Dianchi Lake with two bicycles

Chapter 33

It sold out early at noon this day, and sold out early, Wang Yu got up earlier in the morning than anyone else, and he even woke up the roosters in the town, of course, if he wanted to.It wasn't that the alarm clock was set early, nor was it a habit he had developed these days. He suffered from insomnia all night. Once the pictures in the diary flashed in his mind, his heart felt like a boulder. Looking at Jin Ling who was sleeping next to him, he was extremely sweet and chaotic. There is a trace of envy in the emotion.The golden father and the golden mother saw that their son-in-law got up so early and observed him for several days, and concluded that he was hardworking, but Wang Yu no longer paid attention to them.

At lunch time, when the family packed up the first floor for breakfast and cleaned up, Mother Jin also prepared lunch, and found that Wang Yu was missing, so she asked Jin Ling to call. The mobile phone was charged in the room, and the family did not Knowing what to do, he didn't tell anyone beforehand.Wang Yu didn't go missing. Seeing that the stall was closed early today, he wanted to find a quiet place where there were no people. He didn't know this town well. He walked to the edge of the town alone. He wasn't hungry, tired or sleepy. He didn't feel anything. He tried to figure out what he was thinking, and failed several times.Jin Ling looked at this small town that she knew well but Wang Yu didn't. She couldn't think of a possible place for him for a long time, so she went out to search, maybe she came out to buy something, maybe she just wanted to go out for a walk after looking at the stalls. .

The surrounding area is full of rocky mountains. Fortunately, the government built a road leading to the top of the mountain for everyone to have a place to go. If you don’t look carefully, you won’t find it, but Wang Yu, who is not careful, saw it. He went up the mountain without thinking much. Self-judgment, is it anger?Is it the helplessness of being deceived?Lost?sad?Or is the dignity of a man turned into mud?Overwhelmed?The best way to solve a problem is to solve it. Now he has not yet reached the stage of solving the problem, and still does not know what the problem is.Wang Yu finally realized that the saddest thing in the world is not sadness, not birth, old age, sickness and death, but when you are too sad to express, you don't know what you are sad about.

When Jin Ling got along with him before, she talked about her emotional experience, but she didn't go into details. He also knows human nature, so he can't ask people to confess to the details of love. From the perspective of these human laws, she didn't treat him I'm hiding something, but I just happen to, whether it's active or passive, I saw those naked details, the kind of details that make people unable to be graceful, the imaginary enemy's current name is imprinted in my mind, I guess I will never forget it in this life that's it.

Wang Yu has heard a saying before: people living by the sea are relatively broader-minded than those living in mountainous areas. They can see wider and farther. It's the same when you put it in the open field, in the center of the Pacific Ocean, or in outer space to see the earth.It is said that the widest thing in the world is the ocean, the wider than the ocean is the sky, and the wider than the sky is the chest of a man, but my own chest is covered by lines of small words in the diary, as if every punctuation is squeezing the chest.Along the path up the mountain, when he found that his lower limbs were not in control, and the sound of panting became louder and louder, he felt empty in his stomach. The problem was that he still didn't feel hungry.Step by step, I hope to throw away some unhappiness, and hope that the top of the mountain is worth looking forward to, and then I will feel better.

Jin Ling was in a hurry to find Wang Yu. After searching for half an hour, she still couldn't find Wang Yu, so she had to call the Queen Mother, but the Queen Mother didn't hear that he was going home. The Jin family didn't say anything back the next time. The family's joy brought by the good business in the morning is now beyond their means, and they are all occupied by worry, and no one has much appetite.

Finally arrived at the top of the mountain, the wind was very strong, it seemed that he was not sympathetic to him but rather gentle, he was already paralyzed, so he found a flat boulder and sat down, turned his head to look at the surrounding mountains, took out a cigarette, the wind was so strong that it was a lot He didn't light it the first time, and finally lit it with his coat while the gap between the wind was intermittent, and he threw the lighter off the cliff. It was his favorite lighter, and his mother secretly bought it for him on his birthday. Later, when his father found out He also quarreled with the Queen Mother for this.He took a deep puff of the cigarette and blew it out slowly. It seemed that all the unhappiness had flowed out with the smoke, and the real smoke had disappeared.Wang Yu hoped to empty his heart and find a woman worthy of his miss, but the search failed, not only these, but also the growth of these years, which could even negate all achievements.Surrounded by the setting sun, cool breeze, and some unknown but familiar bird calls, when the lower body became numb after sitting, and when the cool wind finally stopped numbness on his body, he became a little cold, and realized that it was late, and it was time to go back .

