escape from the world

Chapter 29 Once

Memories are indeed painful, tearing the flesh and tearing the bones, and you have to press your head to let you accept it.

Nie Shi remembered everything that Fang Chen had forgotten.

The relationship between Nie Shi and Fang Chen was not particularly good after their reunion in junior high school. They had good friends with each other, and they were not in the same class. At most, they greeted each other when they met, and Fang Chen took the initiative every time.

It's just that seeing Fang Chen being beaten, Nie Shi couldn't help but give him a hand.There is no reason, I just feel that there is still a little bit of similarity between them.

The fights in junior high school were not just caused by those gangsters, Fang Chen's mouth also caused trouble.The group of gangsters were all tall and burly, Fang Chen was the shortest among them, danced the most happily, and yelled loudly.Nie Shi fought several times, Fang Chen was a little thoughtless in his speech, he only knew how to solve the problem with his fists blindly, when Nie Shi gave him advice, he turned his head and forgot that he was beaten all over his body.

It's all boys and no one owes anyone. He won't fight for Fang Chen every time, so he doesn't care about Fang Chen anymore.

In fact, they have no similarities, Fang Chen is straightforward, and Nie Shi keeps everything in his heart.The two of them should never have been together.

Later, Nie Shi dragged Fang Chen and asked him, "Do you have to fight like this to be happy?"

Fang Chen responded: "Actually, that's fine, it's refreshing, I'm most afraid of making small moves behind the scenes." He pouted, "It's kind of annoying."

Nie Shi knew that Fang Chen said that on purpose, so he let go and left without saying "I see".

They couldn't understand each other's behavior, and they avoided each other as much as possible after they met.

And the reason why Nie Shi took care of Fang Chen was because of Fang Chen's "I'm sorry" sentence when he was a child.That was the first time he heard someone apologize to him.

He was transferred from another orphanage to Fang Chen and the others - because someone reported that the orphanage abused children.

Nie Shi knew from a very young age that children should not interrupt when adults talk, and would be beaten if they didn't get it right, so he was used to being misunderstood and not explaining.What adults believe, what a child says is wrong and will be beaten. He hates the smell of blood in his mouth, and it hurts when he eats candy.

It's just that some things won't just end like this, and he will get back little by little who bullied him.This is what he learned in that orphanage.

There was a child who threw Fang Chen's stationery all day long, and Fang Chen knew how to question him face to face as if his head was missing, while Nie Shi threw all the stationery of that person into the pond.

In the end, the child decided that Fang Chen did it. Fang Chen was stunned, and Nie Shi stood behind him and asked calmly, "Do you have any evidence?" The blocked child was speechless.

No one knew he did it, not even Fang Chen.

He rots all by himself.

Sometimes Nie Shi wanted to drag Fang Chen in, but in the end he stopped.He and Fang Chen are not the same kind of people, and it is good for each other to stay away as soon as possible.

At the end of the second year of junior high, Nie Shi's adoptive mother suddenly became pregnant, and it was said that she was still a son. A boy in the class who liked to trouble Nie Shi joked, "Oh, Nie Shi, your mother doesn't want you?"

They don't know anything, they only know how to hurt others with words.

In order to build a good relationship with his family, Nie Shi has been careful to maintain good grades.He likes basketball but rarely plays it, likes guitar but doesn't learn it.Seeing Fang Chen running around on the playground was angry, passing by the classroom and seeing Fang Chen dozing off was still angry, and even more angry when he was observing Fang Chen himself all the time.Such a dark person, he himself despises.

That boy couldn't understand Nie Shiya, he spoke coldly and girls sought after the teacher and praised him, and he talked about Nie Shi's life experience more than once.

When the anger accumulated to a breaking point, Nie Shi pushed the man to the ground, his eyes darkened. At that moment, he really wanted to kill him.

Fang Chen came out of nowhere, and rushed over, throwing him to the edge of the podium to cover his eyes.Nie Shi felt that Fang Chen was trembling, that the heartless and accustomed boy would actually be afraid, he wondered what was so scary, Fang Chen clearly dared to provoke a gangster who was a head taller than him.

Fang Chen trembled, his palms were sweaty, and rubbed Nie Shi's eyes.Nie Shi was still a little uncomfortable when the palm left, Fang Chen was really scared because of the look in his eyes.

Fang Chen threw himself hard enough, his elbow was scratched, and he sat on the floor stupidly, crying suddenly.

Afterwards, everyone gradually forgot about this incident, but they still remembered Fang Chen's shocking cry.It really hurts when a naughty and good-looking boy cries.

The boy kept talking and cursing after being helped up.

At that time, Nie Shi was so full of thoughts about why he was crying that he didn't even hear the boy's words.

Fang Chen didn't know why he was crying, but when he saw Nie Shi's eyes, he was flustered and scared, followed by grievances.

Why did they force Nie Shi like this.

He knew how hard Nie Shi worked. In order to get the first place in the grade, he turned on the lamp to study at night, and the library would turn off the lights before going back to the dormitory. In order to please his uncles and aunts, his parents would force himself to laugh. Fang Chen saw it.They seem to be unable to escape each other, and even if the relationship is at a standstill, they will still observe each other involuntarily, as if they are looking at another self.

Fang Chen put down his hands and said viciously at the boy who kept swearing: "Shut up!" He still had tears in his eyes, and his words could not form any deterrent.

