Difficult round

Chapter 64

Shen Xi took a deep breath, temporarily put aside the messy and complicated memories, turned the corner of the entrance, and saw Gu Yan lying on the back of the sofa.

He was not wearing any clothes on his upper body, exposing his entire back, and the white gauze on the left shoulder blade pierced his eyes brightly.And Gu Yan rested one arm on the backrest, resting his forehead against his forehead, looking like he was playing with his mobile phone.

So he lowered his voice and said softly, "It's me." It seemed that he was not willing to easily disturb this too quiet and beautiful scene.

However, of course Gu Yan heard it. He was writing WB jokes, and he turned his head suddenly when he heard the sound, a trace of astonishment flashed across his eyes, and was quickly covered up. Instead, he frowned tightly, as if impatient. :"How did you come?"

The opening remarks are almost the same as Tang Yan's, but they have two completely different meanings.

Shen Qi froze in place, neither speaking nor moving, his expression was rather ugly.

Gu Yan waited for a while but didn't get a reply, so he turned around, picked up the T-shirt that was lying beside him and put it on, and looked up indifferently: "I remember telling you, don't come again."

He glanced behind Shen Qi, there was no one behind, the guy surnamed Tang probably had already run away.

Now he was a little suspicious that this so-called scene of wiping him was negotiated by the two in advance, one came in with a legitimate name first, and the other sneaked in afterward.Arrange him clearly.

Grass.

"I'll wipe your body." Shen Qi lowered his eyebrows and said.

Then I went to try the temperature of the water in the washbasin, maybe I felt that the water was already cold, so I picked it up, took it to the bathroom to pick up a new basin, and took it out and put it in its original position.

Then he rubbed the towel until it was half-dry, walked over and stood next to Gu Yan, looked down at him, "Tang Yan entrusted me with this task."

If Tang Yan hadn't leaked his words just now, Gu Yan might have believed what he said.

"No need, it's already been wiped." He stood up from the sofa, brushed Shen Xi's shoulder, and left him behind, "Go back."

This is planning to go back to the room, not wanting to face Shen Qi.

"I'll leave after wiping you." But Shen Xi insisted, "You were injured because of me, and I have to take full responsibility for it."

Now Gu Yan really wanted to laugh.Just by rubbing his body, he can be raised to such an incredible height by this person.

Taking full responsibility, he thought, this person really has the face to say, because he would be responsible for every injury and bleeding, so how could he abandon all his love so easily.

Isn't that more precious than this wound tonight?

He could have brought up the previous set and said it again, such as "Whoever it is, even if it is Tang Yan, Tan Xiaolei or anyone, I will do this", such as "It is impossible to let them be beaten to death even if it is a kitten or a dog. ", but at this moment he suddenly felt tired and didn't want to say any more.

His injury was indeed caused by Shen Qi, if he wants to be responsible, then he should be responsible.

Moreover, he could lie to Shen Qi and anyone, but he couldn't fool himself. The moment he saw the broken wine bottle piercing towards Shen Qi, his scalp was numb, and the blood all over his body seemed to flow back into his mind. Let his mind go blank for a moment.

Regardless of what to think about, the body has already acted before the brain, and by the time he reacted, he had already protected the person in his arms, and blocked the broken wine bottle with his body.

Of course it was very painful when the broken glass pierced into the flesh and blood, but he secretly breathed a sigh of relief like the rest of his life—fortunately, not badly.

It's a good thing, it's a good thing that the broken wine bottle pierced him, not Shen Xi's eyes.

He likes Shen Xi's eyes very much, they are as clear as a deer, even at this moment, he is still reluctant to see it get hurt.

How pathetic and ridiculous.He is the one who keeps saying that he doesn't love and doesn't care, and he is the one who moves faster than anyone else.

Whether he admits it or not, the fact is that, even at this moment, he still instinctively puts this person in a more important position than himself.

"Understood, then you can wipe it." He took off the T-shirt he had just put on, lay down on the sofa again, turned his face slightly and said to Shen Qi, "Go after wiping."

It's always like this, now Gu Yan will no longer agree to his request unconditionally, and will always add a condition after compromising with him.

"Let's go after drinking this glass of water", "Go after eating", "Go after wiping off"... But after all, it's nothing more than a request, telling him to go, telling him to stay away from himself.

In the past, Gu Yan always wanted to get closer to him, and even closer, clinging like a big wolf dog, but now he only tells him to go.

But Shen Xi can't blame anyone, he did it himself.If you want to blame it, blame him for being stupid, for waking up too late, for underestimating his own heart, and for underestimating the importance of this person to him.

When he was with Gu Yan, or before accepting Gu Yan's pursuit, he hesitated for a long time, hesitating whether to confess his sexuality, and he also hesitated whether to agree to the other party.

He was sure that he fell in love with Gu Yan. This person was sunny and confident, just like a sun, illuminating his gray life, making him optimistic and seeing many beautiful things.

In the early years, the two were indeed very happy. Although my parents often asked on the phone whether they had found a partner, they were still young at that time, and he could still fool them.

Later, it didn't work anymore. His parents urged him more and more urgently, and they pressed him harder and harder. He dreamed countless times that his relationship with Gu Yan was broken by his parents, and dreamed that his mother was crying and begging to die in front of him. , asked him: "Are you trying to force me to death? Why are you so unfilial, do you want me to die..."