I don’t know how far away, there is a county in Shandong called a certain place in Shandong, where there is sea and sky, and it is most suitable for those famous sentences that express a man’s heart, what is Ge Jun thinking?

When Ge Jun returned home, the child was better. When Ge's mother told him about it, he also remained silent, and walked to the balcony where he hadn't stood for a long time, his eyes still looking southwest.Mother Ge was very nervous, she put down the child and ran over to ask him if something happened?I didn't ask him, all the questions were about the child. After all, whoever went to the hospital came back with this expression. The old man would worry about the reaction caused by the child's matter out of overheard. Ge Jun remained silent, and Ge Jun kept silent. Mother is even more anxious.Asking again, Ge Jun ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind him without saying a word, and refused to open it no matter who knocked and persuaded him.

Zhang Xin went to buy some baby necessities for the child and came back. Mother Ge quickly told her about the situation and asked if something happened between them. Knocking on the door, persuading him, but with the same result, Ge Jun locked himself in the bathroom, no one knew what happened inside, and no one knew when he would come out.

Although I am nostalgic, the mountain is my own world, there is no chaos and fireworks in the world, there is no complexity, there is only tranquility, and you can see far. If you go down the mountain, you have to face it. The problem is that you have to go down the mountain. The numbness brought about by ignorance, the lack of sleepiness brought about by numbness, the farther away from the top of the mountain, the more normal people are, hunger and tiredness, now coming back together, let Wang Yu's brain feel less troubled.

When the early morning shop gradually became clear, a beautiful figure also gradually became clear. The expression of anxiously looking left and right let him know that it must be Jin Ling. When he got closer, he was sure that it was Jin Ling. Jin Ling also spotted Wang Yu and rushed to ask him. , Wang Yu turned his eyes hard to look at Jin Ling, and suddenly found that she had a very strange face, "Where have you been?" "What happened?" "Everyone is worried about looking for you" "What's wrong with you?" It was these questions, which he had already expected, and when there were no answers, Jin Ling felt that Wang Yu also had a very strange face.

After entering the house and going upstairs, Jin Ling asked these questions after asking Jin's mother, and after Jin's mother asked Jin's father, she finally answered together: "I forgot to bring my mobile phone. I will go to the mountain for a walk early at the collection stand." In a hurry to arrange food, Jin's father wondered if he met some gangsters in the town and was bullied; Jin's mother thought it might be because he was too tired during this time.Only Jin Ling couldn't think of the reason at all. The contrast between yesterday's familiarity and today's strangeness was too sharp, and the impact was too strong.Now I can only think about whether I have made any mistakes and where I am not careful enough. In the end, the mother and daughter agreed that he might be too tired.

Wang Yu ate little, just enough to support normal body activities. The dining table was filled with an inexplicable and strange atmosphere that was hard to express in words. Only then did I say the forgotten etiquette, "Parents, eat slowly, I will finish eating."The whole family was also slow to respond, but Wang Yu didn't pay attention to it.

When you want to talk, others don’t need to ask, and when others ask you and don’t tell, you just don’t want to talk. Simply put, Wang Yu’s everything is normal except that she eats less and talks less.That night, Wang Yu also tossed and turned on the bed, but still couldn't fall asleep. Jin Ling saw him suddenly become like this one day, and she didn't dare to ask questions rashly even if she didn't know the root cause. The slightest sign of sleep, in the end Wang Yu spoke first:

"I know you're not asleep, let's talk

You finally think about it, today you didn't talk all day, I want to wait for you to talk first, it's better

Do you have any regrets so far?

Yes, some things are still regrettable

for example?

I should tell you I'll tell you everyone has a little secret

Yes, let’s not talk about it, I’m tired and I’m asleep.”

