sinovels Chapter 37 "I Can't Like Others"
Chapter 37 "I Can't Like Others"
After sleeping for two or three hours, he woke up naturally, and his mind began to think about He Songyu again, thinking about the happy time on the peninsula...
He quickly opened the curtains and turned on his phone. Lu Menghua sent him a lot of messages, all of which were for dinner tonight, as well as messages from the administrator of the dormitory building.
【Doctor Zhang, there will be a new doctor hired by the hospital to live in your place. After all, there has been a vacant room in your place for a long time, okay? 】
Zhang Hongmeng frowned. In fact, for the past four years, he had been occupying the two-bedroom and one-living room all the time. Others secretly had some opinions when they knew about it.
【Okay, I'll go home tonight, and you can give him a key yourself when the time comes. 】
After the message was sent successfully, he got up, brushed his teeth, changed his clothes and went out. At the door, he met the person he least wanted to see, his university rival Qian Shanqiao. In the ward, he didn't know how to explain this kind of evil fate.
Qian Shanqiao was holding a takeaway box in his hand, looking slovenly, and said sarcastically, "Oh, I heard that I received an ectopic pregnancy last night and asked the director to perform the operation. Is your title false?"
Zhang Hongmeng wasn’t angry either. When it came to his professional title, he had forgotten about it. He is now higher in rank than him. “Is it false? It is also a deputy senior professional title recognized by the state. You are just a resident doctor. Shouldn’t you try to improve yourself now? ? Do you still have time to study my business?"
His words just hit his heart, Qian Shanqiao's face suddenly lost the sarcasm, and left after humming. Zhang Hongmeng didn't have time to pay attention to him. He tidied up his clothes and backpack and went to the elevator entrance .
At the dinner at night, Lu Menghua skillfully served Uncle Zhangqiu with food, and warned him to eat more when he had a good appetite to supplement his nutrition. Uncle Zhangqiu nodded in agreement with a smile on his face, and Zhang Hongmeng looked out of the window with one hand on his chin, It began to drizzle outside, and this kind of dinner was like this every time. Four people ate, and he always felt that he couldn't get along, including going out to eat with friends. The doctor at the psychological clinic advised him to socialize more, otherwise the situation would only get worse. It's getting worse.
"Hongmeng, Hongmeng, why are you so dazed? Send Menghua back after the meeting is over. I have something to talk to you, Uncle Lu." Uncle Zhangqiu gave him a look, and Lu Menghua took his hand and said, "Then uncle , let’s go first, you remember to go to the clinic the day after tomorrow for a blood test.”
"Okay, young man, let's go." Uncle Zhangqiu waved his hand with a smile, Zhang Hongmeng actively cooperated without pulling his hand back, followed Lu Menghua out of the private room, and immediately pulled away from the door.
Lu Menghua smiled and looked at his hands and said, "Do you want to be so exaggerated? Will you go back to the dormitory or go home later?" He looked up at the drizzle outside, "The weather is really unpredictable, and the sun is still shining during the day. Now it's raining."
"Actually, you don't need to do this. My dad knows that our relationship is just colleagues, and..." He paused for a while, looked at Yusi under the street lamp and said, "I don't like girls, just give up, there will be better people waiting for you."
Lu Menghua nodded to express her understanding. Four years ago, she resigned from the affiliated hospital of D University and came to this hospital. She did not expect to meet Zhang Hongmeng who joined the hospital together. She also learned about Uncle Zhangqiu's condition. Everyday get along and ignite again.
She made a formal confession to Zhang Hongmeng once, but she didn't expect the other party to tell her that he likes boys. When they met in the furniture store, the person they said was a man. Lu Menghua was shocked for a long time.
But these years have passed, and she hasn't seen anyone he has dated with. She still seems to have the idea of having a relationship with each other for a long time, and thinks that saying that she likes boys is just a casual reason for rejecting her!
Zhang Hongmeng bought two umbrellas when she was wandering, and gave her one. Lu Menghua took it helplessly, "You don't understand style at all. Isn't it romantic to share an umbrella in the rain? No wonder you're single , Let’s go back together, you should also go home, I have seen your schedule, and I will rest tomorrow.”