Shen Qi's hometown is a three-county city, and there are very few "gays" around. When he was in junior high school, the female shopkeeper who sold water purifiers at the gate of the community was the only "gay" he had ever heard of.

That kind of environment was too harsh for a "heterogeneous" person, and he could hear residents talking about that woman when he walked in and out.The things he said were all bad.

There are also elderly aunts who complain to the property management every day, not allowing women to set up shop at the gate of their community, saying that it will bring down the atmosphere of the community.

But the female shop owner is obviously a very good person, she is polite to everyone, she smiles very gently, and Shen Xi has seen her feed stray cats and dogs many times.

Then one day, when Shen Qi woke up to go to school in the morning, he saw many people gathered around the door of the store, pointing at the store, but he didn't know what they were talking about.

It was only when he got to school that he heard a classmate from the same community as him talk about it, and then he realized that the water purifier store had been smashed up, and red paint was splashed all over the room.

It was done by an old lady, and the old lady was not afraid of being caught by the police. When she was taken away, she cursed, saying that the owner of the store was a vixen, a monster, and a concubine who seduced her granddaughter.

Shen Qi didn't know what happened to the old lady afterwards, but after about half a year, the female shopkeeper passed away.

Shen Qi had just returned from the cram school that day, when he passed the door, he happened to bump into the corpse of the female shopkeeper who was being carried out, covered in a white cloth, bumped a bit when it was sent to the car, and a grayish arm hung down.

He was terrified on the spot and developed a high fever that night.

After that, Shen Qi secretly paid attention to this matter, but found that almost no one felt sorry for the loss of a life, and everyone seemed to be relieved by it.

This incident caused a great psychological shadow on Shen Qi, and he was very afraid that he and Gu Yan would become like this too.

Nightmares and fears linger like maggots attached to the bones.He wanted to tell Gu Yan many times, but he didn't dare.That is, from then on, he began to think frequently about breaking up with Gu Yan.

Before he met Gu Yan, he had always been a person with low self-esteem. He was used to getting something at a price, just like the condition that his parents love him is that he must get the grades that satisfy them.

So while enjoying Gu Yan's kindness, he felt that Gu Yan would not be able to bear himself sooner or later, and would take back this love.

Or maybe they will be exposed in front of their parents sooner or later, and then no matter how warm and beautiful their relationship is, they will die in the day-to-day quarrels and struggles...

He imagined all kinds of possibilities, but he pessimistically felt that they would break up sooner or later, or something would happen.

He sank and forced himself to wake up.

The better Gu Yan treats him, the more uneasy he feels.Even every time Gu Yan refuses to do housework together, he can't help but think of his mother, and the same is true of his mother, telling him over and over again: "You don't need to do these things."

But as long as his mother is dissatisfied with what he does, she will turn around and blame him, saying that he has no conscience, that he is not filial, and that their family wants to force her to death.

He was too scared, afraid that Gu Yan would do the same one day.Even though he believed that Gu Yan would not do this, he still couldn't help thinking about it over and over again.

Even if his biological parents asked him to do so, why wouldn't Gu Yan not do it.

Sometimes he even felt that he was sick and needed to see a doctor.

After years and years, she finally couldn't stand the torment in her heart, and broke up with Gu Yan.

When they broke up, he didn't know how to tell Gu Yan that he loved this person in his heart and had been "not straight" for a long time, but he didn't want the other party to know his bad family, and he didn't want the other party to see his weakness, sickness, and stupidity. X seemed to want to preserve the last bit of decency, so he said, "I'm straight."

This sentence, rather than saying it to Gu Yan, it is better that he is lying to himself.It's straight to lie to yourself, so you shouldn't be with Gu Yan.

So to become a "normal person", try to accept Zhao Lingling.

But ignoring this sentence is the biggest harm to Gu Yan.

He made choices at both ends of the balance, chose to escape, chose to give up Gu Yan, but he couldn't bear it as soon as he separated, and he found that loving this person was far deeper and heavier than he thought.

Whether it's repentance or admitting mistakes, it's already too late to say anything, and Gu Yan has no reason or obligation to tolerate all of him, he has to pay the price for what he has done.But even so, he still wanted to try again.

"What's wrong?" Gu Yan frowned, interrupting his thoughts.

"It's nothing." Shen Qi shook his head, half-kneeled on the sofa, put the reheated towel on Gu Yan's back waist, wiped it left and right twice with moderate strength, and then slowly went up.

After a while, he left the sofa, rubbed the towel in the hot water a few times, and then returned to continue wiping the areas he hadn't touched before.

For a while, neither of them spoke, and the atmosphere felt a little warm and harmonious that hadn't been seen for a long time.

The curtains on the glass wall of the living room have not been drawn yet, and the moonlight and the lights of other residents around pour in through the glass wall, mixing with the warm orange light that was already on in the room, enveloping both of them in it. There was the sound of children running around, and occasionally a dog barking, sometimes nearby, sometimes far away.

The two of them invariably thought of the countless nights in the past, they were the same as now, the glass wall was wide open, and they were sitting on the sofa leaning against each other, or watching movies and funny variety shows together, or doing their own things, some people read books, Some people write contracts and plans, or they don’t do anything at all, just like that, you hug me and I hug you, and you can’t help but giggle when you look at each other.

Silly is really silly, sweet is really sweet.

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