Wang Yu finally knew that when he wanted to make out in the past, he felt that Jin Ling was dealing with it almost every time. At first, he thought it was because everyone got along differently. Now that he thought about it, he realized that it had something to do with those things. I can’t say all of them, most of them. A woman will never forget her first man and the first time in her life, even Wang Yu sometimes wonders who is in her mind when they are about to make out, and whether she will imagine her face as that person, Although he had never met that person, he was sure that Jin Ling would never forget him.It was said that she couldn't sleep, and Jin Ling was the same. In order to find a better excuse to stop chatting, Wang Yu turned her back to Jin Ling and didn't move much, so as not to attract Jin Ling's attention.

When they got up the next day, Wang Yu was also the first to wake up. The Jin family thought that he might need to rest and he would be fine the next day, and they didn't ask what was wrong, so they didn't worry about it.When Wang Yu woke up, Jin Ling was still sound asleep. He moved very lightly, covered Jin Ling with the quilt, packed his things briefly, and went downstairs.

When Jin's father and mother got up, they thought Wang Yu was still resting, because according to the usual days, he was already working hard downstairs to help with work. Now that his daughter and son-in-law didn't get up, imagine the young couple, they might be angry, and the bedside Noisy, bed end and.Most likely they had reconciled now, so they slept so late. When Jin Ling woke up rubbing her sleepy eyes at the stairs on the second floor, and went downstairs slowly, she found that Wang Yu was not there. After asking her parents, the whole family found out where Wang Yu had gone when she got up early.While thinking she was downstairs, she thought she was upstairs, but when Jin Ling took a closer look, she realized that the things in the room had also been cleaned up, thinking that the problem might be more serious now than yesterday, so she ran upstairs to take out her cell phone, and found a text message saying it was Posted by Wang Yu:

"Seeing that you are sleeping soundly, and your parents haven't woken up yet, I'll leave first. Don't ask me where I'm going, and it's best not to tell my family. I promise I won't miss our wedding date. When the time comes, I will I will come back again, you don’t have to worry about it during this time, just tell your parents and don’t look for me, I will stop using this number after today, see you then!”

All she saw was such a text message, and when she called, the phone had already been turned off.

Ever since Wang Yu discovered the benefits of being alone at the top of the mountain, this decision was made impromptu by insomnia in the morning. He wanted to go to some familiar places, think about some familiar people and things, and treat it as a kind of spiritual vacation. For a period of time, I want to understand some things clearly, and I only know after I have done it. This is the characteristic of calm people, and they will not make decisions when they are impulsive. Often it's a decision you won't regret.

The earliest bus in the town can't wait, because Jin's family gets up earlier. When Wang Yu touched the station in the dark, there were only a few private rural passenger vans waiting there, doing some shuttle bus. For other businesses, the price was negotiated, and there was no counter-offer. Needless to say, the price is a little more expensive than the shuttle bus. Without a word, I got on the bus. I watched the town get farther and farther away, and my heart became more and more relaxed. .

When returning to Jin’s house, the Queen Mother knew that in order not to lose face, she brought enough money for him before leaving. There was not much to spend at Jin’s house, and she didn’t stay for a few days. Forget it, enough to go outside for a while.He didn't know where to go either.Three days later, Wang Yu appeared in an elementary school in a poor village in the west. There was a classmate he knew, a girl, who had been a teacher there for many years.There are many bends in the mountain road, and after arduous trekking, when she opened the simple school gate made of wood, she greeted Wang Yu with a simple, delicate, pure and pure smile, and she was leading the children. Playing games, when I saw Wang Yu, I told the students to play by themselves. The children gathered together and watched the uncle secretly laughing. The female teacher came over to say hello to him:

"Here we come! Are you hungry?"

Wang Yu didn't speak, but nodded with a smile in response, walked over to greet the children, took out some stationery from his big backpack, and asked the older children to distribute it to everyone.

"I can only bear it for a while when I'm hungry. I can eat dinner after class is over. I'll get you some water to wash your face first."

