Don't understand

Chapter 39 (39) Shock

"Take it, what are you thinking?"

"It's nothing, just think about the past."

"Aren't you planning to go home this New Year? Are you going to stay in San Francisco and work with Professor Ross?"

"Going home, I haven't seen my parents for a long time, and I miss them very much."

"Yeah, it's been two years since you came to America, this is the first time you're going back."

"...yes."

Guan Xiao held the steaming white porcelain cup, took a sip of the mellow and sweet mocha, watched the snowflakes falling outside the window and the hurrying passers-by, and whispered to a blond young man sitting opposite him.

The cafe is very warm, the orange lights envelop the interior with warmth, and Westlife music plays in the room, praising the sunshine and beauty of summer in the cold winter, making every customer here feel Relaxed and happy, like a lazy afternoon with winter sunshine, there is a silver-white cat lying by the fireplace, with a tome wrapped in kraft paper at hand, and the whole afternoon can be spent lying on the sofa.

The young man with blond hair and blue eyes was met by Guan Xiao after he came to Berkeley. The two are not in the same department. Guan Xiao studied composition, while the young man studied violin. Guan Xiao’s tutor Ross is a well-known composer in the industry and the once-famous principal of the Berlin Orchestra. The violin has a high reputation in the music industry. He doesn't have many students, but he has become a rarity in various fields in the future. This shows that Professor Ross has a high standard for accepting apprentices. Guan Xiao and Blonde are the luckiest two people this time .

Blonde hair and blue eyes named Ohlin, his mother is Tina Hamilton, a popular music guru who once held a solo concert in Vienna's Golden Hall, and his father is a Russian-American who was a flute player when he was young, and now works in the U.S. Department of Culture It can be said that Erin grew up in a strong artistic atmosphere since he was a child.Erlin has shown a very high artistic talent in music since he was a child, and his understanding of the violin is beyond the reach of ordinary people. Tina is very pleased with his son's performance, and helps Erin pave a path leading to the highest art palace with her help and advice along the way. way.

Erlin is a standard beauty, inheriting Tina's excellent appearance and father's deep temperament, humble and low-key, but can't stop the princely temperament exuding from her body, and in just half an hour sitting here with Guan Xiao, it attracted countless people. Even the clerk who is used to seeing celebrities come here can't help but look at Erin twice, and Erin smiled and expressed his gratitude.

From being unaccustomed to the ubiquitous loneliness when he first came, Guan Xiao is now fully adapted to the city. From being tortured by depressing thoughts to completely sinking into the ocean of music, two springs and autumns have passed.The strict Professor Ross has a romantic artistic temperament and informality, but also has a serious professionalism and a critical nature. Under his training, Guan Xiao has almost been reborn, forgetting that he has been a singer since his debut for 10 years, and everything is based on scratch. Since then, they got acquainted with Erin, who is highly accomplished and has a good temperament.

Although the life here is busy, it is very fulfilling, almost isolated from the domestic circle, without the disturbance of those miscellaneous news, Guan Xiao's life is as peaceful as a fish in water.

And the longing buried in the deepest part of my heart is also devouring the strong atrium in the day after day of loneliness, constantly growing outwards, being watered by thoughts, eager to break through the branches and vines I planted by myself.

Guan Xiao sighed softly, and drank the cup of coffee that was only lukewarm.

"Come on, you like sweets so much, you won't gain weight," Orin said, looking at the lemonade in his glass with envy and surprise.

"I don't like sweets, I'm just used to it," Guan Xiao said with a faint smile, looking at the neon strings on a cedar outside the window.

Erin looked at Guan Xiao's profile, and praised, "Guan, you look really good."

Guan Xiao was amused when he heard it, turned his head to look at Erin, and said with a smile, "Are you talking about me? If I don't compare with you, I look pretty good."

Erin disagreed, and explained seriously, "It's different, I am beautiful, and you are good-looking. Beauty only refers to the appearance of the facial features, and good-looking refers to inner feelings. You are the kind of good-looking that makes everyone feel very comfortable. "

Seeing Erlin dragging out the text sternly, Guan Xiao thought it was very cute, "My little prince is right."

Erin is two years younger than Guan Xiao, and Guan Xiao looks at Erin as if he were his younger brother, because there is only an older sister in his family, Guan Xiao loves such a younger brother who has a pleasing personality and has nothing to say. Yes, he often complied with Ohlin's request and accommodated everything he had.

It was getting late, and Guan Xiao had to return emails to Professor Ross in the evening, so the two of them settled the bill and prepared to leave. Erin was wearing a small cloak hat, and Guan Xiao put it on for him to see that he was on Che himself walked towards the apartment slowly facing Feixue.

Guan Xiao's hair was dyed a gentle autumn chestnut color, and the bangs on his forehead were just as long as his eyebrows. He wanted to trim it a few times, but Erin stopped him. Erin said that it would look good if his eyes were revealed, so he never took it off. , Now the tip of the hair can reach the eyelashes.

