about what Yin Shu asked him.

"It doesn't matter if... it becomes me?"

Same face, different face.

Yin Shu, Haruhiko, "Haruhiko"?

All of this...why did it change?

"Haruhiko" is forced to become a spectator, no longer participate in these stories, no longer talk to people in memory, the whole world seems to have forgotten him.He was in the deep under the cool of the dense forest, he was in the moonlight, and in the stories that Xuan Feng told Qing Yan with a slight smile.

He is no longer Haruhiko.

The Haruhiko here is the child with a serious face who is growing up day by day.

And he was just a phantom that stayed at the age of 14, and no one could find him.

He is a symbol, "Haruhiko".

In a sunny day, it was quiet for a moment.

He really hopes to be found in the dark, he doesn't want to be a fish diving in the mud, he just wants to fly high in the blue sky, spread his wings, show everyone that he has lived, and let everyone live a good life together... But he is colorless, the snow that is ridiculed by others and forgets its own color has clean white, but he is transparent and alive, the walls in his illusion are all the color of glass, but what about himself?Through the colorful light of the colored glaze, the world became more and more beautiful in his eyes, but no matter what he did, he couldn't go beyond the colored glaze.

He once caught the cold rain with his hands, not wanting the coldness to disturb the two children, but the rain ruthlessly passed through and hit Haruhiko's hair. They endured a little bit, and "Haruhiko" felt even more sad. He hoped that there would be a story with him in it. "Haruhiko" curled up under the plantain, the rain didn't stop, his feet were slippery, Xuanfeng and Haruhiko had a heated conversation not far away, and saw a stone being crackled in the heavy rain, he was numb for a while, then stretched out his hand to block the stone Rain, though useless, will be happier.Seeing Xuan Feng approaching, he thought he was going to do something, but Xuan Feng folded the banana leaf on top of his head when he couldn't see him, and together with Qingyan covered the heavy rain, the two walked forward unimpeded in the wind and rain, "Qingyan" silently Looking at their backs, he was suddenly not sure if he could still catch up.

But he will still catch up, definitely will catch up...

In the baptism of the storm, he braved the cold to go up, his blurry clothes were not wet, but cold, "Haruhiko" chased after him, but he didn't dare to chase, afraid of running too fast, he rushed to Xuanfeng Haruhiko In front of him, he couldn't say anything, and they walked straight through as if through the air, so he slowed down, followed their shadows, and faced the pouring rain alone.

Look to the sky again.

What did the sky give him?

"Haruhiko" thought it would go on like this forever, forgetting his own reasons and being a ghost in this world, watching other people's hilarity and giggling, but day after day, the situation changed easily. In this world, Qingyan and Xuanfeng were in the south During the daily investigations under orders and the confrontation with "Miasma", Shiba finally asked him to go back.

Then "Haruhiko" saw the original Du Yu-Heqing, and saw the beginning of the story.

Everything started to get intense and weird.

He looks very immature, with a young and shy smile on his face, saying that his family has predicted that there will be a catastrophe about "Miasma" according to the guidance of the branch of the mother tree, and the only one who can save everyone is Haruhiko, only he can defeat "Miasma" in a rainy day, so other clansmen paved the way for Haruhiko, and Heqing came to look for him.

Xicheng didn't believe it at first, and even used pseudonyms for his two sons during the introduction, but he didn't use them himself. With his strength, even if his real name was known, he wouldn't be a threat.

"Eldest son Jiang Zhaihe, second son Jiang Weihan."

Haruhiko in the front and Dipo in the back.

When Xicheng saw Xuan Feng, he was still stunned, because he didn't call Xuan Feng, and he would never expect this child to appear in front of him again, because he hated the thunder that caused the forest fire, and hated the darkness that corroded the roots of the plants, so it was very easy. Don't call him anymore, as time goes by, the child disappears by himself.He didn't expect to be picked up by Haruhiko, and he didn't prepare a practical name for him.