Wang Yu still smiled, went to the well and sat for a rest.After entering the dormitory, the woman took out a plastic basin and put it away, then went to the well to put down the bucket, quickly picked up a bucket of clear water and poured it into the basin, then forgot what, turned and walked through the dormitory again. Pulled out a towel:

"Never mind, I used it, the new one is gone

It’s okay, I’ll bring more next time.”

The dinner that Wang Yu and the female teacher cooked together that night, some students ate it, some didn’t. Most of the students who didn’t eat it were those who lived in the village at home, or those who lived in other village groups. Most of the time, their family members would come to take them away at night and send them back the next day. Come, after dinner, she is the only girl in the village primary school, and the days are repeated like this.

From the bottom of his heart, Wang Yu refused these meals, which were simple and unclean, but every time he ate deliciously because of the exhaustion of the journey, and he didn't say anything, the teacher thought he was informal.But for those children and this old man, every time he was in a bad mood, it was like a panacea when he saw them, and his happiness was restored at a miraculous speed. It was the same today. After dinner, he had already forgotten all about it. Chatting with the female teacher while walking on a country road:

"It's been a long time since I saw you, what have you been up to lately?

There's family matters, there's also a wedding.

If you are so busy, you still have time to visit us, right?If I'm not wrong, I'm having trouble with that bride of yours.

You!You should go directly to be a teacher. Being a teacher is a waste of talent.

Then try another job in your next life, huh, huh

It's strange for you to say, why every time I'm in a bad mood, it's much better to come and see you

Simple, we are a garbage collection station, just dump it if you are not happy

Tell you the truth, by the way, tell me, how are you doing?

How about what?

Have you found your boyfriend?don't ask directly

No, I found one last time, it was in the county, but after checking the condition of my house, there was no news.Alas, do you guys look for a partner now based on the woman's qualifications?

How do I know this, he has no eyes, but his heart is like this, it's a good thing you don't associate with him

What happened after all?He came here to see us while he was busy with his marriage.”

Seeing that Wang Yu still had no plans to speak, he knew that it would be difficult to speak, but thinking that since he was here, he would definitely say so, so he continued to ask:

"Don't worry, tell me a big secret. I don't know the news. If I have money, I can't spend it. If there is something unspeakable, telling me the safety level is the same as not telling me. It's just that I have a womanly nature. How can I tell you?" Who said, we are single-line friends, and I don’t know any of your friends.”

Wang Yu was secretive, but finally told everything.The female teacher looked at him seriously while biting her lips and didn't leave, she said in a nonchalant manner:

"Okay, stop, stop talking, I know what's going on. You men!"

After speaking, he pointed at Wang Yu with his finger, still kept laughing but did not make a sound, turned around and started walking normally, Wang Yu didn't respond for a long time, and chased after him and asked:

"What's wrong with me, can't you be unhappy about this?"

The female teacher stopped, folded her hands, and turned to face Wang Yu:

"You should be lucky. She is not a person who destroys evidence. If she is scheming, has played with many men, and even has some abortions. The child is being raised by others. The evidence is completely wiped out. You won't find out for a while. Besides, you can see that most of the things in those diaries happened when I didn't know you. She didn't lie to you anymore, right?

I know, then I saw it, I shouldn't be unhappy, should I congratulate her?

These are not what you have in mind, how about this, let me analyze it for you, she did not apologize to you, you are not happy to see the secrets in those diaries, you deserve it!If it weren't for those diaries, nothing would happen, right?do you think so

Yes

Just because there is that diary, you know everything about her, and let you know what she was embarrassed to say, isn't it good?

Good is good, but I am unwilling.Sometimes I think how good that person is me

This kind of thing is a matter of God, and it is not within the scope of human beings to solve it.

So is it necessary to write down the diary in such detail?Have you considered other people's feelings?

It's your curiosity that hurt you. Just imagine if a person writes fake diaries, how fake this person is, you should be lucky. Besides, who allows you to read things like diaries casually?Also picked the lock of the house

The author has something to say: We seem to agree with such an irrefutable truth: I love you, and being together is something after being with you.But how many care about the past and don't talk about it?Some people think that this is history, and everyone knows the importance of history, so the past, present, and future become very difficult to deal with.

☆, village to village to go