Guan Xiao was wearing a cashmere coat and a dark gray woolen scarf, with his hands in his pockets, walking leisurely along the way.

Not long ago, I just booked the plane ticket to go home. Guan Xiao was very excited. The eldest sister’s children are starting high school, and the second sister’s is also in elementary school. It’s true that I haven’t been back for a long time. Guan Xiao wanted to pick some gifts. For the nephews.

Passing by a gift shop, Guan Xiao saw all kinds of handicrafts in the window, which looked novel and unique, so he couldn't help but push the door open.

A middle-aged man was carefully wiping the lamps in his hands. When Guan Xiao came in, he greeted him with a smile.

Guan Xiao nodded, watching alone, there were a variety of gifts, such as hanging chains, lamps, tea sets, ceramic pots, pens, etc. Guan Xiao was suddenly attracted by a cute clay doll, and he stopped unconsciously.

The clay doll smiled happily, looking at herself with her legs crossed.

I will not have children, you are my children.

This sentence suddenly appeared in Guan Xiao's mind like lightning, it seemed so long ago that he couldn't remember when he said it, but it was as clear as last night's epigram, Guan Xiao was stunned, his face turned pale instantly.

"Hello, have you taken a fancy to this one?" The store manager came to Guan Xiao with kind eyes.

Guan Xiao regained his senses slightly, "Ah, I'm sorry, yes, this one is very cute, how much is it?"

"Why do you like it?" The store manager smiled lovingly and did not answer Guan Xiao's question.

"Because there are memories of an old friend," Guan Xiao murmured as he lightly touched the clay doll's body.

"Then go buy it, it's not expensive," the store manager smiled.

"...forget it, thank you, I'll look at other things," Guan Xiao withdrew his finger and smiled apologetically.

"Since you have chosen, why did you give up?" The store manager still asked with a smile, not caring about Guan Xiao's hesitation.

"Probably it's really useless, and it's not suitable to keep it at home," Guan Xiao was a little surprised at the store manager's persistence.

"If we like it, we usually admit it readily. If we hesitate, it's not that we don't like it, but that there are other factors affecting it, right?" the store manager said with a smile.

Guan Xiao hesitated, unable to figure out what the middle-aged man meant, "Sorry, I don't understand what you mean."

"I can see that you have memories, don't miss another chance to experience it again, this is the only time, take it back, I'll send it to you," the man turned back with a smile, walked to another display window and wiped it.

Guan Xiao's heart was shocked, his fingers trembled slightly, after thinking and thinking, he still reached out and put the little clay figurine into his arms, holding it carefully, "Thank you."

The man waved his hand at him as if he had expected it.

Guan Xiao pushed open the door, and was hit by the heavy snow that fell on his face. It seemed that the snow was falling heavily. Guan Xiao looked up with difficulty to see the signboard of this store——onemoretime

Guan Xiao quickly ran home, put the little clay figurine in front of the computer desk, boiled hot water, and started sending emails to Professor Ross.

The email explained that he was going home to visit relatives, and also attached the first draft of a new song that Professor Ross arranged for himself. By the way, I wish the professor a happy new year.

After finishing everything, Guan Xiao went in to take a shower. When he came out, it was already 10 o'clock in the evening. The heating in the room was sufficient, and it was not cold. Guan Xiao only wiped his hair with a towel instead of drying it. Xiao sat down at the desk and started surfing the Internet.

Guan Xiao was greatly shocked today, and his emotions fluctuated. For the first time, he couldn't help but connect to a domestic website, hesitantly entered the word "Chen Gan" in the search bar, and entered.

Within half a second, a large number of words rushed into Guan Xiao's eyes.

Guan Xiao nervously browsed one by one.

"Chen Qian's contract expires and he gives up on renewing his contract and establishes his own business"

"Chen Qian Shen's heavy comeback in March, bringing "Black and White Time and Space" to Cannes"

"The era of Chen Qian has arrived, leading a new generation of golden actors"

"Chen Qian made another masterpiece, "Sui Han" was nominated for Outstanding Actor at the Berlin Film Festival"

"Chen Qian suddenly had an acute gastric ulcer and was sent to the hospital overnight on set"

"It is suspected that Chen Gan Guan Xiao broke up in a low-key manner, and Chen Gan worked crazily to heal his emotional injuries"

"Chen Gan's biological father died of illness yesterday, and he appeared in "The Change of Xuanwu" today with a haggard look"

Guan Xiao stood up from the chair in a panic, and accidentally knocked over the milk in his hand. The milk dripped down the edge of the table and onto the floor, but Guan Xiao didn't notice it.

The news is arranged in order of immediacy. The news of Chen Gan's father's death was displayed in the week when he left China.

Guan Xiao lifted the cup up with trembling hands, took a paper towel to wipe it, but couldn't clean it anyway, he turned back tremblingly to find a mop, and squatted on the ground as soon as he took a step.

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