The transparent umbrella hit the top of the head, and the back view of Lu Menghua walking down the stairs made Zhang Hongmeng feel a little sad. People are like this, even if they are walking on the wrong road alone, cold and dull, they still grit their teeth and persist. It is meaningless but they can’t listen Advice, but... isn't he the same...
"Menghua, to be honest, I can't like others anymore, so don't waste time on me." Zhang Hongmeng followed her pace, sighed softly beside her, and then accelerated his pace to move forward.
Yes, he can’t like others anymore. Since the guitar broke, he can’t feel the heartbeat anymore. Although he doesn’t want to admit that he is a worthless person who can’t afford it, but time makes him unable to feel it anymore. deceive yourself.
Four years did not heal him, but kept telling him the truth, why he couldn't get on the operating table last night, because the appearance of He Songyu caused a hurricane in his lonely heart, and he couldn't do the surgery because he was lying there The girl in the school is related to He Songyu, and he can't be indifferent.
Back home, Uncle Zhang Qiu had already arrived home. He had a severe cough recently, and his body had been hollowed out by radiotherapy, chemotherapy, and targeted drug treatment. Zhang Hongmeng patted his back, "Why don't you go up and rest? Waiting for me specifically?" He smiled and filled his glass with water.
Uncle Zhangqiu sighed, leaned on the sofa, closed his eyes and said nothing, "Go upstairs if you're sleepy, what are you doing here? Don't catch a cold, otherwise, if you get infected..."
"Hongmeng, your father and I are tired and have worked hard for a long time. I hope you can start a family and start a career. In this way, I can close my eyes and go to your mother at ease. Cough cough..." He still closed his eyes and said nothing. strength.
Zhang Hongmeng squeezed his palm tightly, and dug his nailless fingertips into his palm, feeling a dull pain in his heart, "Dad, I can't get married. The answer four years ago is the same as it is now. I can't lie to others. I have to sit upright." That’s right, didn’t you teach me this before?” He lowered his head, guilt and self-condemnation made him unable to lift his head, he was like a sinner, unable to satisfy the wish of his father who was suffering from illness.
"Forget it, I'm tired, I'm going to bed." Uncle Zhangqiu waved his hand, stood up with difficulty while supporting the sofa, he refused Zhang Hongmeng's support, and staggered up the stairs on crutches.
Zhang Hongmeng walked slowly behind him like this, all the way up the stairs, and then went back to his room. Now he is really afraid of the coming of the night, because those negative and sad emotions will swallow him up and let him control I couldn't stop crying, and no matter how many quilts I wrapped around my body, I still felt very cold.
"Drip drip"
The phone shows that there are new friends, and the note is a new roommate. After hesitating for a while, he agrees. There must be normal social interaction. Although, they are all working, and there are not many opportunities to meet in the dormitory, but it is still a dormitory after all. , or don't be so repulsive.
The profile picture of the other party is a black night, the name is just a question mark, and there is nothing in the circle of friends. This person is not a weirdo, right?If it was the same as Qian Shanqiao, then he would really apply to change dormitories.
In the dormitory building, the uncle administrator enthusiastically introduced He Songyu, "Doctor He, are you satisfied? This is Dr. Zhang's room. He is very easy to get along with. He is a gynecologist. If your wife and girlfriend have any problems?" It’s comfortable, just go to him directly.”
"Thank you, but, does he know that I live here?" He Songyu asked with a frown, and the uncle administrator patted his chest and said, "Yes, it's okay. Doctor Zhang is as handsome as you. You two must get along well. Then I'm leaving."
He Songyu was a little skeptical but didn't ask any further, because the mobile phone message notification was a specially set voice.
[My name is Zhang Hongmeng, and the administrator sent me a special message, saying that you are worried that I won't get used to it?It’s all in the same hospital, just like the university dormitory before. 】
He Songyu smiled bitterly. The uncle of the administrator probably just told him that there was someone living in him, but he didn't mention his name. Otherwise, he wouldn't have sent this message. He looked at Zhang Hongmeng's profile picture for a long time. Did not look away.
The three dormitory buildings have such a big difference in their entry time that they are arranged together. It is too deliberate to say that it is fate. He Songyu is not a fool. Then reply to Zhang Hongmeng's message.
【I am He Songyu】