The boy really ignored him and continued to scold.

Nie Shi turned his head with a gloomy expression: "Shut up."

It seems that from then on, the two sang together.

Nie Shi began to keep an eye on Fang Chen's whereabouts. Once Fang Chen was out of his sight, well, he was blocked again, so he accepted his fate and went to rescue him.

In the end, the boy was beaten by the two of them.Nie Shi discovered that Fang Chen was very persistent in certain aspects. Once he decided on one thing, it was difficult to change it.The boy didn't apologize, so Fang Chen repeated "Apologize to Nie Shi" over and over again until the boy let go of his apology.

At the last party of the third year of junior high school, Fang Chen squatted on the road and howled, "Mathematics is so difficult! Physics is so difficult! Why can't I learn it!"

In all fairness, although Fang Chen memorized things a bit slowly, it was not hopeless. The dean also said that if he wanted to, he could sponsor him to go to high school.

That night, Fang Chen squatted and hugged his legs, and whispered to Nie Shi: "Actually, I want to go to school a little bit."

Nie Shi turned his head.

Fang Chen laughed, a little silly and heart-wrenching: "But I can never be excellent." He set a goal for himself, and he worked hard in the third year of junior high school, thinking that if he couldn't achieve it, he would give up. Let the dean waste money.

It doesn't take hard work to have results, Fang Chen has always known.

The nine-year compulsory education is over, and he should work hard for the rest of his life.

Nie Shi put his palm on Fang Chen's hair, covered his red eyes, and said, "Yes, I know."

Fang Chen started working part-time after graduating from junior high school. His place of work is very close to Nie Shi's high school. Occasionally, the two of them would get together for a drink. Sitting in a milk tea shop, Fang Chen put his head on the table, shaking his furry head and muttering : "It's nice to have air conditioning."

Fang Chen has a pair of beautiful eyes, which are amber in the sun, and there is light hidden in them.

Nie Shi also sometimes thought that it would be nice if Fang Chen met him, and maybe his life would be easier, but he also thought, if he hadn't met him, Fang Chen would only be beaten and fucked. Fang Chen is optimistic.

The adoptive parents had a child, and they became more and more indifferent to Nie Shi.For a whole year of high school, Nie Shi was like an invisible person at home. In the second year of high school, they consciously or unintentionally mentioned in Nie Shi's ears that milk powder is now expensive, and children's food and clothing are a big expense.

They didn't want Nie Shi to go to school anymore.

What was Nie Shi thinking at that time?He didn't think about anything, he skipped class and went to sit in Fang Chen's part-time job for the whole afternoon.

Fang Chen asked, "Are you on vacation?"

Nie Shi shook his head and said seriously, "I don't want to go."

They had a fight that day, and it ended with Fang Chen riding on Nie Shi crying and beating him up.

In fact, from the moment Fang Shen shed tears, Nie Shi gave up struggling and lay down on the ground to be beaten by him.

He is sometimes afraid of Fang Chen, a sunny and positive young man who always faces everything with a smile.Nie Shi couldn't do it, he would always look at his distorted and ugly shadow.

Fang Chen cried till the end and Nie Shi also cried, curled up in silence and said in a muffled voice, "They don't want to send me to school anymore."

They are born without freedom, only to be constantly chosen and chosen... But these are not enough, far from enough.

Fang Chen fell down with him in the dirty alley, the sky blue was so unreal, no birds flew by, no freedom and nothing.He stretched out his hand and lowered it, turning his head with a bold thought in his mind, "They don't pay you to go to school, so I will pay for you."

Fang Chen didn't think about anything.

His mind seemed to be empty, he didn't think about the future, only thinking about the present.

He jumped up and was happy again, pointing his finger at Nie Shi and laughing: "That's it, when you have money in the future, remember to be filial to me, the reborn parents."

Nie Shi got up and shook his head slowly, Fang Chen seemed to be unable to see, "It doesn't matter, you go to school for me, why don't you go to school if your grades are so good?" He said seriously, "I'll wait for you to make a lot of money in the future."

When Fang Chen was not saving Nie, he was saving himself.

They are all saving themselves.

It's just that when Nie Shi learned that he was working three jobs by himself, he still escaped.

In the scorching afternoon of the sun, Fang Chen came out of the shop where he worked and asked him if he was skipping class again.

"You can't do this, go to class for me, remember what we said?"

"I don't want to go..."

"No. You go to fucking school for me."

Nie Shi didn't answer, and the atmosphere froze.

Fang Chen cried, making Nie Shi at a loss.Fang Chen still hasn't grown up yet, it's because he's only 17 years old, full of doubts and grievances, and finally yelled out: "Your grades are so good, why don't you study?! Why, you have worked so hard... I'll throw money at me when you get rich in the future!" He wasn't blaming Nie Shi, he just wanted an answer too much.

Nie Shi bowed his head, admitted his mistake, and surrendered to Fang Chen, saying that he would attend classes on time and study honestly.Fang Chen wiped away his tears and laughed, then reached out to pat Nie Shi on the head.

Fang Chen hid so many words in his heart, shouted hoarsely, and finally there was nothing left.In fact, they all know that there are so many "whys", unfairness is life.

The author has something to say: Reminiscence originally planned to talk about it in general, but after thinking about it, I wrote it in detail...

The school has already started, and the time is not particularly rich, and the update will not be fixed after that! !