Xuan Feng was held by Qing Yan, at that time Qing Yan's hand tightened, and Xuan Feng spoke for Qi Cheng.

"It's okay, don't introduce me, I'm not important."

He Qing was quiet for a while, then began to laugh and say:

"I know your real names, Haruhiko, Di Po, Xuan Feng, these are all the pictures I saw in advance."

"Then why don't you say your real name?"

He Qing was a little embarrassed when asked by Qi Cheng, he touched the back of his head and said:

"My strength is not enough to have a real name. I only have the name Heqing now."

He began to introduce the principle of foresight. Their family can spy on the secrets of heaven. He said that the fate of all people together looks like an astrolabe, and the future of each person is a tree. The tree has a trunk and branches. The family found the brightest star to resolve the "Miasma" crisis, found Haruhiko's existence, and saw his "future".Moreover, Heqing himself was finally able to check the big fate point, and saw that the adult Haruhiko had indeed blown away the "miasma" in the sky during the storm, smiled in the rain, the sky receded from the haze, and glowed with white light.He said that he knew their real names because he saw a small dot.

Qi Cheng was dubious, and after receiving the order from the mother tree, he asked He Qing to stay in the forest.

At that time, Haruhiko smiled happily.

Because although he has the mission to go to the south, in fact he is dealing with "Miasma" by Xuanfeng, his ability is very weak, and he has too many "water souls" to use up, but he can't do actual attacks. After his teammates, all he can do is to bear the pain instead, or make blessings that he doesn't know if it will be useful.Gradually, Qingyan watched Xuanfeng release thunder during the day and cast shadows at night. At the same time, Xuanfeng was more vigilant than himself. It was obviously Xuanfeng's time at night, but during the day, Qingyan seized the attack without paying attention. The "Miasma".At that time, Haruhiko was standing under the city gate, leaning on the gray stone wall. The strong light made the place where he was too dull, and he didn't know what kind of emotion flashed in his eyes. He just witnessed everything, and then held it with both hands. , Bless Xuanfeng for his success.He was the one who got Xuan Feng's favor from the very beginning...With this kind of mood, he certainly wouldn't want Xuan Feng to get hurt so that he could have a chance to play. It’s just that it’s treatment, and I’ll bear it silently to reduce my sense of incompetence. Anyway, it’s not good to talk about it at this time. He doesn’t want Xuan Feng to think too much... “Qing Yan” saw Qing Yan often sitting on the city wall, looking at him like himself. Watching the flying bird spread its wings, it seems that it is about to leave the distance, and it is easy to jump up and drift away.

But when he closed his eyes, a stream of light passed by, and his eyelashes trembled slightly, "Haruhiko" thought, they were all dreaming of a distant dream.

It's the same until today, Haruhiko couldn't smile, Xicheng said that it was because of some flaws in his face, he couldn't make an expression, then Haruhiko tried to make up for it, he couldn't smile anymore, so he used his eyes to convey more sincere emotions, with you When watching, tell you how much he cares, and his words become more straightforward, almost to the point of directly holding his heart in front of his face and showing it to others.Exposure to the scorching sun, the inside and outside are the same in the scorching heat, he is in the dense forest, he is on the tree that Xuan Feng loves.

Xuan Feng was disappointed that he was not given a name, so he found the most complete dictionary to find the most suitable description for him.

"Xiaoxuan, how about 'Micro Birth Blossom'?"

"...Why this name?"

"'Weisheng' is the main character in a book I read, and I like him very much."

"...What kind of person is he?"

He has no expression, but his moves are particularly bright, and his tone is also very brisk.

"A very handsome man!"

Xuan Feng laughed lightly, sitting on the branch with Qing Yan couldn't help shaking his legs, Qing Yan looked at it very seriously.

"Xiaoxuan, please smile more!"

"why?"

"...Well, because I can't laugh by myself, I like to watch others laugh, because that makes me so happy that I'm about to laugh. And Xiaoxuan, you don't like to laugh, unless I tickle you, obviously you laugh Super nice!"

