deserved

Chapter 12

The days passed, sad and comfortable.

On New Year's Eve, I had the cheek to go to my sister's house.When I got off the train, I saw her immediately.We haven't seen each other for six years, and she is no longer the vigorous newcomer in the workplace; the years have made her mature and calm.

She hugged me tightly and then wept sentimentally.I was a little embarrassed, so I could only keep patting her on the back, bewildered like a child who did something wrong.After the reunion, the previous tit-for-tat and disputes, big and small, disappeared between us.

In the second year after I left home, my sister met my brother-in-law who came home from a business trip in the provincial capital. They fell in love with each other, exchanged contact information, and then fell in love.My sister resigned from the private school, and found a job at the public elementary school in the county,

It is not far from home, most of relatives and friends are here, and you can always take care of your parents.They met each other, got married and had children.

All in all, what my parents expected of me was perfectly fulfilled in my sister. .

I was supposed to be on the trajectory of my life: meeting a girl when I was young, taking her home, coaxing her, meeting each other's parents.Get engaged, get married, take out a loan to buy a house.Have a stable salary, and stable debt.There will be a baby and we will work hard for him/her.Learning how to cook in a hurry, doing housework, sending him/her to kindergarten, pouring all my love into it, but getting angry to death when the child is disobedient.Go to a colleague's wedding, and occasionally go out to get together with classmates, complaining about the pressure of life.I lied to a girl for more than ten years, we quarreled and divorced, but my relatives and friends comforted me until I was 35 years old.

I will become a normal person who will not be criticized by others, and will not have to live alone and alone.

In the dream, Qin Huai stood in front of the window of her sister's bedroom and laughed at me for being an indecisive coward.

"Don't come out if you're afraid, who will you show your hypocrisy to?"

I have long been used to his sarcasm in the dream, I hugged him tightly and said to him: "Qin Huai, none of these are as good as your smile."

Qin Huai sneered.

He hugged me to the open window and bit my neck in the cold wind: "Remember what I said? Alin?"

"You hate me, I don't deserve to like you, I'm so bad, I have to be punished, listen to your words." I trembled in fear, in order to stabilize him, I could only repeat what he had said in his dream meticulously.

"The answer is correct." Qin Huai looked quite satisfied, he fished me back from the half-open window, and saved me from falling.

He took a deep look at me: "Remember, I don't like you running around."

"A Lin, wake up." My sister said.

I woke up from the dream with lingering fear.When I opened my eyes, it was still my sister's bedroom.

My sister was standing where Qin Huai left just now.

"Dinner will be in a while."

This is my second day at my sister's house.I don't like it here,

Especially after that dream, I just want to leave.

"I should go." Five minutes later, I packed my suitcase and said softly to my sister.

Hearing this, my sister was both sad and at a loss.It wasn't her fault that we never got along well, and we don't now.

"Your brother-in-law and Xiao Tao are shopping for seasoning downstairs, they will be back soon."

I made up my mind: "Then say goodbye to them for me."

"You, no... Is there something wrong with us? You haven't come back for a long time. It's my sister's fault. I haven't seen you for a long time... Mom and Dad miss you too." The sister's eyes were full of tears.

"I'm sorry." I said irritably. "It's my fault. I'm not in good shape. I don't want to stay to spoil the fun."

"But there are no tickets now, you can't leave now." My sister said.

I was too lazy to continue talking, so I walked downstairs quickly, leaving my stunned sister in the warm yellow light that flickered on and off in the corridor.

There were a lot of return tickets left in City C, so I returned to City C the next morning.

The exhaustion of driving is lingering.

Since the last stomachache, I have developed a good habit of eating on time. The nearby breakfast shop was closed, so I simply came to the cake shop.

I warmed the milk in the microwave, kneaded the dough, and prepared my own breakfast.

There was the sound of parking outside the distant door.

The sweet and greasy beckoning cat by the door uttered "Welcome", which seems to be a customer.

"Wait a minute, the biscuits will be baked soon," I yelled.

I started weighing the flour and putting it in containers to ferment, wondering which poor customer had to stop by the bakery for Chinese New Year.

Footsteps approached.A burst of cold air hits my face.

I looked up, it was Qin Huai.

He was indifferent, dressed in a camel-colored windbreaker, and was wearing black handmade leather shoes. When he saw me looking at him, he raised the corner of his mouth and showed a gloomy smile.

"Long time no see, Jiang Lin."