Dream or truth...

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

On the rest day, when the alarm clock rang early, Ryosuke did not get up immediately as usual, but lay quietly on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

I made an appointment with Yuxiang to go to the playground together. If it was usual, he would get up early and start preparations excitedly, but today, he was not happy at all.

Because that Kawashima is also going.

He probably couldn't face all that calmly alone, so he asked Yuxiang if he could ask Da-chan to go with him.

Yuxiang agreed, although there was a strange look in his eyes.

If it was in the past, Ryosuke would have noticed that Yu Xiang actually didn't like his proposal, but now, he has lost that effort.

As long as I think of the picture of Yuxiang kissing that girl, my whole heart is filled with sadness, and I can no longer pay attention to other things.

Although there was an urge to find a reason not to go for a moment, Ryosuke still got up, because he promised Yuxiang to make lunch for him and Kawashima, as long as he promised Yuxiang, he would do it no matter what happened arrive.And Da-chan was called by himself, so naturally he couldn't miss his part.

Holding the heavy four-cent bento and walking to the agreed place, I saw Yuxiang and Kawashima standing side by side from a distance.

Although I was mentally prepared, I was still so sad that I bit my lips when I saw it with my own eyes. I couldn't let the tears fall until I tasted the blood.

Obviously, the next step is to go to the playground, right?But his chest was always aching.

Although the person you like is close at hand, you can never confess.At first, I thought that this was the most painful thing, but I didn't expect to make bento for my favorite him and his lover.

Why be so cruel to him?Is it punishment for falling in love with the same sex?

But at least God gave him a little mercy, at least he can stay by his side and continue to be his great relative and friend.

So he cleaned up his mood and tried to put on his signature smile. Yuxiang likes his own smile, so when he is by his side, he will definitely smile hard.

But in the past, as long as he stayed by Yuxiang's side, he would feel very happy. How could he think that one day he would need to deliberately disguise himself with a smile.

Seeing Ryosuke approaching with a heavy bento box, Yuxiang habitually wanted to take over, but was cleverly avoided by the other party, and bursts of disappointment suddenly emerged in his heart.

He has never been rejected by Liang Jie. Although he knows that Liang Jie has always been strong and independent, in front of him, Liang Jie has always relied on him unscrupulously.

The way Ryosuke turned his head to look at him when he was nervous, the way Ryosuke woke up from a nightmare and sought comfort from himself, the way Ryosuke acted cutely to himself...

Because of those appearances that only appear in front of him, and because he is undefended only when he touches him, he has always felt that he is the most special existence of Ryosuke, and he never thought that he would change.

So I never thought that one day I would be rejected by the other party.

Then seeing the wound on Ryosuke's lip, he stroked it nervously and asked, but the other party only replied perfunctorily that it was a bruise.

But... that's obviously a bite mark...

Liangjie was absent-minded along the way, and he just coped with it without saying a word when talking to him.

This situation continued until Arioka appeared.

"Yama ちゃん~Yuxiang~Sorry for being late~" Arioka snatched the bento box from Ryosuke's hand, "Is it heavy? I'll get it."

Ryosuke didn't object, maybe it was because he was really tired, seeing the big brother-like existence of Dai-chan, he could finally relax his nerves that had been tense for a long time.

But in Yuxiang's eyes, it's not the case at all.

Ever since seeing Ryosuke crying in Arioka's arms, Yuxiang has always positioned their relationship as a couple, so Arioka's purely caring behavior has become the intimacy of lovers in his eyes.

As if his heart was blocked suddenly, he was so heavy and depressed that he didn't want to say a word, he took Chunzi's hand and walked straight forward, ignoring whether the two people behind him followed.

He also didn't notice the cold sweat on Liangjie's forehead.

Seeing Ryosuke biting his lips and desperately chasing Yuxiang, Xiaoda hugged his shoulders distressedly: "Shan ちゃん...don't be brave if you sprained your foot..." This so strong and distressing child, only When he met Yuxiang, he would become so fragile. He was used to and only used to Yuxiang's care, and buried his love deeply in his heart.

Yuxiang, that is an existence that even his elder brother cannot replace.

"It's alright, big ちゃん... If you don't catch up, you will be left behind." Ryosuke gritted his teeth to maintain the speed, but the sweat on his forehead completely betrayed him.

Knowing that it was impossible to persuade this stubborn child no matter what, Xiao Da sighed, took out a handkerchief and wiped off the sweat for him.Seeing Ryosuke raise his head and smile gratefully, Xiao Da sighed in his heart, this child chose a path that was too difficult.

He chooses what he wants, and he will never change it, and he is willing to give everything for it.

Such a child is destined to live a more beautiful life than others, but also work harder.

That's why I unconsciously want to take care of him, because this tough and beautiful child is so distressing.

I still remember the kid's smile when he told himself that he liked Yuxiang.

In fact, it was Yuxiang who asked Ryosuke why he kept calling him "Yuxiang-kun".

I didn't expect to hear such an answer.

"...Because I want to remind myself, I can't let Yuxiang know that I like him."

At that time, Ryosuke showed that bitter smile for the first time, slender and beautiful but as fragile as a glass doll.

I have forgotten what the answer I told Yuxiang was, only the smile is still as clear as yesterday.

After walking for a while, I still couldn't let it go, but when I looked back, I saw the moment when Xiaoda wiped Ryosuke's sweat, and the smile that Ryosuke responded to made Yuxiang feel a tingle for no reason.

Ryosuke, with miso.

I am no longer the most special existence to Ryosuke.

They are obviously just big relatives and friends, aren't they?But why do I feel so...heartache?