Xuan Feng put his hand on the back of Qing Yan's hand, moving Qing Yan away made him feel a little embarrassed.

"...Please continue to say the meaning of 'Chenhua', I want to know."

"It's not easy! Because you have the most beautiful stars in your eyes!"

"is it?"

Ask knowingly.

"Of course, Chenhua, Chenhua, Chenhua!"

"...You should call me by my real name. I am suddenly not used to this kind of name I chose on purpose..."

"Xiaoxuan is shy?"

Xuan Feng lowered his head and bumped Haruhiko with his elbow.

"Haruhiko" was under the tree, smiling slightly, suddenly the surrounding scene became unreal, his figure became transparent and distorted, "Haruhiko" saw his palm again, then raised his head in confusion.He suddenly stood in front of Haruhiko again, but the background changed, his head felt dizzy, Qingyan and Xuanfeng were leaning against the white wall, Haruhiko was closer to the door, and inside were Dipo, Qicheng and Heqing, talking about him.

everything is so weird...

"That kid has a weird personality, but his 'Spirit of Water' feeds a lot of plants, and he is usually obedient, but he is a little overactive. But all in all, I still like this kid."

"This guy stared at me the first time we met, and he was not in a hurry to leave when he had a task. I couldn't figure out what he was thinking. But he would give me a lot of gifts every year at the party, and several times he only watched in the dark. He wanted to talk but was afraid of disturbing me, he was dazed and stupid, running around behind his wooden-faced guards, unable to tell who was the master. Hmph... But I can't say I hate him."

"I think he, Haruhiko, is a gentle person. Although it seems easy to be misunderstood by others at first glance, it is not up to him to decide. It is painful for him to have no expression. Haruhiko is... the savior I imagined Same, very good, very good."

Just listening to this, Qingyan was so happy that he was about to dance, both Xuanfeng and "Qingyan" could see the happiness in his eyes, and then Xuanfeng pulled Qingyan up and ran across the long corridor, the sound must have disturbed the room The three of them, but "Harehiko" still stopped at the door, watching them with a silent smile and never disturbing them.

"I also feel good about you, you always encourage me to move on, thank you..."

When "Haruhiko" followed them to the top floor of the attic, Xuan Feng was saying these words, and for the first time an expression appeared on Haruhiko's fading face, and finally coincided with "Haruhiko", they did that with tears in their eyes, The corners of his mouth were slowly raised, although he was still a little blunt and young, but he announced his feelings in the sunlight while sobbing.

"They're all too gentle...Everyone around me is so gentle, how can I keep being jealous like this. Stupid Xiaoxuan, as for me... I'm actually not as good as you say, I'm very capable. Weak, I am not sure whether I can fulfill the prophecy you said, I am timid and indecisive, I have a lot to say but dare not say, my judgment and reaction are not as good as yours. But you have always believed in me and felt I'm fine like this...Actually I...Actually I..."

His face was covered with tears, and he cried in a mess in the scorching sun during the day.

"Actually, I want to be all of you! I wish I had Dipo's strength, his decisiveness and killing, I wish I had Heqing's gentleness and elegance, I wish I could smile at any time like Qicheng, and you... Xiao Xuan, I want to be like you, to be a steadfast person."

"Haruhiko" cried with Haruhiko, and he gradually understood the reason.

"I want... to be someone who can stand in front of you."

/"I want...to be someone who can stand in front of you."/

"Haruhiko" cried and laughed, the light and shadow changed dramatically in an instant, the wind kept pushing the clouds forward, and he wiped away his tears, and saw another inexplicable scene, at this time Heqing became Duyu, but he was still not that indifferent , he knelt in front of him, kowtowing and apologizing non-stop, while Haruhiko from the other life was in the dark, with a knife stuck in his abdomen, the blood dried up, and he didn't speak.Du Yu said "I'm sorry." He said that he didn't expect all the consequences, and he didn't see the ending of Haruhiko. In the end, Haruhiko defeated "Miasma" in the rain with a sword. How did he defeat it?

Haruhiko became a "miasma".

He laughed and then cried again, the sky full of "miasma" poured into his back, he gradually couldn't tell who he was, couldn't tell what he wanted, but he saw Xuanfeng and the others on the other side, and Qingyan While crying and laughing, he keeps committing suicide and reincarnating. In every life, every life... only he alone bears the "miasma", severe pain, and different feelings of pain, but it cannot be said...

"Please wait for me! I want to overthrow the main body! Find a future where you won't die!"

As Du Yu said, Haruhiko coughed up dark blood, and he finally gradually became what he wanted, and said to Du Yu with a smile:

"...Don't cry, Xiaodu. Don't we have a future?"

"Haruhiko" suddenly had a severe pain in his head, a feeling of pulling in made him want to vomit, his phantom began to twist again, and then he was facing Qingyan in the blood dripping, black-haired Yin Shu, white-haired Yin Shu Shu, Haruhiko with black hair, Haruhiko with white hair, countless masks left behind in the broken white hole in the sky, crackling like rain, already a symbol of "Haruhiko" fell to his knees in pain, only a smile left But the mask shattered in front of him, and the face covered by his five fingers was crying.

Suddenly it was hard to tell whether it was Haruhiko or "Haruhiko".

Like Dipo, like Duyu, like Qilong, and like Xuanfeng.

The scene was Dipper standing in front of him again.

Who used the crying voice of a teenager to say to protect everyone and stand in front?

Dipper's smile remained the same, he looked back and said:

"Then wait until you are strong enough not to be hurt by anything, and then stand in front of me..."

Dipo, Xuanfeng, Qicheng, Duyu...

The four of them walked towards the "Miasma" without hesitation, and they fell on the ground helplessly. This is wrong. It is different from the prophecy. Why are they protected?Why did I still only learn the surface?Why can't you even protect your own family?He didn't want Haruhiko to be like this, crying and crawling forward on the ground, his fingernails were full of blood and mud, he was clearly still alive... If that's the case, please use it a little more...

"I want to be Duyu, I want to be Qicheng, I want to be Dipo, I want to be Xuanfeng, I want to be strong, I want to be able to stand in front of them, and then say 'it doesn't matter'..."

He pounded the ground, and Yin Shu's familiar voice sounded.

"It doesn't matter if... it's me?"

Childish and young voices sounded together.

"Ah."

He smiled.

Flesh and soul were reunited, and that day Qingyan's empty heart finally made up a little bit, his glazed wall was broken by himself, he is Haruhiko, also "Qingyan", he found the reason and satisfaction for him to laugh, no need Then spread your hands wide and imagine yourself as a bird, and now you can spread your wings.

How to defeat "Miasma"?

As long as... be desperate and become a "Miasma".

"Haruhiko!"

"Haruhiko!"

Countless shouts grew more urgent, it was Dipper.It was Xuan Feng.

Haruhiko's hands were dyed black and red, turning into dragon claws, he broke free from the worm pile with a smile.

"Yin Shu, I have a second wish. I want to tolerate all their pain like I did in my first life."

He smiled, and the injuries of the four people present gradually disappeared. Haruhiko felt the pain in his body, but he was happy in his heart. It wasn't that he was abnormal enough to rejoice over these pains, but that he realized his original speech once again.

"I want to be like everyone..."

Why is he always crying? The family members he recognized were not hurt, but the tears were hot. He turned to face "dirty" - this clever "miasma" of Samsara Middle School, how to save it?How do you want to become your ideal appearance, what do you want, stand in front of them, and then say calmly: "It doesn't matter."

He can become "Miasma".

That can naturally become "dirty".

Since the hunger will not let him go, then, let's bite the enemy.

"...Even if you become me, it doesn't matter?"

"It doesn't matter."

Haruhiko said with a smile.

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Some things are simply unstoppable.